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Chapter VII

Speak

Dear Dairy,

Sometimes I wish I never met him. But then I think of where I would be if I never did and the consequences behind it. Even though the pain in my heart is too much to bear…

…I don't regret it.

-R

Eight years earlier.

There were too many eyes for her to be in the same room.

Her hand squeezed Sesshomaru's arm tightly, feeling the heavy weight on her shoulders. Rin knew that each one of those eyes on her was silently judging her. She could feel it. Even after she left her demons behind, there were still the dark angels that hid in the light she was under. Still, Rin let out a bright smile, bowing to everyone that acknowledged her.

For tonight, she would be a princess and live in the fairy-tale she always dreamed of being in.

Until the clock struck midnight and she turned back into a pumpkin.

"Rin, I'm so glad you decided to come," Inutaisho spoke up, taking one of her hands. "And Sesshomaru seems to be happy about it as well."

"Hn."

Rin glanced at Sesshomaru's icy expression for a sec, and turned back to the other demon. "Yes, I'm glad I made it myself. Thank you."

"And you look beautiful in that gown too," he commented, making Rin blush.

"Father, she is my date, not yours," Sesshomaru chimed.

"Yes, well, better take your date to get some food before someone else scoops her up," he winked, and walked away to join another chatting group.

She felt his push, leading her into the opposite direction and into the area of the buffet. Her stomach growled, but she wanted to vomit. The array of food lying out was too much for Rin to bear. She didn't deserve something so beautiful. Last time she had a decent meal was….

Christmas Eve of that year.

Rin felt the tears swell in her eyes when Sesshomaru grabbed a plate.

"What's the matter?" he asked, pausing.

She carefully wiped the tears without ruining Kagome's job, and smiled. "I'm fine, it's just…the food smells so good. Too good."

"Rin, when was the last time you had something to eat?"

She blinked, looking away. "This morning."

"Rin, don't lie to me. You know what I mean; now when have you had some decent food?"

She bit her lip, and in a clear voice said, "Ten years ago before my family was murdered."

And her eyes shot up to his after those words.

His eyes widened at her for an instant and Rin lowered her head again. Moments later, she felt him take her hand and start leading her away from the crowd. He wanted to know more, that was what she knew. But she wasn't ready.

I wasn't ready.

She stopped him before they exited the ballroom, and she smiled. "Can…can we dance first? At least once. Let me live in a dream…just this once."

He nodded, and she led him back.

In the middle of the dancefloor, Rin lived out her dream. They stared into each other's eyes while people around them stopped and watched. Their eyes were on her again, but it was for a whole other reason. Rin felt the butterflies in her stomach swarm with excitement. She was happy they were watching her. As if she could read their minds, they sent positive energy her way; filled with light and warmth.

I was home.

And Rin started humming the familiar tune she always hummed on rainy days. But this time she hummed it with the music playing, matching each tune with the note of the music. Memories filled her mind to when she was little and her mother played the song during festive times. The soft chimes filled her emotions, flooding her eyes with tears. She sniffed and watched Sesshomaru's eyes narrowed in concern.

"Rin," he leaned in. She blushed. "are you alright?"

She nodded. "Yes, this song just brings back some old memories."

He leaned in closer until she felt his forehead against her. He was so close now, only inches away. She thought for an instant he would kiss her in front of this crowd, but then she mentally shook her head and called herself ridiculous for thinking so.

For what cold demon would ever kiss a human in public?

In that moment, she lost focus on the eyes on her and only thought of him. In her mind, they were the only two people on Earth. And she smiled, closing her eyes and imaging they were dancing in a start sky in the middle of the Milky Way.

"Rin," his voice echoed into her ears, opening her eyes to his golden ones.

They had stopped dancing and the people seemed to have dispersed into their own little groups again, and she looked up to Sesshomaru in question. He only narrowed his eyes slightly and gave her a small smile.

"Let's get out of here."

She nodded as he led her quietly out of the ballroom and up the red velvet staircase. Her hand gripped his, following him back to his room. Her eyes widened at the realization on what he might do and the deep feeling inside on what she wanted from him. She wanted his love. She wanted to feel alive. She wanted to be his

Only if it was for the night.

But once in the room, he kept walking past the bed and outside onto the balcony. The rain had stopped, leaving a brisk freshness in the air. And she looked towards the darkness in the forest's horizon. She wondered briefly what could be lurking in those dark shadows beyond the boarder, but stopped, not daring to think of any horrible things that night. All she wanted was to be happy and be by Sesshomaru's side. She turned to him with a smile as he crept closer to her, taking a hold of her waist and pulling her closer to him. Her hands rested on his chest as they locked eyes, gazing, almost reading each other's though not understanding. Rin never knew what Sesshomaru was thinking, he was always wore a stone cold expression.

It was one thing I liked about him.

She liked how he only showed his rare expressions towards her. It made her feeling unique towards the thousands of others around her.

"Rin," he whispered, leaning down to her ear. She shivered under his breath, closing her eyes and savouring his voice. "Be mine."

And her eyes shot open as they looked in each other's eyes once more.

Then she said in a quiet voice.

"I'm yours."

And he kissed her.

xXx

What started off with a simple kiss, led to more.

Pieces of clothes scattered the ground like trail mix on a path. Their hands quickly made work of ridding the barriers that blocked them from being together. Rin's hands shook as she undid his buttons. She was so nervous that her fingers kept slipping. She breathed out in frustration before Sesshomaru helped her, taking apart his shirt exposing a tone, pale chest and abs. Her hands silently touched the perfect sculpted figure, carefully, as if it would shatter under her fingers, waking her up from her dream.

While she moved her fingers on his skin, she never noticed his work on her dress, until she felt the chill on her bare skin. She immediately covered herself with her arms, protecting her scars that tattooed her skin. Marks of abuse and torment over the years. Dark memories that reminded her of the past. The darkness was overcoming her again, and she was scared to wake up. But she felt long fingers lift her chin up, pulling her back into the light of her dream.

"You are so beautiful," he whispered.

He kissed her softly as she felt him pull her to the bed. There she was place gently on her back, feeling the silk sheets against her skin, and his warm body lean over her, kissing her again. Their hands explored each other's bodies, getting used to their own styles. Rin could feel the tips of Sesshomaru's claw gently scale her skin and she let out a small gasp. She could feel his kisses on her neck, hoping that his kisses would scatter every inch of her skin. She wanted to be covered with him.

"Rin," she heard his mumbling voice, "are you sure you want this?"

She gave him a nod, closing her eyes. "I want you. Always."

And she felt his deep kiss on her lips once more, his hands moving over her hips and up to one of her breast nipples. She gasped against his lips as she felt his fingers exploring her body. She arched her back, mentally asking for more. She was drowning in an ecstasy sea.

His other hand moved down past her hips and slowly entered her one finger at a time. Her eyes shot open, feeling the strange alien feeling inside her. Her fingers clenched the silk sheets tightly, afraid if she let go, she would only drown more.

He whispered sweet words of comfort into her ear as she felt him enter her. She gasped out in pain shortly after, feeling the stretch.

"Rin, tell me if I should stop," he breathed heavily into her ear.

She shook her head. "No, keep going. I'll be okay."

Then she clung to him like a child to his mother as they rocked back and forth. Their heavy breathing filled the room in a warm glow. Sweat glistened on their body, sparkling against the light of the shining moon. And she screamed out, feeling the last push of energy, before they both collapsed together. Their hands intertwined as their bodies moved close on the bed. They faced each other, their eyes still opened to their faces. Rin smiled softly as Sesshomaru's fingers moved across her cheek. This moment was a dream she never wanted to awaken from.

"It's like a dream," she whispered. "This night. This moment. It's a dream."

He smiled. "It's no dream, Rin. Everything you experienced is real. This moment, this love, is real."

"Love?" she gazed at him in question, tears forming in her ears. "You love me?"

His forehead connected with hers and she smiled brightly. "Forever and always."

"Then promise me something."

"Anything."

"Never wake me up from this fairy tale. Never let me go."

She felt his warm lips on her forehead, whispering, "I promise."

"Then I must tell you something."

She watched him pull away in question as she sat herself up, covering her body with the sheets.

"Something that happened to me a long time ago."

She looked at him in the darkness for a moment, finding the words to form the nightmare that haunted her life. The moment when everything turned and she found herself alone.

"I'm going to tell you my story."

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