Erza
Present
"Wait, so after my party, you and him accidentally slept with each other?" Cana asked for a confirmation. I nodded. "Oh god…" She gasped as she covered her mouth with her fingers. "D-does Jellal know about this – you pregnant with his child?" She asked.
When I was still in Magnolia, I tried to tell Jellal about it, but before I could tell him he keeps saying that he can't love me back, he doesn't love me and he just loves me as his best friend. He didn't even give me the chance to tell him and just smack those words at my face that I'm just his best friend and he can't love me back.
"N-no…" I shook my head. I bite my lip to stop my tears from falling again and look away from them. "What about the baby? Can you stand seeing him or her grow up without a father?" Lucy asked. I failed to hide my tears away. "I tried to tell him! But he didn't even give me the chance to hear what I was going to tell him. All he did was to smack those words at me, like 'I'm sorry I don't love you!'" I sobbed. I covered my face with my hands as I wipe my tears away. Lucy stands from her chair and leaned towards to my body to embrace me.
"I'm sorry, Erza…if you can't handle it, don't force yourself to tell us. We just want to know what happened so we can help you." Lucy says, comforting me as she caresses my back. I can't stop my tears from falling as those good memories and as the same time bad memories with Jellal flashed back in my mind, plus those harsh words he told me keeps echoing in my mind. "I never wanted to fall in love with him…" I sobbed.
"You don't know how much I envy you, Juvia, Mirajane, Bisca, Evergreen and the other girls who have a loving boyfriend. I wanted to open my heart to another man, like my suitors and Simon. Simon…he loves me too, but I only love him as a best friend just like Jellal to me. The only difference is I was able to tell Simon the truth without being harsh to him and he get to accept the truth and move on easily. But Jellal..." I keep sobbing, I wasn't able to continue.
"Is it just Simon that knows about your pregnancy?" Juvia asked. "Ultear…Sho also found it out because he's the one who witnessed what Ultear did to me. And thanks to him, if it wasn't for him my baby is already dead." I answered. "What about Natsu, Gray?" Cana asked. "I haven't told them and I don't want to because I know they'll tell Jellal. But I feel like ever since the incident between me and Ultear they already know. That's why after I got confined in the hospital I immediately called my parents and come with them here. I want to stay away from them as soon as possible." I answered.
Lucy caressed my big stomach. "Be a good mother, Erza." She says. "W-what happened when you all found out that I left without telling anyone?" I asked. "Well…actually…Simon almost killed Jellal. It's a good thing Natsu and Gray stopped him. But he didn't mention that you're pregnant." Lucy answered as she goes back to her seat. "When Jellal immediately ran to the hospital, you're already gone. We tried to contact Bisca, Mirajane, Sho, Levy, Wendy and the others, but they have no idea where you are. We keep looking for you for months, until Simon finally told us that you're here because he knew that we really wanted to find you. But don't worry he didn't tell Natsu, Gray or the others, especially Jellal." Lucy continued explaining.
"Jellal is looking for you." Cana said. I couldn't say anything about it. Why is he looking for me? What for? I still love him, but I don't want to see him again. I want to end our friendship. If I stayed being friends with him, our friendship won't stay the same anymore.
"How long have you been pregnant?" Juvia asked. "Eight months." I answered. "We accidentally slept with each other again without any protection. After the Alumni Homecoming of Fairy Tail University, we decided to stay in a hotel for a night because Jellal couldn't drive home anymore because he's too tired and his house is still far. We kissed and then it happened…" I explained further. "Who started the kiss? Jellal or you?" Lucy asked. "Him. He just wants me for pleasure. And about him fucking me several times, he just did it to forget Ultear for a moment. He used me." I said. "What happened after the first time you two slept with each other?" Cana asked.