Chapter 31

Tuesday, June 11th

9:00pm

Raven walks into the living room and sees Logan, Dick, and Victor watching wrestling. She stands behind the couch where Logan is sitting.

"I didn't think wrestling was on TV on Tuesday nights," she says.

"It's not WWE," Logan replies. "This is Impact Wrestling. It's an independent promotion."

"I thought all wrestling was WWE."

"There's other wrestling promotions. WWE is just the biggest one. Basically any company that is not WWE is known as an independent promotion, or the indies. Impact is one of those. There's also New Japan Pro Wrestling, Ring of Honor, All Elite Wrestling. Those four are the most well-known of the indies."

"I'll take your word for it."

"We don't usually watch Impact Wrestling," Dick says. "But nothing else was on."

"Boobplex!" Vic shouts from where he is sitting.

"What?" Raven asks.

"Joey Ryan just hit a boobplex on his opponent," Dick explains.

"Am I supposed to know what that is?" Raven asks.

"It's basically a German suplex, which is when a wrestler is behind their opponent and wraps their arms around their opponent's waist," Logan says. "Then that wrestler lifts their opponent and throws them behind them over their head. One of the moves Joey Ryan is known for is called the boobplex. When he is wrestling a female wrestler, he gets into position for a German suplex but instead of grabbing her waist, he grabs her boobs and then does the move."

"Males wrestle females?"

"It doesn't happen a lot," Logan says. "WWE has gone completely away from it. Some of the indie promotions will occasionally have intergender matches though."

"He's going for the porn plex now," Vic says.

"What?" Raven asks.

"Just watch," Vic says. Raven looks at the TV to see the male competitor, who she assumes is Joey Ryan, holding the arm of his female opponent. Ryan makes his opponent grabs his crotch then flexes three times as if he is powering up. His opponent is then flipped and he goes for the cover and gets the win.

"What did I just see?" Raven asks.

"That is the porn plex," Dick says. "It's the move Joey Ryan is most known for."

"It's disturbing," Raven says.

"That's his character," Vic says. "He acts as a very sexual guy who has a special dick. Whenever people try to hit him with a low blow, they come off injured instead of him. He also has a move where he pulls a lollipop from his trunks and sticks it in his opponent's mouth then he hits them with a superkick."

"I regret coming in here now and seeing this," Raven says.

"Well you could've gone to the mall with Kori and Bee instead," Dick counters.

"Manicures and pedicures are not my thing," Raven says. "Besides, I wanted to meditate."

"Are you stressed?" Logan asks, looking up at her. "You usually only meditate when you're stressed."

"I'm fine," Raven replies. "Although after seeing that, I'm not sure what I'm feeling."

"Not all wrestling is like that," Logan says.

"I know. I did go with you to Monday Night RAW when we were in Oregon. And I've seen it other times when you guys have been watching it. Do the women ever beat the men in intergender matches?"

"Sometimes. I actually think I've seen more intergender matches when the woman has won instead of the guy."

"Are you going to stay in here Raven?" Vic asks. "We can watch something else if you are."

"You don't need to," Raven replies. "I actually came to ask Logan something."

"What's up, Rae?" Logan asks.

"Can you come with me?" she asks. "It's a private conversation."

"Sure," Logan says. He stands up and walks around the couch to Raven.

"Y'all better not be talking about those "ideas" Jenny and Roy had last weekend," Vic says. Logan blushes and Raven glares at Vic.

"Not that it's any of your business," she says, "but that's not what we're going to talk about."

"It better not be," Vic says, as Raven and Logan walk out of the room. Dick just chuckles to himself. Raven and Logan go up to Raven's room. Logan shuts the door and turns to Raven who is sitting on her bed. She is twisting the raven pendant necklace in her fingers. Logan sits next to her.

"You okay, Rae?" Logan asks. "You seem nervous." Raven stops fiddling with her necklace and clasps her hands in her lap.

"I can't believe I'm going to do this," Raven says to herself.
"Rae?"

She lets out a deep breath. "Do you remember on Saturday when Jenny gave me a dare?"

"Yeah. You two left the room to talk because you didn't want to do the dare but you didn't tell any of us what it was."

"I also said I would do the dare, just not that night."

"Okay?"

"What Jenny dared me to do involves you."

"So why couldn't you do it Saturday night?"

"Because it also involves a secret about you that only I knew. Jenny, Bee, and Toni know about it too but they won't tell anyone."

"What secret?"

"They found the drawing you did of me. Toni needed some ibuprofen and I told her I had some in my bedside table. The drawing was in there as well and she asked me about it. They were all saying how great of a drawing it was and wanted to know who drew it. I told them it was you but they all promised me that they will never mention it."

"So she dared you to ask me to draw something?"

"She dared me to ask you to draw me again."

"Sure."

"Only this time…while I'm not wearing any clothes." Logan stares at her wide-eyed and doesn't say anything. Raven is blushing and looks down. After a few minutes, Logan clears his throat.

"Um…so, um…when do you want me to draw you?" Raven heads snaps up and she looks at him.

"What?"

"To complete your dare, when do you want me to draw you?"

"Technically, the dare was to just ask you to draw me. Jenny never said you actually had to do it."

"What if I want to?"

Raven blushes more. "You…you want to draw me without clothes on?"

"I will draw you however you want me to draw you. You are beautiful Raven. Doesn't matter what you are wearing or even if you are wearing nothing."

"You've never seen me without clothes on."

"You're right; I haven't. But I won't say that I don't want to." Raven doesn't say anything. "I'm not going to pressure you. If you don't want me to see you naked, then I'm okay with that. If you don't want me to draw you, I'm okay with that too."

Raven lets out a breath and looks down. "Go grab your sketchbook."

"Really?" She looks up at him.

"Yes. If I don't do this now, I don't know if I ever will."

"Are you sure?"

"No, but I'm trying to be. I…I want you to draw me."

"Okay. I'll go get my stuff. I'll be right back." He leaves her room. Raven grabs her phone and texts Jenny.

Raven: "I've asked him." Raven grabs her robe and goes to her walk-in closet. She receives a text from Jenny as she closes the door to her closet.

Jenny: "Yay! What did he say?"

Raven: "Nothing at first. Then he asked me when I wanted him to draw me."

Jenny: "And?"

Raven: "He's grabbing his sketchbook right now. I'm currently in my closet trying to get the courage to take off my clothes."

Jenny: "You can do this Raven. Don't be scared."

Raven: "I'm trying not to be."

Jenny: "You've got nothing to be afraid of. Remember, I'm here for you."

Raven: "Thanks Jenny." She puts down her phone and undresses. She leaves her necklace on and puts on her robe. Taking a deep breath, she walks out of the closet. She sees Logan has laid some pillows down the middle of her bed and is sitting in her desk chair facing the side of her bed. He looks up from sharpening his pencil when she walks out of her closet. She walks over to him and takes off her robe. Logan swallows, staring at her.

"Where do you want me?" she asks, softly. Logan clears his throat.

"Lay on your side, leaning against the pillows I lined up." She lays down on her right side, leaning back slightly against the pillows that keep her propped up. "Keep your right arm up by your face like that." She lays her right arm against the pillow her head is against. "Put your left arm however is most comfortable: either up by your head or along your side." She lays her arm against her side. "Now, try to stay as still as you can." He lifts his sketchbook and starts drawing her. They are both silent as he works. After 45 minutes, he lowers his pencil.

"Finished," he says. Raven gets up and wraps her robe around her and ties the sash then sits back down on her bed. Logan moves next to her and hands her his sketchbook to show her the drawing.

"Wow," Raven whispers. "I can't believe that's me."

"Why not?"

"I look so…"

"What? Beautiful? Sexy?"

"Yeah."

"I keep telling you that you are very attractive."

"I know you do. One of these days I'll believe you."

"I can tell you everyday if that will help you."

"Well I'm sure it won't hurt." She turns her head and kisses him.

"Do you want this sketch too?"

"I think you should keep it in your sketchbook. That way Toni or Jenny don't accidently find it."

"Good thinking." He closes his sketchbook and gets up to put it on Raven's dresser. "I'll put it away tomorrow." He moves her desk chair back to her desk while Raven moves the pillows from the center of her bed. She then turns to Logan as he walks back to her.

"Thank you for not freaking out when I told you Jenny's dare." She puts her arms around his neck. He puts his hands on her hips.

"It shocked me, but I'm glad you let me draw you like that. It shows me how much you trust me."

"I do trust you. So much it scares me sometimes."

"Don't be scared of me."

"It's not necessarily you. It's my past experiences. I trusted my dad and he beat me and my mom. I trusted my mom and she left me. I trusted Malcolm and he raped me. I guess I'm almost waiting for you to disappoint me too."

"I want to say I won't disappoint you but I'll probably mess up something and do it anyway. But I will do everything I can to not disappoint you. I care about you so much. I don't want to lose you." Emotion wells up in Raven and instead of responding, she kisses him. He returns the kiss and pulls her closer to him. He takes a couple steps forward, causing Raven to back up to the edge of the bed. She sits on the bed then moves back so she is laying down, Logan following. He moves his hands to the tie of her robe and pulls back from the kiss.

"Can I?" he asks, tugging slightly on the sash. She nods and pulls him back down to kiss her. He unties her robe and moves his hands to either side of it and slowly pulls it off of her. After removing it, he drops it to the floor beside the bed. While leaning on one arm to keep most of his weight off of Raven, he moves his other hand up her side from her hip to her shoulder over her collarbone and back down to her hip, grazing over her breast as he moves back down. He pulls back from kissing her as he moves his hand back up to her breast. He looks down at her breast and traces his fingers over it and around her nipple, but not touching it, watching it harden. He then moves his fingers over it and back and hears her breath hitch. He does this a few more times then rolls it between his thumb and forefinger. She gasps and arches her back. He switches to her other breast to give it the same treatment. He kisses her jaw, down her neck and collarbone, then on her breast and captures her nipple in his mouth. She arches her back at this new sensation. He flicks his tongues over her nipple and sucks while rolling her other nipple between his fingers. He switches his ministrations on her nipples, licking and sucking the opposite one while still keeping the other one stimulated with his fingers. She lifts her hips against his leg to try to get friction. While still keeping his mouth on her nipple, he moves one hand down her stomach to the trimmed curls at the apex of her thighs. He brushes his fingers through the curls then moves lower, separating her lower lips and slides a finger through the wetness he finds there. When his finger hits a particular spot, she bucks her hips. He moves his finger back to that spot, finding her clit. He moves his finger in slow circles around it and hears Raven's breath hitch again. He releases her nipple from his mouth and moves lower on the bed. He spreads Raven's legs and lays between them. He uses one hand to spread her lips, while moving his other hand to circle her clit then down to circle her entrance, shallowly dipping his finger into her. He looks up at her face to see her watching him. She nods her head and he presses one finger into her. Her breath catches as she gets used to the feeling. He slowly pumps it in and out then presses a second finger into her, feeling her walls tight around his fingers. As he pushes his fingers in and out, he uses his thumb to circle her clit. Her head falls back onto her pillows at the feeling. Feeling more confident, he quickens his pace of his fingers and thumb. Her breathing starts to get heavier. He pushes a third finger into her and replaces his thumb with his mouth, twirling his tongue around her clit. When he sucks on it, her thighs tighten around his head and she grips the sheets in her hands. He continues pumping his fingers into her while alternating between flicking his tongue over her clit and sucking on it. He feels her inner muscles tighten on his fingers then the spasms wrack through her body. He helps her through her climax and pulls his fingers from her and kisses her hip and up her stomach and chest until he is level with her face again. She is still breathing hard and her face is flushed while her eyes are still closed. He watches her as her breathing returns to normal and she opens her eyes to look at him. She leans up and kisses his cheek. She moves one hand towards him where he is tenting his pants but he grabs her hand and brings it up to his mouth to kiss. She looks at him confused.

"Don't worry about me," he says. "Tonight was all about you."

"But you're hard," she says. "Don't you want me to take care of that for you?"

"At some point, yes. But not tonight. I don't want you to feel obligated to do anything for me. Tonight was about me taking care of you." Not having the energy to argue, Raven nods. She gets up and puts her robe around her, tying it once more.

"I'm going to go take a quick shower to clean up. You need to brush your teeth so I can kiss you." Logan chuckles as Raven leaves the room. He changes her bed sheets then goes to the half-bathroom to brush his teeth while Raven is still in the shower. He then goes to his room and puts on pajama pants then goes back to Raven's room. He takes off his shirt and lays on her bed. Shortly after, Raven walks back into her room and closes the door. She removes her robe and puts on shorts and a tank top. She then climbs into bed and kisses Logan.

"Thank you," she says. Logan raises his eyebrow. "Not just for what you just did. But for everything you've done for me. Helping me with everything that has happened at school and with my dad and being patient with me. You are an amazing guy and I don't deserve you but I'm glad I can call you my boyfriend."

"I'm glad you agreed to be my girlfriend. And it's me who doesn't deserve you. After everything you have been through, you deserve to be with a guy who respects you and cares for you. I'm glad I can be that guy for you. I know I've messed up before and I'm sure I'll mess up again but when I do, I will beg you for forgiveness and only hope that you can forgive me. I will do everything I can to protect you and care for you." Raven doesn't respond. She just kisses him, trying to convey her feelings to him. He kisses her back with equal passion. They are interrupted when Raven gets a text.

"Ignore it," Logan says, trying to continue their kiss.

"If we don't stop, we're going to end up back where we were before I took a shower," Raven says, rolling over to grab her phone. Resigned, Logan falls back onto his back with a sigh. Chuckling, Raven opens the text.

Jenny: "So how's the drawing?"

Raven: "It's incredible."

Jenny: "Did anything happen after he finished drawing you?"

Raven: "Are you asking me to kiss and tell?"

Jenny: "Absolutely. So what happened?" Raven looks over her shoulder to make sure Logan wasn't trying to read her texts. Seeing him with his eyes closed, she turns back to her phone.

Raven: "We were talking then I kissed him."

Jenny: "And?"

Raven: "Let's just say that you were right when you said he would worship me."

Jenny: "Aww you're growing up. Did you guys do it?"

Raven: "No. But he touched me more than he has before. And not just with his hands."

Jenny: "Ooh sounds fun. Did he make you come?"

Raven: "If it was anyone but you I wouldn't answer but yes he did."

Jenny: "With his hands? Or his mouth?"

Raven: "Yes."

Jenny: "Smart boy."

Raven: "He definitely knew what he was doing. Wonder if it was just instincts or if he talked to Wally or Roy."

Jenny: "He didn't talk to Wally. Wally would've told me if he had. I'm guessing he didn't talk to Roy either."

Raven: "Might've just been instincts then. He's good at reading people. I can't keep anything from him."

Jenny: "Did you return the favor to him?"

Raven: "I was going to but he stopped me before I could even touch him. Said tonight was all about me."

Jenny: "How sweet. You've got a good one Raven. I hope you know that. Don't let him go."

Raven: "I know I'm lucky. I don't want to ever let him go."

Jenny: "Do you love him?"

Raven: "Maybe? I don't know if I know what love is like. I care about him a lot and trust him completely. I don't want anything to happen to him."

Jenny: "No one can tell you what love is. It's different for everyone. Once you figure it out, you'll know. I'm happy for you."

Raven: "Thank you." They end their conversation shortly after that and Raven plugs her phone into her charger and puts it on her bedside table. She turns off her lamp and turns onto her other side so she is facing Logan. She kisses his cheek then lays her head on his shoulder and her arm across his torso. She falls asleep with a smile on her face.