Chapter 4 Broken Dreams
Mavis couldn't cry anymore; she stares at the starless night. She came to terms by this point she will never see a fairy. Due to the amount of crying she had done, and she figured a beautiful light creature would be horrified to even come close to this dark creature she had become.
Mavis crunched up her nose feeling renewal of tears forming in her eyes at the heartbreak of never being able to fulfill her desire to see a real fairy. Her whole childhood she got by with the mindset of behaving and not crying to someday meet a fairy. She put her hands on her mouth, tears streaming down the sides of her face, she had to admit having the sky starless hit too close to home with her. She was lost within herself with nothing to guide her, and she felt the little light she had within herself was getting swallowed up in this void of darkness.
She claws at her cheeks, cursing at the tears that wouldn't stop flowing. She couldn't allow herself to lose everything – she wanted to at least have something that would stay the same – she needed it.
She screams at herself, hating herself to be put in this predicament…if she had just perfected that spell! She stares at the darkness; she didn't want to admit to herself that she should have listened to Zeref. Zeref… Mavis frowns as she thought of the Black Wizard. She never considered putting her knowledge of the curse and her teacher together to the stories of the evil Black Wizard… he was too nice to what the stories had described him. Mavis raises her hands in front of her eyes, in a way she understands where the misconception of Zeref's deeds came from. This curse… no matter what kind of person you are, it will make you into a murderer. Mavis stares into the oblivion, no she was a murderer before the curse – but it was justified… Mavis frowns, she wondered if Zeref had ever killed someone without the curse.
Maybe she will ask him whenever he finds her again, she noticed he always seems to know her location… it gave her some comfort to know she had a sort of guardian angel looking out for her. She smiles lightly, maybe it was a little comforting to know she wasn't alone. It must have been lonely for him to walk alone his whole life…
"It didn't seem you'd heeded my warning." A voice remarked somewhere behind her.
Mavis's heart skipped hearing his voice, she felt relieved to not be alone. "It's you…" She breathed out, she couldn't lift her head, her body was exhausted from the turmoil.
"Of course, I knew you couldn't help yourself with the curse." He responded, Mavis frowns hearing the slight amused tone in his voice.
"You will help me…?" Mavis asked turning her head to each side trying to get a glimpse of him.
"Help you?" Zeref mused over the question, he walked around her, keeping a distance from her reach of gaze.
Mavis struggled to find where his voice was coming from, "Yes – I've been thinking… We both have the curse, maybe we can cancel the effects off one another." Mavis figured with both of them together the effects of the curse would be canceled or better, yet their curses would affect each other to end their suffering.
Zeref narrowed his eyes, at her suggestion. He shook his head, his eyes grew red at the memories. How they once thought they were invincible against each other's curse – but this Mavis thought differently. She wanted the curse to work against each other, equally so both could die without harming another soul. No… Zeref snapped.
Zeref teleported, Mavis gasps as he materialized on top of her, his hand was underneath her chin, forcing her to look into his eyes. Mavis stares at him in shock seeing the anger within his red eyes, she was terrified by the darkness within them. "That won't work. One of us will conquer the other leaving the other behind to walk the world alone. What happened to being there for each other?" Zeref shook his head trying to get the memory out of his head of that day where Mavis lied to him leaving him to walk the world another century. He cursed himself for the fleeting memory that broke him, I won't let history to repeat itself.
Mavis struggled underneath his strong grasp, seeing the rage and hurt within his eyes, "I'm sorry! I just can't be like you!"
Zeref laughed, "You know nothing about me, you know nothing about suffering. You think killing a few dozen people is horrifying? How about thousands? Millions? How about living for centuries and watching the world you knew changed right before your eyes?" Zeref scowled at her, red eyes staring into her soul, "I despise the world – it took everything from me. You know nothing and it upsets me how young you are and yet you want to die so easily." Zeref let go of her leaning back to give her space. He didn't anticipate himself to break down, he figured it was due to how similar the atmosphere was to the old world – how close he was to her on the forest floor...
"I'm sorry – that was selfish of me. I'm just scared." Mavis responded, having the energy to sit up.
Zeref scowls turning away, "It's a lot to take it. Just please don't talk like that again." Zeref cooled down hiding his emotions once again. He didn't want to lose his chance to have August, he couldn't afford it.
Mavis stared at him, "What happened to you?"
Zeref chuckled lifelessly, "What hasn't…"
Mavis gazed at him, shocked to see the change of his manner – Would I become unhinged with my emotions? Mavis could see the brokenness within those eyes past the anger, "You killed someone you loved?"
Zeref froze, he didn't expect to hear her sound so sympathetic after he lost his grip of his rage. Zeref smirked, his eyes gleam red slightly by remembering how painful it must have felt to be ripped apart and be erased into nothingness, "Yes, we knew each other for a long time. I loved her too much and that killed her." Yes, he loved her once, but that love turned to hatred and it took everything in him to not allow himself to express that – especially to her younger self.
Mavis frowns, "What happened after? It must have been hard."
Zeref sneers slightly, oh he wanted to tell her. He wanted to see that horrified face once again, but he savored it for another time. He had to mend his mistakes from his rage to ease her back into his grasp. Zeref let the sneer go as he faced her, "I lost my control, I cursed the world for making me alone again… She made me unhinged, and I was dangerous to every living being. You see, love is very unkind to people who are under this curse."
Mavis watched as Zeref sat down next to her staring at the black sky. He became silent, she clutched his hand, "Well, you don't have to worry about being alone anymore. We are going to be in this together."
Zeref flinched by her words, it was too bittersweet. His memories mocked him with the time when his old-world Mavis said those similar words just before he killed her with a kiss. He didn't believe this Mavis; she was just the same, wanting the easy way out of the curse. Zeref responded meekly, "Perhaps."
Mavis frowns, puzzled by the bipolar emotions, "Do you believe there is a chance to be cured?"
Zeref shrugged, he was crashing… he hated the mockery of this event – there was no cure and to have the same person that assured him once of finding a cure asked him if there was one infuriated him. "I haven't found one, but since there are two of us now, I'm sure things could look brighter on us." Zeref remarked.
Mavis nods, pushing away her terror as she stands up, pulling the Black Wizard with her. "Well come on. Let's start." Mavis urged, she wanted to get as far away from the death she had caused, and this little adventure might distract her.
Zeref narrowed his eyes at her determination he always hated how she can be so optimistic. "Fine." He responded, freeing his hand from her grasp. She frowns walking next to him as they adventured into the dark forest.
Mavis noticed the guarded demeanor and it unsettled her, "Hey Zeref… why are you uncomfortable being around me? You weren't before."
Zeref glanced at her slightly, "Sorry… when you live as long as I have the past and present tend to overlap each other." Truth be told, the past was literally clawing at him, wanting to repeat Mavis's demise. He guessed Ankhseram was trying to will the same outcome as the old world. Zeref gritted his teeth, No, this is my domain. You have no power on me anymore Ankhseram. Zeref knew those emotions were memories from the old world that were trying to be recreated. He didn't love Mavis – he despised her, and it took all of his energy to not torture her. Zeref scowls, forcing himself to get a grip on reality.
"How?" Mavis inquired as they walked deeper into the unknown, she was oblivious of the growing fury within the Black Wizard.
Zeref sighs as he demolished the God's attempts to override his emotions, "The woman I used to love wanted to find a cure, what we are doing now is giving me a sense of déjà vu."
Mavis frowns, knowing that his loved one died before she could fulfill her promise, "Well don't worry I will fulfill her promise."
Zeref smirked slightly at the irony, "That would be grateful."
Mavis smiled at him with her bright smile, "Yay! I'm glad I can make one of us better."
"It amazes me how you can be so cheerful considering what you have been through today." Zeref remarked.
"I figured since I can't have my dream, maybe I can help you with yours." Mavis responded a blush formed on her cheeks.
Zeref rolls his eyes at her façade of innocence, "Being cured is one of many dreams."
Mavis's eyes sparkled, hoping Zeref would open up more. When he didn't elaborate more, she frowns gazing down at the forest floor. Mavis gazed at him; her questions had been multiplying by the seconds of the silent stroll. "Why didn't your curse affect us when you were teaching us?"
Zeref rolled his head to give her a blank stare, "It's because I don't care about your lives. You were all amusement to pass my time."
Mavis glared at him, "I don't believe that. If you didn't care you wouldn't have involved yourself when we went to Magnolia."
Zeref smirked at her, "One thing you need to know about me, dear Mavis, is that I tend to be detached from the world. Years go by me in a blink of an eye. You will understand once you undergo a battle within yourself from the ordeal of this curse."
Mavis narrowed her eyes, "Then why would you go out of your way to help me?"
Zeref smiled at her, "Because you are different from others, no matter how many years go by I can never get you out of my head."
Mavis blushed heavily, Zeref figured she would – in a way that statement could be seen as romantic. Mavis hugged him, Zeref stared back at her. She gazed up at him – he watched her puzzledly seeing no hatred or fear behind her eyes. Mavis stood on her tippy toes and gave him a soft kiss. Zeref froze feeling her warm lips on him, it felt so different compared to having her cold one once his curse took her. He smirked slightly as she pulled away with an embarrassed blush on her cheeks. Zeref captured her lips with his forcefully, his eyes became red as he watched her moan into his kiss. You are so gullible Mavis…But I did promise you I would make sure you enjoy this reunion…
Zeref picked her up so she can wrap her legs around his waist, he sneers at her as she heatedly bites his lips. Zeref supposed he would tease her for a few moments. To have her desire him so much, she will do anything for him. Zeref pushed her back against a tree forcefully, Mavis gasped as he nipped at the side of her neck. Mavis's moans echoed throughout the silent forest; she roughly ran her hands through his hair as his nips went lower.
Zeref narrowed his eyes at the death magic that surrounded them, he couldn't sense his own at work here, his eyes fell on Mavis's flushed face. Zeref could feel its magic passing through him, attempting to take his life – he forcefully kissed her feeling the magic trying to suffocate him. Could she really kill me? Zeref felt Fairy Heart pulse through him as if it was shielding him from her curse.
He growled, Of course. Now she had the ability to love and kill me… Your attempts to be rid of me isn't going to work Ankhseram. I will have my son and I will conquer this world and make it my own! Zeref forced Mavis onto to ground, she clawed at his clothing – wanting more. Zeref grabbed her hands forcing them onto the cold forest floor. Zeref pulled back and smirked at her, "We have all the time in the world, my dear Mavis… No need to rush."
Zeref kissed her on the lips lightly, Mavis frowns at him as she tried to calm down her breathing, "You're such a tease."
Zeref chuckled slightly, "Forgive me, I had been used to being alone for centuries. I'm sure if you were in my situation you would want to savor every second. I want to relish in our development; years go by so easily and I don't want a beautiful moment like this to be swept away with time."
Mavis smiled shyly at him, she supposed he had a point. They were immortal, there was no need to rush into things, especially with there being so many mysteries surrounding them. Mavis sighs, "I hope less than a century wouldn't be pushing it?"
Zeref couldn't help but laugh at her impatience, "I'm sure the moment would come in the near future." Two years in fact… Zeref mused, at this rate it would be wise to allow Mavis to get a better handle on her emotions. It irritated him how it took another chance of life to allow Mavis to develop more feelings for him – giving her some sort of advantage over him to kill him, but Fairy Heart was able to protect him. For now, the knowledge might be beneficial in his studies for the future on being freed from this curse. However, August was on his mind and he was Zeref's main objective to gain, the curse will have to wait…
Starting to transition into Zeref's vendettas! Will Ankhseram prevail or will Zeref overcome the God of Life and Death?
Poor Mavis, giving up her childhood dream and trying so hard to help Zeref.
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