Jellal

Present

"Erza!" I yelled as loud as I could just for Erza to hear me from her bedroom. "Please, let's talk!"

The guards of their house won't let me in, even the maids from the back door. Mainly because Erza had told them not to let me in no matter what happens. From the way she was shocked to reunite with me after months of having no communication with each other, especially after our last encounter, I already knew myself she's afraid that I might hurt her again. Our last encounter was very painful for her and I know it. Not just I rejected her in a very harsh way, but also I harmed our child. I didn't even lend my ears to her. Right now, she was the one who isn't bothering to lend an ear to me.

Some people who walking by the house are probably thinking I am insane. Well, Erza ignoring me like hell will really drive me insane. She won't even bother to take a look from the window. I suddenly recalled the time after she confessed her true feelings for me, I didn't talk to her for a month. I'm not really sure what was my reason that time, if it was because she's just my best friend and I don't feel the same way for her or if it was because Ultear and I got back together. What's worse is that I rejected her in a harsh way. I didn't just simply tell her that I don't love her, but I also made her feel that I value my relationship with Ultear than our friendship for years since childhood. I wonder how was she when I completely ignored her for a month, as in no form of communication. I rejected every call and message from her. I treated her like a ghost whenever she approach me after my work or even when she comes to my condo unit just to attempt talking to me. I'm such an asshole for treating her like that as if we haven't been best friends for years.

I've come this far just to talk to her. Approximately six hours of drive just to get to her. I wouldn't waste this opportunity to approach her, talk to her and ask for her forgiveness. I promise, I won't give up no matter how she pushes me away like I did to her. I will get my best friend and lover back. She's carrying our child, and I'm gonna do whatever it takes just for us to be a family, even if Simon tries to gain her love.

Hours flew fast, and I'm still standing in front of the balcony of her bedroom. It was almost midnight already. I'm just waiting for their servants to fall asleep as well as some of their guards. So, I'd get a chance to sneak inside. Just like what I always do when we were kids. Whenever I want to run away from home for a while, I'd simply wait some of their guards to fall asleep so it would lessen the chance for me to get caught sneaking inside her bedroom.

Just like the old times, I started grabbing the lower branches of the tree just planted beside the terrace of her bedroom. Then, I grabbed the higher branches to climb up, until I can already reach the railings of the terrace. I carefully let my feet land on the floor. The moment I succeeded in climbing up to the balcony of her bedroom, first I checked if she was already asleep or not. Then, it turned out she was already, which is a good opportunity for me sneak i side without her screaming for the guards.

I slowly slid the glass door to open so I could step inside. It seems like until now, she still forgets to lock the balcony door. Inside her bedroom was a little bit dark for only the lampshade on her nightstand serves as the light. I slowly walk towards to her. She was in a deep slumber already. As I reached her, I knelt on the floor to have myself near her. I stared at her angelic face, that makes me guiltier for hurting her. She has been a kind and caring friend to me all this time, without knowing she was not just doing it for the sake of our friendship but because she loved me more than just a best friend. And all I could do in return is to make her a rebound to the love one I lost, a sex toy, reject her love, end our friendship over a girlfriend, and get her pregnant and make her feel she's got to raise the child by herself.

I softly caressed her big belly. My conscience keeps attacking me more, realizing how myself how was I able to hurt the little angel inside her womb. Her belly is very big already. I wonder when she is due to give birth, but I think maybe this month or week already. I was surprised when I realized it wasn't Erza just simply breathing, but it was the baby kicking inside her. It's like she has a beating heart inside her belly. I find it just simply adorable. Maybe my child could feel my touch from inside or maybe he or she has hiccups.

Suddenly, I almost jumped in shock from where I am when Erza opened her eyes and gasped in shock to see me beside her. She quickly moved her body backwards towards the headboard of her bed and was about to scream. But I stopped her from doing so by covering her mouth with my palm. "Shh! Erza, please quiet. Don't let the guards take me out again. I-i'm not gonna hurt you and our baby. Please, just let me at least feel our child."

"Mmmf-", she muffled.

"Please, just talk to me. Let's make things between us clear. For our baby, I'm begging you." I pleaded.

She forcibly take my hand of her mouth and slapped me with her own hand. "Make things clear between us?! Didn't you already cleared what we really are? We are just friends like what you said. Oh, I mean, ex-best friends. Cause our friendship is over like what you said. I thought you don't want to see me ever again and not to butt in your life anymore? And why do even miss me? You miss having a sex toy?!" I could see the pain and hatred in her eyes.

I took her hands and held it tight as I begged her. "No! Erza, no! For what I said before, I'm sorry, I didn't mean it. I was too blind that time. I want you back. Our friendship, the way we used to be. I miss you so much. Please, come back to Magnolia." I said with my voice croaked. I am desperate.

"Why? Jellal, why? I am trying to forget you, why did you came back now? I am trying to get over the pain of losing...my best friend. And trying to fight the thought of regretting that you've been my best friend."

I won't give up. "I'm sorry. Erza, please forgive me. I-i'm willing to change for you and our child. I'm sorry for being such an asshole. Please, let's work it out together for our baby."

A long pause suddenly occurred between us. Then, she forcibly changed her facial expression to calm. "If you just came back for me because you got me pregnant, you don't have to. I can raise the child by myself." But a tear fell from her eye. She didn't mean what she said, did she? I know she still wants me, but she is afraid that I might hurt her again. "G-go back to Ultear. S-she's the one you love, right? You gave up our friendship just to get her back. W-why would you waste it over me again? I don't want to get in the way anymore. I love you...and I want you to be happy."

I suddenly felt the urge I want to hug her tight, closer to me that I won't ever let go of her again. And so I did. "It's you whom I want. Not Ultear, not pleasure, but you as in you. I want you back. Ultear and I...are no longer together. I broke up with her already. I wanna be with you-", I wasn't able to continue what I'm going to say because she cut me off.

"You broke up with her?!" She scoffed at me sarcastically, and pushed me slightly away from her body, unclasping our embrace. "I thought you love her? Until now, you are some special kind of stupid. You had the chance to start over with her, but you broke with her just because of me. I'm just your best friend, right? Why choose over me over her? Y-you're so- confusing and complicated! You rejected me in a very harsh way, you ended our friendship so easily and you almost killed our child, and now you're going to tell me how much you love and missed me?!"

"Erza, I know, I know. I just...realized it when I lost you. I realized I couldn't live without you. You've been part of my everyday life and routine already ever since. I felt like there was something missing as days keeps passing by. I thought it would be that easy to lose you, but I was wrong. I love you, Erza. And I don't wanna lose you ever again." My hand went down to her belly. "I want us to be a family. As in you and me together with our baby. I know it can't happen that easy after what happened between us. But please, at least let me show you that I am sorry for what I did and that I will be worth-forgiving."

Then, again, she gave me a silent response again. Most probably, she's thinking of an answer. Conclude everything that happened between us from the very beginning up to the most painful part of our friendship. Please, Erza...

Damn, I never thought this would be harder than coping with my breakup with Ultear. Losing the one you've been with you since childhood was harder. I thought choosing the one I love over her would be worth it, but it wasn't. It was different. It was more painful. The person who's been there for you during good and bad times is gone. It feels different with Ultear. I did love her and begged her not to leave me, but begging for that person who's been there for you for long is a lot difficult. In one snap, my friendship with Erza changed. Just because of my stupidity and blindness I lost her. She may be still in my life, but not usual her anymore. And it would take me a long time to bring back the old her and to rebuild our friendship. But this time, I want her not to just be friends with me. If she can no longer feel the same love she felt for me before, I'll do whatever it takes to make her fall in love with me again.

"Jellal...u-ugh!" She was about to say something, but she suddenly groaned in pain and clutched for her belly.

"Erza, what's the matter?" I asked. Then, I noticed between her legs, a water is forming a small circle on the mattress of her bed.

"Jellal, my water is broken."

"S-so?" I started to ask, a little bit panicking already.

She let out another painful moan before she blurted out, "The baby is coming!".

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A/N: Short update for the meantime :D thanks for those who posted reviews on the previous chapter. And sorry if it took me a long time before i get to update this story. This story is ongoing for a year already :D i can't believe time just really fly fast.

For those who are asking if the condom scene was inspired by the scene from Love, Rosie, yes it is . i just love that movie :D

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