Exam week.
My most favorite week.
Not!
Exam week makes me giddy, uneasy and all around grumpy, especially with added caffeine in my system. I just tend to over exert myself, studying 'till my eyes pop out.
You will only see me in three places during these times; the classroom, library and at the dorm room, but I'm mostly at the library burying myself with books and papers. I can't blame myself though; ever since I was young I have made it a feat to get good results in exams.
Today is Friday, last day of exams and I am worn out, sleep-deprived and unkempt all over. I swear I could feel huge bags forming under my eye, but I just shrug it off. This is the last day, just one final blitz before I return to the comfort of my bed.
I spent the whole day in the library reviewing my chemistry notes and book. It's the last subject before this hell week ends.
I got so consumed by my book that I didn't realize that Jack has been calling me. I look over from my book and I see him hunched in front of me.
We've surprisingly gotten closer over the span of one month. Mostly because we have all classes together and he keeps on finding me wherever I go, just like now, seriously, do I have GPS on me or something?
"Finally, I've been calling you for the hundredth time already Princess." He smirks.
When I put down the book I'm holding, he let out a huge gasp.
"What?"
"You look like you've been through hell Princess."
"I have, it's hell week Frost." I massage my temple as I'm feeling a bit lightheaded. "What do you want?"
"I just came to ask if you had lunch yet. You didn't join us at the cafeteria earlier so I came to find you."
Crap. I forgot about lunch. My stomach started to grumble upon my sudden realization. I also opted to skip breakfast today too just settling for coffee to fill in my stomach. Not a good idea apparently when you barely have any sleep.
"Ah, yeah that reminds me, I'll go grab something to eat." I promptly got up and I feel my head swirl for a moment and I step back a bit from my chair. Whoops! Close call, wouldn't want to cause a scene here.
"You okay there Princess?" he says grabbing my things from the table.
"I'm fine, just a little—"
Just then all I saw was black.
Nothing but pitch black.
"Is Papa still angry at me?" I ask my mother as she puts me in bed.
She starts to comb my hair with her fingers, "Nah, he's just worried after what happened to your sister that's all."
"He's disappointed in me I could see it in his eyes." I feel tears forming in my eyes. "He can't even look me in the eyes mama. He's angry and disappointed that I can be a good big sister to Anna."
"He's just…" she wipes the tears falling from my eyes with her thumb, "he'll come around honey. Everything is just still fresh you know."
I spent the whole night that time bawling. My father who loves my baby sister a whole lot looks at the 8 year old me like I made the biggest mistake of my life. What should I do to make him proud of me again?
Anna came home from the hospital a week after her accident, back to her normal bubbly self. I on the other hand am afraid to be alone with her, I'm afraid that I'll hurt her again, that I'll break her and my father would hate me more than he already does.
I started to lock myself in my room, burying myself in books. 'Maybe if I studied hard my father would come to like me again?' I thought and that's what I did. For two years I have ignored Anna, studied extremely hard, even reading books that are beyond my grade. I got recognized at my school and got first place in our class. I showed my father the certificates, awards and perfectly marked papers I received and he smiled at me, it's been so long since he's given me that smile. He's finally looking at me like I'm his daughter again.
But I forgot one important thing though, Anna.
"Anna…" I mumble as I open my eyes.
I look around and I realize I was in an unfamiliar place. I was in bed and I had an IV injected on my hand. I'm at the clinic? Crap, what happened? Wasn't I in the library a minute ago?
Then I remember, I was about to grab lunch when I…I fainted.
I gasp, "Chemistry, my exam!"
I was about to get up when I see Jack from the slightly open curtain from the clinic's bed. He was sitting down near the nurse's desk.
"Your friend will be alright Jack," I hear an unfamiliar voice say. It was warm and soft, full of care.
"I know." He dryly said.
That's when the owner of the voice appeared in my line of vision. From afar I can tell she was pretty and very colorful. She had ombre hair, green from the roots and blue on the end. "It's been a while since you came here Jack." She reaches out her hand and places it at Jack's face.
Jack responds by holding her hand in his cheeks.
I gasp at the scene. Holy cheese cake what is this? I try to look away but my curiosity made me look again.
"Did you miss me?" he says but not in his usual cocky tone, it was soft and it felt like he means it. "Because I do, I miss you."
Oh my god. Oh my god.
She pulls out her hand from his, "you have to stop this Jack. I told you, I don't think of you that way. To me you're still that little boy I used to look after."
"I'm not a little boy anymore. I've been with girls, I pay more attention in class now, heck I even took summer jobs, am I still not man enough for you?" He was angry and that was the first time I saw Jack Frost angry. He was angry but I could hear a pained tone from his words. He's been showing these many different sides of himself to this girl, sides that I never knew he had.
My eyes were wide in shock both my hands covering my mouth so I don't make any sounds. I know I shouldn't be eavesdropping like this but I just couldn't look away. Holy crap. Is she the reason why he's been hooking up with different girls? Was he trying to make her jealous? Oh my god.
"Making out with different girls everyday doesn't make you a man Jack. It just makes you look like a kid desperate for attention."
Jack bolted up from his seat and angrily grabs the girls' hand. "Why can't you see how much I love you Tooth? I've loved you for so long that it hurts so much. I've done so much for you, why can't you just—"
"Jack…" she was still calm and she takes Jack's hand from her arm and holds it with both of her hands, "I am your mother's close friend and I will always see you as family."
Ouch.
"I told you, you're just confused. You'll realize this soon enough when you finally find someone you truly love, I don't want you to waste your time dwelling on this childish infatuation of yours and regret it in the future. And besides," she shows him her right hand, "I'm getting married 2 months from now, I'm pretty sure your mother already told you about that."
He was furious, he storms out from the clinic and I could hear the loud slam of the door.
He loved her and he's hurting.
Jack loved this woman. And he's hurting because of her.
Tooth was coming over and I quickly close my eyes, pretending I was still asleep.
She checks my IV drip and starts to talk, "Jack can be really childish at times…"
Wait is she talking to me?
"But he's really sweet; his heart is just in the wrong place you know."
I slowly open my eyes and I see her looking straight at me with a gentle smile. "How are you feeling Elsa?"
"B-better I guess," I say trying to look away from her. Did she know I was awake the whole time? Fuck. Talk about awkward. Why am I always thrown into situations like this?
She sits down at the edge of my bed. "I know you heard all that."
Busted.
"Don't worry, I'm not angry. I think its best that one of his friends knows about this too." She looks at me with a worried expression, "I worry about him you see. I know he never talks about this with his friends, he keeps things to himself so much that I'm afraid he would do far more stupid things."
She reaches out and holds my hand, "I have been looking out for him since he was young, I think of Jack as family and I don't want him to continue being this stubborn over this issue."
"I don't mean to impose but he said that he loves you and—"
"He's confused I think you already heard me say that. I have been taking care of him every time his mother was not around, he's confusing feelings of comfort and safety I provide him as romantic affection which I was not intending to."
"But he seemed really hurt."
"That's why I'm asking you, as a friend, as his friend. Help me make him understand. He's a precious family, and I don't want to continue like this."
But how do I do that?
She holds my hand tighter. She looked sad, and it made my heart ache. "Please help me, Elsa."
"I want to help, I do. But I'm not sure I am the right person for this." I try to avoid her sad gaze, "we've only just been friends for a month and I don't think I'm in the place to talk about these stuffs with him. His old friends might be a better choice, I think."
"No," she puts her free hand to my heart, "I can tell you'll be able to get through him. I've seen you with him and I just know you have the heart for this Elsa."
She gets up and turns her back from me before I could say anything else. "Anyway, you should rest up Elsa. Your sister will be over in a while to come and get you."
Why do I have to talk to him about this?
I have the heart for this? Geez lady, I don't even know if I actually have a heart!
I'm overreacting on that bit but seriously though, am I in some sort of reality TV show? If I am, I don't want to be any part of it!
I ended up missing my Chemistry exam and spent the weekends in bed recovering. On Sunday the boys came over to see how I was, no sign of Jack though. But that was best I guess, I still don't know what to do with the information I just got. But I'm worried he's sulking somewhere; does Jackson Overland Frost even sulk though? My mind keeps going back and forth like this all throughout the weekends.
By Monday, I was able to go to class. But there was still no Jack, not even his shadow was present, he was M.I.A .up until the last afternoon classes. Flynn says he hasn't seen Jack since he left their dorm early in the morning, they too were worried about their friend.
Where the hell are you Frost?
After my afternoon classes, I went to the Chemistry lab to take the exam I missed. I was glad Professor Yzma allowed me to do so. But this wasn't given to me easily though, she nagged me about taking better care of my body and whatnot. Like seriously, she's one to talk, she has this overly skinny body that looks like it only runs in skin and bones. But I didn't tell her that or else no special exam for me!
I finished my exam in less than an hour, and went out of the classroom after thanking Professor Yzma.
I was walking aimlessly in the school grounds not wanting to head back to the dorms. I had so much going on in my mind that I couldn't think properly. I don't even know if I answered the chemistry exam properly, probably bombed that one.
My wandering got me to the playground around the back of the school. I was kicking stones that came my way until I noticed this silver Audi stop at the school's back entrance then a lady who looks about at her 30's came out from the driver's seat and then—
"Jack Frost?"
The earlier missing Jackson Frost came out from the passenger seat of the car. Then the lady went to his side and kisses Jack before she got back and drove away.
I didn't know what came over me but I felt my blood boiling and my feet started to dart towards Jack. It wasn't the first time I saw Jack lip locking with a girl, but I wasn't as unsettled or unnerved about it as last time, I was furious instead.
I walked extremely fast and stop when he's a foot away from me. I tap his back and when he turned around my hand flew across his face.
"What the fuck Elsa?"
What, he says my name now when he's cursing me?
I slapped him quite hard, I could see the redness showing in his pale cheeks and I swear my right palm was throbbing right now but it did not daunt me.
"I could say the same to you Frost," I start almost screaming at him. "You were M.I.A. the whole day, and everybody was so fucking worried about you and here you are jerking off with some old woman and you dare ask me what the fuck?"
His eyes narrow down at me, "What? Are you jealous? Would you have wanted me to be making out with you instead?" He says dryly, "I know you've been drooling over me since day 1 Elsa, just say it."
I slap him again, at the same spot, with the same hand. "You fucking egocentric asshole! Just because Tooth doesn't see you as how you want her too doesn't mean you can treat every girl like shit." I could feel my throat tightening as I speak, "doesn't mean you can treat me like total garbage and forget that I am your friend too."
"How did you…" he snaps in to realization, "did you eavesdrop on us last Friday?" he shouts at me.
"Yes, I know everything," I say feeling tears build up in my eyes, "I know how pathetic you are and how childish you're acting!"
"You have no right to say that!"
"I know!"
"I know…" I say again in a smaller voice and my suppressed tears falls down.
"I know I'm just a by stander, I have no right to be telling you off on this." I start to laugh hysterically while my tears keep flooding. "I don't even know why I even bother to worry about you, about where you were, if you were sad, if you were crying, hell I was worried as fuck that you would snap and jump off somewhere…I feel so stupid thinking about what to say to you to help you feel better which you clearly didn't need since you're already out there with some strange random woman." I start clench my fists as I continue, "I'm sorry if I over stepped my boundaries, I'm sorry for needlessly worrying, I'm sorry for trying to be a friend."
I turn to my heel and walked away. I feel so stupid dammit. I wipe my tears with my arm, my uniform's sleeves now drenched in tears.
Fuck you Frost. I knew this was a bad idea. Why did Tooth even tell me to help? I don't even—
Jack grabs my hand pulling me to a hug. I froze. He rests his head at my shoulders. I felt my shoulders getting wet. He's crying?
He was quiet, only letting out a few sniffles. I start to place my hand on his back and gently patting it. "I'm sorry Princess…" he finally says something, his voice soft and full of sorrow.
"I was being a jerk and…" he sniffs again, "I'm just so fucked up right now, you only wanted to help but I snapped and talked shit at you."
I say nothing and just continued to calm him down. When I felt he stopped heaving, I pulled him away from me and I trailed my hand over his flaming red cheeks. God I really slapped him hard.
He looks straight at me, his eyes red from crying, mine probably was too. "Sorry for slapping you Frost, I just got really infuriated."
He takes my hand from his cheek and looks at it. "Your hand must really hurt for slapping my thick skin like that."
I laugh a little looking at my red palm. It really did hurt actually. I look at him again, "about Tooth, I didn't mean to listen to your conversation, but I was there and I didn't know what to do… It's not like I could easily go and say 'hey, mind if I go out for a bit before you guys can talk?' or something."
He ruffles his hair and chuckles a bit. "I know."
"Tooth, she's only looking out for you."
"I know."
"And she loves you more than you know."
He lets out a huge sigh, "I know."
"You should talk to her, when your head is cleared up."
"I know."
"Is that the only thing you're gonna say to me now?"
"No," he smirks.
Haven't seen that in a while.
"You're an ass Frost, you know that right?"
"I know."
"But we're still friends right?"
"Of course, Princess."
I stare at the playground for a while. "They say ice cream helps mend a broken heart, so what'd you say? I also owe you for taking me to the clinic after fainting," I say.
"As long as I get to eat mint choco this time," he grins.
"Of course," we start to walk.
"And you're eating it with me Princess."
"Now that's just pushing it Frost." I nudge him a little, "besides I plan on tasting all the flavors available on Ice Castle's menu before the end of the year."
"All the more reason why you should have mint choco now!"
I eye him, "nope, that's the last thing on my list of flavors I want to try. Besides, I'm craving for some almond fudge today."
"Suite yourself then Princess."
We sat at one of Ice Castle's outdoor table. I notice Jack putting his bowl of ice cream at his cheek.
"Is it that bad?" I ask.
"Remind me not to get you angry again Princess," he jokes.
I start to eat my almond fudge ice cream and it did not disappoint, it taste marvelous! But so far I'd say French Vanilla was the best that I tasted.
"Have you ever been in love Princess?"
His question caught me off guard that I abruptly swallowed my ice cream and it gave me major brain freeze.
"I'm sorry what?"
"I mean it's just, Tooth keeps telling me that my feelings for her isn't that kind of love, that I'm confused. How do you know you're actually in love?" He starts to play with his ice cream.
Dude, ice cream is supposed to be eaten not played at.
"I'm not sure I'd be able to answer that properly since the closest thing I have to that is an unhealthy obsession with a movie character," I laugh.
"Really? Which character?"
"Hmm, well he has this piercing blue eyes, chiseled face, charming voice that's like smooth velvet chocolate with silky ribbons of creamy caramel," I could see Jack's cocky expression creeping up his face as I went on, "and he's definitely not Jack Frost." I sneer at him. "It's Lord Nicholas from this old Princess movie."
"He sounds great," he says sarcastically.
"Gee, thanks," I roll my eyes at him.
"You're welcome." He finally started eating his ice cream.
"So about love though, I've red books and seen truck load of romance movies and so far I've deduced that being in love as feeling butterflies in your stomach whenever you're with that person. When you looks in their eyes your heart just flutters and everything feels like its in slow motion. Even though you see them every day you foolishly still miss them when they're not around. You see past their flaws and accept them for who they are. And when you kiss, your feet pops up," I chuckle remembering the movie I got that from, "or something like that I guess."
"And have you experienced these things?"
"Nope," I look at him, "did you feel these things when you were with Tooth?"
"I…No," he looks down at his melting ice cream.
Geez is he planning on eating that or not? I'm already halfway through mine and he only just had one bite. I feel sorry for that mint choco.
"I just feel safe when I'm with her I guess and I thought it was that and she was it."
I continue to eat my ice cream, just nodding at everything he says. It's not like I'm not listening to him, don't get me wrong, I just don't like melted ice cream.
"When I look back at it now, maybe she was right?" he looks at me, "what do you think Princess."
I was almost licking off the bowl trying to finish every piece of the ice cream and just kept on nodding at him and managed to mumble a "mm-hmm, yeah totally."
When I put down the bowl Jack was laughing at me.
"What? What's so funny Frost?"
He took a piece of napkin and proceeds to wiping me mouth. "And you tell me I'm childish when you're here eating ice cream and have chocolate smudged all over your mouth."
"Thanks," I laugh at him wiping my face like a mom.
"You're welcome," he says, grinning for a while but for a moment he became serious and he stops wiping my mouth. He was just looking at me. I couldn't put my finger on what type of look that was. It was different than how he usually looks at me. I just gaze back at him trying to figure out what was happening right now. We were like that for more than a minute or so.
Weird.
I was the first to break eye contact since it was getting awfully tense. "Sh-should we get you a straw? Your ice cream is a puddle now." I say shifting my gaze to his ice cream bowl.
I guess that brought him back to reality too and he let out this awkward laugh. "Ye-yeah, it definitely looks like mint choco chip soup now."
I never heard him laugh like that before, weird.
He actually sips the mint choco from the bowl like a frigging soup.
"You can be so damn weird Frost."
He just grins at me and says, "it's my charm Princess."
I just roll my eyes at his silliness. Just then my phone rang, I check who it was and it was Anna.
"It's Anna, excuse me Frost."
"Sure go ahead Princess."
I turn away from him and answer my phone.
"Elsa where are you? It's almost 6p.m. are you even planning on coming home?"
Geez Anna, it's not that late. She's been unusually worried ever since my fainting incident. "I'm at Ice Castle with Frost."
"You're having ice cream without me?" I immediately moved my phone away from my ear trying to save myself from Anna's loud scream.
"I'm just thanking him for what helping me last Friday."
"Okay, just bring me something sweet when you come home, preferably chocolates."
"Sure Anna, I'll be heading home in while."
"Okay, bye!"
"Bye!"
I turn back at Jack whose now finished with his ice cream soup. "How's the soup?"
"Minty. How's your sister?"
"Worried."
"Probably should take you home then."
"It's okay you don't have to take me, you should head back to your dorm too. Your boyfriends have been worried sick about you the whole day."
"Yeah I should go and give them a big warm hug." He laughs a little and stares at me again.
I look away from him, feeling uneasy. I can't seem to get used to these puzzling stares his been giving. "Yeah you go do that." I stand up from my seat and prop my backpack on.
"See you then?" he says.
"Yeah, be in class tomorrow okay? No more playing hooky with random old ladies," I tease.
"She wasn't that old."
"Yeah, and I'm a baby," I say sarcastically, "Bye Frost."
I was already a few steps away when I hear him say, "thank you Elsa."
He said my name again, but this time it was warm and soothing.
I looked back at him and he was already quite far. Damn. He sure walks fast.
I nonchalantly smile as I watch his figure slowly fading the farther he walked. Then I turn back and start to walk again.
Halfway through I felt my phone vibrate. A message? Must be Anna.
I reach for my phone from my pocket to check who messaged me and I stopped when I saw the unknown number.
It's not Anna.
I click to open the message, it was a bit long and I start to read it.
Hi Elsa, it's been a while. I finally got a phone! I know you guys were bugging me to buy a phone before so I have it now. Anyway, how are you? I heard you transferred to another school? Must be difficult to adjust there but I hope you're doing fine. I'm not entirely sure if I got the right number so text me back if this is really Elsa Winters. Been dying to catch up you, I miss you!
The sender apparently forgot to mention who he/she is. Do they think I'm some sort of wizard that would automatically recognize who they are from a text? And geez, this person text like his writing and essay.
I text back,
Hi yes this is Elsa. Sorry but who is this again?
My phone beeped back as soon as I sent the text.
It's me Tadashi.
A/N:
Jelloooo~
So this Chapter turned quite dark and gloomy, but anyways I tried my best as always. I'm not really good at writing conflicts so I hope it doesn't sound weird XD
P.S. the title toothache doesn't literally mean a toothache, it's just you know Jack's heartache + tooth = toothache lol
anyway, til next chapter~~~ toodles~~~
