My Gothic Older Brother has Grey Daze, to the awareness of this Cute Preppy Blonde and their sisters
Disclaimers I don't own the Loud House of Grey Daze, please support official releases and your local fandoms, and more importantly be good people and take care and condition your mental and emotional condition.
Also it's no secret that I'm going to dedicate this chapter and at least one more to Chester Bennington, so please if not him, or me, make yourselves proud in overcoming those days and times when you feel cold, alone, and want to give up, especially during how the world is today, cause I know I did when I over came my demons years ago, so I'm telling you guys you can do the same thing and that you're not alone.
Throughout his life, Lincoln could own up and say he never understand woman, and half the time doesn't understand his sisters for the most part.
What he does understand is for the majority of his older sisters, they have their time of the month as they put it, and maybe because he grew up with girls, maybe because society has advanced on a social point.
Whatever the reason, Lincoln isn't the only one exclusive to this since he usually spends his time locked up in his room and listen to music while passing the time.
When he's not he's brooding more than usual and glares at anyone who crosses his paths, and should they anger him, well let's just say there's a reason they not only had to rehabilitate Lily's vocabulary but grudgingly accept being his sister's man servant do to how profound his language becomes.
Even to someone like Lucy, the one sister he'd give his life for isn't the exception to his verbal barbs, but she forgives her brother and is the only one to make an effort to reach out to him.
"Alright Lucy, here you go, we got his zombie bran cereal, and an ultra mega large cup of his favorite Flippy" said Lori as Luna handed Lucy the items on the tray.
"Now all you got to do is knock on the door and leave it out for him, and then walk away" instructed Lori, "But if he says anything that crosses the line, let us know so we can beat the crap out of him" said Lynn.
"Aren't you guys being a little exaggerate" asked Lucy as Lana and Lola were putting on Lynn's sport equipment on her or wrapping her in bubble wrap, making it hard for her to move.
"Trust us, you'll be thanking us, less you want to end up Luan" said Lori as Luan took a chance to crack a joke to brighten Lincoln's mood, only for Lincoln to not only be mean, but be a buzz kill as she resorted Luan back into her mime state.
"Honestly I'm not complaining given how she asked for it" said Lisa as she felt something like a pie hit her in the back of her head, but felt nothing as Luan was gesturing she had another form.
"Your mime tricks can only mess with the weak minded and mentally impressed" Lisa said as she shook her fist, before Luan took an invisible lasso and began to hog tie the 5 year old.
"Just be safe, and if he does say or do anything the crosses the line, we're gonna f him up just like the many attempts he tries to f you" said Lynn as she held her bat in hand.
"As Lincoln would say, he and I would never do anything like that to one another" said Lucy as she was tired of being accused of being violated by her brother.
"Whatever" said Lynn as the Loud sisters helped Lucy walked up the stairs before rushing back down.
Awkwardly walking up to her brothers door, Lucy began to lay the tray of food by the foot of said door, before knocking.
"Lincoln, it's Lucy, I came to leave you your favorite snack" said Lucy as she heard no answer.
Not taking the cautious words of her sisters, Lucy attempted to knock on her brothers door again and got no answer.
Worried for her brother, Lucy, began to strip herself of all the unnecessary padding before peaking inside her brothers room.
What she saw was her brother sitting on his bed, back against the wall, and head buried in his knee's as he was listening to music and crying to himself.
While Lincoln has claimed the world to cruel and unforgiving, Lucy and everyone else thought he was being dramatic for the most part, but seeing this truly got Lucy to see how serious her brother was.
Slipping inside his room unnoticed as she closed the door behind her, Lucy quietly approached her brother, who felt her do the shifted weight on his bed.
"Lucy, what the hell are you doing here" asked Lincoln as he began to look at her sister, with fresh tears and running guy liner going down his face.
"I came here to check on you" said Lucy as she got closer to her brother, "Don't even bother, just leave me alone already" said Lincoln as he shifted his body away from seeing Lucy.
Not being deterred from his rudeness or any harm that maybe inflicted upon her, Lucy continued to crawl her way towards her brother before resting her head on his back and wrapped him in a hug.
"Get the hell off of me" said Lincoln trying to push his sister off, but she remained stubborn and continued to hug him.
"Damn it Lucy I'm not playing so G-T-F-O already" said Lincoln as he raised his voice, "And neither am I, and I'm not leaving till you tell what's bothering you" said Lucy as she refused to leave her brother in such a said state.
"I said let go" shouted Lincoln as he struggled to remove Lucy who was fighting to comfort her brother, something he needed.
"Damn it let go" said Lincoln as his strength was weakening and his voice was losing base, I said let go".
Already feeling her brother was losing the fight, Lucy press forward in remaining by her brothers side till he's given up.
"Damn it" said Lincoln as he began to cry in frustration once again as his arms were only gripping onto Lucy's but barely, before he let out the water works again.
"It's alright Lincoln, I'm here for you" whispered Lucy in comforting voice, as she loosened her hold on her brother as he turned to hug her back and began to cry out all the pain and sorrow he had in him.
After a few minutes of crying, Lincoln was finally able to calm down so that he and Lucy could talk.
"Lincoln, I'm worried about you, could you please tell me what's bothering you" asked Lucy, "What isn't bothering me" sniffed Lincoln as he tossed a used tissue into the waste bin.
"Every day I have to endure some sort of ridicule or injustice that further cements my beliefs that this world is unfair and is after to get me in ensuring that my mere existence be miserable for some sick sadistic fucks amusement" said Lincoln.
"Lincoln" said Lucy as she never thought of her brother or anyone she knew close to feel such heavy self loathing emotions.
"I know I seem tough, but honestly some days it doesn't take much to take me down and I tend to lose control like today, while every other day I'm struggling to float above it all from getting the better of me" said Lincoln.
"I'm honestly sometimes get so sick of this feeling that I just want to give up" said Lincoln as Lucy was shocked to hear her brother having already consider to contemplate on an action that'll hurt her and everyone in the family and all those who love him more after his quick escape.
"But then I have to remind myself that's not an option, because I have people who love me in spite of how they mistreat me, especially you Lucy" said Lincoln as tears were welling in his eyes.
"So please don't worry cause so long as I have you, the only person I love more than my life, I will never go away, cause I would never want to hurt you" said Lincoln as he began to let his tears stream down his face.
Touched and thankful to hear that got Lucy to tear up as it was her turn to cling onto and cry into her brother, and swore that as much as he intends to protect her for the rest of his life, she will do the same thing as well.
If you or anyone you know are feeling depressed, alone, and without feeling wanted, please seek immediate help.
Suicide is not and should never be considered to be an option for you or anyone, and I hope this chapter proves my point and message as I was someone who had felt these feelings and overcame them with an ambition to help those in need.
As I mention I will have one more chapter similar to this that I will write in the near future, but for now I want you to hear my message and that is you are not alone.
This has been your Humble Narrator Tobi Yaza. =3