This chapter is officially rated T for implying suicide.

This won't have specific talk of suicide, but it will imply it. Please don't read if it is a trigger for you.

This is part one of the two chapters I am writing for Hippiechip81.

If you or anyone you know are having suicidal thoughts, please contact this crisis hotline: 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433).

Eli: 18

Rosa: 17

JJ: 10

Emily: 15

July 3rd, 1995. 2:45 p.m. JJ's P.O.V.

"Hey, Em. Are you still going to take me to the movies tonight. Bella and Lacey want to know so they can ask their moms." I tell Em.

"Yep. I'll take you if you still want to go." Emily says.

"I just got off the phone with Bella. She said Lacey called and said all she had to do was ask her mom and then she would come right over to my house so you don't have to go to so many houses."

"All right. I'll come over now, and we'll all wait together."

"Ok, I'll see you in a few minutes." I hang the phone up and go into the living room.

"Mama, Emily said she'll be here in a few minutes. Then we're gonna go to the movies."

"Ok, baby. I love you. Be good good for Emily, ok? Is her dad coming with ya'll?"

"I don't know. Probably because she said she Can't drive alone yet."

Just then Rosalyn comes downstairs.

"Hey, sis. Where you headin'?" She asks.

"To the movies with Em, Lacey, and Bella."

"Cool. Hey, when you get back you wanna watch another movie with me?"

"Sure." I say. Then I hear a horn honk outside meaning Bella is here. I run outside and hug her and then I see Emily walking up the side walk.

"Hi, Emily." Bella says, giving Em a high-five.

"Hey, Bell. How are you?"

"I'm good. I can't wait to get to the movies.

The I see Uncle James walking up the sidewalk.

"Uncle James!" I yell, running over to him.

"Hey. Who are we waiting on?"

"This is Bella." I point to Bella. "We're just waiting on Lacey. Her mom is going to drop her off in a few minutes."

"Hey, Jay. What kind of birthday party are you going to have this year?" Bella asks.

"I might have a butterfly themed party and everyone can come in my backyard and help me collect pictures of butterflies." I say excitedly.

"Ohh, that sounds fun." Bella replies.

About twenty minutes later Maddie shows up. We all climb into Uncle James' car and head to movies. Once there we go inside and wait in line.

"Do you guys want to share one big bucket or do you want your own?" Uncle James' asks.

"I want t o share with Emmy." I say. Em and I always share popcorn when we come to the movies.

"I guess I'll share with Bella then." Maddie says. Once we get the popcorn and candy we go into the theater to watch our movie.

July 12th, 1995. 12:30 p.m.

I'm eleven years old today! I can't believe how fast this year has went by. Today is my birthday party. My party supplies are all butterfly themed and my mom bought me and my friends nets to catch butterflies with outside after lunch.

"Mama, today is my birthday!" I say excitedly, skipping down the stairs.

"I know! I can't believe how fast my baby is growing up!" Mom says, wrapping me in a hug.

"Hey, baby. There's someone waiting for you in the living room. Why don't you go see what it is?" My dad says. I look confused but walk into the living room anyways.

When I get in there I see…Emily! Yay, she made it!

"Emily! You made it!"

"Of course I did, Bug. I told you I wouldn't miss your birthdays for anything."

July 31st, 1995. 10:00 p.m.

JJ: 11

Rosa: 17

JJ's P.O.V.

Late in the night on a Saturday in July, I get a knock on my bedroom door. It's my sister Rosa.

"JJ, can I talk to you for a minute?" Ros asks me.

"Yeah, sure. What's up?" I ask, setting aside the book I was reading.

"I need to tell you something, ok? But, first." She holds out her hand and opens it. In it is her favorite heart-shaped necklace.

"I need you to take this." She hands to me.

"Ros, I…I don't know what to say. I mean, this is your favorite necklace. Why are you giving to me?"

"Because I know you'll take good care of it. I need you to know something ok?" Rosa says.

"Ok. What is it?"

"I need you to know that whatever happens, I'll always love you. No matter what, ok?"

"Ok. But…what's going on Ros. You've been acting really weird these past few weeks. Did something happen at school?"

"No, no, nothing like that. Just know that I'll love you and El, and Mama and Daddy forever. No matter what, ok?"

"Ok, yeah. I know that. And I'll always love you, too." Rosa nods, kisses my forehead, and then gets up to leave. I watch her close the door and then glance at the necklace in my hand.

I'm very confused.

Rosa has been acting really weird these past few weeks, telling me she loves me, joining in on mine and Emmy's movie nights, even offering to come to the park with us.

Maybe I'm just over thinking. I mean, she would tell me if something was wrong.

Right?

Outside JJ's room. Rosaline's P.O.V.

I close the door and sigh, leaning against it. There. I am done. I've told my parents thank you for all they do. And I've said goodbye to Eli, saving JJ for last.

I know JJ was suspicious. I just hoped she wasn't suspicious enough to go to our parents.

I sigh again and then I walk down the hall to my room. I take a moment to turn and look at JJ's and Eli's rooms down the hall, across from each other.

This was the only way to end the pain. To be able to not feel this way anymore.

I whisper 'goodbye' and 'I love you' one last time.

Then I turn, grip my door handle, and walk inside my room. I know that if this turns out the way I want, then it'll be the very last time I touch the door handle. Or anything else in the house for that matter.

Taking a deep breath I open the door and walk inside. I go over to my desk and sit down. I take it out and close my eyes.

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