Danny's Pain

Steve's 'Welcome Home' party was already in full swing and a secret smile played around Danny's lips, thinking of his partner who was a little bit late to join them. The sound of his phone brings Danny back from his thoughts, "Detective Williams?" the voice over the phone asked when he picked up.

"Yeah that's me. Who is this?" Danny asked confused.

"It's Ensign Miller. I'm sorry to inform you but Commander McGarrett was in an accident near the base-"

"What?" Danny cut him off. "No, no, no. Where is he?" The blonde's voice rose and the pain in it were clearly noticeable. "Is he-," Danny's voice broke. He couldn't even imagine his life without his partner in it. "Is he alive?"

"I don't know Detective Williams, I saw him only for a moment but if Commander McGarrett is alive, he won't be for long. I'm sorry Sir."

"NO!" Danny screamed and threw his phone against the wall and time seemed to stop at that moment. Everything was in slow motion and he was unable to move, unable to do anything. He could hear Crace sob and Kono was trying to comfort her, while Max and Grover looking worried and afraid at him. Despite the heaviness in the air and paralyzed muscles, Danny pushed himself to move. If Steve was still alive but dying slowly the last he could do is say goodbye to his partner, but if he's dead already he could say goodbye to his lifeless body, wishing Steve's soul would find peace and happiness wherever it was going to.

"Don't bury him yet. He's not dead, Steve can't be dead."

Time finally started ticking again and Danny was able to move. He jumped up and ran off to Steve leaving a worried Grace, Kono, Max and Grover behind.

He got there faster than he expected, which was probably because he drove faster than ever in his life, and there was quite the scene unfolding. Danny saw two Humvees, one its front side smashed and the other flipped over, windows crushed, metal was bent and it was almost unrecognizable. Danny also saw a stretcher with a black bag being pulled to the mortuary van and he completely lost it.

"No! Please No!" The blonde pushed past the MP but they caught him and tried to stop him from going to the mortuary van.

"Sir you are not allowed back here-"

"Let go of me! I have to-, let me say goodbye to him! Please just-, "Danny yelled, his voice feral. "Please I need to see him. I have to tell him something." But the hands holding him back, didn't release him. "STEVE. I LOVE YOU!"

He realized the MP's aren't going to let go of him, so he just screamed to him, for him. He hoped Steve would hear him. "He is dead," Danny thought, "of course he can't hear you" Tears rolled down the blonde's cheeks. "I love you so much; I will always love you, Steve. I will never forget you, never." Danny whispered and brushed off the MP's hands and walked away.

ooOoo

Danny's vision was blurred because of the tears in his eyes and he almost had an accident himself as he drove home. When he finally were at his apartment, the blonde fell on the floor, not caring that Grace, Kono and Max and Grover were still worried what has happened. He started crying again, this time the screams were present.

"Danno-," Grace crouched down and put a hand on his shoulder.

"He's gone. Steve's gone. I have so much to say to him. I need him. I can't take this pain, I just can't."

"Danno, what are you talking about?" Just as Grace asked him, there was a knock and the door opened.

Chin rushed over to Danny when he saw the blonde on the floor screaming and crying. "Hey man, are you okay? I was just there." Chin helped him up and the blonde heavily breathes in.

"I couldn't save him, when I came there it was already too late. I couldn't save him, I'm sorry. I should have told Steve how I felt about him."

"What are you talking about?" Chin stepped back and looked at Danny confused. "Steve's not dead. He is pretty banged up, and he was dead for a few seconds, but now he's alive and in the Tripler Army Medical Center."

"Wha- What? Don't mess with me Chin. Steve's dead. I saw him, I saw him in a freaking body bag!"

"No Danny, Steve is alive. You most likely saw the other passenger of the Humvee, he's the only one dead. Steve is alive! I would never joke about something like this."

Danny felt the weight of the world lifted off of his shoulders and the blonde let out the breath he was probably holding since he saw the dark hair strand in a body bag. He was never as grateful for anything in his life as he was grateful now, that the love of his life was alive.

"Now that you are finally ready to accept your feelings, go to the hospital and tell Steve how you feel. Tell Steve how you felt when you thought he was dead. Tell him everything." Kono suggested with a nod towards Danny.

"I will, trust me. I will." The blonde smiled, wiped away the tears and made his way to the Tripler Army Medical Center.

ooOoo

Steve was there, lying in the hospital bed with bruises and cuts on his face. A small and weak smile playing on the SEAL's lips as he saw Danny enter the room. Steve was there, hurt and bruised but he was alive. That's all that mattered.

"Never do this to me again Steve!" The blonde walked over and nuzzles his head in the crook of his partner's neck, "Never!" Danny held him close while he told Steve everything he was feeling towards him. "I love you. I truly love you, Steve."

"I love you too, Danny."