Chapter 3: Yugi Moto
"...Where were you? Can I ask if you... are my friend?" Yugi Moto asked in a very... excited manner. He was actually on the verge... to tell his friends immediately. I couldn't deny that he was... over himself. What kind of man is he really with such attitude? "...Hey... I've found him! I've found a friend I like to be with!"
"...What do you mean?" I heard the voice from within the outside of... the Millennium Puzzle. Could it be that I was... still within? But why though? Where am I really? I still feel a little overwhelmed... but I knew it was no hope at all. "...Where is he? What friend? Um... Yugi... Where is he?"
"...He's right here! He's inside! I've found him in a deep sleep!" Yugi exclaimed from without. "...He was right here... and I... found him talking so small with another!" He then showed the puzzle at a boy's face. It was shadowed out as a person in dark blond hair. "...He was here!"
"...Yug, I hate that you said that. Why are you being so... naive about some friend?" The boy in blond asked in wonder. Could it be... it's just a boy that Yugi met in life? Who is he and why? "...Yug, why are you being silly over some friend?"
"...But why?! Why aren't you... listening to me?! Aren't you going to be... talking with him?!" Yugi whined so sadly at... Joey Wheeler.
The boy identified as Joey... couldn't help, but to make a sour... lip at him. He was actually on the verge to run and not listen.
He simply added, "...Yug, quit talking to the puzzle. I hate that you like that darn puzzle! Just leave it alone and just listen to me. I want someone to find... Tristan before we go see the girls..."
I rolled my eyes at this. Why must I bother with some people like him? Who is Yugi Moto really? Why must he bother with such lies to me that he should actually interfere my sleep? I just wish I knew as to why I should care at all! If only I knew what I can do at all... but what must I do? What am I entirely with him at all? Why is he bothering me at a time like this?!
Yugi simply felt in disappointment and said in a whine, "...Why must you not care?! I hate that, Joey! Why won't you care?!"
"...Because I don't care about your known friend in the puzzle. I just wish you quit speaking on some friend. I hate that puzzle since the start... and now, let's just find the others..."
"...Fine. But I wish you care about my friend..." Yugi whimpered and sighed. He then gave out, "...You're just being... mean to me..."
And with that...
I opened... my eyes again.
I gave a deep sigh. It was like I had no other way around. I knew sooner or later that boy will find out about my ways.
What must I do as he always kept bothering me on some communication with the puzzle? What can I do as I always to live this life again? I just knew it was no good again... If only I knew what should be done... but I can't seem to wear off this darn communication... What can I do?!
If only... If only I knew what I can do with it. I just wish I could find an answer to this all... but am I a man that can? Who can I trust? Who can I turn to? What must I do as I lie in this chair? I couldn't stay afar and why must he always continue... and yet, can I stay away? Could I really stay away forever? What must I do as always?
I simply furrowed my brows... as I sighed heavily at this. I have no further options to do... but I couldn't just sit here all alone... What am I to him anyway? What must I do?!
I just wish that I...
It was like I couldn't remained inside the house any longer... and I wanted to go outside within the cold. In quick speed, I simply headed out fast and shut the front of my flat in a lock. With a snap, I headed out of the Domino apartments in a rush... and made my way out to the outside. It was like I had no other thoughts to go back. I couldn't take it anymore with his constant bothering. He must be lost... is what I figured. I just knew it was the same. I simply couldn't take another go about him... and I simply went towards another direction.
As I went away towards the crossing, I couldn't remained, at least, to go towards another path... to be apart away from Yugi Moto. I was upset with myself and I hated my cold bitterness. I just knew it was nothing, but just... bitter life again. I just wanted someone besides that boy... What must I do as he always bother my life again? I just knew it was nothing, but lies again... What is he really and why? Who is he for what he is?
Who is he and why?! What is he for what he's like?! I just knew it! I just knew it was trouble and I hated myself again. What is he and why is he always in my way? What must I do as I lie in solitude about me and me alone? I just knew he lied about his friendship like his own beginnings. If only I knew as to what should be done with him and his behavior... I just wish I knew as to why he thought so dearly of me.
I then looked up... and I scowled at some people who stared on my wake... I shook my head, walking away and screamed at some people who stared upon me. I couldn't remained inside my heart at all from seeing their gaze. I rolled my eyes at them each.
I just knew it... I just knew it was no good to me... Nothing of it seem good to me! Yugi Moto could be such... a fool to bother my life over and over! I mean, why must he be this idiot to my face?! I just knew it was nothing, but lies to his friends! I hate this again with him and his constant... lying in my face! He told me that I should be his friend every five millennia... but I hate his lies for betrayal!
What man or woman says I could be with him anyway?! I just don't care at all about him! Why won't he leave me be?! I just knew it was nothing, but trouble in my face on the first shot! I mean, who am I?! What is he?! What am I to him?! What is it with him?!
What is it with him and friendship in his life?! What am I that he wants my attention instead of them?! What am I to myself that I need anyone other than me? Who am I entirely for lies he gives and over again? I just knew he was always the same Yugi Moto... unlike last time. What am I as always for life and truths? I hated my life and again of the next... but I knew it was no good as always. I just wish I knew what to do... but I knew it was no good to lie to friends...
But I guess I was... as always... A man that needs personal more and better help of need. I need someone to help me, but who? Who can I be with instead? What must I do to settle that man? Maybe someone I knew... but who though? Maybe... I need a time to myself... for now...
As the day approached towards the noon, I was rather exhausted from simply taking some walks to settle my mind... and yet, I couldn't stop hearing his enforcement with the puzzle. Throughout the day, I was rather tired and drowsy from his constant contact... and when the day was near its end, I was angry throughout the night and even through the next day... as I was bothered by Yugi Moto again... and again. He simply couldn't stop himself for two whole weeks straight. He continued in a whine... and such disappointment. He simply complained that he shouldn't have his friend to be absent and gone missing. Everyday, he was actually... losing his mind on some friend that I'm defined as for him. I couldn't withstand his actions any longer... I was rather simpering in anger after the ninth week.
I simply snarled as I dusted my hands against the table. I gripped my spoon and fork tightly... not eating my latest meal. The meal was actually noodles with vegetables and rice that I made for myself specially... It was supposed to lightened my mood... but Yugi Moto couldn't stop whining in a whimper in my ears. He simply hated what he eats from the other side and wanted my meals desperately. He continued whining about them for five whole weeks... after my walk outside. He couldn't stop whimpering that he wants food from me... and to find that friend that was hidden in the other side. I growled and seethed, staring deadly at my food.
What is it with him?! Why won't he stop doing that to my ears?! I just wish...! I just wish he stops... but why though must he bother me over again?! Why must he bother about my food anyway?! In fact, why must he... lie about something to his family that he wants their food?! I just wish I knew what he wants with me! If only he stops bickering and buzzing my ears at me!
If only I knew as to why he does... I just only knew it was nothing, but just lies he's telling like his friends... but what am I really? I just... I just cannot stand anything about his constant...! His darn constant... interference with my meals! What is he and why?! What's wrong with him?! Why must he bother my life again and again?! Why must he be a problem and why?!
I then spoke loudly... for him to hear my words from the eighth key. "...I hate this. Why must he bother me? Why won't he leave me be?! Why must I bother about some boy like Yugi Moto?!" I finally gave out in screaming one point night. It was only just... the mid-summer point away... from Ryo's schooling. I simply screamed and shouted out loud. "...Get away from me! Leave me alone! I hate that you...! Stop bothering me!"
"...Hey! Are you okay?" A voice spoke from within the room. It was none other than... my Hikari himself. He came closer and spoke worriedly. "...What's wrong with you? Are you okay? Talk to me! Say something! Is someone bothering you?! Talk, please!"
"...Hikari... I just want to be left alone..." I struggled in agony as Yugi screamed harder in my ears. I was upset with it all... worse than before. I couldn't stop being mad at this all... but why must it be this sad and upsetting in life? How can I live through this at all? I just knew it was nothing, but just...! But just total annoyance! "...Hikari, just... Leave me be... I just want to go to sleep, just right now..." I replied, getting up from my seat.
I realized I left my dinner in total not eaten and even in cold. It was not pleasant as I wanted... and I made myself to sit up and just headed towards the room. All I wanted was now the bed and to not eat at all...
My Hikari spoke behind, saying in a worry, "...Are you sure? Are you okay and why are you...?" My Hikari tried to speak more harder, begging for me to eat my meal... but I refused as otherwise. He then said as I left to the bed, "...Are you okay? Please... Talk to me. Say something! Why won't you tell me?!"
I simply gave a bark... with such sourness. "...Hikari, I just want to sleep. I just want to be left alone now..." I replied in remorse and even... a dark like tone. "...Leave me... to my... business..." I said, wrapping the covers over the blankets.
I made myself to be within the bed... and I ignored my Hikari for rest of the two whole hours. I then couldn't reply anymore... and then, I slept slowly... with exhaustion. As I slept in wonder, there were thoughts that trailed along my lines...
Why... Why must I bother with this life again? Why should I bother about the man, Yugi Moto? I just knew it was a lie to have him be friends with them... but am I something for him? Who am I as always? I just knew it was always me alone... but I knew it so dearly he wants my attention. I just knew it was a lie all over... again just as the visions I've received. Am I a man that needs more better than this? What am I exactly as always?
If only...
...If only I knew what to do as I... slept in the covers.
It was then.. I couldn't remained to be awake and I just couldn't care anymore with anything around me... and I couldn't reply to him or that boy... and yet...
...What must I do as I lie in bed and just wanted...
...to be within the dark...
...all alone?