9 months ago...
Jellal
I can't imagine that three and a half weeks just passed since Ultear broke up with me, and yet I'm not that affected anymore compared before. Some people took months before they reached the stage where I am right now, but me, I'm lucky that I'm no longer stressing myself or crying over her. I haven't completely moved on, but I managed to divert my mind from her. Maybe, it's because of Erza. If it wasn't for her I still affected from our breakup.
Here she is, sitting beside me inside the cinema. She keeps crying on my shoulder when we reached the middle part of the movie "The Fault in our stars".
"But, Gus, my love. I cannot tell you how thankful I am for our little infinity..."
"Jellal...I don't wanna see the ending." She sobbed, with her face buried on my shoulder. My best friend is sometimes crazy - correction, not sometimes, but often. Loves watching romance movies, if the ending is sad she'll burst into tears. Plus, she loves watching horror movies and will be scared of those ghost images from the movie.
"He's gonna die..."
Great, she's a total movie spoiler!
"Why the hell did you watch this movie if you already read the book and know how the story will end?" I muttered.
"Let's watch another movie in your place later." She says as she rests her head on my shoulder and Gave her a glance. "Let's go to the grocery later, so we could buy chips, sodas and popcorn. Also, let's bake a strawberry cake tomorrow morning. It's holiday tomorrow." I know what this means, she missed me again. She's trying to be sweet-friendly to me. Okay, okay, fine, you know that I can never resist you, Erza, especially whenever you're trying to make yourself sound and look cute.
Nodding my head, knowing I can't do anything because she's so irresistible and just sighed "Fine,". "What movie are we gonna watch later?" I asked, my look returning on the big screen. She looked up, while thinking. Not another romance movie, please. She shrugged and said "I don't know. Let's just check out what we can find in your place", pulling her head away from my shoulder.
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By six-thirty in the evening, we just finished buying foods, drinks, strawberry cake ingredients and some other stuff in the grocery store that we didn't planned to buy, like lotion, facial wash, perfume, lip gloss, hair conditioner, body wash, eyeliner, mascara, lip balm, and other girly stuffs! It's a good thing that she left her credit card in her dresser or else she's gonna shop for new clothes again, but the bad thing is, yeah, she left her credit card, so that means I'm gonna have to use mine to buy all of those things in our grocery cart.
Why can't girls act normally like a guy? Right now, I already pity Erza's future boyfriend or husband. I hope he'll be able to keep himself patient to understand Erza. But, I'm still wondering how did Erza made it at the age of twenty-four without experiencing to date someone. Isn't she curious of what life is like when you're in a relationship with someone? I'm also thinking, if is it because of me? Or maybe is it because she prefers being with her boy best friend, than a boyfriend? Maybe, she got used to in being with me, her boy best friend.
Look at me right now, I'm carrying all the plastic bags which contains all the stuffs and food we bought from the grocery store, while she keeps clinging on my arm and saying "I'm hungry!" in a sweet tone. I'm the one who always accompanies her in shopping, drive and fetch her from work, treat her dinner and other things, which makes me look like her boyfriend. I'm starting think that maybe it's because she experienced what it's like to have a boyfriend with me. Maybe, that's why she never got curious of what is like to have a boyfriend.
Another thing that makes me wonder is that, isn't she curious of what life is like to be in love with someone? She never opened up having a crush or being in love with someone to anyone or to me. She never tried to get to know her suitors, she just rejected them all, reasoned out that she's not yet ready to be in a relationship. Is she afraid to fall in love? I know that only people who came from a broken family or hurt by their first love are the only ones who are afraid to be in love or to be in relationship, fearing that they might be left too. Erza's not from a broken home, unlike me, he parents' relationship are good. So, I don't see any reason for her not wanting to be in love or in a relationship.
My thoughts were interrupted when Erza squealed "Ow!" and almost tripped on the tiled floor. It's a good thing I caught her with my arms. I dropped the three plastic bags I'm holding earlier just to catch her from falling. My arms wrapped around her waist, hers are wrapped around my nape, our eyes nailed on each other and our faces are only two inches away, that we could almost kiss each other. We stared at each other for like more than five seconds, until our gaze was broken by someone who cleared its throat.
Our looks quickly turned into that person. "Miss, I'm so sorry!" The tall and muscular tan guy approached us and we didn't realized that we're still in that awkward position. The position where you can often see in movies, people sees that position wherein the guy catches a girl from falling and ends up staring at each other with their arms wrapped around each other and their faces only an inch away, as romantic. But, for both of us, I don't think so. I feel awkward right now. Now that the guy who just bumped Erza is looking at us in while we're in this position.
"Hey,", I glanced back at her, "you okay?" I asked, helping her to stand up. She just nodded, glancing back at the guy who bumped her. I can see the awkwardness in her eyes. "Dude, be careful next time, will ya?" I gave the guy a glare.
"Erza? Jellal?" He looked at us, studying our face. Who is he? And how did he know our names?
"Who are you?" Erza asked.
"Erza, it's me...Simon."
Simon? If I am not mistaken, he's our playmate, neighbor, schoolmate and...one of Erza's suitor before. What is he doing here? I-i mean, I know it is a coincidence to see him in here, cause I know he stayed in Rosemary city, until college. How he looks to Erza...it's so...different! As if he's so surprised and happy to reunite with his childhood crush.
Surprisingly, she gasped "Simon?", then my eyes widened when I saw her embraced him so tight. "Simon! I missed you!"
Oh, Erza, you missed him after rejecting him and hurt him after choosing to go with the Prom with me, instead of him.
Okay...she's hugging Simon for almost like...4...5...6...7...seconds. Erza, that's enough let go of him right now. 8...9...10...that's it! Erza, let go of him, 10-second embrace with your ex-suitor is too much!
I cleared my throat, breaking the embrace between them, they both glanced at me. Erza finally pulled away from him and let out a soft chuckle as she felt awkward. But she glanced back at Simon who obviously looks happy to see her again. "What are you doing here? Where's Kagura and the others? Are they going to the Alumni homecoming on Sunday?" She asked, without looking at me. Simon answered, "Kagura is staying in a hotel with Milliana here in Magnolia. Sho and Wally, they're still busy, but they promised to go to the homecoming".
"I can't believe, it's you! It's been...five, four years?"
"Five, it's so long. I'm so glad to see you again." He said shyly, scratching his head and he's looking at Erza with his eyes sparkling and blushing a little.
I picked up those three plastic bags I just dropped on the floor earlier. I clenched my fist as I heard Erza said, "Why don't you have dinner with us? We're on our way to a restaurant to eat". Okay, Erza, first you I only agreed that we're just suppose to buy food, drinks and strawberry cake with my credit card, but then you asked me if you could also buy those girly stuffs, I couldn't do anything, but to say 'yes'. Now, that you've just reunited with our old friend or should I say your ex-suitor, you're inviting him to join us. I don't think I can say 'yes' with that.
Simon is also my friend, I don't hate him, but...this is my bonding time with my best friend, for christ's sake! We can go out sometime, but not now that I'm enjoying this day with Erza. I don't want anyone ruining my bonding time with Erza, especially not one of her ex-suitors, who can grab another chance to court her for the second time.
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Well, here I am, failed to do anything to keep this day as our bonding time together. There's Erza, sitting beside Simon and it seems like they're both enjoying chatting with each other, while here I am, eating my salad as I keep peeking at the two. Simon doesn't talk to me that much, maybe it's because he still feels awkward and embarrassed from what happened before. Well, what happened between us before? He was drunk, he attacked me with a punch after I told him that I didn't ask Erza to go with me to the Prom because I love her. He's mad, accusing me for stealing his only chance to be with Erza. A gap occurred in our friendship. And time we'll talk or be with each other, there's a little awkwardness every time we'll remember that moment.
"Your body is so muscled! Let me guess, you often work out?" Erza says, squeezing the muscles in his arm with her fingers. "Yeah, Kagura forced me to do so."
"That's great, keep it going and a lot of girls will surely have a crush on you."
"Lot of girls? I don't need a lot of girls to like me...I only want you to like me." He said and winked at her.
Aaaaargh! Is he making a move on her?!
"You really are a joker!" And Erza seemed to like his new body. The muscled one, compared to his skinny body way back in high school.
My hand suddenly crawled up to my arms and squeezed it to check if ever I have a muscled arm like Simon. I don't know what made me do it, but I feel like my hand went up to my arm by itself. Wait, why am I even conscious if ever I do have a muscled arm like Simon?!
I do have a muscled body and abs, my body is completely perfect! I don't go to the gym often to work out like Gray, Gajeel and Natsu, the only exercise I do is jogging and biking, but I do have a nice body. Erza, you touched and kissed my muscular body and I haven't received any compliments from you.
"Erza, do you have a boyfriend? Have you dated someone already?" Simon asked, slowly crawling his fingers towards to Erza's soft and smooth hand on the table. Erza shook her head and answered, "Twenty-four, no boyfriend since birth", giggling softly.
Simon chuckled, planting a smile on his lips as if he's glad to hear that she has no boyfriend since birth, "Is that so?". "Would you mind if I'll try to gain your love for the second time?" He asked.
That made my whole world stopped for a second.
Okay...
Gain her love her for the second time?
"Well, it's up to you, but if I really don't feel any spark, I'm sorry." She laughed softly.
What if Erza gave him a chance this time? What if Simon made her fall for him and they'll start dating? I won't be able to spend time with her often, of course if she starts dating, her boyfriend will be her second priority and me her best friend, I'll just be able to bond with her if ever Simon isn't around or she's free, unlike what we usually do that we always meet everyday. What if Simon finds out that I accidentally took her innocence and virginity when I was drunk?! What if Simon finds out that I only slept with her is because of pleasure and because I want to forget Ultear for a moment?
What if he'll tackle me again or what's worst is...what if he decided not just to punch me for having sex with Erza, what if he'll kill me?! No, no, no, no! Jellal, you're just paranoid! You're not even sure if Erza will fall for him. She's not gonna date Simon, no, that will never happen.
I grabbed the glass of lemon juice and shoved the glass right in my lips, drinking it straightly, while I peek at the two. I don't care how cold and sour it tastes, but all I know is I want to release whatever is inside me. I don't know what am I feeling right now, but all I know is why am I so affected that Erza reunited with our childhood friend who happened to be madly in love with her and asking if ever he could try gaining her love for the second time.
"You haven't changed, Erza. Well, except for your face, you look prettier now." Is he trying to flirt with her? Why am I the kind of person who finds it hard to forget what a person has done to you before?
I didn't notice that I've already drank all the lemon juice and what's only left inside the glass is the small slice of lemon and three ice cubes. An ice cube slipped inside my mouth along with the juice, I almost swallowed the ice cube, thank god I managed to choke it out of my throat. I can see how Erza blushes from Simon's compliment to her, which made my blood boiler. To release the unknown feeling inside me, I did it by crushing the ice cube inside my mouth with my teeth, I didn't mind how the coldness is making my teeth and gums ache.
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"Jellal, wait for me!" I heard Erza's voice ten meters away from me.
I teased her, "Hurry up, slowpoke!", chuckling as I jogged faster and leave her behind. As I keep on jogging, I can no longer hear her voice saying to wait for her. I turned around to look at her behind, and there is she, sitting on the grassy side walk, clutching her abdomen. Oh, right, I already know what's with her. All I can do is to sigh and jog back towards to her.
"Period, huh?" I said as I approached her.
No response, she just glanced away from me with a combination of sad and upset face as if her world is about to end. "Come on, do you wanna watch the sunrise or not?" I asked. "My abdomen is cramping." She cried, with her hands gripping on her lower abdomen. Being a girl is surely difficult, especially when you're being moody, spending money to buy tampons or pads and cramping abdomen every month.
I knelt down on the grassy ground, my back facing her. I took her hand and wrapped it around my neck and did the same thing with her legs. Then, I lift up my body with a big amount of force as I maintain my balance, while carrying her behind. I started walking on our way back to the small hill near the beach where we left my car, maintaining my balance as I carry this pig.
"Mmm, this is why I love you." She mumbled in a sweet tone as she wraps her hand around me tight.
"Just shut up before I change my mind."
Yeah, yeah, just because you know that I can't stand seeing how your world ends during your period. I guess making her jog with me on her period is not a good idea at all.
That feeling that your girl best friend is more like your girlfriend already, though it's weird and different, but it's fun too. These things, like helping out a girl during her period, hanging out with her, accompany her in shopping, treating her, sleeping with her, going, driving home from work together and other stuffs. I did these things with Ultear before, it was fun, but not as fun when I'm doing it with Erza. I love Ultear, but even before that we're still together I know myself that...how do I say this? I know myself that it's a lot more fun with Erza. Ultear, most of the time she's serious or she doesn't literally play, compared to Erza. Some people sees Erza as a demon hiding under an angelic face of a girl, but they haven't seen the childish part of her. Well, I bet I'm the only person who can see it.
There are times that Erza will wake me in the middle of the night and ask me if I could get her a pad in the nearest convenience store because she's completely covered with blood, a boyfriend's job, isn't it? I just once said 'no' to her when she asked me to get her pad, then later on I found her in the corner inside the bathroom crying while her undergarments are soaking with blood, so I couldn't do anything, but to get her a pad or tampon.
I love her so much, like my own sister, and I can't imagine my life without her. She means so much to me. I don't know if this is right, but there are times I'm wishing that I'd rather fell in love with her so I wouldn't be hurt by Ultear. Jellal, please fall in love with this girl instead. These past few weeks after our breakup, if it wasn't for Erza I'm still a little bit depressed by it, but not anymore and it's all because of her. She was able to mend my broken heart. God, I'm so lucky to have her. I wish it's just the two of us who were lovers. We're almost lovers, a couple, but we just look like one, but in reality, we're just friends.
Why can't it be us? Why don't I try gaining her love like Simon? Though doing it is like risking our normal friendship and everything won't be the same anymore if I fell in love with her. That's right, she's the reason why I don't feel affected from Ultear anymore. I want to fall in love with her, to completely heal the pain inside me. But, I need to make her fall for me too. I'm not yet sure of this, but I want to end this pain as soon as possible and I think she's the only key to make it happen. What if she doesn't want me? And an awkwardness or gap might occur in our friendship. I guess I really have to think about it.
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"Only a few days to go before the alumni homecoming, Lucy is asking me if I could go with her for a last minute shopping tomorrow." She says as she sat under the shady tree and leaned her body on the woody branch lazily.
"Shopping, again? I don't know why girls have to wear different kinds of clothes in different occasions or events, compared to guys who can wear only one kind of clothes in different occasions or events." I scoffed, while I'm looking for the extra shirt I brought with me on the compartment of my car.
"You guys have to understand us girls, it's our nature."
"Yeah, right."
The sky is getting brighter little by little. I went over beside Erza, who's watching the sun rising up through the horizon slowly.
While watching how the sun slowly rises up, I heard her said "This is the best spot to watch the sunrise and sunset.", as she rests her head on my shoulder, then added "especially when you're with someone special,". I was flattered, knowing I was special to her, but as the same time I kind of feel awkward because of the way she speaks, she sounds different. She sounded like one of the protagonists in those romance movies we watched, that whenever the couple is in a beautiful or special place, one of them always took it as a chance to express their feelings inside or their love to the person they're with.
The thought of mine about making this girl fall in love with me, I don't know why It suddenly came in my head. I haven't healed the pain Ultear left in my heart, but whenever I'm with this girl, I was able to forget the pain for a moment. I wonder why and how. Is it because she's my best friend, that's why she make a big impact like that to me?
"How special am I to you?" I asked her.
"Very," she answered.
Now, that's more flattering.
"Really? As in very?"
"Yes, I'll do everything for you."
So, touching, how lucky I am to have this girl. Now, Erza, if I tell you not to let Simon try gaining your love, will you do as I say?
"Uh, Erza..." I sighed, trying to start a conversation. "Yes?" She asked.
"Last night, we're with Simon - again, after many years."
"Hmm, yeah, I missed him. He's got a muscled body now compared before when he's so skinny." She said as if she's too amazed on how Simon hit puberty. Oh, Erza, I've got a muscled body too, and abs. You even touched and kissed those already. How come I didn't get any compliments from you?
"He wants to gain your love again."
She suddenly pulled away from me from leaning her head to my shoulder. "Yeah, why'd you mentioned it?" She wondered.
"Don't you think it's awkward? I mean...he already courted before, and now he'll try doing it over again."
"I don't see anything awkward with that."
"So, you want to? It's okay for you to be courted by him for the second time?" I raised my voice a little.
"Uh, yeah, it's up to him and to me - if I will fall for him." She giggled softly. "Why are you asking, anyway?"
Wait, why am I bothered about Simon, anyway? Is it because I'm thinking of making Erza fall for me to move on and I think he'll just hang in our way? I have seriously no idea. I never felt this way over her before.
"Nothing. But Erza, if he did something wrong to you, tell me right away." I just said.
She let out a soft laugh. "I will, but I'm sure Simon won't do anything bad to me."
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Fetching a girl from her work, isn't it a boyfriend's job? Like here I am, bored while sitting inside my car, waiting for Erza in front of the building of the company she's working at. Usually, it was me who's always late to arrive in here to fetch her. But this time - she's the one who's late. I've been texting and calling her several time, but I received a zero reply from her. Usually she always texts me if she'll overtime at work, but I have no idea what is she still doing inside.
"Jellal?" A raven-haired woman knocked on the window of my car. I pressed the window button to open the window. "I-i'm Minerva, Erza's co-worker. Are you looking for her?" She said politely.
"Umm, yeah, actually I've been here for almost two hours." I replied.
"Oh, sorry, but Erza's left already."
She left? How come she didn't text or call me?
"Oh, is that so?" That's all I could say, still wondering.
"She actually went out with this tall muscled man who came here to fetch her. I heard that he's asking her to eat dinner with him. Wait..." She said and rolled her eyes up as if she's trying to recall something. "Sirus? Si- oh, yes, Simon is his name!"
I've been in here for almost - one and a half hour already! My phone's battery is already dead because of playing games while waiting for her, and now I'll find out she went out with Simon without telling me?!
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"Hey, Jellal!" She approached me excitedly as she spotted me in the living room of my condo unit.
"Hey," I greeted her coldly. "Did you have fun?" I asked with my arms crossed while sitting here in the couch, still in a cold tone.
"Umm, yeah, actually," she nodded with a small blush in her face. "Wait, how did you know where I have been, anyway?"
"It doesn't matter. Why didn't you tell me you went out with him? Do you know how long I've waited for you, then I'll just find out you went on a date with your ex-suitor."
I can see how her smile fades away. "I'm sorry, my phone battery is dead. But-"
"Next time, tell me right away if you'll go on a date with him, so I wouldn't bother waiting for you to drive you home and waste my time."
"Jellal, what's the matter? I told you I'm sorry. Why are you like that?" Her voice croaked, and I could see how her eyes are becoming watery.
I stood up from the couch, "What made you say 'yes' to hm earlier? Just because he's our friend, you're gonna say yes to him already easily. It's been a long time since the last time you saw him, and you barely knew him for now because you haven't heard anything from him after high school. And he just asked you out to dinner, you said yes easily without telling me? Are you the opposite kind of girl that I thought you were?", I said coldly. But the moment I saw tears streaming down from her I stopped. Oh, no, what have I done?
"Who do you think you are, my father, my boyfriend?!" She yelled at me as she wiped her tears away.
"N-no, it's not that. I'm sorry, what I meant to say is-"
She cut me off and said, "I've rejected a lot of guys before, and I want just want to experience what it's like to be loved. That's why I want to give him a chance and see if I will feel anything for him. And, you!", the she pointed her finger at me. "You're taking me to bed whenever you're bored o-or whenever you're too depressed and you wanted to have fun. Maybe, yeah! I'm the opposite kind of girl you thought I am. Because I already gave my body to my own best friend! But did you ever hear any complains from me?! What are you trying to point out? That I'm kind of a whore? It's just a dinner, why do you have to be like that?", she cried.
She turned around, heading for the door, then left me all alone as she slammed the door behind me.
She's right...I'm not her boyfriend, but why do I feel this way? I bed her many times already even if we're just friends. I always ask her if when is she planning to entertain one of her suitors, and now she is, but why do I feel like this? Am I jealous? Me, jealous over my best friend's suitor?
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Sorry, it took a while since the last time I updated. This is just the part one of chapter eleven, because it's kind of long and maybe a cliffhanger for you my readers, too XD thanks for the ones who favorited, followed and posted a review in this story, anyway. I'll be updating The Red String of fate next or Mr. And Mrs. Fernandes. I know a lot of you hates Jellal in this story for being an asshole after everything Erza has done, even if some of my stories, but I hope you'll keep in touch with my stories to see how our beloved Jellal will change.
I have a new story "The perfect time", new story, again? I know, i know, after Being busy since school started, resulting me to update my stories slowly, but I just couldn't get off the plot off my mind every night that's why I decided to spill it out already. I hope you'll also check it out and wait for every chapter like you're doing in this story.