LIV POV
"Hi CJ"
I watched her eyes blink a few times before she smiled and moved closer to me.
"Hi Livia… you're awake?"
"Yea sweetie, I'm awake.."
"Did I wake you up?"
"No, no you didn't, I promise. I've missed you CJ."
"I missed you too Livia. Why did you go away?"
"I know it made you sad but I had to follow some rules and go away for a while as a consequence for something I did. The good news is that the people I had to listen to, they said I could stay here for the rest of my consequence."
"Were you in trouble? You only get consequences if you're in trouble."
"Yea I was but it'll all be over in a few months and I get to stay here until then."
"So you won't go away again?"
"Not any time soon Ceej….how about we get some sleep and I'll show you something really special tomorrow."
I could tell she was taking a moment to think before looking back at Fitz then me again.
"Okay. Night Livia"
She leaned in and kissed my cheek before moving closer and snuggling into my chest. I smiled, glancing up at Fitz who looked just as content as I felt.
"Can you tell Daddy to make us French toast tomorrow, Livia?"
I chuckled a bit knowing that she was already using me as leverage against her father like nothing had changed.
"You bet I will Ceej. Go to sleep sweet girl."
Fitz leaned forward and kissed CJ's head before moving closer and kissing my lips. I felt the tears building in my eyes and smiled at Fitz before nuzzling my nose into CJ's hair and breathing deeply.
Everything finally felt right in the world.
FITZ POV
The next morning I made good on CJ's French toast request but not before making sure Olivia didn't have the taste for something else.
"It's all I've been thinking about since CJ brought it up last night. I even dreamed about it last night so geta' cooking mister."
I stared at her joyful expression and couldn't stop smiling. I mean it was a stupid, full smile that wouldn't leave my face at all. Olivia was back and I was happier than I could put into actual words.
"C'mere Livvie."
I invaded her personal space immediately and pulled her closer wanting to hold her and touch her. Needing to.
"I can't believe you're here."
"It really feels like a dream doesn't it?" She laid her head against my chest, pointing her nose upward and smelling my skin.
"Yea….and it'll kill me if it ends. I think I would've gone crazy if I woke up and you weren't there."
"I thought about that when I needed to use the bathroom and forced myself to hold it and wait for you to wake up." She chuckled before lightly poking my side.
"I don't want you to do that again baby. I think I know it's not a dream that will end at any given moment."
"It won't end. I promise."
We embraced one another tightly for a few moments and she didn't pull away until I was satisfied. Before she could step away any further I palmed her protruding stomach and shook my head.
"You're carrying my baby….. that's still hard to wrap my head around."
"Well it's definitely true but sometimes I can't believe it either. If someone told me eight months ago I'd be pregnant and on house arrest I'd think they were on something."
I moved my hand around, taking note of the places that were more hardened than the others.
"I think I'm starting to feel him or her flutter around in there a bit. Do you think CJ's gonna be okay with this? She's gonna have a lot of questions Fitz… ones you may not be ready to answer. Or me."
I nodded knowing for a fact that CJ would have many questions but what I was most worried about was how she would take the news overall.
"I know.. we'll just cross that bridge when it happens.. just… I don't know how she's going to react at all Livvie. She could be happy or sad or mad, I don't know but I just want you to know that if she isn't happy, it doesn't change the way she feels about you. You know she loves you so.."
"Fitz I get it. Remember I work with kids.. worked… but I've studied and seen how they can react to things like this so I can take it. I just want her to be okay and know that us having a baby doesn't change anything about how much we both love her."
I nodded and kissed her forehead before turning back to the stove.
"I'm gonna go to the bathroom before you're done because I want the first batch of that French toast as soon as it's done."
"Yes ma'am"
I smiled watching her walk away and shook my head at how empty the room immediately felt. I expected CJ to sleep later than usual after all her excitement but more than that she had nothing to wake up for. School had released for the summer just last Thursday and CJ was officially on summer break. The entire school year had gone by so fast and I was still wrapping my head around the fact that I'd have a second grader.
My thoughts were interrupted when I heard CJ padding down the stairs speedily.
"Daddy! She's gone! Where's Livia, she was here it wasn't a dream I know it!"
I stepped away from the stove as I heard the emotion in her voice and scooped her up when she came charging into the kitchen.
"Daddy where is she?"
Her chest was heaving and both lips were completely turned down and trembling as she attempted to process her feelings.
"Ceej baby it's okay you weren't dreaming Olivia is here."
She looked around confused and even more worried than before if possible.
"I don't see her."
"CJ sweetie I'm here."
I breathed a sigh of relief when Olivia appeared in front of me. CJ turned around and reached for Olivia's neck, forcing her to hold the little girl in her arms.
LIV POV
"Hey I'm here, I'm here CJ I promise. I'm not going anywhere sweet girl okay. Calm down."
I held her tightly, igniting the worried look on Fitz's face. I knew he didn't like me carrying her but the way she was squeezing me let me know she needed me to hold her more than I needed to be careful. I swayed slowly back and forth telling her that I was only using the bathroom and that I wouldn't go anywhere without telling her. I was well aware of Fitz plating the cooked French toast and although my mouth was watering I waited for her to make the first move.
"Livia?"
"Yea CJ?"
"What's this?"
Fitz looked at me and I smiled at her small leg moving back and forth against the side of my stomach. Her eyes were cast down at my stomach and Fitz came over and lifted her from my arms and placed her on his own hip.
"Do you see Olivia's stomach?"
She nodded and Fitz motioned to me. We hadn't exactly talked about how we wanted to actually tell CJ and were winging it.
I lifted my shirt up and her eyes grew at the obvious change in my body. We both looked at her and Fitz moved a bit closer before placing CJ on her own two feet and squatting down next to her.
"Do you know what's in there Bug?"
"In her stomach? Food? I don't know but it's…"
Her face was scrunched up in confusion as she shrugged her shoulders.
"It's what CJ? We want you to say what you're thinking Bug."
"A lady at grandma's church has a big stomach like that and I asked her if it was a baby in her stomach and got in trouble because it was just a lot of food and no baby. Grandma said it's not polite to think someone has a baby in their stomach if it's bigger."
We both laughed before I decided to take over and let her know what she might have been thinking was right.
"That's true but right now my stomach is bigger because there is a baby in there."
Her eyes grew wide and she looked at Fitz for confirmation and the second he nodded his head she moved closer and got eye level with my stomach.
"A baby! It's your baby Livia? Can I see the baby?"
"Yea there's a baby inside of my stomach but the baby still has a little while left to grow and can't come out just yet."
"Then I can play with it?"
"Yes you can."
I knew it wasn't that easy but was glad that things were going well so far.
"When will the baby come out?"
"Sometime around Thanksgiving."
"You're the baby's mommy, Livia?"
"Yes I'm the baby's mommy."
"Who's the baby's daddy?"
It was Fitz's chance to speak up and I was glad because I was suddenly a ball of nerves.
"I'm the baby's daddy CJ."
"No you're my daddy."
"I know Bug but I'm the baby's dad too and do you know what that means?"
"No"
She was confused and it showed.
"It means you're the baby's big sister!"
That changed everything. In a flash the confusion was gone replaced with a large smile and a now bouncy CJ.
"I can be the big sister?! Yes I wanna be the big sister for the baby Livia! Can I?"
"You already are CJ and I know you're gonna be the best big sister to the baby."
"Really? How do you know that? What do big sisters do?"
Fitz moved to plate the last few pieces of French toast and encouraged us to have a seat before we could finish our conversation. CJ was clearly giddy next to me and I sent Fitz a smile of appreciation all the whole listening to CJ's stream of questions.
"Can a big sister hold the baby? Can the baby sleep in my bed with me at night and come to my school? Will she wear baby clothes or big kid clothes?"
FITZ POV
"Ceej calm down I know you're excited but one question at a time okay?"
She smiled shyly before nodding her head and taking s bite of her French toast.
"Is the baby my twin sister?"
"No Ceej that's just on your movies."
"Twins aren't real?"
"No they are but the baby in Olivia's stomach isn't your twin. They are their own person. Not a twin."
"So it's a brother?"
The look on her face made Olivia and I both laughed. She looked as though she was certain sisters were only twins so if it wasn't a twin sister it was certainly a brother.
"We don't know yet Bug, but we might be able to find out soon."
"How do you find out? Can you ask the baby?"
"Well when Olivia has another doctor's appointment they use this … thing to look at a picture of the baby and sometimes the picture shows if they have boy parts or girl parts."
"Oh like a vagina or penis?"
I could only nod and change the subject knowing she could go on for days about the topic if I didn't. Olivia was stuffing more food into her mouth to cover up the grin on her face as my ears simply continued to redden.
"Can I feel the baby Livia?"
We were both a bit surprised she hadn't immediately touched Olivia's stomach when she'd shown her minutes ago but knew it would come sooner or later.
"Of course you can.. you won't be able to tell if the baby is moving just yet but in a few weeks you should be able to feel the baby kicking when you put your hand on my stomach."
"Is the baby mean?"
"No the baby will just be wiggling around and kicking me by accident. Here let me see your hand… you feel how hard my belly is?"
I watched her move CJ's small hand around her skin before she let go and let my daughter explore on her own.
"Yea… it's so hard."
"Yep that's where the baby will stay until they're ready to come out."
"At Thanksgiving?"
"Well sometime in November. We don't know the exact day but when the baby is ready I'll have a small bellyache and then your dad will take me to the doctors and they'll help me get the baby out."
"How will the baby come out?"
This conversation had taken a turn I wasn't prepared for so I jumped in hoping to change the subject.
"Bug do you know one really big thing we have to do before the baby comes?"
"What?"
"We have to get a room ready for the baby to sleep in."
"But why can't the baby sleep with me? I'll share my stuff with the baby. If it's a sister she can wear my clothes too."
By the look on Olivia's face I could tell she too was relieved that CJ was so open and happy with being a big sister.
"When she's older you can share rooms if you want but we want to get a nursery ready with all of her things."
"Or his" Olivia chimed in making me realized I had referred to the baby as a girl.
"Yes whether the baby is a boy or girl we want the baby to have a room here just like you do."
CJ took the last bite of her food at the same time Olivia finished hers and glanced towards the stove with curious eyes.
"More?" I asked her doing my best to hold back the smile on my face. I hadn't seen her appetite this way and was loving it.
"Maybe later, thanks."
Olivia answered with a blush in her smile and a wink before she focused back on CJ. My little girl was deep in thought, swirling her fork around in the glob of syrup on her plate.
"Whatcha thinking Ceej?"
She dropped the fork onto the plate and I grabbed it up and placed it in the sink before she could begin playing in the sticky syrup.
"What's the baby's name?"
Now that was something we hadn't talked through at all and my mind immediately began racing with ideas.
"We don't know yet since we don't know if it's a boy or girl but how about we make a list of names? You wanna do that?" Olivia's face lit up as she spoke and I could tell she wanted to talk about names just as much as my six year old did.
"Yea! I can write them all down on a list like we did at school!"
CJ was running into the living room before either of us could respond and Olivia handed her empty plate to me and I stacked it on top of CJ's. I turned around and Olivia's arms were snaking around my waist before I could fully register that she was no longer in her seat. I wrapped my arms just as tightly around her, smiling at her baby bump preventing us from being closer.
"She's not mad." She sniffed against my chest.
I kissed her head and rubbed soothing circles on her back.
"She's not mad at all."
"She seems happy."
I tilted her head towards mine and wiped the small tears that had escaped her eyes.
"She is happy and so am I.. are you happy Livvie?"
LIV POV
Fresh tears filled my eyes and I pushed up on my toes until my lips were on his. I kissed him softly at first and continued until I was all but forcing my tongue into his mouth, savoring his taste. We continued kissing, my feet all of a sudden moving as I backed him against the counter and pulled him down towards me so my feet were flat against the floor. Our tongues responded to one another like ocean waves waiting for its chance to break against the shore. I hadn't realized how loud I was moaning until I heard him quietly shushing me as he held back his laughter. I opened my eyes and burrowed my face into his rattling chest. He was laughing at me.
"It's not funny… blame your baby."
"Livvie trust me I wish I could finish exactly what we were about to start but CJ's gonna come bustling back in here any second and I know she'd ask about the moaning"
I could only laugh because he was right. She would ask and then be annoyed with him for not being ready to write names down.
"I know, this is just the first time my body's really reacted like that since.."
"I know baby and trust me I am very excited about that."
He turned me around before pulling me back into his chest and hips, showing me exactly what I couldn't feel with my bump in between us. Hard was an understatement and for the first time I actually wished if just for a moment that CJ wasn't home. I moved my hand to feel him through his jeans and the Livvie whispered against my neck made me clinch my thighs together. It had been forever but I was completely turned on. I stopped touching him only to grind my ass into him and brought his hand to my shirt covered breast knowing any sensation was better than none. I could feel my lower lips begin to pulsate with the simple thought of being with him tonight. He trailed his lips against my neck, wetting them purposely before sucking on my weak spot as he squeezed my breast. There was no mistaking how wet I was and the second I was going to turn around and pounce on him, CJ bounded into the kitchen with markers and a pack of stickers.
Fitz's hands were off of me instantly but he purposely didn't move from behind me and I knew exactly what he was hiding.
"Are you guys ready? We can do it on my easel right Daddy? Cuz it's a big paper we can write lots of names!"
"Yea that's perfect Bug… can you umm, can you go grab the easel from out back please? I'm gonna wash these dishes first."
"Okay Daddy!"
I breathed a sigh of relief when she walked towards the backdoor and felt Fitz do the same.
"I'm gonna go freshen up but I'll be really quick."
"Okay but tonight Livvie."
I turned around and kissed him deeply one last time before nodding my head and moving towards the downstairs bathroom.
When we were all back in the kitchen, Fitz sat the easel atop the kitchen table and we gathered around it. CJ drew one semi-squiggly line down the middle and the little girl looked confused when Fitz took a separate marker and drew another.
"Why'd you do that Daddy?"
"Because there are some names that are for boys and girls."
Her face was scrunched up as if that was the most inaccurate, dumbest thing she'd ever heard.
"He's right CJ, there are some names that could be a boys name or a girls name. Like the name Parker could be for a boy or a girl. Or the name Presley or James"
"James?"
I glanced to Fitz who was now wearing the same face CJ had given him moments ago. He clearly didn't agree.
"Yes James can be a girl's name just spelled a little different."
"Well to each their own but if we have a girl, we won't be naming her James, Livvie."
"Okay okay I was just giving examples. Alright let's start with a girls name, what are some ideas."
The names started flying and CJ quickly changed her mind of writing them down and handed the purple maker to me.
"CJ!"
"Jasmine"
"Olivia!... Grandma! I mean Lillian!"
"Raegan"
"Jessica"
"Avery"
"Abby!"
"Joselyn"
"Hmmm Mary-Kate and Ashley are good names!"
"Lila"
"Oh I like Lila.. I like Charlotte too."
"Charlotte's nice but pretty cliché considering where we live"
I rolled my eyes at Fitz before writing down the last girl names that were suggested.
"Alright let's do some big names. Here Fitz, you write the boys names, lefty" I said sending him a wink and watching him pick up a blue marker.
"Fitz!"
CJ smiled, proud of herself for getting the first name again.
"I like that name for a boy too CJ." I smiled at CJ and nodded at the raised eyebrow Fitz was sending me.
"Really? You'd want a junior?"
"Why wouldn't I? It'd be kinda nice unless you wouldn't want that."
"It took me to long to even halfway like my name and that didn't happen until I was almost twenty. It's a lot to put on a little baby."
I shook my head before telling him that it was just an option.
"James!"
"Jonathan"
"Harrison"
"Oh I like Harrison, that's a strong name." I agreed.
"Ummm Nathaniel! And umm Thomas and Ryder!"
She was doing her best to recall all the boys from her class.
"I really like Kellan and Kyler. We could call him Ky for short." I sent him a shy smile truly loving the name and hoping that he did too.
"I like that too."
We named a few more before switching to the unisex names that only really confused CJ and made us laugh. When we were done we settled between Kyler, Kellan and Andrew for boys names and Raegan, Avery, and Lila for girls. CJ took it upon herself to hang the list up and by the time she was done using nearly all of the tape in the house to make it stick, she was met with her father and I sucking face. I wasn't sure how long she'd been watching us for but when I finally opened my eyes I was faced with a confused little girl as she stood there observing us.
I was quick to push Fitz away and gestured for him to turn around. He too appeared a little put off by the look on her face and went to squat down next to her.
"Bug, you okay? What's going on?"
"I don't… I don't know."
He glanced at me before looking back at CJ who was fidgeting with her fingers.
"Does it make you nervous when you see Olivia and I kiss each other?"
"No… you always kiss Livia."
I breathed a sigh of relief and smiled, happy that our semi- intimate interactions hadn't been the cause of her ill and confused mood.
"Well what's wrong Bug? Do you know how you feel right now?"
"How… how is the baby my brother or sister if Livia isn't my mommy too?"
FITZ POV
I wasn't expecting that. I thought it might be a little confusing but thought maybe she'd seen somehow seen blended families before and it would just make sense to her. I had sheltered her for so long I'm not sure how she would've seen anything outside of this house.
"Bug, you're gonna be the big sister because I'm the baby's dad just like I'm your dad. Even though Liv isn't your mom, you're still the baby's sister because of me."
"Oh"
She still looked a little concerned and we could both tell she was assimilating the information into what she already knew about families.
"CJ when a person has a brother or a sister or even both, that's called a sibling and there are many ways to get a sibling. Sometimes a sibling has the same mommy and daddy and sometimes they might have the same mommy only or sometimes the same daddy only. Either way it doesn't change the fact that they are siblings. Do you understand that CJ?"
My little girl nodded and I was grateful that Olivia knew to break that down in such a manner for her.
"Will the baby look like me when I was a baby?"
I looked to Olivia feeling completely out of my element. At the same time I knew that I needed to make myself familiar with "the element" because I was proudly going to have a son or daughter that was biracial. There was so much I now wanted to speak to Olivia about but I knew I'd had to wait until later.
"The baby will be beautiful just like you were when you were a baby and just like you looked like your mommy I'm pretty sure the baby will look like their mommy, Olivia."
She was pensive for a second before the question she'd be dying to know fell out of her mouth.
"Can the baby be brown like you, Livia?"
Olivia pulled out a chair and sat down before pulling CJ into her lap sideways.
"I'm pretty sure the baby will have brown skin but it might be a lighter brown, but maybe not. The most important thing is that we want the baby to be really healthy and strong no matter what color the baby is okay? Because the baby will still be so beautiful to us just like you are CJ."
She nodded her head before putting her hand on Olivia's stomach and rubbing it.
"Grandma says a lot of brown people are really strong because people aren't always nice to them and that we should love everyone no matter what they look like on the outside. That's what Jesus wants."
"Your grandma's right CJ and the best thing we can do is just love everyone and I think your little brother or sister has the best big sister to teach them to love no matter what."
She kissed CJ's forehead before my little girl snuggled closer to her and sighed.
It was at that moment that I hoped and prayed for a son. Raising a son as loving and caring as Olivia and CJ would be a dream come true.
Hours later an insistent knock against the front door interrupted our intense game of Life, and I gave both Olivia and CJ a threatening look before I got up and jogged towards the sound. They were tag-teaming me and although I was completely used to it, I loved seeing them back together again. CJ was obsessed with all things babies which led us to playing this game in the first place. She was even naming her "children" she'd gained.
I checked the peephole and worked quickly to undo the locks before I was greeted with the smiling and apologetic face of my mother.
"I know I was giving you guys your space but I couldn't help myself, son."
"It's okay Mom, I'm sure Liv will be glad to see you."
She was carrying a large gift basket and a smaller gift bag that I took over carrying before stepping aside and letting her in.
"Good, I had to bring something over, it was killing me."
I shook my head and laughed when she yelped at the sight of Olivia entering the room with CJ hot on her heals.
"Oh goodness honey look at you! Oh can I just hold you for a while."
They pulled one another into a tight hug, both seeming to need it from the other. When seconds passed and they still hadn't let go of each other, I moved to the other side of them to make out what my mother was saying to her.
"… the love this baby already has cannot be measured sweetie. I'm so happy for the two of you and cannot wait to meet my new grandbaby… this baby is so lucky to have you."
She pressed a kiss to Olivia's cheek before pulling back and using her thumbs to wipes the stream of tears on her cheeks. I loved the connection they had with each other and knew Olivia appreciated having a motherly figure around.
"Thanks so much Lillian."
"So I've only done this once and it's been a really long time but I remember the feeling of being pampered when I was pregnant with this one so I got you a few things that I hope helps."
LIV POV
Lillian's hug was exactly what I needed in that moment. Her hugs felt like the ones my mom would give me when I was little and I needed one of those immensely. I watched as she kissed CJ's head before moving the large basket in front of an empty chair and gesturing for me to sit there. I did my best to not feel embarrassed by the three sets of eyes on me and unwrapped the basket to see a plethora of goodies. There were chamomile bath bombs, different body oils and soaps, a silk maternity pajama set and matching robe and new house shoes.
"Lillian this is too much…. I can't.."
"Nonsense Olivia. There's no such thing as doing too much for family. Never. I can't express how excited I am for you three. I've needed another grand-baby to spoil for quite sometime so don't be surprised when I show up with something for the baby each time I visit."
"Grandma you know there's a baby in Livia's stomach? It's gonna be my baby brother or baby sister!"
I smiled as she pulled CJ into her arms and gave her a tight squeeze.
"I do know that and I think you're gonna be the best big sister in the world. In fact I got you something too!"
"What is it?"
She pointed to the small gift bag and CJ was instantly removing the tissue paper and pulling the item out. There was a white short sleeved shirt with "Best Big Sister" written in light blue cursive. She took her time sounding out the words before she was able to get completely excited about it.
"What do you say to grandma?"
"Thank you Grandma!" She hugged her tightly before asking if she could put it on. Fitz told her she could if she put on regular clothes and tossed her pjs in the hamper.
We all laughed as she ran quickly up the stairs. I picked up the lemongrass oil from the basket and smelled it before rubbing a bit onto my shoulders. It was instantly my new favorite scent and Fitz was suddenly near me sniffing my skin and kissing it. Not only did it tickle, but physical affection isn't something we'd done in front of many people, especially Lillian. I playfully pushed him away only to have him come back and kiss my lips innocently multiple times. I couldn't even care and laughed before standing up and doing the same to him. After a few peppered kisses, we simultaneously slowed down, making our kisses more intentional until we were interrupted by Lillian clearing her throat.
"You two need me to take my granddaughter home with me so you can finish this in private?"
I laughed wishing we could both say yes but knowing neither of really us wanted that. I wrapped my arms around his waist and attempted to get as close to him as possible.
"I really don't think she'd let me out of her sight right now."
"Yea there's no way she'd go with you Mom."
"I'm sure I can convince her if you do want some privacy." Lillian tried once more.
"Thank you but we're okay. I kinda don't want to let her out of my sight either." I glanced up at Fitz and studied his face for a brief moment not expecting the tears to fill my eyes so quickly. "Neither of them."
His lips were on my forehead and before I got even more emotional staring at him, I pressed my head into his chest and thanked Lillian again for the treats.
After a delicious Greek pasta dinner made by Lillian, we kept CJ up a just a little later on purpose and watched a movie together once we bid Lillian goodbye. Fitz and I tucked her in together and once she was finally dead to the world in her bed, I was a woman on a mission. Fitz was busy checking all the doors and windows downstairs before he set the intense security system Huck had installed that week. I took a few moments to myself, putting a little bit of the lemongrass body oil on my neck and chest knowing he'd be all over those areas the second he was back upstairs. He hadn't really kept his hands to himself all night and was constantly telling me how crazy that oil was making him.
"Alright everything's locked up and the alarm is … wow.. Livvie."
He was basically speechless and it sent shivers down my spine. After realizing the button down pajama top was a soft baby blue, I put on a white bra and panty set and left the shirt open over it. I didn't have any type of lingerie but after seeing the look on his face, I'd be ordering some in the morning.
FITZ POV
I was a visual man, always had been. Certain moments in my life were categorized by a certain picture in my brain that would remain etched there forever. CJ's birth was a picture of her being placed in my arms with her eyes closed, swaddled tightly and sighing. The first time she said dada, showed her in her high chair startling me awake after I'd fallen asleep feeding her; there were Cheerios on her face and baby food in her hair. Olivia lying in my backyard almost motionless was my picture of the night I first saw her.
The first night I'd make love to Olivia knowing she was pregnant with our baby would hold this picture. A swell of her milk chocolate colored stomach curved overtop of the tiny slip of underwear she was wearing. Her breasts colored just the same spilled over the small B cups they were in and only for a second did I register that I needed to go shopping for her again. The blue shirt hung low on her shoulders and her glowing skin was proof that I did smell my new favorite scent coming from her skin. This picture would be developed and saved in my mind for all of eternity.
The door was closed and locked with only one goal and purpose in mind; my daughter wasn't getting into this room tonight. I moved slowly toward her, taking her in and slowly removing my own clothes. I didn't stop until I was naked and was in her face kissing her before she could blink.
"I want to make you feel so good Livvie… lay back baby."
I released her lips and helped her lay against the pillows, making sure she was completely comfortable. The second our lips touched, my cock twitched feeling the warmth of her tongue on mine. She kissed me hungrily and I tore my lips from hers, smiling at the groan that escaped her lips. I noticed her squeeze her thighs together as I trailed kisses down her throat and neck. The scent of her skin was driving me crazy and I purposely worked my lips over the bottom of her throat until I knew the skin was reddened and pulsating. The second I pulled her breasts from the cups, her hips bucked without warning and I grinded into her purposely, breathing over her lips and telling her to cum for me. She wrapped her legs around my waist and rolled upwards into my dick hard, making me feel how drenched and dripping she was through her flimsy panties. She locked her legs around my back, keeping me pressed tightly into her drenched pussy and fell apart the second my mouth covered one of her hard, perky nipples.
"Fitz! Ah! God! Ahhh!"
I could feel her thighs trembling around me and before she could even think of coming down, I moved back just an inch and moved the drenched lace to the side before surging into her fully.
"FUCK! Fuck Fitz Ah!"
Her arms around my neck were suddenly gone and I felt her hands over my ass pushing me deeper inside of her. I leaned closer to her face and encouragingly kisses at her lips until her mouth fell open in pleasure and I was able to taste her tongue. She tried pushing her hips further into mine but I wouldn't move, wanting to stay buried deep inside of her. My dick wanted to become reacquainted with her warmth and I was allowing him as much time as he needed.
I licked the roof of her mouth before moving to hover over her ear. My right hand found its own purpose and began a firm massage against her breast. Each time I squeezed her breast, her pussy squeezed my dick and after several agonizing chokes later, I pulled away and breathed heavily at the shell of her ear.
"Tell me what you want Livvie… god tell me baby."
I felt her hands in my hair pulling me back and when our eyes met, mine captured a new picture; I'd kill anyone that ever harmed her and die a thousand times if it promises her happiness.
"Make me yours Fitz."
I swallowed the tears that attempted to fill my eyes and intertwined our fingers before kissing her lips softly.
"You've always been mine Livvie."
I raised my hips until I was nearly out of her before thrusting inside of her until I couldn't go any further. Her moans encouraged me and I pulled out only to surge forward with tenacity, set on giving her exactly what she needed. She broke the grip we had on each other's hands and brought her hand to her face and hair then finally gripped the sheets next to her as I continued to pound into her relentlessly. I drove my hips deeper into hers feeling her body move each time I pushed into her and pulled out. I slowed my thrusts down and rubbed my knuckles against her clit, increasing the pressure when her hands pushed against my chest. It was so overwhelming her body wanted me to stop but her words told me otherwise.
"I'm so close baby…. Right… oh god right there Fitz… shit…!"
I felt her come around me and she pulled my head down until her lips were on mine, tongue fucking me until I came seconds later with a grunt and slow kisses.
I didn't want to put any of my weight on her but her hands wrapped around my back convincing me it was what she wanted and I couldn't deny her. I still balanced on my elbows above her and we savored one another's kisses until I refused to keep my weight there. I whispered my love against her lips before pulling out slowly and jogged to the bathroom, barely succeeding at not messing on the floor. After I wiped myself down I brought in a warm cloth and smiled at her limp body still sated against the pillows. I moved to hover over her and opened her thighs wider, but she grabbed my hand, mumbling that she was too tired.
"Be still for a second baby… let me clean you up."
I worked slowly knowing she was still so sensitive and tender. At one point she'd grabbed my hand and held it tightly against her tight bud, fully shuddering at the aftershock of her orgasm. When she was settled I cleaned her again, making sure the mixture of fluids on her thighs were gone. I tossed the rag towards the bathroom door and climbed into bed before turning her to face me and kissing her lazily. She responded only lightly kissing me back, happy to let me do all the work. I kissed her forehead several times before helping her turn back over so that I could hold her from behind. My hands immediately went to her stomach and I kissed her neck as my left hand moved slowly across her skin.
"Are you happy Livvie?"
I felt her nod and leaned over to kiss her cheek a few times before laying back against my pillow.
"Are you?"
"So happy."
"Yea….I'm happy again.. and I feel.."
I could see her eyelids continuing to get heavier as she did her best go stay awake.
"What do you feel baby?"
"I feel like this is just the beginning."
Hi. Hope you guys enjoyed this chapter! I think some of you believe I've decided to stop writing but I haven't. Real life remains even when fanfic updates are wanted. I wish I could write and update consistently for you guys but it sadly doesn't pay my bills. Anywho I've already started writing the next chapter and this one only took a good week to write when downtime became available. Leave a review and tell me what you think. Always glad to hear your thoughts!