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A day after Kousei had his surgery, his neurologist, Doctor Nicole came back to look at his patient along with his oncologist. He lost some of his hair due to the surgery he just had and so, he wanted to wear a beanie on his head. His father gave it to him after he woke up. His eyes were a bit empty and his head's been giving him so much pain.

"Good morning, sir," Nicole told Takahiko.

"Why are you here? Can't my son go yet?" he asked the two of them. "You already removed the tumor, right?"

"The tumor we took off from his head is malignant which means we are positive that your son does have cancer," Fred informed him. "Your son is very sick, sir."

Takahiko went frozen. At that moment, he held his son's hand which became sweaty.

"We already finished most of his tests and we can now begin treatments for your son," Dr. Nicole informed him. "The surgery we gave him was one of our procedures to discover if his tumor is cancerous, sir. It would still need to be removed again, though."

"Before that, your neurosurgeon told me to tell you that you may experience pain while walking after he removed some parts of the tumor. He only took a sample of the tumor. He's looking through if he can take it all off with another surgery," Dr. Fred informed Kousei. "We promise we'd keep helping you cope up."

"He does have brain cancer, sir," Dr. Nicole informed Takahiko. "He's nineteen years old. We need to quickly give your son radiation therapy and chemotherapy before the cancer cells spread out more in his body."

"Luckily, it was diagnosed early," Dr. Fred told him. "Even so, we are still in the process of grading it."

"He would need quick medications and some more tests for us to learn if he is still really in the early grade level of his cancer,"Doctor Nicole informed Arima Takahiko. "We'll be beginning the treatment with radiation therapy first."

A few seconds later, all three of them became aware that Kousei began gripping his father's shirt. His hands trembled in fear after he heard that he does have cancer. Takahiko looked at his son who's struggling to stay strong on his bed and so, he asked them to leave for a while. They understood and so, left him for a while to talk to his son. Kousei began to cry harder. "Dad, it's not true, right? I can't have cancer! My career is just starting! Japan is looking at me, too. Dad! I can't have cancer!"

His father quickly hugged him as he allow him to cry on his chest. "I'll get a second opinion. Don't worry. I'll do my best to confirm if they truly diagnosed you right. For now, go to sleep."

As he felt his father's comforting touch at his back, he went back to sleep afterwards. He doesn't want to be too sick at all.

The next day, he found out that he couldn't even hold his chopsticks right which depressed him too much. He left his rice and miso which was brought by Seto Hiroko, uneaten on his table. He forced his hands to hold the tempura and just eat it. After that, he went back to sleep and covered himself up with the blue blanket of his bed. He knows that at that same day, treatment on his cancer would start to be given to him.

He was also warned by his oncologist, physicians and neurologist that chemo does have a lot of side effects and he should be ready in all of the treatments that will be given to him. He understood them all even it actually hurts him. Most of all, he is afraid to do it.

That same day, Takahiko went at Doctor Nicole's office to ask her for the scans. He wanted to have another doctor to look at those scans, after all. He can't still accept that his son's diagnosed with cancer.

"What can I help you?" she asked him.

Takahiko walked closer to him. "Can I borrow my son's MRI and CT Scan? I also would want to borrow my son's PET Scan."

Doctor Nicole felt confused. "Why would you need them?"

"I want to have a second opinion,"he answered her. "I don't want to accept yet that my son is suffering from cancer."

Doctor Nicole smiled and so, she nodded. "If that's what you want then, it's fine. I can refer you to another neurologist here in Upper East Side Manhattan."

"Thank you, doctor," he replied.

A few seconds later, three large envelopes were given to him and he was referred to go to a neurologist in New York Cancer Center.

"Sir, I know you're upset and all but sometimes we just need to accept things. The chemotherapy and radiation therapy begins today," she told him. "I hope you do help him cope up with the changes in his life and cooperate on the treatment we need to give him."

Takahiko looked at her. "Thank you for treating my son but I hope you don't say things you actually don't know."

Nicole felt a bit hurt by his words. "Do you know why I pursued neurology?"

Takahiko stopped in his tracks. "Why did you choose it?"

"It's all because I lost a female Japanese friend before when she died due to cancer. She did have a tumor in her brain, too. She's a pianist while I'm studying my first years as a medical student in Tokyo University."

"What's the name of the female Japanese friend you are talking about? Can I know?"

"Her name's Kihara Saki."

"Are you sure that's her name?"

"Does it ring any bell?"

"That's my wife you're talking about."

"I... I didn't know. I'm sorry. More than that, thank you for telling me."

"Never knew that my Japanese female friend kept a secret out of me after so many years that we didn't see each other. She just told me she had a terminal brain cancer. I was about to get my specialization at that time," Dr. Nicole spoke up. "Her death brought me to choose Neurology."

"What will you do now? You're looking through your friend's son," Fred asked her. "I'm sure you'd want to save him since you weren't there when your best friend was suffering in Japan."

"I'll keep treating him while her son is here," she spoke up.

To their surprise, Fred's phone beeped. He and Nicole are being called to go to Room 327, Kousei's room. He's having trouble breathing. "Let's go?"

Seto Hiroko was relieved when Kousei began breathing properly after he was given medicines as he slept soundly again after a while.

"Doctor, he's not responding well to chemo. After he had his first pills, he already began showing strange reactions. He kept on vomiting and complaining about stomach aches," she told her. "When I heard that he fought with his father before he was brought here, I was surprised. Kousei's not like that."

"Behavioral changes is one of the symptoms of Brain Cancer," Fred explained while he's giving him another medicine in his IV tube. It's also a part of his chemotherapy. "He would be given a lot of pills, medicines and another surgery. We only did biopsy him, you see."

After a while, Doctor Nicole went inside.

"How is he?" she asked her. "Is there something we have to be concerned?"

"There's not that much, yet. He's just sleeping after he had his radiation therapy today," Seto Hiroko told them. "He's very tired."

"Kaori," murmured Kousei in his sleep. "Kaori."

Seto Hiroko immediately went beside him and held his hand. Kousei seemed to be dreaming about Miyazono Kaori.

After a while, tears left his unconscious eyes.His eyes opened.

"Why are you looking at me like that?" Kousei asked him. "I'm fine. You don't need to pity me, yet."

Hiroko dried her own tears. "How are you feeling?"

"Bad. I feel like a rock. Can't I really go home?" he asked her. "I hate staying for so long here."

"You can't go yet since you're still very sick," Seto Hiroko told him. "They gave you the first round of chemotherapy and radiation today but tomorrow, you would need to have a surgery again. I already signed the consent papers. You will have to go and get the surgery. They explained to me that they would need to get the tumor out or it'll make more trouble for you. Doctor Fuji Daisuke explained to me in depth about your sickness. You want to hear it?"

"No," Kousei immediately interjected. "I don't think I need to know."

After that, he asked her to help him sit comfortably in his bed. It's also been days that he had been wearing hospital clothes.

"Promise me that you will fight it, okay?" Seto Hiroko told her. "Be brave, Kousei."

Kousei understood her.

He can't cry.

He wonders why he can't even cry.

More so, he's actually more afraid than sad. His fear is obvious on how his two hands shake on his bed.

"Will I be able to survive?" he asked her. "What will happen to me after the surgery?"

"You will still need to keep up with the recovery and most of all, you will still need to have radiation therapy and chemotherapy. I already told Juilliard School that you're too sick and you can't keep up with your studies that much yet," she told her while tears were falling down her eyes. "They know your condition already and they wish for your quick recovery."

At that time, the emotions that were kept inside of him began to blow up already as he also began to cry already. "Will I die like mom? I don't want to leave, dad. I'm the only one left. If I die, he won't have anyone already."

"You won't die, okay?" she told him. "Trust me. You will not die."

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Technical Terms:

*A positron emission tomography (PET) scan is an imaging test that allows your doctor to check for diseases in your body. The scan uses a special dye that has radioactive tracers. These tracers are injected into a vein in your arm. Your organs and tissues then absorb the tracer.

*A computed tomography (CT) scan uses X-rays to make detailed pictures of parts of your body and the structures inside your body. During the test, you will lie on a table that is attached to the CT scanner. The CT scanner is a large doughnut-shapedmachine.

*A magnetic resonance imaging (MRI) scan is a common procedure used by hospitals around the world. MRI uses a strong magnetic field and radio waves to create detailed images of the organs and tissues within the body.

*The Juilliard School located in the Lincoln Center for the Performing Arts on the Upper West Side of Manhattan, New York City, is a performing arts conservatory established in 1905. It is informally referred to as Juilliard.