Katsuki liked cuddling. Deku liked cuddling. So, like two pandas in heat, they were cuddling that night, talking from a to z. It was mostly about work and heroes. Because no matter how often he denied it, Katsuki was actually a fanboy. He and Deku were fanboys and that was it. If everyone still doubted it, then it should be added an exclamation mark afterward.

He and Deku were fanboys!

After talking about many things, Deku spitted out that topic. Suddenly. Not quite sudden but it was still shocking.

"Kacchan, marriage seems a good thing."

Katsuki a.k.a Kacchan winced.

No.

NO!

He should avoid the topic ASAP.

"Like hell we have fucking time for that, Deku. Our mission is there waiting for us." Kasuki lied.

Katsuki knew he answered wrongly, because he could see Deku's watery eyes and hurt expression now. It was visible. Clearly. It hurt Katsuki too, if he had to be honest. But, he wouldn't ruin his own plan to propose Deku tomorrow night. Yes. He already had a plan to propose Deku. It was a surprise and he didn't want to give a hint. It would be fucking surprise.

He ordered a pair of customized rings for him and Deku that had their initials; K & D.

It was Kacchan and Deku.

It was simple. There would be no restaurant or fancy dinner. It was so sap and out of character. So, Katsuki would propose his shitty-nerd at home. He wanted to end his dating circle with Deku and change their relationship to a whole new level. That was marriage. He wanted to tuck his own surname in Deku's name. It wouldn't be "Midoriya Izuku" anymore. It would be "Bakugou Izuku". Deku would be his completely.

'Mine.'

So, even it hurt to see Deku's sad expression, Katsuki wouldn't comfort him yet. It wasn't the time yet.

They didn't talk anymore. They closed their eyes and let the dream guided them to black-vision.

Deku seemed off this morning. Sadly, Katsuki knew the reason why. Their marriage-topic last night still hit Deku and he still couldn't get his shit back. Katsuki prepared healthy breakfast as usual, calling his future-husband (he had the right to say that), but there was no answer. Deku didn't respond. He went upstairs, seeing his Deku stood close to window, let the wind blew his hair. It was beautiful, Katsuki caught his breath. But seeing Deku's expression started making him wonder if his decision to make it as surprise was right.

He just wanted to make his dumb-fuck happy. Deku liked surprises. He liked something that was spontaneous. He usually pouted and ordered Katsuki to surprise him more. So Katsuki obeyed his order this time.

"Deku, your breakfast is ready. Close the window and get your ass down."

Deku nodded after giving a forced-smile.

Katsuki didn't like how it went.

Katsuki visited the jewelry shop to take his order while patrolling. He had different area with Deku, although they should be assigned in the same area (they are duo. What was the point to be called duo when they even didn't work in the same area?). It was unfortunate but he tried to understand. They both were strong, so two heroes as strong as them should be putted in different area. It was, ugh, understandable.

The bell ringing as Katsuki walked inside. He was welcomed by none other than the owner himself. He sincerely helped Katsuki for his proposal and kept it secret from reporters. It was privacy. And Katsuki was grateful that he took Ashido's recommendation for this shop.

"Here is your order, Ground Zero-san." He smiled as handing over two rings. "Hope you like it."

Katsuki was stunned, too hard to even think when a pair of rings were in his palm. It was well carved. It was so detail. Deku would be happy to receive it, right?

If Katsuki had a quirk to see his own future, he wouldn't even try to make such a foolish plan. But he just had one quirk and that was explosion. And he explode his entire life with his own fucking plan.

That afternoon, the sound of explosion was suddenly heard in so many areas. All heroes was called to prepare the battle. He couldn't even contact Deku as he was signed to fight nomu nearby. For what's so called wonder duo, it was so rare to fight enemies back to back with that damn-nerd.

It was exhausting as he kept fighting nomus. It seemed never end. He punched one and there would be the other one. It was endless fight. Katsuki made sure his rings were still in his pocket. They would win this battle and he would propose Deku. He would win this battle and win Deku's heart. One stone, two birds.

He finally found Deku after hours.

Deku was exhausting as well. Katsuki blasted himself toward his nerd before a nomu could land a kick to his green-bunny.

It was almost.

Katsuki fought enemies with Deku, supporting each other. Deku seemed like more focus on this battle and forget his sour-mood this morning.

And then, Deku went to the front himself because Katsuki had to fight two villains. Because he had to fight Himiko Toga and Dabi at once. He was fucking helped by Icy-Hot as he cornered Dabi (or Todoroki Touya). When Katsuki finally took down Toga, he went to Deku's side ASAP. But, his ASAP was late.

He was late.

Shigaraki was there, lying down without further action. Katsuki now he was unconscious. But, Deku was there too and there was too much blood. Katsuki's eyed went red and he didn't know what had happened afterwards.

The sirens was heard loudly but Katsuki still didn't grasp the situation.

Deku was safe, right? Why did he not move? Why did he not wake up? Katsuki's scream couldn't reach that body. Katsuki's touch couldn't wake up his Deku.

Deku was in a coma. He didn't wake up.

Katsuki didn't realize how fast the time flied. It was already a month since the battle. But, his days were still same. Deku didn't wake up to mumbling like he usually did. He didn't laugh. He didn't smile. He was just there, sleeping peacefully.

And Katsuki's customized rings were still in his pocket.

Why did he not propose normally? Why he should arrange the surprise that he couldn't make. The plan was ruined. His life ruined. And Deku didn't wake up.

Deku ….

If he could go back, with fucking time-travel machine or anything, he would fix his mistakes and propose Deku.

He didn't need anything. He just need Deku to be awake.

It was hard to fucking go back to his apartment. But, Inko wanted him to continue his life. Civillians needed him. There were still villains everywhere. He still should fight them or get rid them. Katsuki didn't care anymore.

"We will be wonder duo and become number one heroes!"

He should keep their number one position. It was for Deku. If it wasn't for him, Katsuki could be civilian himself or even become a villain.

But, here he was. He was patrolling and saving everyone.

It was for Deku. Katsuki would keep his promise.

Five months later and Katsuki got called to hospital. They had newest information regarding Deku's condition. Katsuki expected it to be good news beforehand, but Inko's face was bitter. And it destroyed Katsuki's hopes.

"Deku will be amnesiac and it is permanent?" Katsuki didn't believed his own tone when he mouth moved.

Inko guided him to sit close to her. She held Katsuki's hands.

"Katsuki, I want to bring Izuku away from here. I want him to live differently, peacefully. I know I'm being selfish and this decision will hurt you. But, I want my son to live as a normal person. I know become a hero is his life-goal. But, I can't stand anymore to see him hurt himself like this. Is it the chance to make it come true? To make him living normally?"

Katsuki's world shattered.

He couldn't function his brain properly. He lost his words. He couldn't even nod or shake his head. He was just silent.

Deku never said farewell, so his mom did it. Deku didn't wake up yet, but Inko had chosen to bring his son away from this city. Through Hero Association, Inko announced Deku's retirement as hero. Inko even wanted all information regarding Deku erased, whether it was on TV, internet, or newspaper and Hero Association granted all her wishes. Deku's information was all erased. It also erased Ground Zero and Deku's status as duo.

Media made it look like as Katsuki was the only number one by default when he was fucking duo. It was duo, retard, it couldn't be solo.

His rank didn't matter anymore.

Deku's friends couldn't do much to change Inko's decision. It was firm and they knew it was the best for Deku. Since he got his quirk, all he did was hurting his own body. So, now, everyone agreed to let him free from duty.

One for All even blocked itself along with Izuku's memories as if supporting Inko's decision.

Izuku was stated as quirkless civilian. That was all. Deku was erased from public media.

And Katsuki would be the only one who still had the right to call 'Deku'.

Katsuki kicked his door as he entered his apartment and went straight to the bedroom. He needed to calm himself.

Inko implied that she wanted Deku to get married with civilian. So, did he break up with Katsuki?

"It's not like I don't approve your relationship with my son, Katsuki. I know, I know very well, despite of your past with Izuku, you take care of my son sincerely and lovingly. I'm grateful for that. But, please, please! I want Izuku to have normal life! I don't want him to be related to heroes anymore. It is enough! It is enough. Please understand. Promise me. Never approach him again, will you?"

Katsuki couldn't understand.

He wouldn't ever understand.

He didn't want to understand.

When Izuku finally woke up, the first thing that he realized was his neighbors' reaction. They pointed their fingers at Izuku's head as if he grew plant there.

"Does he seem familiar?" One of his neighbors said.

His mom just chuckled and said, "Yes. Of course. My son is quite a fanboy."

"Oh! It makes sense then!"

Izuku smiled and nodded when actually he didn't even understand what they were talking about. What's problem with his appearance? Did he look like an idol? His mom said herself that he was a fanboy. So, it was certainly him being a fanboy.

Izuku didn't remember anything. He just knew that he was Midoriya Izuku and his mom was Midoriya Inko. His dad was overseas and seemed like forgetting to come back. He might get lost somewhere and wouldn't ever return.

Izuku felt empty. Besides knowing that he was quirkless, he wasn't able to put everything in its place. It seemed like it was sprawling everywhere.

It wasn't like he never tried to dig information on internet. He did try. He searched his own name on internet and it didn't help. What he knew from the internet was the fact that he was a victim of battle between villains and heroes last year. His name was on the list of survivors. Did he get hit in a fight between villains and heroes? Why did he go to battlefield anyway? Was he a stupid-quirkless-civilian who tried to fight villains and ended up getting tangled between villains and heroes? He certainly had troubled heroes back then by his action. How disgraceful.

It was no wonder that his mom chose to send him here.

Katsuki was signed to do patrolling in this small town, far from his hometown or his agency. He didn't have any clue why but soon, he understood the reason. Apparently, his coworkers tried so hard to this assignment. They did it secretly from none other than Midoriya Inko.

Deku was here.

His coworkers tried their best to make Katsuki patrolling here. Again. It was secret. If Inko knew, she would be upset, right? Because, it felt like all heroes betrayed her decision. But, it wasn't right. It wasn't right to separate wonder duo like this.

Katsuki was hurt by the decision. They knew that. The fact that Katsuki accepted Inko's decision by being silent was unbearable. Katsuki was often spacing out. He was calmer, yet everyone could feel his sadness and sorrow.

He did his job well as usual, but It was different. All heroes. Yes, all heroes could feel that Katsuki lost his passion.

They were worried.

Even if Katsuki was an asshole. He was a great hero. He was inspiring and challenging. But, his personality nowadays was just not himself at all.

Because Deku's existence was erased from this world. Something that left from Deku was just his statue that wasn't even like him at all. How did hell they call it Deku statue when it didn't have fucking freckles? It was more like upgraded-version of Deku. His statue's eyes weren't round as ball. The only thing that similar between Deku and his statue was their hair. It was curly and it was identically made. At least.

Fuh! Deku wouldn't even recognize his own statue.

So here he was. Katsuki turned his face to see freckled-guy who was watering the plants inside a flower shop. Midoriya-fucking-Izuku a.k.a Deku.

He hummed as he ran here and there to watering plants cheerfully. Katsuki couldn't hold himself that time. But, he waited. He just looked him from afar. And he should feel satisfied by doing that. After all, he should be grateful that everyone supported their relationship.

When Deku smiled at his customer, Katsuki almost caught off guard. He almost ran there to hug his Deku. To feel his warmth like the other days. But, he stopped himself from doing that. Deku would be panicked. Doctor said that they couldn't force Deku to remember all of things at once. It would damage his system and he would have headache. It would cause serious problem, so Katsuki hesitated.

He prevented himself to approach that damn-freckles.

Until he saw a customer who often came to visit Deku. He was handsome and seemed like rich. He wore expensive-suit. He came to buy flowers but Katsuki could catch his true motives and he didn't like it. So, one day, Katsuki threw his promise away and entered to that flower shop.

He didn't want to give up on him.

Because, Deku would also do the same thing for him.

To be continued

So yeah! This chapter is flashback! Hope you guys like it!