Five days flew by like a Star Destroyer in hyperspace. Kylo was restless and temptation racked his brain, wanting to fly back to the resistance base to see if she was okay, to talk to her and hold her, but he knew it was only a fantasy never to be true.

The Supreme Leader walked down the halls of the Finalizer, fists clenched at his sides. There was a scheduled meeting being held by General Hux along with several other high authority of Star Destroyers. He was beginning to tire from Hux's lack of respect to him, the Supreme Leader.

Putting him in his place gentle seemed to never be the case until now, Kylo wasn't going to hold back for the sake of his general's life, he didn't care.

Kylo stopped at the door to enter the code to get in. When it open any sort of chatter stopped when everyone had laid their eyes on the figure before them. He saw several look to his clenched fists. They cowered down into their chairs a bit more. Hux stood his ground when he turned to face Ren.

"Good eve-" General Hux felt his body tense and compress under intense force, he was sent backwards across the table.

"What is the meaning of this meeting Hux!" From what he could remember, there wasn't supposed to be any meetings with commanders of the other ships any time soon.

Despite falling off of the edge of the table, no one near Hux offered him a hand up. This whole room had mixed emotions within its walls, more towards the overly cocky General Hux. His behavior towards the Supreme Leader made some of them question his loyalty to the First Order.

"May I speak, on behalf of Hux?" The eldest of the group spoke up, Kylo's eyes landed on him from behind the helmet.

"Go on." He growled in a low tone, his body started to move towards him.

"While we had been awaiting for your arrival Supreme Leader, Hux brought to our attention the retreat of our men." He paused. The fear building up in him as the larger man came closer with every step." Hux had sent reinforcements before you had ordered everyone one of our troops in combat to report back to our ships."

"And?"

"We could've wiped out their entire base if it hadn't been for your cowardly act to retreat," Hux's voice rose. This was his time to prove himself loyal," All because of that girl you had been conversing with, Rey. We almost killed her, it would've been the best hit against the resistance, the fall of their Jedi!"

"Hux!" The elderly general warned him, but it was too late to save him from Kylo's building wrath.

Kylo's rage consumed him, the thought of Rey dying with the blood on Hux's hand chilled him to the bone. The pure thought of it crushed his soul. His head spun to find the general standing up straight again, walking towards him. He stopped just a few feet away.

"You haven't been open with us." Hux's breaths became heavy and quicker, his own boldness also fueled the fear in himself. He stuck out his hand to poke Kylo's chest." She killed Snoke, yet you stand here and defend her. When will you realize whose side she is on, she is with the resistance and is a huge threat that could have been eliminated so many times now!"

Kylo clenched his fists tighter, could he risk having blood of the First Order on his hands? Yes he could. He drew his saber hilt to his hand and activated it. The red blade burst through Hux's body, his expression said it all as he drew his hands up to his chest with a gasp.

The others gave suppressed gaspes, few kept straight faces. The joy in their heads knowing it wasn't them to be on the end of that lightsaber. Some were delighted to see the sight of General Hux's fall.

Hux gritted his teeth as he took one last look at the Supreme Leader before his legs buckled beneath him. The thump made the closest witnesses flinch. The room was silent other than the sound of the saber retracting.

Kylo's heart started to ache as the sight before him flooded his memories, everyone else saw Hux fall, but he saw Han Solo. He was reliving his death again and it was too much for him to show this emotion in front of his highest authority. He turned and headed for the door.

"You are all dismissed, no more resistance talk until I figure this out." He passed the gaurds and told them to retrieve the body of Hux and to alert the commanders in the bridge to let the entire armada know what had happened.

He found himself entering his quarters again. Kylo immediately chucked his helmet across the room, it landed on his neatly made bed after smashing into the wall. His breathing was deep heavy growls as he tried to erase the images in his head, it was as if it was burned into his head.

The second he had ignited his lightsaber he looked up expecting to see the expressionless face of Hux, but instead he saw his father. Almost as if it was happening again and it was too much for him to bare.

Kylo ran his hands through his hair as he shouted in anger. He screamed and punched the wall several times before accepting defeat to his emotions. He drew his saber and attacked the wall as if fighting back a large group of resistance fighters.

His shouts soon became large heavy pants and groans. He put his back to the torn up wall and slid down it, sitting comfortably on the ground. His lips quivered as the pants slowed. There was no way he was going to become so vulnerable with all the emotions threating to make a breakout, at least not yet.

If he were to succumb to them, if he choose to become so vunerable, he would want it to be with her. Rey was the only one he wanted to be with right now, she understood him in ways no one else did. The pain he was going through, the dammed pain he wanted to get away from but couldn't because he isn't strong enough to do it by himself.

As much as he hated it, desperation was starting to take over his mind. Desperate people do desperate things he needed to talk to her, to see her. He needed the pain stop.

They needed each other whether or not they wanted to admit it aloud or to each other, they had to face it. Holding back these emotions for one another made it so much worse.

Ironic isn't it? The all mighty fearless Kylo Ren starting to break and crumble into pieces, yet the solution isn't one of his own, but the enemy.

XX

Rey watched from a far, staring out at her best friend who had been using a staff similar to her own, fending off invisible enemies. It only made her smile, the determination in him was great, almost matching her own.

She was surprised that he has been able to keep his mouth shut about him being force sensitive, even from Poe. So far only Leia, Rose, and herself knew about it. She could sense he wanted to be able to use to force like she can, he wanted it so bad.

Rey flinched when a hand landed on her shoulder, it quickly was retracted when the figure saw her winced and whimper in pain. Clearly they had forgotten about her injury. Rey looked over her shoulder to see Poe standing over her, he took a seat next to her on the metal bench.

"He has been off lately, not the typical Finn behavior." He said in a low tone, she could sense the disappointed tone in his voice." I am pretty sure he is taking this too hard, it wasn't his fault at all."

Rey didn't respond. The former stormtrooper hadn't spoken to at all since she was able to roam free. Her shoulder had scabbed over which was slightly good for her, but not for any suprises, in war terms. If they got an unexpected fight again she would not be allowed to fight with her saber.

"He feels really guilty." Poe added. Rey glanced at him, he was wearing his orange jumpsuit, for flying. Most days he wore it, especially now.

Reys eyes stopped on their friend in the distant who had stopped to take a drink out of his metal water canteen."I know, if anything it was my fault." Her voice was quiet.

There was tension between the two. She knew he wanted to ask the same question everyone else wanted to get answers to. Why she had taken the hit for Kylo Ren. No one would understand except Leia, they would think she was mad.

"His extensive training over there has me worried. I have never seen him in such a mood, so determind!" Poe exclaimed cheerfully. Rey's gaze dropped to the saber hilt on her belt, did she want to spoil it for Poe? I mean technically he should have the right to know considering he is a Commander, Leia's next resistance leader.

No, no he didn't. It wasn't up to her and she was going to honor her friends request to keep quiet about it."Its probably his dramatic-"She stopped abruptly upon feeling the dyad awakening. It took her a second to snap back into reality.

"Rey?"

She stood up looking around in a panic. Not now dammit. She felt him trying to get through, though he didn't even know he was trying.

"I need to get some rest," She turned away from Poe,"My shoulder is starting to hurt again." She started down towards her room, it wasn't actually far at all. Most of the resistance soldiers had been settled in tents outside the main bunker while higher authority got the bunk rooms inside. Rey was granted her own room due to her force bond, Leia thought it would be the best place for Rey to go when it was occurring.

The second she entered her room she felt all the emotions he was feelimg rushing to her head as if a dam broke. It flooded her mind causing her suck in a large amount of air from the sudden outburst.

"Ben." She called out. How could she just now remember that she was capable of reaching out to him whenever she pleased."Ben." She repeated. He wasn't doing this purposely, there would've been an answer by now.

"R-Rey?" Came Kylo's deep but shaken voice, slightly shocked from hearing her voice. Rey's eyes saw the dark figure sitting on the floor. He was a wreck but his heart skipped a beat at the sight of her.

His hair was disheveled, eyes dark and desperate to find hers, his uniform was untucked and sloppily settled on his figure. It tool the man seconds to be up on his feet, his emotions pushing him forward to hug her, its what he wanted so bad, yet he was held back.

"Are you okay?" Words failed him as he stopped a foot from her, he scanned her right shoulder after noticing the bandages on her forearm from the cut he accidentally gave her.

She leaned her staff up against the wall, watching his every move mainly his eyes. They traveled all over her body, he was looking for anymore wounds or any signs of bruising.

"Why did you do that?" He finally asked after being satisfied with scanning her. He stepped closer, towering over the young woman."You could've been killed, how could you have been so stupid?!" He raised his voice unintentionally. It was a force of habit.

His voice startled Rey, she stepped back carefully and minding her shoulder.

"I didn't mean to startle you." His eyes darkened before he looked down to the ground."I don't understand why you stepped in to save me."

Rey stood still, unable to process everything he was feeling through their bond. It brought tears to her eyes when she felt him reliving his fathers death. He looked up almost as if he knew its what she was seeing. The pure pain in his eyes new it was pulling him apart more and the only thing that kept him holding om what her.

"Ben," She whispered quietly. Rey stepped forward and grabbed his arm."Leia and I have been thinking-"

"Rey I need to see you." He apologetically looked at her." Physically. I. Am. Breaking."

"What, wait-"

"I need to be in your presence, I don't know how much more of this my body and mind can take. I can see your thoughts, I know." He said returning her touch to her good arm."I can come now, I will bring my ship with two troop carriers just in case."

"Ben this isn't going to be easy like you think." Rey pleaded, knowing how the entire resistance feels about the First Order, any sign of a ship they would take to the skies and blow them up.

"My mother is the leader, she will understand. Send my word to her as quickly as possible so we will get a peacefully landing."

"Ben!" She whisper shouted as he quickly disappeared."Dammit!" Rey turned and rushed back out her door, heading straight for the command center.

Despite the agonizing pain in her shoulder from every sudden movement she made, who knew how long it will take for him to arrive, she needed to make sure no harm was to come to him or the ships.

"Leia!" Rey called out as she barged into the room, all attention landed on the young Jedi. She walked straight up to the older woman and stared her dead in the eyes. Both stopped and stared at one another as if trying to read each others expression, they both knew, she knew.

"He is coming."

Little note here, some of you might know where this is going. Dont like dont read hehehe, not relationship wise that is. I needed something a little different then the regularly reylo stories, something more emotional and more depending on those emotions without thought...If you know where this is going take a guess, I personally have high hopes for this because I haven't read anything quite like it yet. Technically the story should be started the next chapter this is why it seems so rushed.