The following day as they made their way as usual separately to the hospital Gordon got his notes from Lizzie and Jill went straight through the locum was still covering for her. They both went into their daughters room she was awake and eating breakfast "Morning mum, dad" she said

"Morning" they both replied "How are you this morning" Jill asked while looking at her chart

"I'm o.k. a little stiff" Aisling replied

"Any pain" asked Gordon who was already sitting down

"A little, when can I go home" asked Ash

"Well we have to see" replied Gordon. Aisling looked worried maybe sister Brigid was right maybe they didn't want her

Jill must of read her mind because she added "Ash sweetheart look at me" Ash looked her mum in the eyes "It's not that we don't want you home it's that you've done some damage to your back that's why you've got that brace on until the specialist can take a look and tell us what to do it's safer for you if you stay here" said Jill,

Gordon added "We all love you so much and don't want anything bad to happen to you"

There was a knock at the door it was Lizzie "Your first patients here doctor"

"O.k. thank-you Lizzie" replied Gordon

"Hello Ash nice to see you awake I've got some magazines at reception for you I'll bring them in next time I'm going by I know how boring these places can be" Said Lizzie

"Thanks" replied Aisling and with that Lizzie left

"Well I'll leave you two to it then" said Gordon shutting the door behind him Jill went and sat down "You know you can tell me anything" said Jill

"Yes mum, I know I'm so sorry, I never meant to hurt any of you" tears were already starting to form she wasn't ready to talk yet "I'm sorry, I'm so sorry" she was crying now Jill moved to give her daughter a cuddle calming her down and then she fell silent and the tears slowed she had fallen asleep Jill stayed like that for a few more minutes then gently laid her down and pulled the covers up her face was still all blotchy from crying.

Jill made herself comfy and got about to read the medical journal from the other day. It was about half past ten when matron gently knocked on the door and peered in. Jill was pleased to see her she needed to talk and matron was the perfect person it was surprising really at one time she would of done anything not to ask for matrons help but they had grown close over the years.

What they didn't know was that Aisling had woken up shortly after matron had arrived she had pretended to be asleep she wasn't ready to talk but now she felt even worse. She now knew her mum blamed herself and had even heard her crying. She knew they needed to understand but the thing was how could they understand when even she didn't she didn't know how to put it. She knew she had lost their trust and maybe even their love. She just wanted to curl up in a ball and die.

Aisling was growing restless her leg was beginning to ache so she moved slightly. Jill and matron stopped talking they thought she was waking up. Matron told Jill to go and freshen up as she didn't want Ash to see her like this she kissed Ash on the forehead and told her she would be back shortly.

Matron was called out there was a telephone call. Aisling was now on her own she opened her eyes and stretched she reached for a piece of paper and pen and tried to write down her feelings and reasons for running trying to make sense of it all she knew this was the only way to make it better.

Sister Brigid walked in to check her temperature and pulse she wasn't expecting her to be on her own let alone awake "You stupid, stupid, selfish little girl what do you think you were playing at" She shouted. One of the nurses in the corridor heard her shouting and ran to fetch either doctor.

Aisling managed to pull herself out of bed and hobbled towards the door sister Brigid tried to block her way but Aisling managed to push her out of the way and get past.

Meanwhile the nurse had found both Jill and Gordon discussing a patient at reception they ran towards their daughter's room only to find her hobbling towards them. Jill caught her just in time before she collapsed into a heap on the floor

"It's alright sweetheart" said Jill soothingly whilst Gordon helped them get up

"Let's get you back to bed young lady" said Gordon

Jill and Gordon looked at each other they needed to talk to sister Brigid before anymore damage was done. Aisling was exhausted but she needed to talk to them

"It's all my fault, I'm so sorry" said Aisling

"Don't talk, just rest we'll talk later" said Jill

"Mum" replied Ash

"Yes sweetheart" replied Jill

"It's not your fault, I was confused" said Ash sleepily

"Sshh just sleep" said Jill while smoothing her hair

"We'll talk later" said Gordon

"Love you" said Ash

"We love you to" replied Jill and Gordon.

"I'll be back at lunchtime" said Gordon

"Maybe we could go outside it will be more private" replied Jill

"Good idea, I'll see if I can get a wheelchair" said Gordon.