Ash had a restless night Jill managed to get a few hours sleep in between Ash's screams everyone was a bit later getting up, Ash was the first awake she saw Jill was still asleep and didn't want to move and wake her it was her fault she had had such a bad nights sleep Jill had sat in the chair and held Ash's hand all through the night she had rested her head on her other arm on the bed and fallen asleep it wasn't long before Jill woke up her neck was starting to ache
"Morning" Ash said with a quizzical look on her face
"morning, how do you feel" asked Jill
"O.k. why are you here" asked Ash
"You were Ill and you had a bad dream" replied Jill
"sorry" replied Ash
"Do you want to talk about it" asked Jill getting up and stretching
"No it's o.k. you and Dad wanted to talk to me though" replied Ash
"Well let's go down we can talk over breakfast" replied Jill
"Is Dad up then" asked Ash
"Did someone call me" said Gordon poking his head around the door
"Morning" he smiled
"Morning" replied Jill and Ash moving towards the door they walked to the kitchen in silence Gordon closed the door behind them, the conversation didn't start until they had all gotten their breakfast
"So what we were going to talk about yesterday" started Gordon
"We talked to the others, they didn't really tell us anything that we didn't know already" Gordon carried on
"But you need to tell us if you are in pain so we can help you" he continued
"Sorry" interrupted Ash
"Let me finish, Don't you ever go somewhere without telling anyone again, you had us worried sick do you know that" said Gordon
Ash just nodded and looked down at her bowl
"Ash why did you do it" asked Jill
"I just was so cross" said Ash
"That's no excuse" interrupted Gordon
"Let her finish, carry on" said Jill
"Well whatever I do is wrong and I was so mad with you... I just needed some time on my own but I knew if I asked one of you would come along to make sure" said Ash
"That's not good enough" replied Gordon
"SEE" shouted Ash getting up and going towards the door
"I open up and tell the truth and it's still wrong"
"Ash come back it's just hard for us to understand" Jill tried to reason
"No, I think it's best if we do what you had planned last night" Ash replied
"What's that" Gordon asked
"That I go away for a bit, until it's back to some kind of normal" replied Ash turning and running up the stairs not waiting for a response she got out her diary and was scribbling down everything that had just gone on while also making a list of everything she would need to go away with for a while. Meanwhile Gordon and Jill were talking downstairs
"Gordon I can't let her go what if she never comes back" said Jill
"Maybe it's not such a bad idea" replied Gordon
"No she had a tough time dealing with what sister Brigid said about her real parents not wanting her I don't think she could ever cope with the thought that we don't want her either" Jill said
"Well what if we all go away on holiday for a bit get away from here" replied Gordon
"Do you think it's possible" Jill asked apprehensively
"Give me a few hours to get things sorted" replied Gordon getting up and going to the study
"Do you want me to do anything" asked Jill getting up
"No-no" replied Gordon
Jill went upstairs and knocked softly on Ash's door
"Come in" replied Ash forgetting her diary was on the desk
"Are you alright" asked Jill
"Yeah" retorted Ash
"Truthfully" asked Jill coming in and noticing the diary open on the desk
"What's this" she asked pointing at the desk
"Nothing, it's private" said Ash moving towards it but it was too late Jill had it in her hands
"Please don't read it, it's private" pleaded Ash
"Well do you want to tell me what's in it" replied Jill
"No" replied Ash
"Well I'll just read it then" replied Jill who was saying something she had promised herself many years ago that if she ever had kids that she would never read their private diary because when her parents had done it, it had made her so angry that she could never trust them again fully after that for a long time and she promised herself from that day that she would never do it.
"Please don't read it" pleaded Ash
"One last chance are you going to tell me what's in here or am I going to have to read it" replied Jill
"Please don't make me do this" pleaded Ash
"Right you've had your chance" replied Jill walking towards the door
"You read it and I'll never talk to you again" retorted Ash
"Fine at least I'll know how to help you" replied Jill calmly going towards her bedroom
"I won't be here to help" shouted Ash slamming her door shut