Jellal

Present

"I miss Lucy already!" Natsu exhaled deeply as he leaned on the railings of the balcony.

"I miss Juvia!" Gray blurted as he followed Natsu on the railings of the balcony.

"I miss Levy, too! Haven't seen her for a week already!" Gajeel joined them.

Then, there's me…just sitting in a chair as I stared up the night sky. I remembered nine months ago, when we all came over at Lucy's place. I'm in the rooftop talking with Erza over the phone while she's on the balcony in Lucy's bedroom. And now she's gone. I have no idea where on earth she is. I don't even have any communication with her. As in she's gone in one snap.

"Stop complaining you idiots, will you? Imagine you're in Jellal's position, and see how he feels for not seeing Erza for four months! Plus, he hasn't talk to her and doesn't even know where part of this world she is." Freed blurted out. Freed captured our attention. We all glanced at him, wondering if he said it in a joking manner or if he meant it. I just remained silent and started drinking my beer. I suddenly remembered those times when Erza always scolds me for drinking too much.

Natsu sat beside me and slapped my shoulder lightly. "Hey." He says. "Aren't you still going to tell us the full details? In that way we can help you with her." Natsu asked. But I still remained silent. "Well…" I sighed while thinking how to start explaining about us. "Natsu, Gray, you wouldn't kill me if I tell you I slept with her many times?" I asked as I forced to laugh, pretending to be okay.

Natsu and Gray glanced at each other. I can read their thoughts through their looks and body language. "You…you did what?!" Natsu exclaimed and grabbed my collar. "You slept with her?! Not once, but many times?! What are you?! Taking advantage of your friendship with her to sleep with her?" Natsu asked angrily. It's a good thing Gray pulled him away from me and finally released me. "Natsu, you also wouldn't mind if we listen to him, right?" Gray groaned in annoyance as he kept pulling Natsu away from me.

"A real man listens first!" Elfman blurted out. "Shut up!" Natsu rolled his eyes at him. "Just tell us what happened." Gajeel sighed as he tried to ignore Natsu.

"Well…" I sighed before starting to explain. "Gajeel, remember when you once asked me if ever there are chances that I might fall in love with her or she might be in love with me?" I asked, trying to make Gajeel remember that question of his. "Yeah and you said it's impossible, impossible for you to fall for her and for her to fall for a guy like you." Gajeel nodded.

"Honestly, I didn't love her. I don't know why I only see her as my little sister despite the good things and care she showed towards to me. But even though I was too numb to see her feelings for me, she still loves me. She loves me despite the imperfections in me. I'm so stupid to say those harsh words at her…" I said, releasing everything inside me. "One time…after a month of not seeing her, she came at my condo. The moment I saw her I knew there's something different in her. Like before she always wore fit dresses and blouses, but when she came to see me she's wearing a lose dress. She used to have a slim body and flat stomach, but her body kind of changed. Even though her dress is loose, I noticed her stomach is kind of bloated. And while we're talking she…she keeps holding her stomach." I said as I recalled how Erza looks like that moment.

"What else?" Gray asked. "After the day I knew she left. I ran to her condo unit, but she wasn't there already. But I found this on her room…" I said and pulled out my wallet from my pocket. I pulled a piece of paper from my wallet and handed it to them. "What's this?" Natsu wondered as he keeps studying the picture in the paper. "It's a…" Gray gasped as he saw the photo. It's actually an Ultrasound result. "It's a picture of her baby…our baby." I sighed. Natsu slapped his forehead lightly with his palm. "Do the girls know about this? Her being pregnant?" Natsu asked. "That I don't know." I shrugged.

"Are you willing to take the responsibility of being a father? Well, in case you two meet." Freed asked. "Of course! Every night I always think of her. Like how big is her belly by this time? How is she with the baby? When will our baby come out?" I said. "If only I tried to let her speak that time…"

"Sorry if I hid these things from you guys. Because it's an issue between us and I don't want any of you to get involved." I sighed. "Well, what did you two talked about when she came in your condo?" Gray asked. That question made me recalled how I bat those harsh words at her.

"Erza! For fucking Christ's sake! When will you be able to stock in your brain that I don't love you! Okay?! I love Ultear! We're already okay now, so please don't bother us!"

Those words I bat at her echoed in my mind.

"Jellal…" She started sobbing. "Erza, please get out…" I told her. She looked at me, still crying. I turned my back on her, but she hugged me from my back. "Jellal, please listen to me! I didn't come here to ask you to love me back. I just wanted to tell you that-" She cried, but I didn't let her finish. "Cut the crap Erza! Quit making excuses! What do you want to tell me?! A little love speech of yours?!" I yelled as I tried to unclasp her arms around my waist. "No! Please, Jellal I'm…I'm-!" She sobbed and I didn't let her finish again. I pushed her away from me and she hits herself on the table. "Ah!" She whimpered as she clutched her stomach. I was about to approach her, but I felt my phone vibrating in my pocket. I pulled it out and answered Ultear's call, ignoring Erza. I just saw Erza suddenly ran out of my condo, still clutching her stomach that hits the table.

That time I accidentally pushed her, I didn't know she was pregnant. Maybe she's about to tell me about it, but I didn't even lend an ear to listen to her. This is all my fault. Those harsh words I bat at her kept echoing in my mind.

"God thanks a lot for ruining our friendship! After fourteen years of being friends with you!"

I slapped my forehead with my palm. "I…I didn't mean to hurt her. I'm just so shocked to know her true feelings for me. But it wasn't my intention to hurt her! And…I just realized that I love her now that she's gone." I said as I clenched my fist to stop my tears from falling. I can't cry in front of them! They'll tease me…but…I failed in doing so. I covered my face with my palm. My tears started streaming down in my cheeks.

"J-jellal? A-are you crying?" Gray gasped as he saw me sobbing. "It's okay, Jellal…release everything inside you." Gray said as he patted my back softly. "Tell us how everything started and when did the conflict begun. So we can help you. If ever it is true that the girls know where she is, we'll try to talk to them so that you can settle everything with Erza." Natsu said, trying to comfort me. I wiped my tears away and faked a smile. "I never cried in front of you guys. I only cry in front of Erza." I scoffed as I faked a smile.

I gotta find Erza. I need to make up to her. I need to fix our friendship. She didn't destroy our friendship, I was wrong to tell her that. It was me who really destroyed our friendship. Not because I rejected her, it's because my stupidity over Ultear. And I used her to make Ultear jealous, used her body as my toy to forget the pain Ultear gave me…I'm such an asshole and a jerk.

"Well…everything just started at Cana's party. I got drunk, she drove me home, I thought she's Ultear and then our clothes went flying. The next day when she told me about it, we decided not to tell anyone about it and forget that it happened." I started. "Then?" Natsu asked me to continue. "After two weeks since we slept with each other, I saw Ultear in the mall…"