Life Choices Remade
Characters: Bella Swan, Jacob Black, Sam Uley, Jared Trueheart, Paul Lahote, Embry Call, Charlie Swan, Billy Black, Edward Cullen, Alice Cullen, Carlisle Cullen
Synopsis: The week of their wedding, Bella gets a flash of what could happen if they were married and have children and winds up back eighteen months in the past to the day she sees Jacob first, can she change her future or will things play out like they did in this
Warnings: This is a time travel story, and will be focused on Jacob and Bella, so for those who are Jacob fans this ones for you, because he gets front row seating in this.
This is also a redo of the book series, but in wolf and the tribe is getting center stage and Edward becomes a threat as his jealousy starts getting for Edward fans, be warned you're not going to like how he's being put in this
Disclaimers: Twilight doesn't belong to me, the story belongs to me, everything else belongs to Stephenie
Chapter 1: The Letter and Looking For Clues
It had been eight weeks since we decided on getting married and it had caused several problems, first was my best friend had ran away as a wolf, secondly I felt like I was getting cold feet, he and my fiancée were two sides of me and I loved them both, but knew I had to choose, and I chose Edward Cullen, while feeling like I was tearing my heart, not to mention my family's hearts apart in the process.
My third problem as a result of that decision though was that they were two mystical beings I never expected to find, Edward was a vampire and Jacob was a werewolf, and there had been bad blood between their species for years, with the fact I moved to town, that had changed, but now I was about to tear my friend's heart apart, because I had accepted the engagement from Edward.
'God I wish I could change this, it had been so much easier when I could make my own choices, rather than have this damn axe hanging over my head.' I thought softly to myself, just I finished thinking that, a gentle growl went through my head then. 'Bella remember, you have to, you're my mate, not his, remember and come back to me.' I heard his voice say softly in my head. 'God Jake, I never wanted this to happen, I love you, I want you back.' I thought softly in response to his thoughts then.
'Maybe I could though, but how to do it I would need to back to the day I refound my Jake, or maybe further back, but I'm fully human I can't change the past, how do I do it, Harry if you can hear me, give me a sign please.' I thought, though just as that thought went through my head as a letter landed in front of me out of no where in response to that request then. After getting a hold of it I opened it and saw my handwriting. 'What on earth is this.' I thought as I opened it to read as I heard words in my voice to me.
'Bella, if you're reading this, you do have a choice, but it means returning to the day you and Jake were reunited when he brought your truck to your house, though you have the clues necessary in Edward's case don't pursue them, just catalogue those clues and start your research, but allow yourself to listen to what Billy is trying to tell you, and the day that starts the shift to what changes and breaks three hearts, let him go, you have five connections within the wolves, they're your family, the bracelet was a tribal bracelet look at it carefully, it'll show you who your family really is and look at your pictures.'
'If you're wondering who I am exactly, I'm you from another future, the tribes are friends, but you're the female leader of the young pack and have your own cubs, Jake is your mate, Edward is a menace and he's hiding important information from you that Billy was going to tell you the summer after the accident, if Edward hadn't been keeping you away from the pack and the guys.'
'Bella listen to me carefully, I know you're getting cold feet when it's comes to marrying him, and I understand why, your heart is telling you-you belong to someone else and that someone else is Jake, remember the message Billy gave and look through the photos, remember everything from your childhood.'
'Edward brought up the engagement to get Jake out of your life permanently, because he's been hiding something from you and his family since the day he and Billy made eye contact with each other, and this is important too, and explains your reactions to seeing the guys phase, the bracelet, your stuffed red wolf and so on, remember, you have to remember this, it will save your life.'
'Jake gave you two or three of the histories, but there is a dangerous version of them in their kind that brings it to legend of the immortal children, marrying a vampire and sleeping with them is deadly, it can kill you and he's turned into one out of jealousy, everything you need is in your hands, the bracelet, the photos remember your feelings of when around them, Billy and Harry those feelings of normalcy are because you've known since infancy.'
'Everything needed in the legends the pack taught you will protect you, but it means returning to the day of the accident two weeks into you school term here, Edward Cullen is a menace and you need to know that everything you thought you felt toward him was completely artificial, your life is human, not vampire, and its time to learn the truth of who you really are, who you're really mated to and where your true heritage and life really is.'
'Your feelings for Jacob were more than simple friendship, he's who you truly belong with, he's who you truly love, those feelings you felt for him were real, you need to hear the truth from your Godparents, your godparents are your father's own trio of friends, to understand and remember you need to hear the truth from them, because it's time you heard what it was he was hiding from you, what your mother was trying to tell you when you went to see her.'
'The real truth here is your place is human, not vampire, you were meant to join the fantasy world Edward only got you started in that direction he was meant to reintroduce you back into our world again. You met them so you could return to our world, but this is what's being hidden from you and it's very important.'
'While Jake, Billy and the pack are your family, your true family, your cousins are of the pack, they don't know you in that way yet, but they will, follow the pattern leading up to the day you were targeted by that coven and from there, change directions, let the pack protect you.'
'Be more open with your friends in your school gang, if you explain you're taken already that will end it with Mike, but you guys should have been true friends, and with that, change things in both areas, your past and future needs to be redone, you're meant to stay human, your calling is protecting people from these dangerous predators, remember the advice your mother and Rosalie gave you, dedicate your life to protecting people, like the tribe does.'
'Your place is Quileute Bella, not Cullen, follow your heart, in time the changes will insure that you find your true mate, call off the engagement, he's not who you are meant to be with, as your godfather, Billy will teach you their, your, histories. It's time to come home. Always remember, you have a choice, follow your heart and you know what you are, see you on the other side, Bella.' I read and felt the tears start running down my face as I realized what that future self of me was pointing out to than, I belonged with my mate and best friends of the pack.
As I tried to process the message, I saw a photo in it and pulled it out and saw Jake and the pack, in their wolf forms, as I saw Jake on one side of me and Sam on the other with Jared, Paul, Embry, Quil, Seth and Leah surrounding us on both sides, and then saw six wolves the size of grizzly bears, and knew that they were the quintet's fathers as wolves.
'I'm sorry guys, I never wanted you in the middle of this, I love you, but why do I feel like seeing you was normal to me, I gave you up to protect you, but I don't want to let go now, I need a sign, anything for the truth, you're what matter most to me now' I thought as I tried to hold it in then as I looked at the six grizzly sized wolves, seeing the gentle smiles in their eyes at whoever was taking the picture and smiled softly at that.
As I saw that, I saw that each one looked like the quintet of my friends pack, one looked like an adult version of Sam, the brown one like an adult version of Jared, another like Seth, the fourth like Paul, the fifth like Jake and the six like Brady White, and me close to twenty five years old, with my arm wrapped around Jake's neck, with a bracelet wrapped around my wrist, and the happy smile in his eyes and the tears started coming faster as I really what that version of me was telling me.
I knew then if this was me and the guys were keeping me surrounded, our bonds had gone past friendship and they saw me as either their sister or sister-in-law, just as that thought shot through me, I saw a second one in the envelope and saw a group of wolves and I was on the back of the red one, getting a better look at me I saw I was four and the six were look at the camera with smiles in their eyes, after seeing that I looked at the first picture and saw five of the six were in the photo of me with my friends as the older version of my friends as a wolf.
I felt a slight inkling of normalcy as I saw that too, as I felt that, something else showed up in the eyes of the older quintet and they all looked like Sam, Jake, Paul, Jared, Seth and I saw the gentle eyes of five of the wolves and saw the love in their eyes as they looked at that version of me with love in their eyes, and it was the love of an uncle or maybe brothers, in the case of the guys, though my parents were only children, as I thought it over, I focused on the look in Sam and Jared's eyes and saw brotherly love in them, and saw the same looks in Paul, Seth and Embry's eyes as well.
'What does that look in the quintet mean, I know Billy was a family friend and so are the Clearwaters, but why, what connection do they have with me, why can't I remember that, what's going on here, what's that message he said, think, think, focus Bella, why would I be able to relax that quickly once I saw Jake and Paul phase in front of me, who am I really, why did I get that letter, and why do I have thirteen wolves surrounding me, when Leah has been furious at me for the last six months and the guys stopped talking to me since, who am I really, those memories faded since the five year hiatus?'
'I know about Seth, Jared, Paul, Jake and Sam, but who are the adult versions exactly, and why do I feel like seeing that was normal, it's been years, why did my heart bring me home last year exactly, what was the real reason, I have so many questions, who do I go to-to ask?' I thought in frustration till I heard my mate's voice answer that, and heard his voice shift from the pained anger to the way he was with me when we were together after the Cullens took off and I had him healing the damage to my heart through love, his soft voice gently calming me like he used to.
'Bella calm down and relax, just focus on each clue and then add on to it one by one like you did with Cullen, look at the pictures leading up to when you were gone for the previous five years and then focus on the message dad gave you after that.' Jake said with a soft tone in his voice and I relaxed as I focused on what I needed, before I heard a voice answer me in my mind. 'The council wanted me to tell you, and this is their wording, we are watching you.' I heard Jake's voice say in my mind as I turned to that.
Thinking over that I saw several things in the photo I never noticed before and it was that Sam, Jared and Embry, as well as Paul, Leah and Seth, were protectively surrounding me on both sides, and pulled my photo album out of when I was a kid, dating backing it all the way back from the five year hiatus and saw me, Emily, Leah and the twins together in slumber party, another with me and Jared, with his arms around me in a brotherly way, Sam in the same response, the smiles on our faces, his blue eyes gentle as he looked at me with a look of brotherly love in his eyes.
As I looked at that I saw another photo of us with Paul with a playful smile on his face, as he threw the beach ball at us and we were at La Push, and then I saw what was on their wrists and saw bracelets with a different color leather band on them, one in red and the other in blue, and then looked at mine and saw it in green and felt shock go through me. 'Green, why am I wearing a bracelet like theirs?' I thought to myself, as I continued scanning my photos as I reached another with two women with me, Sam and Jared.
Their smiles had the look of a loving aunt as they looked at me with the guys then, then saw an older version of the duo with smiles on their faces with us, the adult version of Sam holding me in the next photo and my arms wrapped around his neck with a delighted grin on my face. 'Okay, if I saw him as another parental friend, he was probably another friend of dad's I just can't remember that right now, keep digging.' I thought then as I stared at my photos I suddenly felt something in my mind shift then.
As I remembered the day I was sitting with Jake that night during their sparring matches while watching the stars, I tried to figure out what his growls and whines in our conversation meant when I was talking to him, before his voice suddenly broke through the barrier, of whatever I had blocking it out before as I heard his voice.
As I stroked my hand through his fur, I suddenly heard the purring as his voice had a smile in it. "That feels good, well at least I'm keeping her warm like this, she's needing the warmth, though it's summer it still gets cold here and she needs the heat.' he said as I went over our conversation about the hike the day before the battle and heard his voice gently answer me as he shifted his head to look at me.
'It may be a long walk Bells, but it won't be a problem.' I heard before remembering what I said about his being my oversized dog as his mental tone had laughter in it as he answer me with a gentle wolf like chuckle as he pressed his side against mine snuggly. 'Wolf Bells, I'm your wolf, and nothing is taking you away from me, I love you honey.' his voice said gently with a chuckle, before I leaned into him and heard the gentle whine.
'No matter what Bella, I'll always protect you, you mean too much to me, and I'm not giving you up without a fight, I love you and I'll always love you.' he said softly to me and I hid a smile as the next memory came forward then, and one that I knew was the hardest memories I had, because it was the day I accepted the engagement.
After remembering the argument in the mountains that day his howl of pain suddenly shot through me as I heard his voice scream out in pain, and I knew this is what he was really thinking before he came up behind me. 'Noooo, Bella why, I can't lose you don't leave me, alright that is it, you damn bastard why did you do this to me, you son of a bitch you're dead, you're dead, I'm going to kill you I swear to god, I swear to god you're dead!' His voice screamed in anger and pain as I heard the howl turn to a whine.
'Bella please, don't do this, I love you, you can't leave me. You're my exact match, you're my mate, don't leave me.' his voice said as I heard the crying in his mental tone 'We are watching you.' I heard Jake's voice echo again, as I remembered that I felt a jolt of pain go through my heart than. 'I'm sorry Jake I never meant to do that to you.' I thought sadly as I started again and went further till I reached the photos of my toddler self and my earlier years on Forks just after the divorce and my first summer with them.
As I flipped through the album to when I was younger than seven and saw something I never noticed before, and saw an adult version of Jake in wolf form sitting in the lawn with a two year old version of me leaning against him as I was napping, and his paws wrapped around me and his head covering my back and hid a smile at that, I did that with Jake as he kept me warm that night in the tent, since he was my personal sun and space heater at the time.
As I saw that I suddenly heard the gentle purring sound from this adult version as I slept in his arms and a flashback shot through me as I was in his furry arms and snuggled deeper into his furry chest, before, somehow, hearing an adult voice in my mind say, 'I love you baby, I'll protect you with my life, from those demons.' he said and the voice was one I recognized as it was Billy's and felt a jolt of disbelief shoot through me at that.
' Whoa what in the world is that?' I thought quickly as I heard Jake's words again for a third time. 'We are watching you.' his voice said, taking on a new term. Hearing Billy's voice, I had to know if he was who I thought, before I could though I heard it again as I looked at the sandy brown furred wolf in my picture of him.
'Don't worry honey, I'm not losing you to those leaches, I'm protecting you from those parasites no matter what, like Billy I'll protect you with my life, I love you baby.' This voice said, only in the voice of the lost member of my father's trio as I felt a jolt of pain go through me at the loss. 'I'm sorry Harry, I didn't mean to put you at risk.' I thought sadly as I stared at the photo of him, and then noticed I was leaning against him, his arm wrapped around me in a hug and my head against his shoulder.
As I scanned my pictures, I found one of him and me with a smile on my face, and a playful smile in his eyes as he had his hand on my stomach, and I knew whatever I did to get that particular result, I was being punished in a playful way as he tickled me when I was five as he had me in his arms as he did it and I could tell from the smile on my face I was laughing as he tickled me, whatever he was to me, I missed him a lot by that point and wanted him back, I also wanted Jake back as well.
'Parental friend or more than that to me, he and Billy had been apart of my life and I loved them both, why did I have to lose him now?' I thought to myself as I kept scanning my pictures and then found one with him, dad, Sue, Billy and me in the middle of the group and dad holding me when I was four years old and me holding my stuffed wolf.
As I saw that, I knew I had spent six months since he was killed feeling the loss go through me, I didn't remember what he was to me, but it like a knife had gone through me, as I felt a jolt of anger go through me at the loss. 'Edward falls in love with me, promising me that he'd never leave, and thanks to one mistake he takes off and leaves me vulnerable to a bunch of parasites, my soul had been damaged during that time and my father was beyond worried, because I was disconnected, what happened to me.'
'How stupid could I be here, while he's gallivanting around I'm at risk and the ones to protect me are the people who he was keeping me from, my best friend and the quartet are probably more than friends to me, but what exactly, and their parents heal me by just being surrogate parents and I get the truth as my mate phases in front of me, and I see my friend as a wolf in the only way that made sense and that was by making him mad enough to phase in front of me, while Sam tells me to move back, before he does.'
'Thanks to some vendetta, I wind up getting targeted and the first loss I really take results in Leah and Seth phasing, along with Quil, and they start protecting me no matter what after that day, my father's best friend is killed and she blames me for that, while at the same time Edward mistakes a bit recklessness for a real suicide."
'The results of the battles with Riley and Victoria result in nearly killing Jake, Seth and Leah and they kill a man who was parental friend and probably more than that to me, I nearly lose my father the same day I lose Harry, I can't tell my parents the truth, because they won't understand it and finally to top it off I've got an axe on my head, and I'm being forced into marriage, before I'm ready for it thanks to that damn axe and their god-damn by-laws, and I have no choice but to force the engagement to do it.'
' This entire situation of the last eighteen months results in killing forty five people, while my surrogate uncle is dead and now, thanks to those damn parasites, I'm about to tear my friends hearts out, the boys think I turned on them and want nothing to do with me, I want them back, damn it, I don't want this relationship any more, I want my friends back, I want my mate back, I want to live, and most of all I want my uncle back."
"God damn it, why is it always me, I should have been the one to be taken, you didn't have to do this Harry, why were you and dad in the woods, what were you doing in there.' I thought, before feeling the emotional release hit as I started shouting at him in my mind as the anger hit me all at once and I finally let it loose.
'Why were you in the woods, I gave up a human life to save the others, and all for what, I have no memory of what you really mean to me, and I've taken one too many blows, I can't take another one, I'd give anything for another chance Harry, come back, please come back.' I thought feeling the loss as it shot through my heart, the pain hitting me all at once as five months of holding it in gave out then as I felt the tears running down my face. 'I want you back, please come back.' I thought again as I slumped to the floor.
It had been years and the memories had faded, but I loved him as more than one of my father's friends, but like he was more than that to me, like he was a surrogate father or an uncle, like he and Sue had more than a simple relationship with me and why I felt so comfortable on the reservation then, as I thought this I looked at that photo softly.
I couldn't remember, but I knew whatever I was to them I knew losing me would kill them, as I felt the tears running down my face, I heard a voice I missed more than anything answer me. 'I know you miss me baby, but this wasn't your fault honey, our bonds were more than you thought, but this is going to help, but it's okay baby.'
'It's not your fault sweetheart, none of this was, I'm a hunter and I protect others, I did what I had to do, you needed your father, and I wasn't risking him getting killed and being taken away from you, she nearly got the drop on him and I distracted her long enough for your brothers and mate to chase her off, but that's what caused the heart attack, she killed me, but that wasn't your fault, we love you and were protecting you with our lives.' I heard his voice say softly in my mind as he added onto his sentence.
'Baby, I need you to remember, look through your photos that's your clue, time to come home.' he added gently as I looked at his picture and the sandy brown furred wolf. 'Honey, I've always been with you, just in another form, you saw me in Seth, that's what your heart is really saying, I'm here, but as your brother's wolf form, Seth is who remembered me as, before, I'm right here, just as my cub form.' he said gently and I looked at the grizzly sized gold werewolf as I looked into its eyes and felt the pain ease.
'Harry, it can't be, I know about the guys, but I thought the gene jumped a generation, how can you speak to me, when I couldn't hear the pack when I was with them, and what do you mean mate.' I thought before seeing me with a grizzly sized werewolf with black fur and another with light brown, but darker around his chest, fur and then heard his voice answer me, as I thought over this I suddenly heard his voice in my head as he explained things, and I knew this had to be the reason I felt so comfortable with them.
'It didn't, every time a new one comes through we activate, I may have been retired as a wolf, but that didn't stop me from doing it as a hunter, baby listen to me, you came back for a reason, your great grandmother is your link to us, look through everything we gave you as you grew up here, it'll help you remember, as for the second one, I may be gone, but I'm with you in spirit honey, my wolf form is covered by your brother.'
'That's one of the pieces and you being able to hear me is part of the clues of who you really are, remember, you need to remember, you weren't at full strength it takes months for you to hear us mentally, because you were gone for five years you forgot how to use your gift, and it's your legacy now.' he said softly and I nodded as I did it.
'By mate I meant Jake as well, he's who you were supposed to be with, you remember what he said, he's exactly right for you, if it hadn't for Cullen you'd be together now, and our family would be in one piece, now you need to hear the truth, but first you have to dig through the clues of your childhood here with us, those are your only chance to break through what Cullen has been keeping from you and why you passed out that night.'
' I sent the boys in after you to get you out of the woods, and Sam carried you back to the house, but you scared the hell out of us, to understand why, you need to hear this from Billy, but first you need to dig into everything.' he said softly and I nodded as I thought what I saw of the wolf when I looked at Seth and felt the familiarity with them.
'Are you the sandy brown furred wolf in the photos if you look like an adult version of Seth, and I could hear your voice in those memories?' I asked and heard him answer that. 'I am, those flashbacks are the suppressed memories honey the adult pack looks like the young one so match the colors of us to your pack, and let the memories come forward baby, look at every picture, every gift we gave you that will help bring the memories forward, you're more powerful than you think, we can fix this, but you have to remember.' he said and I nodded as I looked at the picture as I felt the pain easing then.
"Cub form, is that what you call the quintet, if you're the adult pack?" I asked and I heard a gentle chuckle. "Yes, the boys are what we looked like when we started out, the comparisions, if you looked from us to the boys are pretty clear, but they're the cub versions of us in wolf form, so match up our colors to the young pack. At the moment you got eight in the young pack right now, because the youngest hasn't phased yet and won't for another three years, but look from the adult pack to the young pack, you'll know us when you see us, because the boys are us as cubs, and our colors are marked too." he said and I nodded as I went into that then.
'Adult pack to young, you mean the guys were color coded to you?" I asked and I heard him answer me with a gentle smile in his voice. "Yes, the eight had our colors, my pack is the adult version of yours, so match up our colors to theirs.' he said and I nodded and focused on the photo of me with my friends, not long after we'd been together for a month after Jake had joined the pack and he was healing me further at the time.
Seeing the guys I looked at the adult wolves in the photo and then to my shock I pulled out one that had the adult pack and my mother was standing between the red and sandy brown furred ones with a smile of pride on her face and saw the others as I compared the eight adult wolves, the last probably not completely phased yet, since the youngest of the young pack was twelve, but as I looked between the paternal duo and their friends with my mother to my friends with me in their wolf forms and I started naming them off by color as I smiled as I thought it softly.
"Adult red is Billy, adult sandy brown is Harry, adult brown is Jared's father, adult gray and white furred is Paul's, adult black furred is Sam's father and adult chocolate brown is Quil's father, and probably Brady and Colin's fathers, but I don't remember or never saw what they look like as a wolf and Jesse is still a cub right now he's starting in three years. Alright so I have one of my mother with the adult pack, a bunch of photos of me with the packs parents, what else is connecting me to them?" I asked myself as I decided to investigate further and put everything into a pile.
'Sam said his dad was called Joshua, so Josh Uley is probably the man holding me in the photo when I was seven, before he left.' I thought as I looked at that one I started seeing the man my surrogate big brother would grow into as I looked at that photo as I saw Sam as a wolf with brown strands mixed into black fur and then looked at Josh and saw his fur completely black, Josh as an seven foot high wolf, and Sam five and a half to six feet tall, and thought it over then, feeling a sense of normality at that as I thought it over, as well as a sense of kinship in my heart at seeing them then.
'Okay so Sam is still a cub at the moment, while as adults their colors get deeper, if I'm reading this right he's got five to six years, before he's completely jet black, what was his father's wolf's name, Black, no, Shadow, alright time for a ro-test here, if I can speak to them it's worth a shot, Shadow can you hear me?' I called out and heard his voice with a surprised growl in it, and I knew what it was Harry was trying to tell me as my friend's father wolf reacted to the call out as he answered with a paternal tone in his voice, and I could hear the gentle tone as he said it.
'Honey what's wrong?' he asked me and I felt relief go through me as I answered him. 'I'm just testing something, the memories are stirring up, are you the adult version of Sam's wolf?' I asked and he explained that to me. 'I am, that was the other name I went by, you used to call me Blackie when you were little, alright if you called out to me now my human is going to know something is up.' he said, before I heard a secondary remark to that as I heard an adult version to Sam's voice answer that with a bemused tone at that. 'It's a bit too late for that Shadow, honey is that you?' he asked and I nodded.
"Yeah it's me, I'm doing an investigation into what Cullen is hiding from me and this was a piece of it, Harry said this was my legacy, I take it I can talk to you when you're a wolf or not now?" I asked and I heard the gentle smile as he answered. 'That's right baby, look if you want to remember who I am to you, do your search, because those photos you saw of me with your parents, were more than snapshots of friends I'm more than that to you, as is Daniel and Elliot, keep it up, and keep testing it out.' he said softly as his voice opened up a vein in my memory. 'Don't worry baby, I love you and I'm not giving you up, any leach that hurts you is paying the price' I heard his voice say to me when I was three at the time and I smiled as I answered him.
"Am I going to hear from you or see you in both forms again?" I asked and his tone turned paternal as he answered me. 'You will baby, I promise, what happened over there the last six months if you got re-involved with the packs again honey?' he asked and I sighed as I answered him. "Cullen turned me into a magnet for the red eyes, I've got an axe on my head by the leadership and I'm being forced into marriage, before I'm ready here, as to why I wound up running into the red eyed leadership last spring."
"I also got a letter from another version of myself offering a chance to change things, but it means returning to the day I came home, what should I do, I don't want to just leave my parents the guys, or the rest of the gang, but I'm doing it to protect them." I asked him and his tone turned firm then and I knew he got the reference then. 'Cullen, the Cullen clan is back in town, which Cullen got you targeted by these leaches, I can feel the amount of anger in Reddy and Brown from it for some reason, what the hell did he do to you if the guys are this furious?' He repeated and I nodded as I answered him.
"Yeah, we had a repeater of your situation and your grandfather's actually, Sam imprinted on Harry's niece, though he was dating his daughter for four years after they turned seventeen, he's been a werewolf for the last three years, Jared and Paul were next and then Embry followed later that summer, and Jake started last winter and that's when I found out what, or found out a second time, whichever it is, that the tribe were werewolves, but my feelings of normalcy at seeing them were beginning to return, after seeing the duo phase in front of me on two occasions here."
"But I couldn't care less what you are, to answer your second question Edward is the Cullen who fell in love with me, and to answer that question, after a minor mistake with exposed blood, his red eyed turned gold eyed brother lost control and this was the final straw for him, he left and took the others with him, and whatever my gift is caused me to shut down for four months, till I found the guys and they started healing me.'
"But the ending results of Edward falling in love with me turned me into a magnet for every red eyed nomad, new red eye and crazed lunatic running around the planet thanks to his mistaking a bit of recklessness for a suicide last spring, if you recall two of your histories, I just got a repeat, because he killed the mate of the one that caused the quintet to all start the last six months here, if you saw the news about the newborn outbreak, that explains the twenty five missing or dead and fifteen others on top of them, because they were hunting in the woods and the guys nearly got shot."
"After dealing with the redhead who caused it and the army, that ended things, but though we eliminated one threat, I've got a secondary one on my head, and it's, if I don't get turned, they're going to kill everyone I care about, the letter arrived right after I started getting cold feet, I want to stay human and with you and the others, what now?" I asked and I heard his tone turn firm with a dangerous paternal tone in his voice as he answered me, and I could tell he was turning protective uncle on me then.
"Which two exactly if you're bringing that up, if that guys put you back under the pack's protection since the bastard left you?" he asked and I sighed. "The tribe's first encounter with the cold ones and the third wife, I wound up meeting a trio of red eyes two months after moving back and it turned into a sadistic game of cat and mouse, Cullen killed the leader, but this resulted in the third wife story coming to the fore, because she decided it was an eye for an eye and targeted me, the tribes combined forces, but Jake and Leah were nearly killed in the fight, and the red eyed leaders said I had to do it within three months or they were going to destroy the tribe, the town and kill my parents."
"I've reached the limit of my not wanting to stay with him, because of this, because I've been holding it in since Harry was killed, I have no memory of what I am or what you guys are to me, but if I run through this I need every bit of the truth, because I want Jake back now." I said as I tried to hold it in and heard his tone turn gentle, and I knew he was furious at what I just told him then as he answered me gently then.
'Alright, if Harry said it already, do your investigation than go see Billy, but I'm coming home, I've waited too long to do this, my memories will be re-arranged like theirs will, so I'll remember if you get in touch with me like this, don't worry baby, it's going to be okay, and it will work out, see you soon honey.' he said and I smiled as I answered him, because if he was who I was thinking to me, it was time to start using his original title.
"You too Uncle Josh." I said and then felt a gentle pulse run through the link at that and smiled, if that meant a paternal friend or more I was looking into it as I looked at Sam in his wolf form standing on one side of me with Jake on the other and knew our bond had shifted, he thought of me as a surrogate sister as I thought softly.
'Sam if you're more than a friend I'm finding it out, things changed, I need you guys and I'm not letting go, if we're more than that to each other, I'm finding out and then I'm fixing things between us.' I thought softly, before hearing an answering voice in my head to that. 'Bella, how did you do that, I'm on duty right now, how can we talk to each other like this?' I heard him say to me in shock and I quickly answered him then.
'You mean you heard that thought?' I asked and heard his voice answer me as the shock started wearing off as he started getting used to it. 'Yeah I did, how are you holding up, I can feel the emotional pain from here?' he asked me softly and I sighed. 'Not so good, I'm working on learning what it is Edward is keeping from me, once I've done that, could you meet me at Billy's and bring the guys and Leah with you we have to talk?' I asked and heard his voice change into that of a big brother as he answered me.
'Sure thing, hang in there Bella, I'm not letting go either, just hang on, learn whatever it is you need and then fill us in, I'll see you in ninety minutes, okay sis.' he said and I felt my heart lift at that. 'If this means we can fix our bonds, I'm taking it Sam, our bonds deepened for some reason and I'm finding out why, because I've felt a kinship with you since we met.' I said and then heard three other voices answer me.
'Us too Bella, I think whatever we are to each other is more than we think, because we love you like a sister, now we need to know why you're so comfortable with us, but I swear, if whatever it is means what I'm thinking here, he's in deep shit for it.' I heard Embry say to me and I smiled. 'You logged on in this huh?' I asked and heard Jared answer that. 'Yeah, the four of are doing a shift to see if we nailed every single newborn to make sure we have them all, so take your time, and we'll see you soon.' he said and I nodded as I answered him as I thought our bond and gave him a new label.
"Paul if whatever's going on means we get to fix our relationship, we become the siblings we should have now." I said and I heard a smile in his tone. 'If I ever find out what it was he was trying to block out he's a dead man, I thought of you as a sister since that week you were always with us and the previous six months, since the partnership went full.' he said and I nodded. "Alright I'm looking into this now, and then come up."
'See you shortly, brother, guys.' I thought back to him and heard a chuckle as we ended our conversation and I refocused on the next item, before running a hand through my stuff wolf's fur gently as I looked at it. 'Okay, so big pack to little one, I've got the ability to talk to them and their wolves, I've got the photos of us with their parents, so four of ten clues here, keep digging and then call Billy.' I thought softly as I stood up and then looked down at my wolf Tala and then saw something I never saw before and straightened up in shock at it.
As I got a better look at my wolf, I saw that it's fur color was in a reddish brown and smiled, it was my mate and uncle in wolf form and smiled as I saw the initials and saw them as my best friend and his father and knew this was another hint on what Harry was trying to tell me. 'So Billy got me a toy wolf that looked like him and Jake as a wolf, alright clue number three, what else, wolf number one here, wolf number two at mom's house, I had one for both parents?" I thought as I got up as I petted my wolf.
'Thanks Reddy for the memory, point me in the right direction, please.' I thought, before hearing a voice I didn't remember answering that. 'Cub start with the pictures you used to draw of us when you were still a toddler, that's your first clue, your father kept everything in several boxes in the attic time to run your own investigation, because the leach is getting roasted when my cub and my pack's cubs learn everything.' he said and I nodded as I answered him.
'Are you Billy's spirit wolf?' I asked and I heard a gentle chuckle. 'I am, my name is Red, but your mother used to call me Reddy, so hearing you call my name out was enough that I knew you needed me, to put it gently from the time you were born I loved you like you were my own cub, do what needs to be done and then come see my human, I'll tap the connection between me and my pack's Cubs and send the seven to our house so you can hear everything, Alice calls and tell her to ignore what you're about to do.' he said and that finished my resolve, I was getting the truth no matter what then.
'Why are you calling me cub exactly, I'm not a wolf?' I asked and I heard a chuckle as he answered me. 'You kids are still cubs to us despite the fact you're teenagers and adults, I watched you grow up, my human was retired, but I'm still acting adult alpha right now, my pack is completely active again, once you're done searching everything out, call my human, and we'll intercept at the boundary to blur the conversation you're having with him and Goldie's mate.' he said and I nodded to that. 'I take it Goldie is Harry in wolf form and his mate happens to be Sue, alright I got to get used to this, but to go into it.'
'One last question here, I'm little Red's mate, aren't I?' I asked and I heard his tone turn paternal at that. 'Yes cub, you are, that's why we were waiting for you to remember this, because we're not letting you go without a fight, see you soon, cub, we're not giving you up without a fight, focus on each item and then add on to it one by one, like my cub said.' he said, and I nodded before I heard a female voice add on to it.
'Bella don't take my human's temper with you too seriously okay, she was supposed to be a protector, she'll find her mate in time, but in the mean time you girls just rebuild your bonds if you choose this change, I know what that message means as does my brother wolves, if you go back and change things and we can fix our bonds by being our pack family once again.' she said and I nodded as that did it for me and I got to work.
As I stood up and moved to the door of my room, I closed the blinds and turned on the lights for privacy, if this was why Edward had kept me from going to La Push and seeing Jake, Billy and Harry during the previous fifteen months I was investigating it, and if it was important, I was going to kill Edward myself now. As I did it, I heard Jake's words echoing through my mind and knew they meant something then.
'Okay dad kept my stuff from when I was spending every summer here, time to see what I drew during that time.' I thought, before I could do anything my phone buzzed then. As I looked at the caller I sighed as I answered it. "Hey Alice." I said and she got started. "You okay, I felt something shift, what's wrong?" she asked and I sighed. "Could you give me three hours, I have some investigating to do and don't tell him anything."
"Whatever memories that faded before I moved back are what I'm looking into now, so block him out for as long as you can and don't tell him anything please, because I have to see Bily and Sue with what's coming up during this investigation." I said and I knew she nodded as she answered me. "Sure the guys are going hunting, Carlisle, Esme, Rose and I are here, whatever you need to do, I'm giving you the time, because his attitude is beginning to wear my patience down, you're miserable and I know you want to see the boys, so I'm the one taking charge, so go ahead." she said and I hid a sigh of relief.
"When I learn what it is Billy was trying to tell me and why Edward is keeping me from seeing them right now, I'll call the six of you I promise, but this maybe why Rose was trying to change my mind when the newborn battle came up, you're my best friend and nothing is changing that, but my heart belongs to Jake now, I need to see what's going on here, because I don't trust him for some reason anymore." I said to her and she went into it. "Alright do whatever you have to, I'll cover things on my end just find out what they and your mother wanted you to know." she said and I nodded.
"See you tonight Alice, once I'm done looking into this, I'll call you okay, so we can tell you, and the guys and Leah are going to be with me when it's done, so try not to get into a fight in the middle of my living room, okay." I said and I heard a chuckle as she answered me. "Considering we're working on our being allies, I'll hear it from you, Sam and Jake, just call me or Rose, when you head back to your house. See you in a few hours." she said and I nodded and we hung up.
Alice
After hearing her tell me that I went to talk to Carlisle, Esme and Rosalie then. "Alice what was that about?" Carlisle asked and I sighed. "Her future started getting blurry just now and I wanted to check on her to see if she was okay, she said to give her three hours and then wait for the phone call, whatever she has to tell us is serious." I told him and he nodded as Rose looked at me like that.
"She's getting cold feet and we're three weeks away from the wedding this could be why she's so miserable, she wanted to be with the boys, but he's keeping her from going to see them." she said and Carlisle's eyes narrowed. "Billy said she was going to do some investigating when I called him last month, if she was having second thoughts about marrying him, because this is beyond serious, her mother said this was not turning into a tug a war and he did that, while ignoring her direct orders here."
"If this means there's more to Renee's bond with Sam, Jared and Jake, that's what we need to find out, and this could be what he's trying to tell her, alright all of you block your minds, we wait for the phone call, and for them to get back, because whatever he's hiding from me, he's in big trouble for, if she's getting ready to tell us, Emmett and Jasper." he said and we nodded as we waited to see what this bombshell was about to unearth for us, if it meant changing things in her future, it would mean serious changes.
Bella
Right after I hung up the phone after that conversation ended I opened up the door leading to my attic and moved to a set of stuff by the window that had boxes of my childhood stuff and looked at a box marked 'Bella at 5 years old' and opened that one and saw multiple pictures and other items from my preschooler years, before landing on one that had nine colored wolves on it with their initials in red crayon right under it.
Looking at the wolves, I saw eight from the photos, and then another with them, in red, black, orange, gold, chocolate brown, light brown, silver and white, orange with white stripes in his legs and chocolate with a white patch on his chest and then saw the initials under them, in W.B., J.U., H.C., E.L., D.T., Q.E.A., J.D., A.D. J.W., under each wolf.
Seeing that I knew my toddler self knew, but the memory faded by the time I was twelve, but I knew six of the names on wolves, and nobody, but me knew or understood what I was drawing as I grew up. "Alright the initials are Billy, Harry, Josh, Daniel, Elliot, Eric Ateara, what was that elders name, Jason, no, alright hang on.' I thought to myself.
'Shadow, who was the orange wolf in your pack exactly, I've got the initials in front of me, but I can't remember?' I asked him and he explained it to me. 'The initials stand for Jack Denali, he's the seventh of the pack, but we had nine in it.' he said, before another voice added onto it. 'Cub my nickname was Orangie, that was another name your mother gave me, Val and Stripes, as well as Storm, Brown, and Red are active now, but keep it up, see you soon cub, I'll meet you at the perimeter.' he said and I nodded to that.
"Alright Billy, Harry, Josh, Daniel, Elliot, Eric, Jack Denali, Adam Daniels and Joseph White, of course, alright that's clue number five, keep going.' I thought as I kept digging and saw several more items and found another photo of me and Jake sitting together when we were four and six and smiled. 'The council wanted me to tell you, and this is their wording, we are watching you.' I heard his voice say again in my mind then.
As I heard his words echoing through my mind, I decided to check the photos downstairs on the wall as I went into the living room and got a look at the photos dad had of me on there and saw me when I was a baby being held by Billy, me being held at that same age by Harry, another with Josh holding me on his shoulders and the fourth with my being held by an adult version of Jared, and then checked out the pictures of our camping trips and smiled, since nearly all of them showed a pack of wolves in them.
The first was of me sitting in Harry's paws with a smile in his eyes as I leaned my head against his when I was three, another showed me curled up in Billy's arms during a nap when I was two, and I was guessing dad had gone for supplies, because I was curled up on my blow up mattress and he decided to sit with me in the tent, to keep me warm, since I knew with being that high up the mountain the temperature dropped pretty low.
As I checked out the next one I saw another photo of me and then saw me at three years old holding onto the leg of that reddish brown wolf that was close to the size of a grizzly bear, the next one was me with Sam and Jared with smiles on our faces when I was seven years old, me and Leah together with the sandy browned furred wolf who was also grizzly sized and who had a gentle smile in his eyes as he looked at the camera, a third with an adult version of Sam and Jared, who I now knew was Josh and Daniel.
In the fifth I saw the twenty seven year old versions of our parents and both adult versions of the guys as they were both watching over us with smiles on their faces, while in another photo I saw a group photo as my father stood between them, Billy and his wife, Harry and Sue and with my mother next to him and with me in her arms when I was a year old and me holding a stuffed red wolf in my arms, with a gentle smile on my face that day, which I guess was because I had my paternal friends around me.
As I saw the smile in Billy's eyes as he looked at me holding the wolf, I then shifted my attention to his hand and saw his wrist and saw a bracelet that had a leather band with a burgundy colored strap woven into it and saw my mother's and saw a green leather strap in hers and felt a shock go through me as I shifted my gaze to my baby self and my wrist to see what I had on me at that age and realized they were clan bracelets. 'So mom had the green bracelet, but why, I thought she was a pale face, how could she have one, alright Harry said my great grandmother is the key here, that might be it."
After seeing that, I saw what looked like a clan bracelet wrapped around my infant sized wrist with a green stripe and with it were several different colors in red, blue, sky blue and burgundy, surrounding it and a miniature necklace with a red wolf pendant around my neck as I hold my wolf clutched to me with a smile in my eyes as I looked at the camera and then saw me and Jake with smiles on our faces as we played with the red wolf and he looked at us with the look of a father in his eyes.
'Whoa, I've got one just like theirs, but it's mixed with four other colors, who's who and why am I wearing this stuff, when I was born a pale face, I can't be Quileute, who am I?' I thought as I looked closer at the photos of the pack and saw something I remembered from my first and final encounter with Laurent that winter when I saw the guys that day.
As I was looking at each picture I saw the intelligent looks of humans in their eyes, like I had with Jake when I saw them that winter, and I felt jolt of realization went through me and then looked at the eyes of Billy and then looked at the wolf and saw the same loving look in his eyes and felt a jolt of shock go through me, that wolf was my mate's father in his wolf form and then looked at Harry's eyes more closely and then looked at the brown furred wolf and saw the same eyes in him as well, and I knew they were the wolves who were always with me as a baby.
As I looked at them I looked at the adult version of Sam as I looked at the adult black furred wolf and saw those eyes in him as well, and me wrapped around his leg with a smile on my face as I saw a three year old version of Jared wrapped around the other, and from the angle I could see he was hiding a smile as he walked with us hanging onto his legs as he gave us a ride around the yard and I could see a happy smile in my eyes.
As I saw everything in those pictures I quickly ran back upstairs and dug into the closet for my keepsake box and dug into it till I found the bracelet I had kept since I was a little girl, which was for my six year old wrist and got a look at the colors woven into it. 'This is getting serious, Edward, whatever you're hiding from me, I'm killing you for it, I'm not letting them go.' I growled in my head as I focused on the colors of my bracelet.
As I got a good look at it, it was color coded in red, green, burgundy, sky blue and dark blue and I saw the word 'Tala' written in paint on it and saw a reddish brown image of a wolf next to it and then saw the burgundy cord intertwined with mine, like fingers intertwined, but I wasn't sure what that meant, but saw a light, almost sky blue cord connecting our cords to each other, making my bracelet a near rainbow color, but it meant something and I knew it.
As I focused on that I saw the three wolves together, and then saw a burgundy one and a blue one, red, blue, green, burgundy and sky blue together, next to the word 'Tala' as I thought it over, I grabbed the book on histories and looked up mating rituals and saw it said when the cord of one family was intertwined with another, they were connected through marriage or betrothed, for the wolf clans, the contracts activate when the men are of age to become a hunter, which I figured meant when they were ready to phase.
'Marriage or betrothed at the mens phasing age, the reddish brown, almost burgundy colored, wolf is next to my green one and the cords are entwined, no, it can't be, Jake is my mate, he's my betrothed.' I thought fighting the sobs trying to come out as I looked at that word and it was a name, but I didn't know what for, because I never looked it up.
I knew that was my middle name, but what it meant eluded me for years, as I saw three miniature wolves on it and they all looked like the little pendent Jake made for me but they were in red, green and blue, and mine was between theirs, as I thought it over, I pulled the photo of me, Sam and Jared out and saw their color lines in the bracelets, Sam had red, I had green and Jared had blue and the ends of the cords were knotted.
As I was looking at that I saw my toy wolf sitting on the bed next to my pillow and picked it up and saw a sash wrapped around his neck, with the word 'Tala' on it and then moved back to my keepsake box and saw a chain in it and pulled it out and saw the necklace that had been around my neck as a baby and saw three wolves in the same colors on it.
'Red, green and blue together, why, what does that mean?' I thought as I saw us as toddlers as I saw their mothers and mine together with the same colored bracelet cord around their wrists with smiles, but knotted in with red and blue cords in theirs and then it hit me, we were more than simply childhood friends, our mothers were either friends or they were...?, I started to think as I realized what was happening, my memories of normalcy with seeing them phase was returning, and I knew then what the real message in the council's statement to me was as the gears in my mind screeched to a halt then.
Thinking that over I grabbed the book a second time and saw it said that two colors side by side meant a family group, but more than one, meant we were bonded for life as a family. 'If a non clan member wants to be part of the clan, it's necessary to do a blood brother ritual with the patriarchs of the clans he's connected to by friendship.'. Wait a second dad wasn't born Quileute, but their friendship is enough, okay, so the trio of colors on both sides of me were Sam and Jared, Jake is the burgundy colored band.'
'I'm green, Sam is red, Jared is blue, Jake is burgundy, so who is the fifth exactly, wait a minute, our parents were together in a group photo, and dad had a slight scar on his palm, which looked like it was done by a knife.' I thought as I looked at Harry's clan bracelet and saw a sky blue leather band in it and felt my shock then.
'Dad's best friends were Billy and Harry, so..., oh my god dad was friends with the male quartet for forty years, he did a blood brother ritual with the quartet, he doesn't care and prefers them in my case to Edward, and he wouldn't mind at all if he knew the truth, mom has a green strap on her bracelet, while their mothers have theirs mixed with the duo's family colors, and our colors are tied into my bracelets as I grew up.' I thought as I realized exactly what my memory was telling me, I was either half or fully Quileute, and grew up with the young pack, and I wasn't scared, because I knew already.
'No it can't be, I've known from the time I was a year old what they were, I've always known what the tribe really was, and I was more than simply they're best friend's daughter, I mean more than that to them, Billy, Harry and Sue are more than that to me, they were more than my father's best friends, they're my secondary guardians, Billy is my...?' I started to say and I realized exactly what the real message was when they sent Jake to see me, during my prom that year when I was with my quintet that night.
As that memory shot through me I remembered the irritated warning look in his eyes and I felt my shock go through me as everything Edward did shot through me and I realized what Billy tried to tell me, through the message, if I was one of them it meant the color coding was my family, my mother was an only child, I had my coloring from dad, but that meant I was Quileute. 'Okay green and red together was Sam's parents and green and blue was Jared's parents, while I'm mixed it with Jake's family color.'
As that shot through me, I realized the colors pointed out to my family, I just needed Billy to confirm it, and if it meant what I thought, my father had created a parental gang quintet with their parents, and I felt every clue solidify then, as I felt my anger growing by the minute. 'I leave for five minutes and the wolves start descending on you.' I heard his voice echo in my mind then as I heard an answering remark in my head to that.
'The council wanted me to tell you, and this is their wording, but we are watching you.' As I remembered those remarks I felt my thoughts solidify then as I thought it over then. 'We are watching you, Jeez, what was Billy really trying to tell me, he knew all along that Edward was a vampire, he was trying to protect me, but if I'm meant to join the tribe, I'm either half Quileute or fully one, Jacob is my true mate.'
'Alright I retrace my steps, once it reaches the day of the baseball game I either allow allow Billy to get involved then or we pull a bait and switch and I spend eight percent of my time with with the packs, and then from the baseball game forward I'm one of them, if they're that determined not to lose me I got a bigger connection, said connection is the duo are my blood, but I need to learn everything he's been keeping from me and hear it from Billy. I love Jake he's who I belong to, now I need to hear who I really am to them and it means going to see Billy and Sue and hearing it from them."
'Alright when I decide on that decision, I'm staying away from Edward and his family and live with who are probably my family I can change my future altogether and marry into the tribe, Jacob is my exact match, alright I ignore the signs, but keep track of them and it leads me to La Push.' I thought to myself as I nodded to that and grabbed my phone.
And that's chapter two, the next chapter is going to be when she gets the truth from Billy as the three groups start learning everything needed, before she returns to the weekend before she started school as she returns to restart her life back in Forks.
