Ash heard the scraping of chairs against the kitchen floor then heard the others telling everything they had seen or talked about with her. Which wasn't much she had been careful with what she said to people most of her secrets were written in a book which she kept locked away, so there wasn't much to tell which didn't give her much time either to decide what to do next.
She got her book out and was writing her feelings down:
I had that bad dream again it starts with being on the cliff top and falling and then I'm there running away from S.B. and then it all goes black what does it mean?
I feel I can't stay here much longer I have to leave if only until things calm down a bit and get back to normal, whatever that is these days. They treat me differently now like i'm a kid and talk about me like I'm a just another patient or not even there. Maybe they would of been better off if I hadn't of survived at least I wouldn't be pulling the family apart, I don't seem to be able to do anything right all I seem to be able to do is make everyone really an
She stopped mid sentence they were coming upstairs she dumped the book under her pillow and curled up on her bed wiping away the tears that never seemed to stop pouring these days there was a knock at the door but they didn't wait for a reply they just all came in
"We've been talking" said Gordon
Ash looked up "It's alright I understand it's for the best" replied Ash
"What is" asked Gordon, Jill looked just as puzzled
"Guy's do you want to leave us for a bit" asked Jill to the other three
"Why do they have to leave they already know" said Ash
"We think there has been a miss understanding and it would be better if it was just the three of us" replied Gordon pulling out the chair from the desk and taking a seat, Jill sat on the end of the bed and the others went back downstairs
"Well like I said we've been talking...Ash" said Gordon
Ash had gotten up and was making a dash for the bathroom Jill and Gordon followed
"You're not getting out of this" said Gordon
"I don't think she's trying go and get my bag" replied Jill following Ash into the bathroom and holding her hair back. After Ash had finished throwing up she sat lent against the wall completely exhausted she felt the warmth of her mum as she wrapped her arms around her she felt comforted and for the first time since she had been home she didn't want her to let her go
"Do you think you can stand" Jill said
Ash nodded she stood wobbly and using the sink to steady herself managed to brush her teeth
"It's alright I won't let you go" reassured Jill
"Let's get you back to bed" said Gordon
They got Ash back into bed and checked her over they put it down to pure exhaustion they told her to keep her fluid levels up and were going out the door
"No don't go" Ash said
"Ash sweetheart you need to rest" replied Jill
"But you need to talk" replied Ash stifling a yawn
"You need to rest we can talk later" replied Gordon
"Please don't go" pleaded Ash
Jill and Gordon just looked at each other it reminded them of when she was younger none of the children had been really clingy but when they were really Ill they never wanted them to leave them, they thought those days were long gone none of the children had really asked for them to stay for as long as they can remember, Jill sat on the bed and took Ash's hand, while Gordon said he would be back once he had gotten her a glass of water
"Sorry" mumbled Ash as she fell asleep
"It's alright sshh" whispered Jill
Gordon came back up with the glass of water
"Is she asleep" he whispered
"Yes" Jill whispered back
Gordon sat down in the chair and took Jill's hand they sat there for half an hour then tiptoed out of the room and went back downstairs where the others were waiting, they had their drinks and were talking about their plans for the weekend after what had happened today it was meant to be a nice day for everyone but as usual it never quite work out as they planned
"NOOOOOOOOOOO"
"Ash" Jill jumped up running up the stairs followed by Gordon and the others
Ash was still asleep
"Ash, sweetheart it's alright we're here" said Jill soothingly taking her hand looking nervously at Gordon who was stood in the doorway
"It's alright go to bed all of you" Gordon said to the others and then taking a seat next to Jill
"Why don't you go to bed you look exhausted I'll stay here" He said
"No I'll stay you go and get some rest" Jill replied Gordon was going to say something but Jill got there first
"You're on call tomorrow"
"O.k. but if you need anything just call me" He said getting up and giving her a kiss "Goodnight"