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Warning: there's a lemon in this chapter :P in the next few chapters too. If you don't want jerza lemon, don't read this story.
In this chapter...you'll be able to witness how numb is Jellal...
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9 months ago...
Erza
As I woke up early in the morning, I found myself naked under the sheets with Jellal...my best friend. We did it for the second time. It wasn't my intention to kiss him. I don't know what made me do that. Maybe, it's just because I was really wanted to shut him up. He's always Ultear, Ultear, always about that girl! I have to admit that I'm jealous. But my only purpose is that I just want him to forget her for a moment, for him to forget the pain for a moment. I kissed him to shush him. But I didn't expect he would kiss me back and do that to me, I don't want to mention whatever he did to me on the kitchen counter.
I pulled myself upwards to sit on the bed. I glanced on my left to look at him. Man, he's sleeping like a baby, which makes him look cute tho. I wonder how I fell asleep so easily with him snoring out loud in his sleep. And I think there's a trail of saliva on his cheek. I bit my lip as I muffle my laughs, avoiding to wake him up. I think this is one of the main reasons why I fell in love with him. He's funny, cute and silly. The reason why I would be guilty if I didn't do anything to cheer up this heartbroken guy.
I have to admit that I loved the pleasure he gave me when we did it, but as the same time I knew exactly there's something wrong. I'm not a low-class girl who lets herself be dragged easily in bed by someone. Jellal is not just someone, he's my best friend, more like my brother already. But the problem is, we're not even dating. Like I said, I'm willing to do anything for him to fall in love with me, so he wouldn't be hurt by Ultear anymore. But I never expected it to be in this way. I let him touch me. I made him forget Ultear for a while by letting him touch me, by giving up my own body, by giving him pleasure. Does it make me a whore?
I can recall the way he looks at me during the first time we did it, he thinks I'm Ultear. He thinks he's making love with Ultear, not realizing it was me. Last night, while we're doing it, I can see lust in his eyes.
"Ultear..." I heard him mumble in his sleep.
Jellal...I hope one day you can love me the way you loved her. Wherein you'll always look for me, get jealous when I'm with another man, say my name
I jumped out of the bed and grabbed my robe on the clothes stand. I wore my robe to cover up my naked body. I picked up our scattered clothes on the floor and place them on top of the small couch. I walked out of my bedroom, heading to the kitchen to prepare breakfast.
As I reached the kitchen, the first thing I noticed is my underwear on the floor. Ugh! That moment on top of the kitchen counter popped in my mind again. I shook my head to get that moment off my mind and just picked up my underwear and dropped it inside the laundry basket. I looked at the clock on the wall to see what time is it already. Man, it's already ten o'clock. Are we really that tired from what we did last night?
About twenty minutes later, I headed back to my bedroom, holding a tray of food. Bacon and eggs for Jellal, two glasses of orange juice and two slices of strawberry cake from the café yesterday. I placed the tray on the bedside table.
I examined his face and I can see that he's still on a deep slumber. "Jellal...Jellal..." I patted his back. "Jellal..." I said in a sing-sang voice, shaking his body lightly.
Damn, he's so handsome even if he looks funny when sleeping.
I wiped his saliva away from his cheek with my thumb. "I love you...best friend." I muttered. I slowly moved my face closer to him, with my hand cupping his soft cheek. Then, I pressed my lips on his lips softly, kissing him tenderly.
I was about to pull away from him, but then her pulled me back with his arms causing my lips to land on his lips once again. "Hmph!" I muffled as he keep locking my lips from his. Holy shit! Have he heard what I said? I keep struggling from him by slapping his arm many times, until he finally lets go of me.
"Hahahaha!" He laughed at me. "Surprised?" I wiped the saliva he passed on my lips away. "Your breath stinks!" I groaned and turned my back on him, pretending to be annoyed. "Then, why did you kissed me first?" He asked sarcastically, annoying me. I ignored him as usual, whenever he's trying to piss me off. "Your saliva keeps falling down to your cheeks while your sleeping. I just wiped them away." I said without looking at him. "Then, why did you kissed me, knowing there's a saliva falling from my mouth?" He scoffed at me.
Jellal...you should be thankful I love you. If not, I probably sent you flying already like What I often do to Natsu and Gray.
"I made you some bacon and eggs for breakfast. Just go eat already." I said in a calm tone. Then, I felt his arms snaking around my waist and his chin on my shoulder. "Aww, you're so sweet." He said. "I love you, too...my best friend, my sister."
I was...flattered, touched by his words. I'm still happy even if he loves me in that way, but I want to try to take our friendship to the next level...though doing this is like risking our friendship for fourteen years.
"You heard what I said?" I asked him. "Yeah, not just earlier, you already said those to me ever since before." He nodded. Then, I felt a chill sent down to my spine when I felt him kissing my neck softly. I can feel his hard abs being pressed on my back because the fabric of my robe is just thin. I can also feel his warm breath as he keeps kissing me. "Jellal..." I let out a soft moan. Why is he so damn irresistible? No matter how I wanted to stop him from doing these kind of things to me, I'm always being carried away.
He unwrapped his arms around me and pulled away from me. "Come on, let's eat." He says, arranging the pillows so he could lean his back. "So, you're gonna tease me and be cliffhanger?" I turned around and glared at him. "Sorry. Why do you wanna do it again?" He chuckled. "Of course, not! Last night was just...an accident!" I stammered. "Accident? Come on! I can say you extremely loved the sensual pleasure I gave you. I can tell it by your sweet moans and loud screams." He said in a sexy voice.
"Argh! Let's just eat!" I groaned annoyingly. "Crybaby." I murmured.
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"Hi, everyone!" Lucy waved at all of us as we all stepped out of our vehicles. Well, as usual, every time our gang will hang out, by partner. Natsu with Lucy, Gray with Juvia, Gajeel with Levy, Freed with Mirajane and Bacchus with Cana. This time, Elfman, Evergreen, Bickslow and Lisanna tagged along with us. Notice that all of them are couples. Well, Jellal and I are an exception. We're just friends...
We're all here at Ryuzetsu Island. It's not the first time we've been in here. The last time the gang went here is way back during our junior year, school outing and things didn't go well. We completely destroyed the whole resort and Fairy Academy is obligated to pay the insurance. Now that we decided to go swimming and spend three days and two nights in this resort again, it's really a good thing we're not banned after what happened way back in high school.
They all unloaded their baggages from their own cars. "It's been a while, since the last time we're here." Natsu said, studying the new Ryuzetsu Island. "Yeah, I hope we won't destroy this place again." Gray added as he unloaded two bags from his car.
Then, there's Jellal, unloading my five duffle bags from the compartment of his car. "Why do you always have to bring so many baggages?" He groaned annoyingly, dropping my duffle bags down to the ground. "I might need anything. Just in case of emergency." I said. Three workers of the resort approached us and offered us to help us take our baggages up to our hotel room.
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Since most of the gang are couples, so each couple will be sharing a room together. Well, Jellal and I will be sharing a room together. There's no difference tho, we're used in sharing a bed together.
"The long drive is so tiring!" I moaned tiredly as I laid on the soft bed. "Tiring? So, taking a selfie, listening to songs and chatting with me during the long drive tired you? What about me?" He scoffed at me. "I wanna sleep!" I mumbled while I keep stretching my legs and arms.
"Aren't you gonna swim?" He asked me. "Maybe, later afternoon. I'm gonna take a nap first." I replied. He laid on the bed too, beside me. I was kind of surprised when he flipped his body on his left and wrap his arm around my body, his face on my neck. I can feel his warm breath on my neck. "Let's sleep together." He said, breathing on my neck.
I wish we're also a couple just like the others.
"Erza..."
"Hmm?" I mumbled.
"Please make sure your swimsuit won't fray again." He whispered in my ear.
"Ugh! Please stop reminding me of what happened during our school outing!" I groaned annoyingly and turned my back on him. "Let's just sleep!"
Way back in high school, during our school outing, my top frayed when I fell on the slide because of Natsu. Jellal has to cover me up, which is awkward for the two of us because I'm just fifteen that time and he's sixteen.
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I woke up, realizing I slept on his chest and my arm wrapped around his waist. His arm was also on my waist. He's already awake and it seems like he's browsing something from his phone because he keeps scrolling his fingers down its screen. Curiosity got me, so I rolled my eyes up to see what he's browsing on his phone, cause he seemed to look serious.
Wow.
Ultear Milkovich is in a relationship with Zeref
So, he's busy stalking Ultear's social media accounts?
Talk about stupidity! Well, I can't blame him, I'm also stupid, over him.
He scrolled down his phone and there's more pictures of Ultear and Zeref. God, he's just hurting himself more!
I slowly took his phone from him, he was kind of surprised and wondering why I did it. I turned off his phone and placed it on the nightstand. I sighed "Jellal", then I hugged him tight and said "we came here to enjoy and relax, not for you to stalk and think about her."
He glanced away from me. "I just couldn't get her off my mind. No matter what I do." He said with a blank expression in his face. "Jellal!" I scoffed at him. "I told you she's not worth it. You have to forget about her. Don't let her stop yourself from moving forward." I scolded him.
All he said was "I know...", then he suddenly added "you haven't been in love with someone or be left by someone you truly loved and been with for a long time, that's why" with his voice sounding sarcastic. "So, how come you'll be able to understand me?"
Oh, yes, Jellal, I have! I've been in love with you since I'm eighteen. But ever since we're eleven, I already loved you as my own best friend and brother. I'm loving you with all my heart for fourteen years! If only you knew how much it hurts me to see you hurt by another girl. If only you knew how I wanted to be yours, not because I want you, but because I want you to be with the girl who can love you much better.
"You don't know what you're saying. I'm just concerned for you because you're my best friend and it also hurts for me to see you hurt. So, if you wanna spend your life assuming there's a second chance for you and her, so be it." I said coldly, then I jumped out off the bed, unclasping myself from him. I reached for my duffel bag on top of the shelf and stepped inside the bathroom to change into swimwear.
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"Let's go to that slide, Gray-sama!" Juvia jumped excitedly as she pulled Gray towards to the staircase up to the high and long slide for couples.
"Lucy, let's go to the diving board!" Natsu called Lucy, who's already climbing for the 15 ft. diving board. "No way, Natsu! You just go by yourself!" Lucy refused as she examined how high the diving board is.
"I don't wanna swim." Cana groaned lazily who's laying on the beach chair. "Bacchus, let's just go to the bar and have some drink."
"Seriously? It's too early for beer, Cana." Lucy retorted. "Let's just have some beer later at the party."
I sat on the beach chair beside where Cana is, tying up my hair into ponytail. "Where's Jellal?" Lucy asked. He's up there, stalking his ex-girlfriend's latest photos with her new boyfriend and hurting himself more! I screamed inside my head. "He's sleeping." I replied, but I really don't have any idea what he is doing by this time. I just left him there. "Sleeping?" Lucy wondered. "He's kind of tired." I explained.
Lucy sat on the beach chair on my left side. She pulled out a sunblock from her small bag and applied it on her body. "Uh, Erza..." She said, like she's trying to open up a conversation. "Yeah?" I asked.
She took a deep breath before spilling it out. "Lisanna is here with us. And you know that Natsu broke up with her just for me, right?" She started. Oh, that conflict between them again? I thought Lisanna had moved on already. Reminds me of Jellal, who couldn't get over Ultear and Zeref's relationship. "What's the matter?" I asked, worrying for my best friend. "When I greeted her earlier and asked how is she after not seeing her for a few years, she just smiled at me a little and left me without saying a word. I was just wondering if ever she still hates me deep inside of her. What do you think?"
If ever it is true that Lisanna still feels a bitterness towards Natsu and Lucy's relationship, she's a complete stupid, like Jellal. It's been six or maybe seven years since Natsu broke up with her, and yet it still matters to her. Isn't she dating Bickslow already? Yes, she gave everything to Natsu, but still she has to learn to get over it. Why can't she just be happy for Natsu and Lucy? God, why does all of the sudden I remembered Jellal in their situation? Why can't Jellal just be happy for Ultear?
"Well, I think it's her problem, that she still feels a bitterness for you and Natsu. Just don't mind her. Don't let your relationship with Natsu be affected by it. You two are happy now and you shouldn't be bothered because you know how much Natsu loves you." I told her. "Well, you're right." He sighed in relief and formed a small smile in her lips.
"Cana, Erza, Lucy, get in the water!" Juvia, who just fell in the water from the slide, called out. "Come on, Erza!" Lucy quickly stood up from the beach chair and did a cannonball jump in the water.
I stood up and removed my cover, revealing my polka dot black and white two-piece swimsuit. I tossed my cover on the beach chair and was about to jump on the water when I heard a voice. "Erza..."
I turned on my right to see who spoke. Well, it was Jellal. He's already wearing his swimming shorts and half-naked, exposing his muscular body and abs. He cleared his throat and asked "What's with the stunt you pulled earlier? Are you mad at me for doing it?". Oh, yes, Jellal, how long will it take for you to get my point that she's never coming back to you?
I ignored him, pretending as if I didn't see or heard him speaking. I just jumped in the water along with Lucy, Juvia and the others, leaving him dumbfounded.
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By eight o'clock, we're all here at the seaside restaurant of the resort. Then, afterwards , it's time to go to the beach party to drink and dance wildly if ever one of us gets completely drunk. I'd rather go to the casino, but sadly I didn't bring excess money with me.
I'm sitting beside Jellal right now, but I'm still ignoring him. I don't know, it's just that I hate him for being that stupid. It's almost a month since Ultear broke up with him. Maybe it's really true what they said that intelligent people can be so stupid when it comes to love. I can't keep calling Jellal a stupid because I am too. Just look at me right now.
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"Party! Party!" Cana, who's already drunk and out of her mind, squealed wildly. "Babe, let's dance there!" Bacchus pulled her towards to the dance floor, joining along with the other people.
I don't know why I'm not in the mood to party with them. Is it because I haven't spoke to Jellal? But, honestly, I already miss him right now. I'm used in spending every minute of my everyday life with him. I'll talk to him later in our hotel room, I don't know where he is right now. I'll also apologize for being so cold to him earlier.
Here I am, just sitting in a bar chair, but I'm not drinking. There's Natsu and Lucy who's making out with each other. Juvia clinging to Gray again. Elfman and Evergreen are having a 'lover's quarrel' again, which I have no idea what it was all about this time. Lisanna is with Bickslow, but I can see Lisanna's attention is not in Bickslow who's chatting with her. She keeps peeking at Natsu and Lucy who keeps making out.
"Girls, I uh - have to go back to the hotel." I said. Lucy pulled away from Natsu and Juvia withdrew his attention from Gray and looked at me wonderingly. "Why? It's just eleven, the party's just gettin' started!" Lucy wondered. "Well, I'm not in the mood right now, actually. Sorry...don't worry I promise I'll join the party tomorrow night." I said, then I stood up, making my way back to our hotel room.
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As I entered our room, no single sign of Jellal can be seen throughout the room. Maybe, he's somewhere in the resort.
I stepped inside the bathroom and went for the mirror in the sink. How will I say sorry to him anyway? I know I'm also wrong for being cold to him all of the sudden. I placed my hands on the end of the counter, while I stared myself at the mirror and tapped my fingers.
I cleared my throat and exhaled deeply while I close my eyes. I slowly opened my eyes and met my own gaze in the mirror. "Jellal...I'm sorry for being cold to you earlier. It's just that - ugh! No! No! No!"
"Jellal...about what happened earlier. As your best friend, I'm just concerned about your feelings. I'm your best friend - no!"
"Jellal...Jellal...how am I gonna say this to you?" I sighed.
I cleared my throat once again. "Jellal...I witnessed how you're hurt by Ultear. And as your best friend, I'm here to help you out whatever happens. If only you knew how much it hurts me too, to see you heartbroken. And...ugh! Because I fuckin' love you!"
I covered my face with my palm after a series of monologue. I stopped practicing on how will I apologize to him.
I just shook my head as I cleared off my mind. I removed my cover, pulling it down to my arms. I started undoing the strap of my swimsuit top and dropped it down the floor. The last garment left on my body is my swimsuit bottom. I pushed my swimsuit bottom down to my ankles and leave them on the floor. I reached for the door knob and pushed the lock. Jellal might barge in, if ever he returned.
"A warm bubble bath will surely relax me." I said lazily, as I stretched my arms up. I walked towards to the bathtub and opened the shower curtain. I was suppose to prepare myself a bubble bath, but it seems like someone already prepared a bubble bath for me.
"Erza, I'm also sorry that I misinterpreted your concern for me." Jellal, who's in the bathtub having a bubble bath, said, smiling at me.
Holy sh-!
"Kyaaaaa!" I screamed, closing my legs and covering my bare breasts. I quickly bend my body down and hid my body on the side of the bathtub. "What the hell are you doing here?!" I asked angrily.
"Obviously, I'm taking a warm bubble bath." He chuckled sarcastically.
"Then, why didn't you lock the door?! So, I would know you're in here."
"I didn't though of that, sorry." He laughed softly. Then, his facial expression suddenly turned into sad with a matching pouting lips. "I figured you're having fun with them at the beach party."
"Me, too. I thought you're somewhere else in the resort." I said. "You know I can't have fun without you." I added.
A sudden silence occurred between us. It took a few seconds for the silence to hull between us, until he broke the silence by saying "I appreciate your concern for me. Thank you. You never failed to cheer me up" with a small smile in his face. "I love you, too."
Jellal, I wish those 'I love you's of yours were really 'I love you' as in you love me, not just your best friend or sister.
"I just hate seeing you sad, you know." I said.
He chuckled softly and says "Come here".
Huh, what? Come with him? Where? In the bathtub with him?
"How long are you gonna hide your body? You just said 'what's the point of not looking, you've already seen it'." He imitated me, the way I said that line to him.
I can feel my face starting to become warm. God, I'm probably blushing like a tomato right now. I know he already touched and seen my body, but still I feel embarrassed and awkward. When I said those words to him before, I was just checking what will his reaction be.
"I thought a warm bubble bath will surely relax you?" He said sarcastically. "I hate you, you know." He pouted his lips. Ugh, stop pouting! "You took a bath with Natsu and Gray before. Why don't you want to take a bath with me too?"
"We're just young that time! And besides we're wearing an underwear that time!"
"Even so, you still took a bath with them. I just missed you after ignoring me since afternoon."
Well, I did took a bath with Natsu and Gray before without any malice, but we're just young that time. This time, we're already adults. But, ugh -! I feel embarrassed, but there's a part of me saying I do wanna take a bath with him. Well, I guess there's no harm in trying to experience taking a bath with my best friend, right? We already did something more than taking a bath together, like having sex together...without any commitment.
"Okay, fine." I sighed and stood up from the floor. I finally stepped inside the bathtub with him, with my hands still covering my bare breasts. The suds sticked to my shoulders and breasts as I completely soaked my whole body on the water. We're sitting on the opposite side of the bathtub.
"You're really cute when you blush." He giggled.
I bent my legs up to my breasts and hugged my knees. "Yeah, right!" I rolled my eyes at him.
There was an awkward silence between us after that. It's our first time to bath together, so I guess we wouldn't be able to avoid to feel an awkwardness for each other.
"Did you have fun with them?" Jellal asked.
"You know I can never have fun without you." I replied, planting a small smile on my lips.
"Me, too."
"So...what did you do after I left you in here all alone?"
"Of course, I listened to you, I stopped stalking her profile."
"Jellal..."
"Hmm?"
"Why can't you just get over her?"
It took him a few seconds before he responded to my question.
"Erza, like I said, you haven't been in a relationship with someone. So, you wouldn't understand me. She's my - first love and of course, it's hard for me to forget her. Maybe if you already fell in love with someone, and left you, you'll be able to understand me."
Maybe, I'll do understand you...if you're the one who left me or force me to get out of your life.
"But, please...don't hurt yourself. Try to forget her. She's not worth it. I'm sure one day you'll be able to find someone who can give the love you deserve. Or she could be somewhere else near you, but you're too blind to notice her because you won't get Ultear off your mind."
I was actually referring to myself. I know myself how much I love him.
"That's impossible. So, you're saying, it could be one of our friends or acquaintances?"
"Yeah. You never know."
"Yeah, that's clearly impossible. I don't think there's someone else out there. I'm not like Gray who's appealing to all the girls. Maybe I'll be able to meet someone new when I'm twenty-eight or thirty."
Jellal, are you really that stupid and numb? Hello, that girl's just in front of you! You're even talking to her! Open your eyes please!
"That's not true." I smiled at him and moved closer to him with my arm covering my breasts. I cupped his face with my hand, which is covered by suds. "Look around you...you have us. Natsu, Gray, Lucy, Juvia and the others. We're your friends, and we love you. And me...I love you." I continued, almost confessing to him.
"I guess, you're right." He sighed. "I love you, too...thank you for being here beside me all the time. I'm so lucky to have a best friend and sister like you." He held my cheek with his soft hand. Jellal, please, love me as me, not because I'm your best friend. Is he really that numb for him not to get my main point? I'm almost confessing to him.
He pulled me towards to him, making me sit on top of him. Holy shit! I can feel his hard member touching my womanhood. I wanna get off him because I feel awkward in our position, but he snaked his arms around my back, locking my body with his. My breasts are being pressed to his muscular chest. He explored my neck with his soft lips, kissing and biting it, sending chills down to my spine. My hand crawled up to his shoulder and dug my nails into his skin as I try to ease with the sensual pleasure he's giving me. "Jellal..." I let out a soft moan. I can feel his hand slowly crawling up to my breast.
Here we go again. Kissing, touching each other and what's next? Sex?
"Jellal", I said, slowly pushing him away from my bare chest. "I need to wash my hair."
"Oh, sure go on." He looked surprised when I pushed him away. I pulled away from him and went back to the other side of the bathtub where I used to sit.
I took the small bottle of shampoo beside me. I opened the lid, squeezing the bottle softly as I pour some shampoo in my palm. I prevent myself from giving Jellal a single glance after I feel awkward from what we did earlier. But though I'm not looking at him, I know he's watching me while I'm shampooing my hair. One of the main reasons why I barely go swimming on a pool, the chlorine in the pool is always tangling my hair.
"Jellal..."
"Hmm?"
"Have you also noticed something odd in our friendship these past few weeks?"
He looked up, probably thinking. Then, all he answered was "Yes, I do".
"No strings attached aside from being best friends and yet we're doing this. Kissing, touching each other and...having sex." I said shyly. I reached for the shower placed on the corner of the bathtub and rinsed my hair.
"I know, but I need to tell you something." He said and exhaled deeply after. "After we went from the mall last few days and something happened to us, right? You told me that it was kind of an accident because you don't know what else to do just to calm me down after what I saw that day. I do wanna stop myself from doing it, but I got carried away. While we're doing it, I can feel something in me that I've never felt before." He continued.
"D-do you...lust me?" I asked.
"No! It's not that! You're my best friend, why would I lust you!?"
"Then, why?" I wondered.
He scratched his head. "Honestly...I...enjoy doing these things with you. Not because I lust you, it's just that...it's totally different. You're the first girl who made me feel this way. The first girl who gave me sensual pleasure. Plus...the way you kiss me...it's so different from the way Ultear kisses me before. It's different, really! It's like...very passionate, tender and full of love. I have to admit, there are times I'm fantasizing you kissing me like that everyday, cause you're the only girl who kissed me in that way or maybe it's just because you really are a good kisser. But, how come you'll be that good enough in kissing when you haven't experienced kissing someone else you love? And during the times when we're - you know, doing that 'S' thingy. The way you respond to my kisses, dig your nails on my back and say my name, I can say it's not just about the pleasure...it's like...you wanna make love you with me."
I can feel my face becoming warm, probably blushing already. I can feel butterflies in my stomach and my heart beating faster.
"You my best friend...the first girl who made me feel like that."
Can I just sink down the drain, so I can shout how flattered I am when he told me how passionate my kiss was? Well...I do love him, that's why. Will he be able to sense my feelings for him already? I realized My eyes were nailed on his face after he told me what he really felt.
"H-hey! Stop blushing! I just want to tell you." He approached me by waving his hands in front of my eyes.
"What about you? What do you feel whenever you kiss me like that a-and - during the times while we're doing it?" He asked me.
What do I feel anyway? I know myself he's just fucking me, not making love to me. But I'm just fantasizing he's making love to me, so it wouldn't hurt me deep inside, knowing he just used my body for pleasure.
"I know you're not making love to me...but I feel like...making love to you, like what you said. Well, maybe it's because...I should be doing this to my boyfriend or husband, but I'm doing it with my best friend." I answered and added "to my best friend whom I secretly love" inside my head. "I feel like...I wanna make love with you."
His eyes widened when I told him about it. "Make love...with me? Make love with your own best friend? Is that even possible? I-i mean, I do love you, of course as my best friend, but to make love with each other...it's totally...odd." He stammered with his cheeks as red as a tomato already. It's possible, even if no strings attached between us aside from being best friends...if and only if you'll tell me you love me too, not just your best friend. I believe it is possible for two people to make love even if there are no strings attached between them, as long as they both love each other. God, Jellal, I'm almost confessing to you! Are you really that freakin' numb?
"Jellal..." I sighed. "...make love with me."
"W-what?" He gasped. "M-make love?! I don't think I can do that!" He stuttered.
"Do those things to me for the third time. Afterwards...tell me what you really feel."
"Erza!" He sighed, face-palming. "I can do it to you many times, but to make love? I don't think we can do that! We don't love each other!" He scoffed. Yes, I do love you, it's just that you're so fuckin' numb and stupid over that girl.
"Whatever happened between us...it's just like taking our friendship in the hardcore level. Like, doing those things that best friends shouldn't really do, like kissing and having sex. That's all! I can't make love with you. I can only do that...to the girl I love. What happened between us is just casual sex."
He's referring to Ultear again! Why am I doing this? Why am I still assuming there's a chance for him to love me back? A chance for him to notice me.
"I'm sorry. Yeah, you just said that we're just doing things that best friends shouldn't really do. That's why I wanna know how you feel when you do those things to me."
"I just told you earlier, right? About your kisses and the way you act while we're doing it?"
"Is that all? Okay, fine. I'm just curious, that's all." I faked a laugh. I finished rinsing my hair with the shower and finally stood up, with my body dripping wet. I grabbed the towel from the shelf and wrapped it around my body. "Thanks for inviting me to join you in there." I faked a smile and left the bathroom.
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Here I am, sitting on the bed while I keep brushing my hair. Actually, there are no kore tangles in my hair, but I just keep brushing my hair while I keep thinking of what he said earlier. It's completely clear that he really don't have any feelings for me. But still I'm stupidly doing everything for him.
I heard the bathroom door opened and saw him half-naked with a towel around his waist only. I glanced away from him and continued brushing my hair. But then, he walked towards me and sat beside me. "Hey..." He an arm on my shoulder.
"Yeah?"
"Is there something wrong?"
"Something wrong?! Of course, nothing is wrong!" I faked a laugh, hiding my true feelings inside me.
"Come on, Erza! I noticed you've been acting strange, since these past few days or should I say...since the first time we slept with each other."
I didn't respond to what he said, instead I remained silent.
"Come on, tell me. We're best friends, right? Is there something you wanna tell me? You know that you can tell me everything." He said, stroking my hair with his fingers.
Oh, yes there's so many things I wanted to tell you for a long time. But I can't tell you everything. Maybe, in the right time.
"Jellal, you know that we girls give up our body to a man to make love, right? I know that you don't love me, it's just that...ugh! How do I say this? Of course, that's what will come inside my mind while I'm giving my body to you."
"Erza...I'm sorry. I should have thought of that." He sighed, scratching his head.
"It's okay. I understand if you don't want to make love with your best friend. I understand if...you don't love me."
"Of course, I do love my best friend! Come on, don't be sulky!" He pulled me closer to him and gave me a noogie.
"Jellal!" I groaned annoyingly.
The "Numbest" award goes to...Jellal Fernandes.
Then, I felt his hands crawling down to my thigh and his lips on my neck. "I'll try to make love with you tonight. Make love to you, in a friendly way." He said in a sexy voice. Even in making love...we're still friends. His hands are slowly crawling up to my flower. Shit, I'm not wearing any underwear! Just my bathrobe. I can now feel his fingers rubbing on my womanhood. "No underwear?" He chuckled teasingly.
He slowly untied my robe and pull it down to my arms, exposing my bare breasts. He teased me by kissing my shoulder and massaging me down there. "Jellal!" I moaned loudly when he hits my clitoris. "You're wet." He whispered in my ear in a seductive voice. He won't stop sending chills down to my spine. "Oh...ah..." I moaned softly. "Your moans are always teasing me, you know. Because of that I'll reward you with this." He said teasingly and made me lay on the bed.
He positioned himself on top of me, between my legs. He attacked my lips, kissing and biting it hungrily. I just closed my eyes as I keep responding to his kisses. He pinned my hand with his hand on the bed while his other hand is cupping my breast. I opened my eyes when he suddenly broke the kiss and cupped my face. "I'll tell you what I feel after this." He says, then he kissed me back into my lips.
We continued kissing and touching each other, until later on he started to put himself inside me once again. The room was filled with moans, groans and screams, until we both reached our climax and landed on bed panting. Then, we both fell asleep after.
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"Gray-sama, let's go to that part of the beach later." Juvia pleaded, Gray scratched his head as he exhaled deeply, knowing he couldn't do anything, but to follow his girlfriend. "Yeah, fine."
We're all having fun chatting while eating. I'm happily eating my three slices of strawberry cake, but something captured my attention...
"Hey, guys!" It was Gajeel. "Last night, I heard a couple making love. I bet it was one of us. Who was it?" Gajeel said, laughing creepily.
It was us. I glanced away from Gajeel and continued eating my cake nervously.
"I bet it was Natsu and Lucy!" Gray blurted.
"How can you be so sure?!" Natsu retorted.
"Oh, come on! After Erza went back to her room, you two also went back to your room, right? And before that you two kept making out in the bar, so I bet you two decided to continue it inside the room."
"N-no!" Lucy blushed, embarrassed. "It wasn't us, I swear!"
"What about you, Elfman and Evergreen? Lisanna and Bickslow?!" Gajeel keeps interrogating.
"No!" The four answered in unison.
"Cana? Bacchus?" Gajeel glanced at Cana and Bacchus.
"Us?! We're the last ones who went back to the hotel!" Cana rolled her eyes at Gajeel.
I dropped my spoon when...
"Jellal! Erza!" Gajeel pointed at us. Jellal and I exchanged looks.
"You two were the first one who went back at the hotel."
"Are you even thinking?! They're just friends, how can you expect them to make love?" Levy slapped Gajeel's arm.
I was struck by what Levy said. Just like what Jellal said. We're just friends and we can't make love with each other and because Jellal doesn't loves me.
"Maybe it's from the other room." Gray said.
"Hmm, maybe." Gajeel sighed. Thanks, Gray.
"But whoever that girl is...she's a screamer." Gajeel said.
I can feel my face turning red by now. I just bowed my head down, so they wouldn't see what my face looks like. I peeked a glance on Jellal, who's sitting beside me. He's also looking at my face while he keeps, muffling his laughs. What made me blush more is when he winked at me.
He hasn't tell me what he felt while we're doing it last night. But I don't want to assume anymore. I don't wanna try to make him fall for me. If we're really meant for each other, let love and destiny to find a way how he'll fall in love with me.
No strings attached...just friends having casual sex.