Erza

Present

As usual, here I am, sitting on the balcony of my bedroom. While I just feel the fresh air and touch my belly that became bigger than before. God, pregnancy is just worst than I've imagined before. I thought being pregnant is just simply carrying a child for nine freaking months, but hell no! It's not just being sensitive to yourself all the time and having limitations in food, but my back always hurts and I always find it hard to sleep especially when these two babies inside me are so naughty. I can always feel them moving inside me that sometimes I just thought maybe they're playing with each other or most probably sick being stuck with each other inside my womb for nine months.

I wasn't ready to be a mother, and yet I'm already having two children in my first time. There's a part of me that has an excited feeling to see my twins, yet there's a part of me that has an anxious feeling that I might not be a good mother to them because I wasn't ready. And anxious that what if they grow up without a father. Okay, here we go again, about the father thingy.

I know Jellal a lot, and before he used to say that he'll be a good father in the future because he never experienced to have one. I was going to introduce the twins to him. I'm not selfish to hide the twins for him. Okay, what I'm doing to the twins right now, for months actually, is hiding them from their father. But can you blame me? I'm just afraid that their own father might harm them again. I was just going to introduce our child to Jellal, but he never even bothered to lend an ear for me and he just pushed me away. The girls told me last month that Jellal was looking for me, but they said he has still no idea about my pregnancy. What will be his reaction once he finds me with this big belly?

I admit.

It was not just Jellal's fault.

It was mine.

Why I got pregnant with his child.

I allowed him to fuck me whenever he wants to, thinking that maybe he could learn to love me in that way. But it turned out I was so stupidly wrong in allowing him to do that. Because no matter what I do, I'm just his fucking best friend like what he said. God, why did I ever fell in love with someone like him? I could have fall for Natsu, Gray, Simon or anyone else instead of him. By now, I'm trying to forget him and open my heart to another man who deserves my love, but honestly I still couldn't. He means so much to me. And no matter what I do to forget him, he'll always be attached to me, especially now that I'm carrying his child.

Can someone still loves a woman like me who spreads its legs for its best friend just to be loved back?

Knock! Knock!

Then, I was suddenly awakened by the knocking from the glass door. "Erza, you have a visitor.", our maid said and left immediately. A visitor, eh? Who could it be?

A tan skin toned guy with a muscular body came in, and of course it's none other than but our childhood best friend, Simon. "Erza?" I hear him as he slid his head between the sliding door. "Oh, hey. Come in." I told him, then he came inside along with a basket of fruits. "For you and your twins." He placed the basket on the wooden coffee table. "T-thank you." I said shyly. "You don't have to give me fruits every week. I mean, I could ask the maids to buy me, anyway." I added.

Jellal as the father of my children and supposed to be my husband, he's the one who should be giving me fruits to maintain the baby's good health inside me. But what can I do? He's not here. And, it was Simon who's been with me for these months.

Simon has been taking care of me as if he was the father of my twins. He buys me fruits every week, accompanies me in my checkup, takes me in the park for a walk to exercise, asking me in the middle of the night if I'm having cravings and he always touches and kisses my belly. Yeah, as if he was the father. But really, I do appreciate what he's doing. Though he is not the father, he shows concern for the twins, and me too. At least, he never tried to harm us like Jellal.

"How are you and the twins?" He asked as he sat on the wooden bench beside me. "Any cramps or pain?"

I caressed my big belly once again and answered, "They're fine, we're fine. No need to worry at all like before when I felt mild cramps."

"Just make sure you two are fine." He reminded. "You can always call me when there's something wrong. No need to be shy. I mean, come on! We've been together since we're kids. We're just separated at college, but it doesn't end our sibling-like bond. And, so when are you due anyway?"

"Hmm, in the next two weeks, the doctor said."

"And, I hope you're already ready for a painful childbirth."

Oh, childbirth.

Honestly, I'm not yet ready. Especially the father of my children will not be there beside me while I'm laboring in pain. All I could do is to pause instead of saying something I'm not even sure. I know after the painful childbirth, it'll be worth it, but I can't take off the anxious feeling in me.

I wish Jellal will be with me during labor at least.

I can feel Simon's hand on my belly. "Hey, you can always call me. Especially, call me one your water broke."

"Thank you." I told him.

I have no words for this guy beside me. He's just so caring and a gentleman to me. Right now, I'm wishing that he could have been the man I've fall for and could have been the father or my twins instead. "I wish you're their father." I blurted out and touched his hand above my bloated belly. "You'd be a better father and husband." Because of that a long pause occurred between us - an awkward one.

Call me a bitch or whatever. Because before I was just madly in love with Jellal and now I am wishing to be with the man I rejected before.

"Erza..." He sighed. "I've always loved you and you know that, right?" I just nodded as a response. "Remember those times when I always envied Jellal for having you most of the time? God, I almost beat him up when I was drunk. Just because I never get to ask you for the prom because he already did, and it was just because to prove he isn't...gay."

I let out a soft giggle as I remember Jellal that time. "I know, and I was the one who pushed him to do it. He was desperate that time."

"Don't you think I am too before? I was kind of obsessed with you an you just- rejected me."

"I know, because I was so stupid that time...over gaining Jellal's love." Then, the small smile in my face gradually disappears. Why do I always remember my stupidity for years? Simon suddenly cupped my cheek, while gazing at my eyes. "Erza, like what I've said before...I wanna try gaining your love for the second time."

Oh, Simon, if only I could, I would. But for now, I'm still in love with Jellal and I don't want people to think I'm just using you as a rebound. "Simon...I want to. I want to open my heart to someone, to someone like you. I want to love someone who deserves my love. You, I want to love you. But, I don't know if I could." I sighed and glanced away from his eyes.

"Why not?"

"Simon, the truth is I'm still in love with Jellal-"

"I know that's why I'm here to change that."

"No, Simon. I...I do want to love you back, seriously. But I don't want to be like Jellal."

He stoked my long scarlet hair with his fingers and forced me to look at his eyes directly. "Hey, don't say that! You are nothing like Jellal. Jellal is a dick who don't deserved to be loved by someone like you. But you, you deserved to be loved and treasured. You gave everything to a guy like him, but he never saw it."

"What I meant is...I don't want to do what he did to me. I know he never looked at me the way I looked at him. What I meant to say is that I don't want to use you as a rebound. Like when he used me to forget Ultear. Even if I do fall out of love from him and fall for you already, I'll always be attached to him because of the fruit of my stupid love over him."

"Don't call your twins a fruit of your stupidity, they have nothing to do with their asshole father. They are given to you for a reason. Definitely, your twins has a purpose in your life once they're born."

Then, I realized I'm already bursting into tears. "Plus, I may deserve a man like you, but you don't deserve a woman like me. Look at me. Can you still love a woman who spread its legs to gain its best friend's love? Can you still love a woman like me who is now pregnant with an asshole?"

He wiped my tears away with his thumb. "People make mistakes. Nobody is perfect. I'll always love you no matter what you are right now. I don't care if I'm not the first man who touched your soul. I don't care if you had a child with another man. I accept you for who you are."

"I'll wait for the time when you can love me already. I will, Erza. And, I will always be here for you." He added. I took a deep breath before I speak. "Me, too. As much as possible, I'll try to step forward so I could finally be with the right man for me. But Simon...please don't expect or assume to much. But you know if I could, I would."

He smiled at me and said, "Thank you, Erza. And, I promise I'll be the man you won't ever regret loving." Then, I was surprised when he pressed his warm lips on mine. "I love you, Erza." And, he lets go of my face and leaned back on the wooden bench.

Another awkward pause occurred between us again. Until, he finally broke the silence by saying, "I need to go. I just wanted to check you out before I return to Magnolia. I've got some stuff to do there for three days." Then, he stood up from the bench. "Let me come with you outside." I said.

Outside in front of the gate, Simon opened the door of his car. "Two weeks. In case your water broke early, still call me. Are you sure you're gonna be fine?" I nodded, "Yes, I will. Have a safe drive." Before, he hops inside his vehicle, he bent over to kiss my big belly. I watched his car driving away from our house.

I guess I'm alone again with my two angels. I couldn't call Lucy, Juvia, Cana or any of the girls since they all have stuff do at their work. What can I do? I'm on a maternity leave.

I rubbed my belly and told my babies insides, "Who wants some strawberry cake and mangoes?". I usually do this, talking to the, as if they would respond or they could hear me. Maybe they could hear me, but they don't understand it. And, maybe their kicks inside me were their response. I opened the small gate and was about to head inside, but then I heard a familiar baritone voice of a man behind me.

"Erza?"

No. Please, don't let me be right.

I turned around to see who spoke and it turned out I'm right. That it is my blue headed best friend who got me pregnant. "J-jellal?" I suddenly froze from where I am standing.

"Erza, it's you!" He quickly grabbed me and embraced me tightly after not seeing me for months. "I thought I'd never see you again." But instead of embracing my best friend back, I pushed him away and struggled when he tried to stop me from going. "Let me go!" I struggled from him. "Erza, wait! Please, don't go! Let's talk!" He gripped on my arm.

I held my belly, while I run away from him inside. "Don't let him!" I ordered the guards, while I ran back inside the house, up to my bedroom to lock myself away from the man who almost killed my children.

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A/N: sorry if i haven't updated this for long.

Jellal finally found Erza o.O what will jellal do with the girl who despises him right now? Find out in the next present chapter on how he'll do everything to approach her.

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