"It's beautiful" said Jill
"I keep looking at it and seeing different parts, I can't take my eyes off of it" added Jill
"I'm glad you like it" said Ash
"Like it, I love it" said Jill giving Ash another hug
"Now, no more silly talk about the books" said Jill
"Okay, mum I do love them" said Ash
"Good" replied Jill
"Mum, I am really sorry" said Ash
"Baby girl, there is nothing to be sorry for" said Jill
"There are lots and I can never say sorry enough, it will never be enough for what I've done" replied Ash
"Sweetheart, look at me, we know how sorry you are and you will never do anything like that again, so let's draw a line under it and move on" replied Jill
"I don't know if I can" replied Ash
"Yes you can, because we are all going to do it together" replied Jill
"Yes that's right" added Gordon making them both jump
"Sorry, I just wanted to make sure everything was alright and to get another look at this" added Gordon
"I could stare at it for hours" said Jill
"Sorry to break this up, but I must get going" said Matron
"I'll take you home" said Jill
"Thank you for a lovely dinner and for this" said Matron clutching the picture frame
"Thank you for everything" replied Ash
"Mum, can I come along for the ride" asked Ash
"Yes of course" replied Jill
"Right, ready let's go" added Jill handing Ash her coat
"Ready" replied Ash
"Thank you again Gordon, it was a lovely night" said Matron
"Nothing to do with me" replied Gordon
"Bye" said Katie, Tom and Jonathon
"Bye, see you soon" replied Matron
They all got into the car
"Thank you Jill" said Matron as they pulled out of the drive way
"No trouble" replied Jill
"So are there any other plans you two have cooked up that I need to worry about" asked Jill
"That would be telling" replied Matron turning around and winking at Ash
"Yeah mum, you wouldn't want to ruin a surprise" said Ash
"That's all part of the fun" added Matron
"How did I know that would come back to bite me" said Jill with a giggle
"No, really is there anything else" asked Jill seriously
"You will have to wait and see" replied Ash
Jill knew that Ash wouldn't give anything away while Matron was still in the car so changed the subject
"So what have you got planned for tomorrow?" asked Jill
Matron was first to reply
"Nothing of importance, I was going to pop in at some point for this month's figures, what about you Ash?" said Matron
"Nothing, that I can think of, unless either of you need anything done" replied Ash
"Well that's very kind of you, I think I might have a few jobs you can do" replied Jill
"Really" replied Ash excitedly, for the first time in a long time she felt useful
"Well I can see I'm going to have to keep you busy from now on" said Jill
"Well if I had known that this was what it took, I would have done this weeks ago" replied Ash jokingly
Just then they arrived at Matrons
"Thank you for the lift, would you like to come in" asked Matron
"You're welcome, No we had better be going" replied Jill
"Bye Matron and thank you for everything" said Ash from the back seat
"Bye Ash and thank you for a lovely meal and this fantastic present" replied Matron
"And thank you, Jill for a fabulous night" added Matron
"Night Matron and thank you, see you tomorrow" replied Jill
They sat there and watched Matron safely in
"Come on then are you getting in the front" said Jill patting the seat next to her
Ash moved to the front seat, Jill just sat there looking at her
"What?" said Ash shyly
"Nothing" replied Jill
"Have I got something on my face?" asked Ash bending to look in the mirror
"No, I was just looking at how grown up my beautiful baby girl is" replied Jill
"What do you want?" asked Ash
"Nothing" replied Jill pretending to be hurt by her comments and hitting her playfully
"Ouch" said Ash playing along
"So have you and Matron got anymore plans?" asked Jill
"So there was something then" replied Ash
"Is there?" asked Jill
"What's up don't you like surprises?" asked Ash she only had to look at Jill to tell she didn't
"You don't do you, if I tell you, you have to tell me next time I ask" added Ash turning the situation around to help herself because she too didn't like surprises
"Okay, promise" said Jill seeing no way out of it
"Shake on it" said Ash, they shook hands
"No, more plans" said Ash
"Truthfully, look me in the eyes and say it" said Jill
Ash looked Jill in the eyes
"No, more plans" said Ash
"Thank goodness" replied Jill driving off
"Is there anything bothering you?" asked Jill
Ash thought about it for a minute as she stared out the window at the passing houses
"You can tell me anything" said Jill trying to coax it out of her
"I'm worried that I'm still hurting you and dad" said Ash truthfully
"What makes you say that?" asked Jill pulling the car over and looking at Ash
"Well everything I do seems to be wrong at the moment, maybe Sister was right, maybe I need to go away and learn how to be a better person" said Ash
"No, listen to me, there is nothing wrong, yes we find it difficult to understand what you are going through sometimes, but it's a lesson for us all" replied Jill
"Ash look at me, we all do things that hurt other people, or do things that they would not have done in that way. We are all learning all the time that is life. I bet if you talk to any of your grandparents they can tell you hundreds of stories about me or your dad or sister doing the wrong thing and causing pain to the ones we love. I know your brothers and sister have done plenty in the past and they hurt your dad the other day when they didn't show up for the meal" added Jill
"Sorry" replied Ash not knowing what to say she was still trying to take it all in
"Sweetheart, its life it's how you learn from it, that makes you a stronger, better person" replied Jill
"You promise to tell me if I'm hurting you" said Ash
"Yes I promise, but you have to promise me the same if anything is bothering you" replied Jill
"Promise" said Ash
When Jill was happy she moved on they were nearly home when
"I'm scared, I'll have the nightmares again" blurted out Ash
"There is nothing to be scared of" replied Jill
"I know, but they are becoming more real and often" replied Ash
"That's probably because of all that has been going on recently, they should stop now everything is sorted and you know where we are" replied Jill
"I know, but I'm scared to close my eyes" replied Ash
"Why, what is it you are seeing" asked Jill pulling on to the drive
"Well it's like a string of dreams, memories ohh I don't know what to call them" said Ash
"Okay, go on" replied Jill trying to encourage her
Ash started to explained about her dreams while Jill just sat there listening trying to take it all in they all seemed to involve sister trying to take her and both Jill and Gordon either not able to hear her or nowhere to be seen. Telling Jill all about her dreams were bringing the images flooding back. Ash started to cry
"Ohh baby girl it's alright" said Jill wiping away the tears
"That's not all of it" said Ash
"It's alright you don't have to say anymore if you don't want to" replied Jill
"I want to this is the last one" replied Ash
"I wake up in a room it's dark, I try the door it opens, so I walk down the corridor trying the doors as I go some open some don't but they are all empty, then I come to the last door and it opens and sister is inside, I ask for both of you but she acts like she has never heard of any of you, she passes me some clothes and tells me to get dressed it's time to be more like her and that's when I wake up" said Ash
"Baby girl, why didn't you tell us earlier" asked Jill giving her a hug
"I was going to the other night but you got called out" replied Ash
"Then when you came back you both seemed so tired" Ash added
"You can tell us anything at anytime no matter what, when" started Jill
"I've had the dream in full the night before I was going to tell you all the other times it's been one or two parts together before I've woken up" butted in Ash
"Right well you must come and get us when it starts" stated Jill
Gordon who was in the study when they arrived thought they had been a long time so went out to check on everyone
"Sweetheart what is, it" asked Gordon seeing Ash had been crying
"I'm sorry" said Ash
"Come here" said Jill who was out of the car and by Gordon
Ash got out of the car and gave them both a big hug they all made their way indoors
"Right let's get you in bed young lady, you've got a busy day tomorrow" said Gordon
"What?" asked Ash
"I haven't said anything yet" whispered Jill to Gordon
"Well that list I'm making for you, you're not getting off that easily" said Jill to Ash
"Night mum, dad, love you" replied Ash giving them both a kiss
"Night sweetheart" replied Gordon
"Night, sweet dreams" added Jill