How do you expect disappointment to look like?
Disappointed. Her mother was disappointed after Sophie had done the bravest thing in her life. At least it felt like it. Never before had she been this scared, never before had she feared the outcome of something this much. Not even at Point Rock, when she had to answer them for her relationship with Kate. Nobody in the academy could be as scary as her mother because. She was her mother and Sophie wanted her mother to be proud of her, love her, accept her.
Instead she was disappointed and had made this clear.
Go and find him, Honey.
Oh, her mother had been so supporting when she had thought it was a man, who had made Sophie happy. Who had brought happiness into her life. And then, when she had told her, it wasn't he, it was a her, everything broke down. Sophie had seen it right in front of her eyes. The smile had vanished, the love was drained from her mother's eyes and all that was left was disappointment. It didn't matter what Sophie said afterward, how she tried to explain to her mother why she had lied all these years. Like it didn't matter that she hadn't chosen to be the way she was. She didn't love women to disappoint her mother, her family. She didn't love women because she wanted to, it was who she was.
She was a disappointment to her mother.
Was she also a disappointment to her boss? She had to, otherwise he hadn't suspended her. Worst of all, he had told her mother, who had picked the worst time ever to show up.
What had happened if her mother hadn't shown up? Batwoman, who wanted to walk away, had kissed her and it didn't feel like she had been willing to walk after the kiss. Was it possible that Batwoman had stayed? Come inside and they had made out? Maybe Sophie had taken off the mask and then seen who was behind it. Who could be the amazing woman, who had made her knees feel weak, had made her forgot her shyness, step up to her and kiss her. Who was the woman, Sophie felt drawn to like they were two magnets?
A woman, who had left her because Sophie wanted to stay in the closet. Wanted to date somebody, who was no threat to her lies. To the world, she had created in all these years. And then she had destroyed this world by coming out to her mother.
Did this mean Batwoman would come back to her? Maybe not as Batwoman but as the person behind the mask? Because Sophie could need some reassuring, somebody, who supported her and told her, she was not a complete failure. Who else could she talk to about this? It was not like people knew her real self as she had told everybody the lies.
The only people, who knew about her old secret were the Kane family. Commander Kane knew about the relationship Sophie had with Kate. In the last hours he had called various times, wanted to talk to her, the problem was, when she told him, what she had told her mother, that she valued Batwoman more than the Crows, he would not want her back. And Kate, as her ex, was the last person she wanted to talk to about Batwoman. You didn't go to your ex to talk about another woman.
Her phone beeped and a message popped up. Mary.
How was your date?
Right, Mary knew about her date with Batwoman. She was the only one who did. Like she knew Sophie and Kate had been together. Mary had been happy for her, had been happy that she and Batwoman had something going on. She would understand how Sophie felt when she told her what had happened. That Batwoman had broken up with her. And she would understand how Sophie felt after coming out to her mother. Yes, Mary was the person, she could talk to and who would listen.
You don't happen to be hungry?
Sophie was not hungry, she felt sick to her stomach but she needed a friend.
Are you hungry or do you need a friend?
A smart woman. She looked through the message, had seen what this really was about.
A friend.
Then we better meet for comfort food. Alessandro's?
The restaurant Kate had asked her to for dinner? The place, they had been asked to leave because the owner thought they were a couple. And then Kate had called him a homophobic man, loud so that the whole restraint could hear it. This was not exactly a place without memories, but it was the best place for Italian comfort food. And when Mary wanted to go there, it was where they'd meet. Sophie hoped she was still welcome there after the last time and that the owner didn't think she was there with her new girlfriend.
If we get a table there.
The restaurant was a famous place, it was highly unlikely that they'd get a table when they just showed up there.
That's a problem I can solve. Remember, social media star.
Yes, Mary still had some followers, not as many as she had before her stepfather had been arrested and her mother was outed as a corrupted woman. Gosh, Mary had been through so many things herself lately and now Sophie was about to whine because she had come out to her mother.
Only if you don't mind.
It was not afraid to add more to Mary. She should give her a break.
I see you there in an hour. No discussion.
It was the best thing to do. She really needed a friend. One, who wouldn't judge her and Mary was the only person she knew, who would not judge her for who she was.