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He who haunts the attic chapter 5. Sk8er boi by Avril Lavigne.
Leah was standing in front of her mirror brushing her hair. 'it's not a good idea if I go over there tomorrow is it?. no…. it's not. And why is that you may asked me?. Because it isn't a safe position to put myself in that's why. I can't be around him with what he is. He shouldn't be around me nether. I don't even know why he would want to…. I'm.. I'm.. me. I'm a lonely bitchy harpy. One wants to be around me. Lately even my own brother, which has been particularly hurtful. But I find it hard to put blame on him for that though'. The she wolf placed her hairbrush down the dressing table in her room. 'though….. it would be the worst thing in the world…. Would it?. no….. no, no, no, no, no, no, I'm not getting in to that one. no, no, no I'm not touching that. it's the worst idea if I see him again….isn't it?. what no!. you can't be doing this. You're a wolf…. He's a vampire…. You're a wolf….. he's a vampire. You save humans…. He's kills them….. you save humans….. he kills them. it could never work. in fact…. If it did work, you'd be just as disgusting as vampires are. no… you'd be just as disgusting as….. Bella'. The she wolf stuttered.
'I won't lie…. it could have been fun. He had… amazzzing lips. I didn't even know that it was possible to kill a vampire. Because if they were like stone… then wouldn't their lips be like stone as well?. I always thought that it would be like making out with an brick wall. There wasn't any passion in it. the two of them always just looked so awkward. like they were both being kissed for the first time. honestly they were truly the most awkward, uncomfortable, boring people that I had ever meet. If talking to them saw anything like kissing a brick wall…. Then I'd rather kiss and brick wall. And his hair…. Oh that long hair. I've always loved long hair on a man. I hated it when Sam cut off all of his. I loved it so much that I tried to make it running my fingers through it, or brushing it my hobby. I was pleasantly surprised when I found out how silky my trackers hair was…. Well no….. not my tracker… just the tracker…. Not my tracker…. The tracker. But it felt so good. So…. anyway… back to Alistair's hair. It didn't look like it was gonna be silky and smooth. In fact he looked like he lived under a big rock somewhere deep in a forest. It was… raggy and messy… and kinda looked like a birds nest… that has been abandoned by all the birds because it was too messy. And blond…. He was a blond. There were never any blonds on the Rez. I never really cared or thought of blonds before Alistair. I always more in to the dark haired fella's. but blond is so pretty, it's so light and so sort. And those arms of his….'. she was knocked out of her thought when she thought her heard a noise.
She didn't turn around but she did freeze. Trying to decipher weather to not if she had really heard a noise.
But whipped around when she smelt him.
Alistair.
He was in the prose of claiming through her window. He looked up at his half in the window half out. "hello love". He said with a smirk.
"what are you doing here?". she whispered and hissed at the same time as she jumped out of her seat. "you can't be in here are you crazy?".
"umm well". He chuckled.
"I'm not kidding". She walked right up t him. "do you know what could happen to you if they find you here?". she slapped him in the chest. Still talking in an whispering hiss.
"you don't have to worry about that… your mutt friends are no where near us". he slowly walked past her and looked around her bedroom.
"just in the neighborhood were ya?". She crossed her arms and turned to him.
"ya…. Something like that". he hadn't turned back to her yet, he was still amusing himself looking at all the photos on her walls. "why do women insist on having so may photos around?". He asked her.
"first off… that's sexist. Second off…. It's not that many and most if them have my dad in them". she arms were still crossed. She walked up next to him as he kept his gaze on her walls.
"so that was him".
"yep…. That was him…. that was my dad".
neither of them spoke for a few minutes. "I could kind of see it". he said suddenly.
She looked up at him. with widen eyes not expecting him to say that.
"in the eyes". He gazed to her and looked her in the eyes. "you both have the same eyes". They kept each other's gazes not turning away. "pretty….. and dark".
She hadn't expected him to say that either. "so….. you think my dad's eyes are pretty". She smirked up at the tracker.
He chuckled a little. "yes…yes I do. I think they are stunning. There's a slight glimmer in them that I just can't seem to look away from. I feel caught…".
The she wolf began to laugh a bit. Thinking back she couldn't remember that last time she'd laughed about something while thinking about her beloved father. She always felt a heavy guilt with doing so. for a long time after her father's dearth she couldn't smile. because a voice would force it's way in to her head saying why. 'why?, why are you laughing. Why are you smiling?. Your dad is dead. your father is dead and your happy. How could you?. he loved you and you have the nerve to smile….To be happy. Your dad is never coming back… and your smiling'. She'd fell so sick afterwards. Because her to the voice had an point.
'how could I disagree with the voice. My dad… the one man to ever love me… I was never gonna see again. how could I ever feel happy again. how could any girl feel happy again after losing their father. What would I have to smile about. everything I love is gone'.
"what saw he like?".
"…..good". she looked back up at Alistair. "he was good". The reason why she only described him as good was because there were never gonna be any words to described the man who raised him. she could say every good word in the book over and over again in every conceivable lanuge but it never mean enough. There was never going to be a way for her to say how much she loved and cared for him…. so for now….. she'd just settle for good.
He nodded.
"So…. why are you here again?". she recrossed her arms and turned her body towards him.
"well I was out for a walk and realized that you've seen my room about, what?... let's say…. Eight times?...".
"it has not be eight times….".
"so… I figure…. Why not see yours". He shrugged while picking up a little figurine and playing with it. Like his being in her room wasn't that big a deal.
"well now you've seen it".
"yes…. Now I've seen it".
They both just stared at each other.
"okaywhyareyoureallyhere". She said fast. Wanting to move this along.
"alright love you got me…. I wanted to see you again". he smirked at being caught.
"Why". Leah said angrily.
He signed and rolled his eyes back. then blind sided her he grabbed a hold of both sides of her head with his hands and pulled her towards him. smashing their lips together. He could fell her trying to pull away but wouldn't let her go. But then after a few minutes he felt her arms wrapped around his neck. He pulled away a minute later.
She glared at him.
"oh please love…. We both knew where this was heading". He re smashed his lip to hers.
An hour and a half later.
Alistair and Leah laid on her bed talking.
"so why aren't we having sex again?". the tracker asked.
"because I'm waiting until I'm married".
"why".
"because…. Because….. well that doesn't matter at the moment okay…. I don't wanna talk about it". a few minutes passed. "actually ya know what…. I'll talk about it now. not because I think you deserve an answer but because you'll find out at some point". She took a breath. "I'm waiting until I'm married because….".
Ring, ring, ring.
Her phone went off.
"shit". She said picking ti up. "hello". She answered it.
"hey lee".
"hey little brother what do you want?". She rolled her eyes.
"I was just cheeking in with ya. Hey sooooo after patrolling tonight we were all gonna go over to the Cullen's to hang out for a bit of sooo… did you wanna come?".
"Seth…".
"now before you say no..".
"no".
"it could be fun. I know that you don't like going over there ya k now with all the…new ones..".
"oh you mean all the new bloodsuckers, parasites, fleas, leeches. Killers…". Leah ran her hand through Alistair's hair. While he smirked at her in an assessment. He shook his head.
"okay I get it….. but think….. you could spend your time glaring and insulting them?. we all know how mush you like doing that. and none of them could do a thing able it or else they'll get kicked out by Dr and miss Cullen…".
"Seth..".
"I just want you to feel including Leah. come on….. it could be fun please?".
"puppy that's so sweet that you thought of including me…. But really I'm fine. Go have fun hanging out with all the murders and the… well murders I guess. I can't think of anything worse then that really".
"Leah….. are you sure?".
"yes Seth…. I was just gonna hang out and watch TV in my room".
"fine….. but if you change your mind.. come over okay".
"okay… bye little brother".
"hey sis". He hung up.
"Which one's your brother again?". he asked.
"the smaller one".
"alrigh". He nodded.
"why would you even want to have sex with me?". The she wolf asked. The tracker laughed.
"why not".
"we'll aren't you worried about…. about… ya know…. crushing me or something".
"na love that didn't come to me at all".
"why…. Worried about kids". She said bitterly. Now that was something she didn't want to talk about. he didn't end to know that she was barren. Not because she thought he be upset or care. 'I mean I know that the dude doesn't want kids. You don't even have to asked him to know that… I mean just look at the guy. I just don't see that much of a point bringing it up'.
"no…. I believe don't I need to worry about me crushing you because I don't think I could break you that easily".
"oh don't you?". she smirked and lifted herself up and that now she was balancing on her side while laying down.
"no". Alistair had been looking up at the colourful wall paper that was pasted all over Leah's bedroom walls. It was a colour that the tracker wasn't expecting. It was a light, light pink and sort light yellow pattern, With some white.
The tracker turned just like the she wolf had done. "I think that you wouldn't let me". He kissed her neck. "if I had to say… you'd want to be on top".
She pushed him away. "on top?... you'd think I'd enjoy that would you". she smirked.
"bob's your uncle". Was all he said.
They heard a door slam. They both sat up at the sound. "shit". The she wolf said. he ran to the door and peeked out.
"it's not your brother". The tracker spoke.
Leah turned around to look at him. "it's not".
"no… he and your…. Friends…".
"pack".
"are all at Carlisle's".
The she wolf sniffed the air. "it's just mum". She turned to the tracker. "I'll be back in an sec". she walked out the door.
She walked down to the kitchen where her mother was. "hey mum". She said.
"Leah honey…. I thought you would have been with your brother?".
"ha.. no he's at the blood….. he's at the Cullen's so I decided to hang back here. umm why.. why are you here?".
Sue looked at her.
"it's just I thought you were going over to Charlies after work?". she scratched her head.
"I was but I'm just so tired. It was a longgg shift today. There was a car crash, I won't go in to detail but it was just…. A mess". She shook her head art the memory. "so… what have you been up to all night?".
"just TV, just me…. Watching TV. Not doing anything… at all". 'oh my god pull yourself together'.
"okay….. honey". Sue thought that her daughter was acting strange. "Leah…. are you alright?".
"yeah mum… I'm fine… I'm so fine". She gave her mother a tight lipped smile. 'yeah I'm fine. I just have a people eating vampire up hiding in my room. Making out with me on and off all night'.
"honey..".
"really mum…. I'm good".
Either of them said anything. Leah was hoping that Sue would leave it and go to bed. And Sue was worried that something may have happened to her child again. and that was try she was acting so strange. But didn't want to test it just in case she was wrong. 'it isn't that I don't want to help my baby girl. It's just that I've tried to do so, so much in the past and every time I try she always shoots me down. After a while I had come to realize that it was easier just to let Leah come to me instead. The last thing I wanted to do was spook her if something where wrong…. Or I could be wrong and nothing is going on with her. I may just be paranoid. I do tend to be paranoid when it comes to my eldest. Only because I worry so much.. we've all been through a lot…. But Leah…. my baby girl…. She's just…. She's just….. I don't even know how to explain it. there's just so much….'.
"okay sooo… I'm gonna go back to my room now". Leah pointed to the stairs with her thrum. "sooo… I'll see you tomorrow kay. night mum".
"night Le…". She didn't finish when they two lady's heard a noise form upstairs.
'Alistair". The she wolf cursed.
"what was that?". sue asked. Still looking up.
"no idea probably nothing….. kay night mum". Leah speed walked up the stairs. She wouldn't of ran if she couldn't off. But didn't want to give her mother another reason to be…. She knew that Sue was. She could see it in her eyes that Sue knew that something may have been going on. she walk in to her room and shut the door.
"what did you do?". she went back to her whispering hiss.
"I'm sorry love I knocked over a chair". The tracker tried not to laugh.
"why?". She crossed her arms.
"because I'm a bastard".
She shook her head.
"come on come back over here".
She smirked and uncrossed her arms. Leah strolled over to the tracker.
"who was that?". he asked. His plan was to listen to her and who ever she was talking to. but then got distracted by more photos of her on the bedroom walls. Along with what was on her draws…. And in one of them.
"my mum… so if you gonna hang out here we need to be quiet".
He put both his hands up.
"when do you need to get back?… assuming that. papa vamp doesn't know you're here".
"papa vamp?".
"yeah that's what some of us call Carlisle".
"when your….. pack. Gets back. it wouldn't be good if they got back and they found an vampire on their land".
"yeah… I get that. it's not a good idea". She agree. But what she really wanted to say saw something else. "if they were to come here and see you…. they may think something was going on". she wasn't looking at him. "wouldn't want to give them the wrong idea". Leah got nervous when he didn't say anything.
"yeah… best if they knew that truth though isn't it?".
She turned to him "what do you….".
"that we didn't have sex". He said it so innocently.
She bit her bottom lip not wanting to smirk.
"night honey!". Her mum called form across the hall.
"night mum!". The she wolf called back.
"so love….. what do you want to do now?". he sat on her bed.
"not what you're thinking". She spoke. "TV… can watch a movie". She walked to her shelf and picked out an movie. She held one up.
"you have lock stock and two smoking barrels". Alistair said in disbelief.
"well I figure since your English you'll want to watch an English movie".
The truth was he really didn't care….. but it was a nice gesture.
Leah placed the disk in then sat on the bed next to him.
And pressed play.
Three hours later.
The she wolf left something move from under her. while waiting the movie Leah had fallen asleep. she opened her eyes to see her tracker making his way to the window.
"didn't know that you where one of the whole. Love'em and leave'em kind of a man". She said. he turned around.
"I didn't want to wake you…. I can sense you pack coming back… I have to go love". He hopped up on the window.
"wait". She jumped out of the bed. She stood in front of the tracker staring at him. "…shit….". she said.
"shit?". He repeated
"yeah…. Shit…. What are we?".
"what love?".
" we gotta do this shit now alright flea. Because I don't want every other time we 'run in to each other'. As awkward they normally are. so we gotta do this shit now….. are we a thing?".
"…yes…". That was all Alistair could say on the matter. "I guess so".
"okay….. good". Leah was hesitant to jump in to another relationship with somebody else…. And a vampire no less. But… she didn't know why this was happening….. and he didn't know either. But the two of them they couldn't stay away. "now…. go before they get back. I can't have anyone knowing about us right now".
He put both his hands up again.
"bye love". He pulled her in and peak her cheek. "see you later". He jumped down from her window and was out of slight within seconds.
Leah laid back down on her bed with her hands over her eyes.
the Cullen's.
'all you have to do is avoid Edward…. Who is not around'. Alistair used his tracking. "good, good now every time he is…. Leave'.
"Alistair".
'bugger'. Alistair looked over to see Carlisle and Esme come out of their home. The married couple were both smiling at him.
"where did you go?. You disappeared for a few hours there?". The doctor smiled at him.
"just a walk".
"okay well I wanted to find you. the wolfs..".
"what about the wolfs". The trackers head whipped up with wide black eyes. 'oh damn it…. why is he talking about the wolfs?. Why is he bringing them up?. Do they know?. how would they know?. bugger'.
Both Carlisle and Esme watched their old friend a little surprised by his sudden question. It was out of character for him to be openly worried about something. He normally hid it. but the married couple knew that it was weird that he was all of a sudden worried about the wolf. They had explained to him on the way to the house that they wouldn't be a problem to them. so why he seemed so… worried now was a mystery. A couple of the other vampires came out of them house as well.
Not to be nosy they were just coming out of the house to come out of the house.
"Alistair….. are you…. alright?. you seem a little bit… off". Esme asked him.
"yeah Esme…. I'm right… so.. umm what did you both need?". He panned his eyes down.
"Alistair…. Are you sure". The doctor lent in a little. the tracker could feel eyes on him.
"yes Carlisle nothing has changed from the last time we saw each other. So… what was it you ended?".
The married couple shared a glanced. Knowing that their friend wasn't being truthful. They could both tell that something was wrong but knew that it would have been a terrible idea to bring what ever was wrong with him up in front of the other vampires. They knew that, that wouldn't go down well with the tracker.
"I just wanted let you know that I've been able to bring some blood bags home with me from the hospital. So then none of you would need to go on the hurt. I won't force anyone to have them but we would greatly appreciated it you were to consider drinking from them instead of feeding on humans'. The doctor said.
"yeah, yeah fine if you want me to I don't care whatever doesn't bother me not at all not even a little I'm fine with it I'm going with it whatever I don't care". He hadn't realize that he was rambling. A few more vampire had now come out of the house to see what was going on.
"Alistair what's happening with you". Esme asked in an concerned voice. "did something happen to you while you were in the woods?. Did you have a run in with the wolfs?. Because if so they weren't going to do anything. We've made an truce….".
Alistair didn't get to reply and Esme didn't get to finish. Because Amun cut them both off. "what!?". Alistair looked up at to see most of the vampires who were in the house now on the outside of it watching what was happening. "You were attacked by the mutts?. Carlisle you said that they weren't going to be a problem… you said that we were going to be safe?...".
"Amun please they haven't done….".
"and just when I was beginning to trust you… I knew that we weren't going to be safe here. coming here was a stupid thing to do. I should have never listened to you Carlisle".
"oh… my.. god". The tracker said to himself. Everyone turned to look at Alistair. Both the doctor and his wife both looked at him as well. He noticed all the others watching him. "what?". He said feeling more and more annoyed.
"Well". Amun said, staring at the tracker expectedly.
"well what?".
"well were you attached by those animals?". he asked angrily. Wanting Alistair to answer him already so he could get ready to leave forks and never come back.
"no… I was not attacked by any of the wolfs". He said through this teeth. "in fact I didn't run in to anything or anyone. I didn't even go anywhere". He didn't know why he added the last bit.
"then why are you acting so strange?. Your so awkward and jittery…. Your with the volturi aren't you?... aren't you?!".
The tracker through his head back and signed.
"that's it were leaving". He turned around.
"I….. am…. Not….. with the volturi and I'm not acting strange".
"then why are you all out hear yelling then". Garrett said with a smirk. Standing next to Kate.
"I DON'T KNOW GARRETT!. MAYBE EVERYBODY'S LOST THEIR MINDS WHO GIVES A FLYING FUCK ANYWAY. JESUS FUCKING CHIRST ALL I DID WAS GO FOR A WALK AND NOTHING ELSE AND NOW EVERYONE'S FREAKING OUT YOU ARE ALL HONESTLY THE BIGGEST BUNCH OF DRAMA QUEENS I'VE EVER COME ACROSS. MY GOD".
Both Carlisle and Esme stepped right back from the tracker. In all the years they'd known him he was never one to lose his temper and start yelling. The couple were so shock by this no one said anything for several minutes.
The others were just as taken aback as the doctor and his wife.
"I'm gonna go back to the attic". Alistair jumped back up to the attic without looking back at all the others out front of the house.
'fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit, shit'. Alistair wanted to punch something but he had already coursed enough of a scene.
'well fuck'. He flopped down on his pull out and slapped his hands over his face. 'well done… no really…. Well done'.
Down stairs: Carlisle and Esme.
"I'll give it a little while then go up". The doctor said to his wife.
"are you sure that that's such a good idea though?. He seemed awfully up set by something".
"sweetheart in all my years I've never seen Alistair react like that. I'm not sure what's happened but what it was it has affected him".
"I do hope that he is okay…. do you think it could from something to do with the wolfs being around?. Or the volturi coming?".
"it may be the wolfs but Alistair spends most of his time in the attic so I didn't think that he'd be too bothered by them. could be the volturi but if it were he would of left days ago".
Esme rubbed his arm. "we'll figure it out". She kissed his check.