They all made their way to Jill's office Gordon got the X-rays out of their sleeves and pointed
"You see here well the positioning is not quite right which we believe is causing nerve damage which is telling you your in pain where the nerves should travel from, do you see" said Gordon
"Yes I think so" replied Ash who was still trying to take it all in after a few minutes
"So what happens now" she asked
"Now we go home, your dad and I will contact the surgeon on Monday to see what he suggests and we'll take it from there" replied Jill
"O.k. I know it's not fair to ask but what do you think will happen" asked Ash
"We don't really know it could be a few things" replied Gordon
"Like what" asked Ash
"Well it might mean taking it all out, or just the screw or do nothing and hope for the best" Gordon said while placing the x-rays back in the sleeves Ash had broken down and Jill was comforting her
"It's alright we will be with you every stage of the way" said Jill trying to reassure her
"I know, it's all my fault why was I so stupid" said Ash
"You are not stupid, things like this happen to people all the time there is no reason" replied Jill
"Is it because I don't believe in him up there like sister Brigid" asked Ash
"No don't ever think like that, none of this is because you don't believe and it's not your fault" replied Gordon
"Well who's is it then" asked Ash
"No-ones it was an accident, no-one is to blame and it certainly is not your fault" replied Gordon
"But sister is always saying things happen for a reason" replied Ash
"Not everything, sister says things like that because she has her faith and that is what they believe, they believe that God makes things happen to make them stronger and so they can learn from them" said Jill
"Now let's get home and see what mess the others have left it in" said Gordon
"I'm so sorry" said Ash
They drove home in silence Ash was staring out the window trying to come to terms with everything that had just gone on. They were nearly home when Ash gasped
"Ash what is it" said Jill panicked turning round to face Ash
"I don't know I think something's coming back" replied Ash
"What from your dream" asked Jill
"Yes but it doesn't make sense" replied Ash
"Go on maybe we can help" replied Gordon
"Well sister was taking me saying I had to be more like her and I was screaming for you but it was like you couldn't hear or see me because you were carrying on with your conversation and I remember hearing her say see they never wanted you they just felt sorry for you now be a good girl and come quietly" said Ash with shudder
"That's all I can remember" she added
"You know that's not true we would never let you go because we love you don't you" said Gordon
"Yeah I know it was just a stupid dream" replied Ash with a smile
Just then they pulled into the drive way Katie had opened the front door before the car had stopped
"Is everything alright" Katie asked Jill as she stepped up to greet her
"Yes, thank-you for telling me" whispered Jill
"Right let's get you inside and make a start on dinner" said Jill
"I've already started it will be ready in about half an hour" replied Katie
"Thank you but you didn't have to" replied Gordon
"Just trying to help out" replied Katie
They got inside and took their coats and shoes off
"Right I'll give Katie a hand you two go and sit down" said Jill
"I'm not hungry I might just go on up to bed" replied Ash
"You have to eat sweetheart, keep your strength up" said Gordon
"Why don't you stretch out on the couch, I won't leave you I promise" said Gordon
Ash could see they were trying to be understanding even though she didn't really understand herself so agreed. She went in the front room and laid down on the couch within minutes she was asleep, Gordon was sat in his chair reading when Jill bought him through a drink
"Thanks I think she's exhausted" said Gordon taking the drink from Jill
"I'm not surprised between the pain and the nightmares I doubt she's been sleeping much" said Jill
"If only she had spoken to us" replied Gordon
"Well I think we are all to blame there" replied Jill
"Yes I suppose so" replied Gordon
"So what did you say to Matron" asked Gordon
"I asked her to come along with us tomorrow and we would be there to pick her up around ten unless we phoned to change why?" asked Jill
"Just wondered, she seemed more like the old matron that's all" replied Gordon
"Well I think she liked being needed again, I hope you don't mind I know we said only family but she is like family to me" said Jill
"I don't mind at all, after all she has done for this family especially this one she is as good as one of us" replied Gordon with a smile Jill gave him a kiss and went back into the kitchen to check how everything was going.
Jonathon had laid the table and Tom was getting everyone's drinks organised when they were all in the kitchen
"Thank you all I don't know what I would of done if you hadn't been here to help these last few weeks" said Jill tears in her eyes
"Mum" said Jonathon
"I'm fine really" replied Jill the kids all cuddled her
"Right let's get these plates through, Tom go tell your dad it's ready please" said Jill carry plates through the others following
"Dad, dinners ready" said Tom
"O.k. thanks Tom" replied Gordon
He gently squeezed Ash's shoulder while saying "Ash, sweetheart, dinners ready"
Ash woke rubbing her eyes
"Dinners ready" said Gordon with a smile
"O.k." replied Ash getting up slowly and holding her side
"Are you alright" asked Gordon
"Yeah just a little sore" replied Ash
Gordon followed her through into the dining room