Erza
9 months ago...
What happened earlier...was just superbly awkward and embarrassing!
Jellal's mother just caught us naked in bed together! She doesn't even know that he's not with Ultear anymore. What's worst is that...we're not even dating! What will I tell her if she asks us? What will Jellal tell her? This is bad! This is totally bad. Interrogation starts in 3...2...1...
We're in the dining area right now. I was really shocked when mom arrived that I barely find time to get a nice dress from my wardrobe closet in the bedroom. Jellal was so panicking earlier that he just made me wear his loose nike shirt and striped boxer shorts. I haven't even comb my wet and tangled hair yet. And there's Jellal who was shirtless and just wearing his jeans.
"I'm really sorry to disturb you two." Mom told us, then she took the cup of coffee Jellal placed in front of her. I can't tell that it's okay cause it's not! Like I said, Jellal's mother just caught us naked in bed together without any strings attached. I've known her for years, since childhood. She is very conservative of Jellal who is her only child, though Jellal is a guy. She wants the best woman for Jellal. Because obviously she is also a conservative woman. It takes time before she gives her blessing to a girl for her son. I remember those times when Ultear has to go through a lot of stages of getting to know by Jellal's mother. She has a high respect for dating, sex and marriage. I knew how much she likes me for Jellal, like what she was always saying since we're teenagers. Because she saw me grew up as a descent and lovely lady.
But what if she finds out that I slept with his son several times already without any relationship aside from best friends? Her respect for me as a descent lady will probably sunk in the ground. She'll think that I'm an easy-to-get kind of woman. She'll think that I'm just probably feeling horny that's why I allowed Jellal to do it with me. She'll no longer look at me the same way.
Nooooo!
What about my dream of dating, getting married, having children and growing old with Jellal?!
"That's why next time, Jellal, you should always remember to lock the door if you're gonna make love with Erza." Mom chuckled. I can see how the 'make love' phrase sent creepy chills down to Jellal's spine. Yeah, okay, I know that he still finds it hard to do it with me with love included. But he said he's gonna try, right?
"And you, mom. You should always remember to knock first before you enter whether if you have a surprise or not." Jellal said. And me, I could just ride on them. I'm just there, sitting quietly, while I totally feel anxious in the inside.
"Honey, when are you planning to tell me that you and Erza are already dating? And, what happened to you and Ultear? I thought you're relationship with her is going well, but what happened and since when did you two uh- broke up?" She asked, which created an awkward yet silent atmosphere in the dining table. Jellal and I exchanged looks, like we're communicating through looks and arguing whoever will try explaining everything.
Should I say, "Oh, Yes, we're dating already. Because your son has been secretly in love with me all this time and he finally realized that he'll be happier with me, not with Ultear". But I know it was just my own fantasies. I know it will never happen. Well, we never know if it could really happen or not, but probably not right now. But I am wishing one day it will.
"Yes, mom."
What Jellal said just made me froze from where I am sitting.
He looked at my eyes that were just widening open. "Erza and I...started dating just last month." He said, stuttering a bit.
What the hell, Jellal?!
Oh, I do love what he said though it's a lie. But what if mom finds out the truth?
"Really?!" Mom gasped in surprise. We just rode on his reaction by laughing softly and saying, "Yes, we are". But we both gulped nervously when mom's expression changed and said, "And yet you two are already making love? Isn't that too early? You two could have waited to get married first."
Oh no.
What will I tell her? That your son just got drunk and he thought I was his beloved ex-girlfriend?
"And Jellal...since when did you and Ultear split up?" She asked once again and took a sip from her black coffee. I hear Jellal gulp once again as he heard his mother's question. He took a deep breath before speaking. "Well, uh- just last month. Exactly last month tomorrow, I could still remember. She uh- fell out of love from me and found a new one. It hurts, but I'm moving forward." He said.
So, he even knew the exact monthsary of his breakup with Ultear? Great, so I can see he hasn't moved on yet.
Jellal moved his chair near me and placed his arm around me. "That's when I just realized...I'm in love with Erza, really mom." He said, smiling at me and mom.
Whoa! Whoa! Whoa! Rewind, rewind, rewind!
He's in love with me?!
Is it true? If it is, god, it's a dream come true! I'll be happier than Cinderella who found a prince, because the man I've been secretly loving more than a friend is now in love with me.
"Really, honey?" Mom scoffed at him. "Exactly one month after you broke up with Ultear you easily realized you're in love with your best friend? Because the last time I checked, you're my son, and I know when you love a person so much, you'll find it hard to move on in less than a year. So, tell me, are you really in love with Erza or is she just a rebound or your fling?" From what mom said, we just totally froze from where we're standing, especially Jellal who is totally speechless. "Oh, come on honey, I'm just kidding!" She suddenly burst into laughter when she saw how Jellal's speechless expression and reaction lasted for seconds.
"Hehe. Yeah, alright." I just rode along with her. This is awkward, with my future mother-in-law- oh, I mean Jellal's mom.
"Mom, don't be silly." Jellal just laughed along, still stammering a bit.
"Oh, don't take if seriously, you two. Jellal...you do love Erza, right? Please make sure you really do. Because this time, I wanna make sure your latest girlfriend will be my official daughter-in-law. I really like Erza for you than Ultear. And, please do make sure there's no more Ultear left inside your heart. Make sure Erza completely owns your heart." She told Jellal. Oh, mom, I wish that would really happen. If you only knew how much your son still loves his ex-girlfriend. I wish the day would really come that I would completely own his heart.
A long pause occurred in the dining area. But then Jellal's crazy mom suddenly broke the silence by saying, "When should we plan the wedding?".
"Mom!" Jellal face-palmed. "We're not even lasting for more than a month and yet you're already thinking of tying knots." Correction Jellal - we're not even dating. You don't even love me. You're just saying you're gonna try.
"Jellal, with a beautiful, smart, descent, lovely and talented lady. You should think of a possible way to keep her with you. Don't ever do something that will push Erza away from you. You may not take me seriously in saying this, but you will remember what I said, if the time has come when you're willing to do everything to win Erza back just not to lose her."
She suddenly became serious in that. What does she mean by that? Will Jellal ever do something that will make me push him away? He loves me right? Okay, not love as in more than as a friend, but at least as his best friend and sister. I'm sure Jellal won't do anything. He is a very nice guy after all.
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In the middle of my sleep, I was awakened by the light of the lampshade on the nightstand in Jellal's bedroom. That's when I suddenly feel coldness because I was naked. The white blanket is only covering half of my body, so I pulled it to wrap up my whole bare body. My head and body hurts, tired after we just did it. Yes, we did it. Jellal said not because his mom caught us, we're not gonna continue doing it. And yes, I allowed him to enter my soul again. I made love to him again, but I don't even know if he is doing or feeling the same thing with me.
I saw him sitting at the end of the bed with his MacBook. Damn, he looks sexier than Gray on his boxers, shirtless and his muscles are clearly obvious. It makes me wanna kiss and touch him. I wanna embrace him so bad, feel his warm body against me. And make love to him again. Waaaah, no! I'm desiring for him again. Erza, you're too much! You're not lustful or horny, you used to be innocent! Wait, but it's not being lustful at all, right? I just wanna make love to him, and as far as I know that sex is way different from making love, not literally though. I just want to love him and make love to him that's all!
His laptop keeps making consistent beeping sounds of notifications. Looks like he's chatting with someone. I carefully crawled up towards to him, so he wouldn't notice I'm gonna take a peek on what he's doing. So, they have this secret group chat called: MILF
What the hell is that? I think I've heard it from those pervert guys during high school.
Natsumee: Yo guys. Sup?
Seriously? The boys are chatting in...2:30 in the morning?
coffeeJelly: Boo! Late reply.
CoffeeJelly? Now, I like Jellal's username. No wonder his mother doubted him being gay before because of his slight girly side.
Fullbastard: show's over! Natsu's online
Natsumee: back off, ice freak! *insert angry emoji*
Natsumee: what are u guys talkin about this late?
GajeelRedFucks: can anyone explain why a high school nerd is tryin to make herself look like a chic?
ItsMeLaxus: levy?
GajeelRedFucks: yeah. she said she wanted our fellow high schoolers not to recognize and see her as the nerdy bookworm anymore.
Fullbastard: ur a guy. u won't understand.
GajeelRedFucks: *insert poker face emoji*
Fullbastard changed his username to ChristianGray
CoffeeJelly: wtf?
ChristianGray: dominant mode: on *insert rape face-like emoji*
CoffeeJelly: *insert poker face emoji*
ChristianGray logged off
So, they're all chatting about pervertness again?
Nastumee: he's gonna bang juvia already *insert laughing emoji*
GajeelRedFucks: anyone else in this group will log out to bang someone?
Natsumee: maybe tomorrow. lucy just got her period yesterday *insert crying emoji*
CoffeeJelly: MEEEE! *insert laughing and rape face-like emoji*. Me wanna make love with someone.
Jellal! Make love?! I-is he referring to me? I mean, like what he always tell me. No, no, Erza, you're not sure. Stop assuming again.
Natsumee: get over her jellybean.
CoffeeJelly: huh?
Natsumee: ultear, duh. or you just go sleep and dream about making love to her.
GajeelRedFucks: sucks being jellal.
GajeelRedFucks: let her go. there's no way you could still make love to her. someone has already claimed her *insert peace sign and laughing emoji*
Okay, why is Ultear involved already. You guys! Stop reminding him of the pain Ultear caused him. I'm trying to be the one who'll mend his broke heart.
CoffeeJelly: lol
CoffeeJelly: who says im referring to ultear
Okay? So, he is referring to whom?
ChristianGray is now online
ChristianGray: to erza?
Holy-!
He's not planning to tell the boys, isn't he? God! Boys mostly spill out secrets unconsciously. Aside from being drunk, but also when they're joking around, they sometimes accidentally spill out a secret to ride along to the funny conversation.
GajeelRedFucks: nah. dont think so. do you?
Natsumee: possible. but not make love...but to pleasure himself. Hehehe :) right jelly?
Oh, yes. What if he just really wants me for pleasure and lust? What if he's just saying he's gonna try it with love just to shut me up and start fucking me already? I hope not.
I seriously looked the box where Jellal is gonna type his next reply. I thought was gonna reply a yes or no response to Natsu's question. But then he just simply replied:
CoffeeJelly: stfu
I was expecting for a meaningful answer, Jellal.
Then, I could just pull a poker face and reveal myself to Jellal already, that I was awake and reading their conversation. I surprised him by biting his bare muscled shoulder softly. He almost jumped and toss his MacBook in the air in surprise. "Holy-!" He screamed shockingly. I could just laugh the way he looked and sounded when he reacted.
"Erza, what are you-?"
"Why are you awake in the middle of the night and- and-!"
"So?" I scoffed at him with a little laugh. "You? Why are you awake in the middle of the night and chatting with the boys about-hmm." I decided not to mention the phrase 'make love with Erza' or the word 'sex'.
"God, Erza, that was nothing. You scared me to deathA-and, come on! We're guys! It's normal for us to talk about it." He scratched his head. "H-have you read anything else in our conversation?" He asked in a stuttering voice.
"Nope." I lied and shook my head. I just don't wanna mention the part wherein they're talking about me - about the friends with benefits. "Why is there any part of the conversation I'm not supposed to see?"
He sat beside me. Still speaking in a stuttering voice, "Of course, nothing! I-i mean, I guess so. Whatever! There are things that girls shouldn't be reading."
"Well, sorry. I didn't mean to." I apologized, but inside me I wasn't that sincere at all. So, girls like Juvia, Lucy, Levy and I shouldn't be seeing your conversation with the boys, while all of you are talking about us in a lustful manner? Guys, these days. If this blue-haired gay wasn't my best friend and the love of my life, I would have sent his balls flying.
He closed the monitor of his laptop and placed it on the nightstand. Then, he went back on sitting at the end of the bed, while I'm behind him. "Hey, are you mad?" I asked him, and placed a hand on his bare shoulder. "No, I'm not. I'm just thinking about something that's all." He sighed and tilted his head to gawk at the white ceiling.
"Is it about your mom? What you told her?"
He looked at down at the carpeted floor this time. He just gave me a nod as his answer. "It's okay. I don't mind if she thinks we're dating." I forced a soft laugh. "I mean, we're best friends and yet we act like as if we're dating. We meet everyday, you drive and fetch me from work, we go malling during weekends, shopping, dinner, sleeping together and...having sex. Doesn't it make us like a real couple already?"
He didn't say anything, not a single word. Oh, was he affected from what I said because it is true?
I crawled towards to him, while I kept the blanket wrapped around my naked body. I snaked my arms around his bare torso, and rested my chin on his shoulder. "Jellal...I know we're not really dating. We're just best friends and I know that. But..." Then, I gulped before asking him what I've been wanting to ask. "Do you really meant what you told your mom? That...you're really in love with me? Is it true?" I asked him, then I kissed his shoulder, biting it softly.
"Erza,", he scoffed with a laugh, "of course not."
What he said just broke my heart...again.
Why am I always assuming I have a chance with him? It is clear what he always say, that we're just friends, nothing more, nothing else. And yet I keep asking him if he is feeling the same thing for me.
"Erza...you know my mom. If I tell her that we don't have any relationship, she's gonna kill both of us. Especially she caught us naked in bed." He laughed sarcastically and then he gave me a noogie. "Don't be silly! You know that we're never going to fall in love with each other. Maybe one of us could fall, but I don't think the two of us would. Besides, if one of us develops feelings is...the loser! Come on, if it happens, it's just a total infatuation."
Jellal...you actually think everything I show you is a joke?
"Don't I have any chance with you?" I asked him.
"I don't know. You're my best friend, and I've known you for a long time. Just like what mom said that you're beautiful and talented, so why not? But come on! As if you're gonna like me. I'm the one who doesn't have a chance with you."
God, Jellal! Wake up!
"Jellal, right now if I tell you I love you-"
"Erza, don't be silly! Come on, it's just the effect of being single for twenty-four years. Don't worry, someday I'll set up a blind date for you. Or...you could go with Simon at the homecoming tomorrow."
I don't know what else to say to this- ugh!
My eyes stretched open when he all of the sudden pressed his lips on mine. He started biting my lip tenderly and forcing his tongue inside my mouth. I could just close my eyes and feel his warm hands crawling up to my shoulder. Then his kisses went down to my neck which always send chills down to my spine. "Jellal..." I moaned, digging my nails on his arm.
"Erza..." He broke the kiss. "We're just friends. And this is the farthest point our friendship could go. No commitment."
"But you said...you'll try."
"I know...but I don't think it'll happen when we don't even love each other. Erza, you don't love me, right? You can't love me, I'm your best friend. And I can't love you more than a friend. I don't want you to...fall in love and be with someone like me. You deserve someone better."
So, I can't fall in love with you because you think I don't deserve you? And because it's not normal for our friendship anymore? But what about you taking off my clothes whenever you want to? Is it normal?
"Why? What's the matter if I fall in love with you?"
He shrugged as if he is totally not taking me seriously. "Erza, love is something else. It could change anything, and if we both love each other more than a friend, our friendship could change forever. And I don't want that to happen. I love what we are right now, just friends."
So, you love making me your fling? You love pleasuring yourself by using me just like what Natsu said.
"How can you say that I don't deserve you?
"Erza, again, I don't deserve someone like you. You deserve someone better. Besides...if I'm the best best friend that anyone could have for you, I cannot be the best boyfriend and lover. I mean, would Ultear fall out if love if I was the best boyfriend?"
There he is again. He's always degrading himself because of her! Why is it always because and about his breakup with Ultear? It's not his fault Ultear is too stupid to let go of someone like him. God, I could have been in her shoes instead so he wouldn't be acting like this. Jellal is absolutely the best boyfriend that anyone could have, for her information! He was the best best friend for me, and imagine how is he like to be a boyfriend.
He kissed me back on my lips. Probably to shut me up from persuading him to be with me for real. He broke the kiss and said, "I thank you for being with me all the time and I'm happy with that already." And went back in kissing my lips tenderly. But this time, he pushed my body to lay down on the mattress of the bed. Our eyes met, and he was staring at me with lust and desire. He attacked my neck and collarbone that I could just tilt my head and dig my nails on his back. I could feel his erection between my thighs.
My body has always been betraying me whenever he's doing this to me. I knew this isn't right because we do have no commitment at all. I don't know if I'm lascivious as him, if it's just hormones I am feeling too why I'm allowing him to touch and enter my soul. But no. I'm just desperate to get him. I want him. If this is the way I could make him closer to me, until he wants me not just for lust anymore, but for love, I will.
My best friend started to pull the blanket off my body down, but just down to my thighs. Until, he became more lascivious when my bare torso was exposed. "You wouldn't mind if we'll do it again? I mean, we're almost there already." He smirked at me. There he is again, desiring for my soul again. And here is the stupid me, allowing him. I just gave him a nod. He attacked my breasts, my nipple actually. He sucked it like a hungry baby. I could just moan for him as he tickles it by circling his tongue.
Why are you so damn irresistible?
Seconds later, I realized he's already down there - at the gap of my thighs. He spreads my long legs open and bent it, allowing himself to access to my womanhood.
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Part one only. Sorry if i only update every month or every two months because i've been really busy since school started. There are lots of school projects and home works. Plus, im updating two parts in every chapter because i can no longer write a 5-6k word chapter/update like what i always do during summer.
Thanks for those who reviewed on the precious chapter :D we're almost at the climax of the story ;)
And, i wanna ask something : if is too much already that there are lots of lemon scenes in most chapters? xD and if there's something weird with erza's character because she's too desperate of gaining jellal's love.
Anyways, please review and wait for the next chapter (part two) ^_^