Jellal
9 months ago...
Gawking at the ceiling, kicking my pillows and punching the mattress of my bed - that's what I'm doing right now in the middle of the night because I can't sleep. Why? I'm such a dick for making Erza feel like a whore. Did I just get jealous over Simon? I mean, seriously? He was the one who usually gets jealous when talking about Erza. But why am I the one who looks so jealous? I get jealous at Natsu and Gray if Erza starts hanging out with them than me, but Erza going out with Simon? Why the hell did it tackled me?
I do want Erza to meet someone that could be the man of her dreams, and the man that will treat her as a queen someday. Now that she tried going out to one of her suitors, why am I so affected?
I confronted her in a wrong way about not telling me about her dinner with Simon. And, the way I talked to her earlier just made her feel like a whore. I'm so stupid! I mean, it's just a dinner. Why did I ever tell her in a way that would make her feel like that? Having dinner with someone is normal, but what I really don't know is what made me feel jealous that I have to act like that towards her?
She is right. I'm sleeping with her whenever I want. Which also makes her look like a whore. Well, mainly because she's just having sex with her own best friend! No strings attached, just plain best friends. Women are supposed to just sleep with the man they love, not with their friend, nor best friend. I am the only man who lived after touching Erza Scarlet several times. I mean, no man has ever touched her, nor hold hands with her, except me! I am one lucky man to be the one who can only touch and kiss her without any love relationship involved.
I suddenly recalled when we're at the Ryuzetsu Island. When she asked me to make love to her, not just casual sex. And, I told her that I'll tell her what I feel after we do it again with each other. Until, now, I still haven't tell her what I felt that time. What do I feel anyway aside from pleasure? All I can feel when we're doing it is just pleasure. The pleasure pf casual sex, with no love. I mean, is it possible to make love with your best friend, like what she's asking me to do?
But aside from pleasure, there's something I could feel.
Her kisses, the way she touches me and looks at me, while we do it. It's just different. I don't just see the pleasure in her. But I can see love, passionate and tender in her more than pleasure, while we're doing it. How is she able to do that, while I can't even kiss her with love? This thought has been going on my mind since the first time we slept with each other. It's not that I'm assuming, but...
Is she in love with me? Secretly in love?
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The next morning. I took a deep breath first before unlocking the door of her unit with the spare key I have. I already practiced my lines on how will I apologize to her. Okay, I'm ready... I pushed the key inside the keyhole of the doorknob, and twisted it to unlock.
I slowly entered her home, while roaming my eyes around her place to check her out. There was no sign of her in the living room, so I thought of her still sleeping in her bedroom or if she's showering in the bathroom. I pushed the door to close, and started making my way to her bedroom.
Opening the door of her bedroom slowly, and peeked a little inside. And, there, I spotted her still sleeping in her bed. I thought of surprising her, and then I'll take it as a perfect timing to apologize to her. But what made me wonder is why is she still sleeping by this time, when she has to go to work early? She never liked being late for work. She was an early bird, and what she hates the most during weekdays is to stay in bed up to seven-thirty in the morning. Did she overslept? Maybe because she didn't get to sleep well from what I told her last night, is that it?
Then, I heard her moaning, with her voice shivering as if she's feeling cold. Well, me - I can feel a warm atmosphere inside her bedroom. But, her, she's shivering as if she's inside a freezer, plus the blanket wrapped around her whole body. I walked towards to her to check her out. "Erza." I tapped her shoulder softly. Then, I realized she's very hot. I touched her forehead, and she's really hot. She's got a high fever.
"Jellal.", she mumbled, slowly opening her eyes.
"Erza, you have a fever." I told her.
"What are you doing here?" She asked me.
"It doesn't matter. Wait a minute." I said, and I headed outside of her bedroom, to the kitchen. I took a bowl from the dish dryer, and filled it with cold water. And, I headed back to her bedroom with the bowl of cold water and a small towel. I knelt down beside her bed, as I dipped the towel on the water, and drained the excess water from the towel after before I place it on her hot forehead. "Here."
I took off the blanket from her body no matter how she's shivering to coldness just to exhaust the heat from her body to decrease her fever. Now, what should I do? She needs to exhaust the heat from her body, but she's feeling cold when I took the blankets off from her.
"J-jellal, i-it's cold." She shivered, while hugging her body.
"Wait." I said, and pulled my shirt up to my head to strip. "Jellal, what are you doing? We can't-" She said, while watching me stripping off my shirt. I cut her off by saying, "We're not going to do what you're thinking.", with a soft laugh. Then, I pulled her up a little bit to pull her shirt up to her head to strip her off, until the only garment in her torso is her black bra. "Jellal, what are you doing?!" I laid down beside her, facing her bare back.
I wrapped my arms around her torso as I pressed my body on her. "Body heat." I finally told her my purpose. "Go sleep, while I warm you. Then, I'll make you a breakfast later."
And, there, we laid on the bed together - half-naked as I warm her, and until she fell asleep again. Three hours later, just after I placed the hot mushroom soup on her night table, she finally woke up. "Oh, you're awake." I said, trying to be nice at her. She glared at me. "I made you a mushroom soup for breakfast. I followed your recipe.",
I smiled at her despite her deathly glares. I have to think of something to say again to be nice. "Your fever has decreased to 37.09, unlike earlier it was 39.00 degrees. It's a gold thing I keep changing the wet towel in your body. And, here, go eat already so you can drink your medicine."
"What are you doing here?" She asked, still giving me deathly glares. If I were Natsu or Gray, no matter how bad she feels, she probably kicked my balls right now for visiting her and acting as if nothing happened last night.
I sat beside her. "I'm sorry for what I said last night." I apologized, while scratching my head. "That's all? Just plain sorry?" She scoffed at me sarcastically.
"Hey, come on I said I'm sorry. Look, I really didn't mean to hurt you, and...make you feel like a whore. You're right, it's just a dinner. I'm such a dick for saying those things and judging you. I mean, you have to right to get to know other man aside from me. Sorry for acting so selfish, for acting as if I own you. You're right, I'm not even your boyfriend. We're just friends." I told her, in a calm way, so she could see my sincerity.
"Jellal..." She forced to get up from the bed, and sit beside me.
"Go out with Simon, so you can get to know him well. Maybe, he's the guy for you, you never know. And, I wouldn't be selfish anymore to deprive you from meeting your 'the one'." I faked a smile on her.
I only said that it's okay for me that she should go out with Simon often. If only I could tell her that I don't like her going out with Simon. Date Natsu, date Gray, Gajeel, Laxus, or any man out there, it's fine with me. But I still don't feel like seeing her going out with Simon. I mean, is it because of our past during our teenage years whenever he starts a little fight with me just because he's obsessed with Erza, and he gets jealous every time Erza prefers hanging out with me.
No, Erza.
Deep inside of me, I don't want you to date anyone. Call me a selfish, but I'd rather see you die as the girl who never had a boyfriend since birth. I want you. I want you just to be mine. I don't want you to belong to someone else's heart, and someone to belong in your heart. Just me, I don't want any man holding your hands, treating you a strawberry cake, taking care of you when you're sick, shopping clothes with you, watching a movie with you, kissing you and making love with you aside from me!
Wait, what the hell am I talking about?! I don't want anyone else to belong in her heart! Now, I'm being fake to her in apologizing, still selfish. What the hell is happening to me? What is this ironic feeling I have right now, and these past few days for Erza? I don't think it is just simply jealousy. But what could it be?
"Hey, I'm sorry." I wrapped my arms around her waist and placed my chin on her shoulder.
"Jellal, let go." She tried to struggle from my embrace.
"No...not until you accept my apology."
"Jellal!"
"Please, I'm sorry." I gave her puppy eyes as I persuade her to accept my apology. "Okay, who wants strawberry cake?!"
"I...I...I do." She suddenly calmed down from struggling from me.
"Okay...say the magic word." I chuckled. "'Apology accepted'."
She took a deep breath before saying those magic words I persuaded her to say. "Okay, fine...apology accepted. Now, will you let me go and treat me a strawberry cake already." Then, she finally smiled at me. Then, I let go of her. "Okay, strawberry cake monster. Eat this mushroom soup, and go back to rest. Because if you don't get well sooner, you won't be able to go to the homecoming of Fairy Tail the day after tomorrow. And, if you won't be able to go, you won't be able to see Simon."
"Feed me with the mushroom soup." She ordered.
I sighed, "Sure. Be thankful I have to make up for what I did last night and you're sick."
She leaned her body against the baseboard of her bed. Then, I took the bowl of mushroom soup from her night table. Opening her mouth wide, then I started feeding this sick baby with the mushroom soup I made. "Hmm, it tastes good." She told me. "It's your recipe." I said, and fed her with more spoons of soup.
"Jellal."
"Yes?"
"Is it really okay with you that I'll go out with Simon?" She asked. "Last night, you sound like you're jealous that you almost called me - you know. I mean, what do you feel anyway?"
Oh, Erza...yes, I'm jealous. I'm jealous because I don't like you going out with another man aside from me. "Yes, I think that I felt jealous. I-i don't know why, I just felt it. I can't explain it." I explained. "I don't wanna be selfish because you deserve to be loved by someone. I don't even own you, and yet I just acted like I do. D-do you find Simon attractive or think he is probably the right man for you?"
An awkward silence hulled between us with that question of mine.
"I really don't know. H-he's nice, I want to give a man like him a chance who is ready to do everything just to win your love. But I...I find it hard to do it. I'm kind of tired of being a single. I envy Lucy whenever Natsu gives flowers and chocolates her every Valentines, I envy Juvia whenever Gray takes her on a date in a cruise, and...I envy Ultear so much for having you."
So, from what she said about Ultear...is she implying that she also gets jealous during the times when I was dating Ultear?
"I want to be loved even if I find it hard to do so. I want a man who can treat me like a queen. A man who can make love to me. A man who can be with me all the time."
"You...find it hard to love someone, is that what you wanted to say? W-why?"
"Because there's a man in my heart already. He's the only man in my life, and because of him I find it hard to look at someone the way I look at him."
Only man in his life? As far as I know, I'm the only special man in his life, because I'm her best friend.
"W-who?" I asked for a confirmation.
"You." She answered.
"Me?"
"Yes. You mean so much to me that I couldn't open my heart to another man because ever since you're the only man in my life." She told me, looking directly at my eyes.
I suddenly let out a soft laugh unconsciously. "You really are silly. Erza...I know we've been best friends since we're kids. But please, I don't want your friendship with me to hinder you from opening your heart to another man. I'm just your best friend, Erza. And, there's a man out there waiting for you to open your heart. I know I mean so much to you, and you also mean so much to me, but we both have to open our hearts to another person. We're just friends, Erza."
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The next day, after I treated Erza a strawberry cake on Clayton's for snack. She decided to spend the night at my place, so tomorrow we'll go to the homecoming of Fairy Tail together.
Well, guess what we are doing right now.
Erza and I are just making out inside the bathroom, while naked and wet.
I planted kisses on her neck and collarbone, while she dugs her nail on my back. I am pinning her against the tiled wall of the bathroom as the cold water coming from the shower pipe showers our heated bodies from the sensation we're feeling as our bodied touch. "Jellal..." Erza let out a soft pleasurable moan as I kissed her erected pink nipples and massaged her left breast as the same time.
I don't know how our make out session started, and suddenly turned out like this again. Naked. We're naked, while kissing and touching each other again.
"Kyaa!" I heard her whimper when my kisses went down to the sensitive peak of her womanhood. I can't take it. I want her. I want Inside her already. I want to refrain myself from desiring so, but she is just damn irresistible. She is the woman that any man would desire. And, I am lucky to have her, that I don't need to love her just to do it with her.
I switched off the shower, and carried her by wrapping her legs around my waist. I carried her back to my bedroom, and started kissing and touching each other again as we both landed on the bed, not caring if we're dripping wet from the shower.
I realized, there's one thing I find it hard to do with Erza. To make love with her...
All I can feel is pleasure and the desire to touch her, nothing more, nothing else. No love included.
I pulled the blanket and covered ourselves, then we continued what we're doing under the sheets. "Erza...shall I do it inside you?" I asked her as I broke our kiss. She just nodded, and tried to relax her head and body for the upcoming wild sensation and pleasure I'm about to give her. "Jellal, please try to do it with me with love." She pleaded. How? Then, I just said, "I'll try." I pulled her closer to me, positioning myself between her thighs. "Oh." She moaned as my erected manhood touched her sensitive peak before I could enter her. Okay, Jellal, try doing it with love. Just try...please, try.
I was about to slam myself inside her, when both of us were suddenly alarmed when we heard the door of the bedroom opened and a woman's voice who just entered my bedroom...
"Jellal?"
Mom?!
I quickly get out under the sheets, but Erza, I covered her with the blanket or else mom will see her. "Oh my god, honey, I'm so sorry!" My mom quickly covered her eyes with her palms as I quickly grabbed my boxers from the chair and wore it. "I didn't mean to interrupt your lovemaking with Ultear I'm sorry." She said, after she uncovered her eyes, and approached me with a kiss. "Honey, I miss you."
"Mom, what the hell are you doing here?!"
"What the hell am I doing?! Visiting my son of course!"
"But why now?! You should have informed me." I told her.
"I was going to surprise you. But it seems like you're busy making love with Ultear."
"N-no! I-!"
Now, what should I do?!
Dear Ground,
Please suck me, before mom finds out...
Oh no...
Mom sat beside Erza on the bed who's still hiding under the sheets. "Ultear, come on don't be shy. Come out."
I can see how mom looked shocked when she realized it was Erza as she peeked on Erza under the sheets. "Hey, mom." Erza greeted her shyly. Erza calls my mom, 'mom'. Since mom also treats Erza like her own daughter. Now that mom just saw Me and Erza naked under the sheets, I wonder how will she react? Oh, god, please.
"Erza, honey, why are you and Jellal naked in bed?!"
"W-we're, umm..." Erza stuttered shyly, blushing as a red tomato.
"Mom...I cam explain."
Mom suddenly pulled Erza for an embrace. "I knew it! I knew you'd be my daughter-in-law someday, and now I think you'll really be." She's really crazy!
I just sighed. I need to fix this. I need to explain my mother everything. This is day is surely disaster for me and Erza.
To be continued...
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A/N: how was it? It's just a short chapter since it's just the second part of the latest chApter. Sorry, if i haven't updated for almost two months.
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