She Will Always Be Worth It (Part 1)
Drabble #2 (Gadge)
Her blonde hair caught my attention again. It's like she spun it out of gold or something. My hands itch to touch it one more time, to feel it's silky waves and twist my fingers through the curls. I ache to grab her hips and press her flush against me and kiss her senseless one last time. Anything would be better than what we are now. Anything.
She sees me staring at her. She ducks her head and I can see from here the rosy color of her blush. She really is beautiful. God, why did I have to mess up everything!
My dad, who miraculously survived the mine explosion years ago, elbows me in the ribs. He wraps his arm around my shoulder, leaning down he whispers, "I know it hurts buddy, but everything will turn out fine."
But he doesn't know how much it hurts. I feel like I want to tear out my heart and stomp all over it until it can't love anyone anymore. Not even Posy.
She runs gracefully over to her father, who has been calling for her. Her blonde hair bounces across her back in joyful, full waves. I scowl at my own stupidity and the way my heart speeds up at the sight of her. Why didn't I just tell her!?
We pass them as they walk towards the big, white, fancy gate outlining the Mayor's property. The gate was where I kissed her goodnight for the first time. The gate I shouldn't have ever pass through because I was Seam and she was Town. The very gate was where she tore my heart in half.
Why did it all have to go to shit?
"But I loved you." I mutter under my breath. My heart pangs with grief and guilt as I watch her watch up the walkway to her house.
"What's that?" My father asks me quietly, his head tilting down to hear me.
"Nothing." I grumble, mad that he even heard me. I hate that he was ears like hawk.
"It sure was something, or you wouldn't have said it." He says matter-of-factly. And I hate that smug smile twisting his lips. If it was Thom, I'd wipe that smiles straight off his face.
"It wasn't directed at you." My scowl deepens.
He squeezes my shoulder once. "Was it about her?" He asks, tilting his head towards the Mayor's house.
"Yes, now drop it." I'm mad now. Heat rises up in my face. I do not blush! And Madge Undersee will not make me blush. She will not make me blush after she tore my heart out and stripped me raw.
My father grabs my hand roughly in his and drags me in a small alley. He shoves me lightly in the brick wall. He leans in close to me, almost leaning against me. He kisses my forehead once.
"Son, I'm telling you this for your own good." I groan loudly, turning my head to the side, not in the mood for one of his lectures. I stare intently at the bricks because I know exactly what he's going to say and how he's going to say it. "You need to get over her, don't let her hold your heart forever. She's not worth it."
"But she is!" I whip my head around to look at him, "She is, god damn it!" Anger boils in my stomach. Why can't he just understand! Madge means the world to me. Madge is the keeper of my heart and she's locked up it somewhere I can't reach. Madge Undersee is the love of my life.
He stares at me shocked. I don't care; he doesn't know how she affects me. How she has made a permanent mark on my heart. She's always on my mind. She's my obsession!
"Don't ever speak to me that way, ever again! Understand?" I nod, "If you were worth anything to her, she would have said so, or would have showed you." He looks me dead in the eye, his voice direct and harsh.
I stifle and bring my hand to my nose to wipe it. She hurts so much. Tears pool in my eyes and I feel like screaming and beating the brink wall behind me. I feel like collapsing on the floor and dying. But I don't. I just look stare at him and tell him the way it is.
"She is worth it. She always will be." I say quietly. The tear fall and the next thing I know is I'm in my father warm, strong embrace. The tears and emotions file out of me in strong, non-stopping waves. Everything I have been holding in for weeks is pouring out of my eyes. My love for her is shown. I need her. I want her. But I lost her…
A/N: Sorry it's not as good as the first one. I don't know how many parts there will be, but I swear the other parts I have written are better than this one. Anyway, the parts will not be posted in order (meaning right after the other). They will be posted randomly and I will try to remember to add in an Author's Note listing the corresponding chapters along with it.
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