My Gothic Older Brother wants to make Amends with his Sisters
Rushing down the streets on her scooter, Lucy was desperately trying to find Lincoln along with the rest of the Loud sisters, who were all in a panic.
After learning from Lucy that Lincoln has been harboring dark feelings of remorse and a sense of worthlessness and wanting to give up on life and die, the Loud sisters decided to not only give Lincoln his space, but also to start treating him as a recognized individual in the Loud house.
Unfortunately it would have all meant for not, especially what transpired this morning.
News had spread when lead singer to the band WASHINTON PARK, Chester Remington had died that morning, when he hanged himself and was found dead by his wife and kids.
Having no doubt that Lincoln would have heard the news by now, Lucy had rallied her sisters to go out and search for Lincoln, as they assumed he'd be at work with Flips, a secret that at long last was let out that day.
When they got there, Flip said that Lincoln seemed to have freaked out and broke down crying, before storming out of his store.
When asked about where Lincoln ran off to, Flip said he ran towards the town, where the Loud sisters began searching for him desperately.
Breaking off into groups and having their bikes and scooters ready for incase this might happen, the Loud sisters hauled ass in searching for their brother with the intention of comforting him.
Right now, no one was having luck as everyone was beginning to panic over where and what they might find out about their brother when they do.
Please be alright, thought Lucy as she was already back on the outskirts of town, and continued on her journey as she began to explore any bridge that was high enough above traffic or a running ravine with rocks at the bottom.
Thankfully and unthankfully, Lucy didn't see her brother at any of those places, before she got a text from Lori that it was time to regroup back home and informed their parents.
The trip back home was hauntingly quiet as everyone worried about Lincoln and if he was alright.
By the time they got home, Rita, Lynn Sr. and Lily had already gathered in the living room going on with their usual activities when they were together on their days off.
"Hey girls, where have you been" asked Rita as she notice how quiet and exaughsted the girls looked, "Mom, dad, we have to tell you both something important, it's about Lincoln" said Lori as she felt a lump in her throat as her heart gotten heavy and all the Loud sisters felt a cold pain in their gut.
"You know I was going to ask about your brother" said Lynn Sr. as this got the girls attention.
"Dad, where is he right now!" demanded Lucy, "He's upstairs, but he seemed really upset. Did you girls did something to make your brother felt more upset than usual today" said Lynn Sr.
Knowing well there was a chance he could be alright or could be dead, all the sisters rushed upstairs, but no one ran faster than Lucy, who wanted nothing more than her brother to be alive and well so she could hug him, tell him she loved him, and make whatever pain he was suffering from to go away or at least to share it so he doesn't feel alone ever again.
Upon reaching his door, Lucy turned the knob to see her brother was lying in bed, crying as he turned to see his sisters all standing outside.
No words were said as Lincoln continued to cry, before Lucy was the first to embrace her brother, followed by the rest of the Loud sisters.
His eyes were red and puffy, his body was shaking, but he was alive.
"Lincoln, I'm so sorry" whispered Lucy as this got Lincoln to cry even more as this was starting to get to his sisters.
They all continued to say they were sorry, with Lori nuzzling his hair, and some of the Loud sisters crying with their brother.
Lincoln meanwhile, while he felt more lonely, more lost, more smaller in this cruel unforgiving world was none the less thankful right now.
He was thankful to have his sisters with him, to comfort him and it gave him a sense of purpose now.
He was needed, he was loved, and at times where he feels like he's not, moments especially like these reminded him and kept him strong that he doesn't ever want to die.
Cause as much as he hurting, how he wants to say fuck all to this pain and sadness, he wasn't going to because it be unfair for the woman who loved him, and wants nothing more to get better so he could continue to protect those he loved and keep them happy.
At this point, their parents were already upstairs witnessing the whole thing and as much as they want to ask what's going on, they knew better than to ask anything right now, just how they knew better than to keep Lily away, who wanted to comfort her brother as well.
As the hours passed, Lincoln had calmed down by nightfall to see that his sisters have all passed out from hugging him.
Turning his head, he saw Lucy gripping on him tightly, with dry tear marks on her face as well.
I'm sorry for putting you through all that, thought Lincoln as he knew that as much as he was suffering today, his sisters must have gone through an ordeal of their own.
Determined to tell them all he loved them for everything and promising to never consider the thought of suicide, he was also ready to come clean to them, and his parents that he's not alright, knowing they'll say it's alright and that they'll be by his side to help him to go through whatever was bothering him.
Overall he wanted to make amends as he wants to ensure everyone that he was no longer suicidally depressed and how he'll do anything to prove he was cured.
If you or anyone you know, family, friend, or whomever is feeling or having thoughts of suicide, please seek immediate help. Suicide is never the answer and should not be considered as one.
I know I've said this before, but only because this is an important matter, especially now during this pandemic, where people have seem to have forgotten or ignore that our mental health is being put into the test as much as our physical health in this time of crisis.
So please keep your mental health conditioned as much as your physical health and to remember that you are not alone.
This has been a message from your Humble Narrator, Tobi Yaza.