LIV POV

Fitz had long since cleaned me up with a warm washcloth before he tended to himself. That definitely had never happened before. The men I had been with before had little understanding about what I needed in bed and I had taken the blame believing what they'd said was true. This was all my fault. They didn't know my body because I hadn't allowed them to. I'd had sex four times before tonight with two different men and they'd told me it would take time to make it perfect.

Well that was a bold face lie.

Tonight had been perfect. Fitz had been perfect. Both times we were together tonight, was mind blowing. He knew my body instantly and paid attention to my responses with every move he made. He was in tune with what I needed and our second round proved it. I never knew the heights I could reach from the sensitivity of my breast alone, but Fitz had caught on immediately. My nipples were near raw from his attention and I knew that if he wasn't before, that he was a breast man now.

"Where's your head at, beautiful?"

Fitz's voice was deep and calming as he spoke against my neck. He moved closer behind me and I realized how comfortable I was with our naked lower halves being this way. It felt like we had been this way for years.

"You. Us. Everything we did tonight. The way I feel right now."

"Do you have any regrets about tonight?"

"Not one. Do you?"

"I regret that we didn't do this sooner."

I laughed and sent a gentle elbow into his stomach.

"Before.. you asked if we should stop..."

"I just wanted to be sure we were both being safe. I've only been with two other guys so I know I'm clean.."

"So am I. I'm no saint but I'm clean. There's only been a few here and there so you don't need to worry about that."

Fitz POV

I felt Olivia shift slightly before she tensed for a moment.

"When's the last time you were with someone?"

"About five months ago.. it was someone from the next town over.."

"A stranger?"

"No"

I wanted Olivia to know the full story before jumping to conclusions.

"She'd taught at CJ's school so I've known her for a couple of years and she transferred to the high school in the next town. I was down that way before and just ran into her. CJ was with my mom that weekend and we just got a drink and ..."

"And one thing led to another?"

"Pretty much."

I nodded and somehow felt ashamed. I didn't want her to think I was some manwhore.

"That's pretty normal I guess."

I eyed her unsure if she was telling me what she thought I wanted to hear, or if she was being honest.

"I'm serious. I'm not that much of a prude to understand that things happen. That's how I was with guy number two. We worked together and neither of us wanted a real relationship. We didn't have time for that and one day it just happened."

We were both silent for just seconds when my stomach began growling.

We both laughed at the noise and Olivia turned and began moving from the bed until I pulled her back into my chest.

"No, don't move yet. Just stay here a few more minutes. Let me hold you."

Olivia complied and turned in my arms to face me and stared. She didn't speak a word and I was silenced by her beauty. I could tell she was being vulnerable with me once again and I loved every second of it. Any part of herself she was willing to reveal to me would be accepted.

"I used to dream of this."

"Of what, Livvie?"

"Day dream. I used to just sit and stare off into space, day dreaming about time and the man I loved lying in bed together and he wouldn't let me get out of the bed just yet because he wanted to hold me for a while longer."

Her eyes watered a bit and I knew she felt silly revealing that to me, but I loved hearing it.

"I really want to make all your dreams come true, Livvie. I want you to let me do that."

She nodded her head before her lips were pressed against mine. Olivia opened her mouth, sneaking her tongue into my already willing mouth right as her left leg moved to the top of my waist.

"Livvie.."

"Shhhh.. let me just... I need to feel you..."

Liv POV

It has never been easy being so close to Fitz and not completely ravishing him and knowing I didn't have to hold back anymore felt amazing. Being so bare with him made my heart race and for reasons I couldn't explain, I needed him again.

I turned until he was flat on his back and I was on top of him, legs spread, enveloping his waist. His hands were on my hips and I felt his rise, letting me know that whatever I was doing to him was working. He needed and wanted this just as much as I did.

"Baby you feel so good."

His words were muffled because of the kisses he trailed down my chest until he reached my breast. I moaned the second his lips made contact with the left one as his hand palmed the squeezed the right one. I never thought they were anything special but apparently Fitz felt a different way about them.

My moans grew louder as my lower half began dripping wet, directly onto Fitz's skin. The second I rolled my center against his lower abdomen, I felt his abs contract at the moisture against his skin. He abandoned my right breast and moved to grip my hips before shifting me lower against him. I felt his dick slide across my slit, and after I whimpered at the contact, he gripped my hips and repeated the action.

"Oh god.. fi... "

"Tell me what you want baby."

"I want.."

I gritted my teeth when he pulled me firmly against his dick, barely able to form a coherent thought.

"Inside me..."

The second the words left my mouth, I felt the head pressing into my pusssy, teasing me relentlessly.

"Don't stop.." my breathing was heavy and when he still didn't move, I looked up and saw him staring at me and waiting.

"Ride me, Livvie."

I had never done that before and wasn't sure if I could give him the pleasure he needed. The pleasure I needed.

"I don't.."

"Shhhh." His lips brushed against mine before I felt his tongue enter my mouth at the same time he pushed into me.

My head fell against his shoulder and my arms wrapped under his shoulders as he completely filled me, leaving me speechless. He was so deep. A depth I didn't know was possible.

"Just do what feels right."

Fitz POV

I helped her by moving her hips back and forth against me. Her breath came out in short gasps and when I began to speed up our movements, I felt her begin to take over and grind against me with her own rhythm. Olivia's eyes were now closed as she moved against me and I grew harder seeing her move with more confidence. I kissed her chin, wanting to see her beautiful eyes and realized she was someplace else. In her own world.

It wasn't until I heard her mutter the word 'fuck' that I lowered myself back onto the mattress to watch her. I took a hold of her hands that had been on my shoulders and brought them to my chest, and she instantaneously steadied herself and began to roll her pussy aggressively on my dick.

"Oh fuck Livvie, right there baby."

"Ah!" Her voice was high pitched the second my hands moved to pinch her nipples. "You feel so good."

Not being able to help myself, I sat up and kissed her lips while taking her hands and moving them behind her and onto my thighs.

She opened her eyes then and groaned when I began meeting her downward thrust with one of my own. I laid back against the pillows as she rode me, staring at me the entire time.

"I love... you so much.."

Her voice was trembling and I could feel her walls begin to squeeze me tighter.

"I love you too... let go Livvie. It's gonna be so good baby, I promise."

I licked my hand before rubbing furiously at her clit, surprising her. She screamed loudly before lifting herself off my dick and letting go, squirting herself dry.

"Oh god." She panted trying to catch her breath.

Her juices continued to drip down her thighs and before she could blink I was on top of her and entering her as she still rode out her orgasm.

"Oh god Fitz... yes.. yes.."

I pounded relentlessly into her, something inside of me snapping at the feel of her juices coating my skin. Her legs wrapped around me and seconds later I buried my face into her neck and came, flooding her pussy completely.

It took minutes before our breathing returned to normal. I had long since stopped crushing her and gathered her in my arms, but we had only just fully calmed down.

"I never knew it could be this way."

"I knew it could be this way but I've never experienced it. This is what it feels like when you make love to the person you're completely in love with."

I kissed her head before smoothing her hair back and waiting for her response.

"I'm not sure if I would call that making love."

I raised my eyebrows before pulling back and glancing at her. I wasn't too afraid of her answer because she was wearing a smirk that said she was up to no good.

"Well what would you call it?"

"It's a word that I normally wouldn't use."

"Tell me."

I kissed her neck, knowing it was her weak spot, the spot that made her lose all her inhibitions.

"Fu.. you gotta stop.." she moaned and I obliged knowing she'd answer.

"Tell me."

"Fucking."

The blush across her cheeks was enough to make me hard again.

"Such a dirty word, Livvie."

"That's why I didn't want to say it."

"I gotta find a way to make more of those words come out."

She laughed, and scooted away until she was able to prop herself up on her elbow.

"I don't usually use those type of words, Fitz."

"I know, but you liked it, right?"

"The word?"

"The sex."

She leaned in and kissed my lips softly, before her nose rubbed against mine in that perfect way she did before her eyes opened and connected with mine.

"I loved it."

"Enough to do it again?"

"Maybe later Mr. Grant."

She kissed me for a few more minutes before the both of our stomachs growled.

"I think that's my cue to feed you."

"That's my cue to feed you." She retorted.

We both rolled away from each other and I eyed her as I slipped on a pair of boxers. I was very curious as to what she would put on.

She had the sheet wrapped around her and I could tell she wanted to be able to freshen up.

"How about I go see what we have that's quick and you can meet me downstairs when you're ready."

She nodded and I couldn't stop myself from kissing her before I left her alone.

When she finally came downstairs, I was relieved. I had long since prepared us a snack that would at least hold us over for a while. Olivia's love of cheese was something I learned weeks ago. It only took a few seconds to chop at the block of pepper jack and rinse the grapes and strawberries before dividing the food on two plates.

"Sorry it took me so long."

She walked around the island and moved towards the table where I had our plates set up.

"No worries. I tried to put something together that didn't take too long but that you'd like. I wasn't sure if you wanted something heavy."

I watched as she went to the sink and washed her hands.

"I feel like we're swimming in Christmas leftovers, but I really wasn't in the mood for any this morning. If you are I can warm up..."

"Fitz, this is perfect. Thanks."

Instead of sitting in the empty seat next to next to me, Olivia dumped the food from her plate onto mine and slid into my lap.

"Is this okay?"

After everything that had transpired in the last hour, her shyness at the moment surprised me.

"This is always okay."

She grabbed a few cubes of cheese and put two in her mouth before surprising me and feeding me the final one.

"Are we going to be one of those couples that feeds each other in public too?"

Olivia smiled before kissing my lips and holding a strawberry in front of me. I obliged and ate the fruit, making sure to suck the juice from her fingertips before releasing the digit.

"I don't know what type of couple we'll be in public, I just know that as long as I have you to myself, I'm going to take full advantage of it."

"Is that so?"

It was me that brought the fruit to her mouth this time, groaning when she showed my fingers the same attention.

"As long as you'll allow me."

"Baby there isn't anything I wouldn't allow you to do to me or with me. I am so glad to have you to myself for..."

The ringing of my cell phone cut me off and I cursed under my breath. Here I was growing hard as a rock as Olivia sat on my lap feeding me, but the second my phone rang, I knew the moment was over.

CJ was calling.

LIV POV

He groaned loudly and I couldn't help but laugh at him. I realized how whiny he could be when he didn't get his way, but he only did it when it was just the two of us.

"What a pout. If only CJ could see you right now."

"So she could judge me and call me out? No thanks."

I moved from his lap and watched as he jogged into the living room where his phone had been left the night before. I was still eating when I heard him answer the phone and made out CJ's voice on the other end. They were face-timing.

"Hi Daddy! I miss you! Where is Livia? Did she leave?"

"What did I tell you, Ceej?"

Silence

"What did I tell you?"

Silence

"Roll your eyes again and I just might have to hang up the phone."

"Fine! You said she'd still be here when I come home."

"Exactly. So do you want to cut the attitude and ask me a different question maybe?"

I heard the little girl take a deep breath, trying to calm down. He was giving her such a hard time and he knew she couldn't help it.

"Can I talk to Livia, Daddy?"

I gave Fitz a pleading look as he turned towards me. It wasn't really my place, but I hated seeing him reprimand CJ. Although I was extremely biased, I loved it. I already knew it would take a while before I wouldn't let her get away with things. She was always so good for me and I was putty in her hands. She also was just worried that we wouldn't keep our promise and that I would be gone. I couldn't blame her for that because I had gone away too many times without word.

"I'm here sweet girl." I responded grabbing the phone from him and making myself visible.

"Livia! Finally he gave you the phone. I wanted to talk to you!"

Fitz POV

She was so dramatic acting as though I had kept Olivia away from her for days and weeks although she had just left yesterday. Olivia laughed at her words before she angled the phone just a few inches away from her face and kissed me softly on the lips. I knew what that meant. They were about to enter their own little world for a few minutes and I would be ignored.

I watched as Olivia made her way onto the couch, making herself comfortable as she began asking CJ about the gifts she had received from my mother. My little girl spoke animatedly, making Olivia smile grow with each word. I could hear CJ telling her to wait as she ran off to get things and when Olivia glanced at me, I knew I looked crazy. Somewhere between crazy and an idiot, but that was to be expected when watching them. The sound of my daughter's voice, joyful and excited paired with the look on Olivia's face, full of contentment and love. She wanted to listen to my little girl and give CJ her undivided attention. She loves my daughter. She's said it many times to me but to actually witness and see it simply through looking at her was something else.

I was so wrapped up in watching them that it took me a while before I could process Olivia's voice calling my name. When I finally snapped out of it, she gestured for me to sit next to her and I obeyed like a dog desperate for attention. I didn't come within view of the camera, and listened as CJ continued to ask her questions, intertwining our fingers.

"What have you guys been doing?"

"Just hanging out together."

"That's boring Livia. Did you watch any movies or play any games?"

I rolled my eyes hoping Olivia came up with something so I wouldn't have to hear my daughter explain all the reasons why she shouldn't have left. Her Livia should never be subjected to being left alone with her boring father.

"We did watch a Christmas movie and we played a game."

"What game did you play?"

I'm not sure why she wasn't expecting that question from CJ. She needed to know everything. Olivia pushed her elbow into my side once more, making me speak for the both of us.

"We played wrestling."

OUCH!

That elbow fucking hurt. She was now holding the phone down and staring at me with a shocked look on her face.

Sorry

I mouthed the words to her but she just shook her head and started laughing. Figuring she wasn't that mad, I turned sideways on the couch before gripping her underneath her arms and pulling her in between my legs and against my chest. That was better.

"You were wrestling?! Tell Daddy to be careful, he's not a spring chicken anymore."

What!? Where the hell did she come up with this stuff?

"Where did you learn that from?"

I clasped my hand over Olivia's and turned the phone so that I could see my daughter's concerned face. Olivia was doing her best to hold in her laughter but I could feel her chuckling against me.

"Grandma said it when we were leaving yesterday."

"Said what?"

"Hopefully Livia doesn't hurt you too much cause you're not a spring chicken."

"Oh god." Olivia spoke and I knew she was embarrassed.

"If Livia hurts you by accident Daddy, just put some of your white cream on it from the cabinet. It smells like peppermints and the people at Grandma's church."

Olivia was back to laughing again and I was ready to end the call.

"I'll make sure your Dad gets the white cream if he gets hurt, Ceej."

"Thanks Livia."

CJ went quiet for a few seconds and I tilted Olivia's hand down once again so I could see her face. There was something off putting by her all of a sudden silence and I could tell she was fighting her inner thoughts.

"What's wrong Bug?"

She moved the phone around a bit before she looked back at the screen and her worried eyes connected with mine.

"People say that boys are stronger than girls but sometimes girls are stronger than boys."

"That's true, Ceej."

Whatever was on her chest, she needed to get it off and I wanted her to. I hated seeing any type of worry in her eyes. She was too young to not be carefree.

"I want Livia to be careful if she wrestles you again. I don't want you to get hurt. She's small but even small girls are strong."

I felt Olivia snuggle deeper into my embrace and I smiled before kissing her cheek.

"CJ I promise I'll be extra careful. Even though we're just playing, I don't want to ever hurt your dad and I'll make sure I'm careful."

"She will be careful Bug, we both will. Thank you for being concerned about me though. I love you."

"I love you too, Daddy. Can I come home today?"

So manipulative. I knew she was really concerned about me being hurt but she sure as hell used my soft side to her advantage.

"You will be home not tomorrow but the next morning, Bug. Basically one more day there then you'll be home with us."

"With both of you?"

"The both of us." Olivia spoke up.

LIV POV

We hung up just a few minutes later after CJ made it clear that she wanted to speak with me for just a few more minutes. I turned sideways to see Fitz fully stretched out on the couch and grinning at me, looking as though he was the happiest man alive.

"What's that look for?"

"I'm just happy. I'm also tired and ready to take a nap, or take you right here then take a nap."

I could only laugh because he looked so serious. It was nice to see this side of him and I could imagine him feeling the same way. I know my hesitation with everything didn't allow him to truly be himself in the past few months, but I felt in the past twenty-four hours, we fully saw one another. Being so open with him in such an intimate way opened up something in me I didn't know was there and I knew that I was seeing the insatiable side of him as well.

"To be honest, I could really use a nap first then we can ..."

"We can what, Ms. Pope?"

I nearly rolled my eyes at his suggestive tone. He turned on his side before pulling me down next to him, and cradled me to his chest.

"Then we can do whatever you want."

"Whatever I want?"

His eyebrows raised and I felt those all too familiar butterflies in my stomach. It felt so good to be this open and honest with him. He felt like home.

"Whatever you want."

Fitz POV

"I feel like you just want to see me fall on my ass!"

Olivia laughed hysterically as she moved pass me, forcing me to steady my two feet as I still held on to the side rail. I counted to twenty before she was back within reach.

"Looks like I found something you actually can't do." Olivia spoke with a wide grin.

The way we spent the rest of our afternoon proved just how sexy I thought she was, but the Olivia standing in front of me was just adorable. She was wearing a sweatshirt, the puffiest vest I'd ever seen, sweat pants, gloves and earmuffs. It was the earmuffs that made me both laugh and melt at the sight of her. And that damn smile.

"Come on old man! You gotta let go of that wall before he calls last lap!"

I'd been watching her skate around me the entire fifteen minutes we'd been here. It was a last minute decision when she mentioned she hadn't been ice skating since she was a kid, and I of course jumped at the opportunity to fulfill her silent wish even though I knew it wouldn't be open for longer than a half hour.

"I think I need some persuasion first."

She passed me by again and only made it a couple of feet before she turned back to me.

"What type of persuasion are we talking? I might be able to help with that."

She reached out her hand for me to use and I could only laugh knowing she wouldn't be much help in lifting me upright. When I was finally vertical and steady, she leaned closer and kissed my lips. The rink had been emptying for quite some time and there were now only adults skating here and there. I deepened the kiss and smiled when I heard her quietly squeak, surprised at my actions.

When we pulled away, I stroked her cheek as her eyes stayed closed before a small smile filled her lips.

"That oughta do it."

I sent her a wink before pushing away from the wall and gliding around the rink with ease.

LIV POV

He completely tricked me. I watched as Fitz glided across the ice with perfect balance and ease as though he'd been ice skating since birth. I moved to the center of the rink hoping he would slow down for me, but he continued to move swiftly around me until the staff called out 'final lap' to us all.

I took it upon myself to catch up to him and he reached out a hand for me to take. It was cheesy for couples to hold hands while ice skating and he knew that it was something I completely wanted to do. Final lap turned into three more full laps and once the guy blew his whistle and started ushering everyone towards the exits, we obeyed.

Fitz helped me take the skates off and he was a gentleman and returned them while I laced by boots back up. I looked up when I noticed the fresh white flurries begin to fall and I sat back admiring how serene the night was becoming. I put my gloves back over my hands and walked towards the now empty rink, looking at the fresh powder sticking to the ice. Fitz was behind me seconds later and I trembled when I felt his arms wrap around my waist. A kiss was laid on my cheek and he squeezed me tighter, expecting me to respond but I didn't. We needed to be getting home but I couldn't make myself move from the spot I was in.

This was a moment I needed to stay in.

"Livvie…. You okay?"

His voice was extremely soft, and I loved that he knew it was what I needed.

I ignored Fitz's question and pulled his arms tighter around me, feeling the tears fill my eyes all in the same second.

"Livvie, tell me what's wrong? Remember we don't hide and we don't lie. Right? I need you to be honest with me and tell me what's going on."

He was right. I turned in his arms and buried my face into his chest for several seconds before I felt him pulling back. He wanted answers and that was fair, but I could barely look at him. I kept my eyes close, envisioning our entire day together, replaying it over and over again.

"Livvie, talk to me."

"I don't wanna leave. I don't think I can."

His hands were gentle against my cheek, his thumbs doing their best to wipe away the constant tears that spilled down my face.

"Why not?"

My eyes opened and connected with his worried ones.

"Everything's gonna change now."