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He who haunts the attic chapter 10. Blister in the sun by violent femmes.
Either men were talking while walking back towards the Cullen's home. Alistair was fine with not saying anything out of being used to not talking. And Jacob just wasn't sure what to say to the vampire who had begun an relationship with his beta. But he decided that he needed o say something.
"so you're a tracker?".
"yep". And that was all he said.
"well… okay then". He lined his lips.
More silence followed the two men up until the wolf couldn't take it anymore. "are you gonna stay?".
"what?". The tracker sideways glanced at him.
"for Leah…. when all this is over?... are you gonna stay for her?".
"if we're not all dead I will".
"cheerful". He replied. They walked a bit further before Jacob stopped. He turned to the tracker. "but really dude….. what's gonna happen?".
"I don't know….. I want to be with her…. so if she'll want me to stay…. Then I'll stay. Bob's your uncle". He began to walk again.
"would you live with the Cullen's?".
"hell if I know… probably not".
"why not?".
"because as much as I like Carlisle and Esme I don't think I'd be able to live with all their family members…. Or the little one. no offense mate. but I don't do kids". He wanted this conversation to end so that he could go back to his attic in peace.
"but Ness wouldn't be there. She, Bella, and Edward have their own place".
"yeah but they'd be over a lot wouldn't they. No I think I'd get my own place. Somewhere, where Leah and I wouldn't get walked in on. somewhere, where we could be only so it be just the two of us. away from everybody else. Where we could be alone".
"sounds…. Great". Jacob didn't knew what to say to that. his beta and a vampire living somewhere alone…. Just the two of them…. alone. Leah…. with a vampire. He didn't even know where to begin with processing that. "so…. you'll stay and fight".
At this the tracker come to a stop. "alrigh… listen mate". he turned to him. "Leah, Leah, Leah, Leah, everything I do…..is for Leah. I will…. I will stay. For her. not for you and not for the kid".
"what about Carlisle…. Your friend". Jacob didn't appreciate that last part, about not being there to fight for his imprint. Though he guess he could understand…. Understand doing something for you imprint…. Or mate in their cases. But he still didn't like hearing it.
"yes…. Carlisle….. I'd stay for him too. The fact that I found Leah does help the argument of my staying though. If not for her…. I'd more than likely leave the moment I'd get the chance". He began to walk again. "nothing personal".
"it's a little hard not to take it that way but fine". They began to walk again.
"do you think this Sam fellow would hurt her?. if he were to find out about the two of us?.
"I think that….". Jacob wasn't sure how to answer that because he wasn't sure himself. "well…. I'd like to think not". He didn't want to say it but he didn't know like the way Sam had reacted when Jacob had answered the door. "personally I don't think he'd do anything to really hurt her…. like physically. But….".
"oh god but what?".
"but…. I think he'd want to meet you…. and I don't see that going well… like at all. He can be very, very, very impulsive at times. But just for your peace….. she's strong enough to handle herself. Believe… Leah is like…. Probably the less neediness girl I've ever met".
The tracker nodded. " so….. how do you think the others will react when we eventually tell them?".
"wait". Jacob stopped and turned to him. "you'd tell them. everyone in that house?. A room fall of vampires?.
"no…. I'd tell Carlisle and Esme then Edward would hare their thoughts and tell everybody else. And no…. I wouldn't tell any of them but that's all up to Leah isn't it. I'm not saying anything without her alrigh". The tracker started to walk again. Jacob walked along side him. they weren't far from the house now. they could both see the roof and the lights shining from inside. Alistair stopped again and watched his friends home for a minute. "but really…. How do you believe they'll react".
"does it really matter?". He smirked at the tracker.
He looked at the wolf and scoffed, then smirked in return.
"come on…. let's go". Jacob scoffed back.
They made it to the Cullen's front yard and the doctor walked out. Seeing them through one of his many windows. Else followed. On one knew where he had gone. Carlisle and Esme had gathered all of their house guest in one room to talk to all of them about why the wolfs had come earlier that day. they just needed everybody to understand why it was a rick and just all around bad idea to do it. they wanted then to all know that if they were to get caught on that side of the line that they wouldn't be able to do a thing able it. they'd be in wolf territory…. There'd be nothing that could be done for them.
'ohh bugger it'. the brit thought.
"Alistair…". They both looked at him confused. "why…".
"I found him out here….. don't worry… not over the treaty line. He told me that he just wanted to get out of the house". Jacob crossed his arms and rock on his heals. "figured I'd walked him back here just in case one of the uley pack found him and assumed that he was the one on our land".
"yes….. thank you Jacob". The doctor nodded. But he wasn't all convinced they were telling the truth. He could tell by the way they spoke, and how their body language was off. But the thing, the real thing that had him wondering what his friend was doing out in the woods was that he'd never let an were wolf walked him anywhere. 'I've known Alistair long enough to tell you that he'd tell them just sod off. So….. all of this… doesn't quite make sense to me. No…. something else has happened here and I know it'. he decided that he wouldn't confront Alistair out here. was going to confront him but just later on. when everybody else was too busy to pay any attention to him.
Esme stepped ford. "well Alistair why don't to go in to the living room upstairs. We need to talk to everyone…. About the treaty line".
"yeah… alrigh". He walked passed them looking down not saying anything. He didn't want to catch their eyes and feel stuck. The coupe nodded to Jacob and who back. while Esme turned away ton walked back inside her house her husband started back for a second to give Jacob a knowing look. the Alfa wolf nodded once more and turned away with an guilty look. he phased and sprinted off in to the woodlands.
Inside the Cullen's living room.
Alistair walked in to the family room looking down at the ground. He immediately strolled over to be in the corner not wanting to draw attention to himself. lucky for him he was able to slip in the living room undetected without anyone calling him out for not being there before…. Or so he thought.
"were the heck have you been?". Asked Kate. She was sitting on Garrett's knell.
'damn'. "went for a walk is all". He continued walking until he was were he wanted to be.
"why?". This time it was Garrett who asked.
"because I felt like it alrigh". He crossed his arms.
They were all there expect for Edward, Bella, and their kid were all at their little place. They had to go so that they could put Ness to bed. Which Alistair had been thankful for. 'I didn't need Edward peeping inside my head. looking for all my secrets. It's violating….. and I'm an vampire who bites people to survive'.
"were?... in the wood?". The other blond sister Tonya asked.
" ya writing a book are ya?". He snapped at the icy blond.
"when did you turn in to an moody teenager?". Tonya looked half taken aback and half amused at the tracker. She smirked and lent ford a little while everybody else quieted down a bit to listen in on what was being talked about.
"when did you start wanting to know about my life?". He said through his sharp teeth wanted nothing more then not to be in that room with everyone else.
"when you started to become an moody teenager". She said without missing an beat.
"well I don't need a mother but thank you for your keen fascination about the on goings on my life ". He said in an snarky voice. "it was just a walk, all you lot let it go yeah". He crossed his arms, lent on the wall and looked away.
Tonya scoffed. "Well maybe having a mother wouldn't be such a bad thing for you. teach you some manners".
"what did happen to your family?". Kate asked.
"I don't believe anyone's head your story before". Eleazar said scratching his chin and crossing his arms. At this the room perked up and the tracker stiffened. He hadn't been aware that the whole house had now taken an interest in knowing his back story of how he came to be an vampire… and he had know intention of saying anything.
"my back story has nothing to do with any of you so put it out of yours heads".
"okay before we was all kidding but what is your problem?". Tonya asked with a glare. "what did the London bridge come falling down or something?. Did an spider crawl in to your attic and wouldn't leave because you proffer to be alone?. So you came down here and decided to spared some joy?".
"oh shush slag". He glared right back.
Just as she was about to stand up angrily Carlisle and Esme walked in, ready to start the meeting. "now everybody we've asked you all to come in here so…", he finally looked up to see the two blond glaring daggers at one another from their sides of the crowed room. "is every thing okay". he asked slowly, almost unsure he should asked anything.
""Carlisle.. why is he here. it's clear that he doesn't care about any of this. So why even bother with him?". she turned back to the tracker. "no really…. I don't understand..".
"Tonya..". Eleazar started but he couldn't finish. He wanted to shush her so that there wouldn't be some sort of an argument. But also knew that once Tonya became started on something there wouldn't be an easy finish to it.
"if you hate everybody so much why did you even agree to witness for them…. HA?. Got bored under your rock did you?. or can't you stand everybody being happy around you while you wallow in your own self misery".
"it doesn't seem that happy right now". he muttered.
"yeah because you're here".
"Tonya…. Quiet now". Carmen looked pointy at her coven mate. the blond shot another dark glare at the brit before sitting back down next to her sister.
"please everybody what I have to say in very important". The doctor for a moment and only for a moment did he glance to the tracker. But it was a blink and you'll miss it movement. " as most of you know by now… the wolfs had come by. Apparently they had caught the sent of an vampire on their side of the treaty line. Now I believe that I may have not stressed the importance of nit braking that trust we have with them. if this comes to an fight without them we may not make it. the volturi have number that we don't… and we… my family have an understanding with them that we're not willing to brake. So please don't o go beyond the treaty line…. Because you'll be on their turf…. And there's be nothing I could do to help you".
"did they see this vampire?... could they tell you what they looked like?". Maggie the youngest member of the Irish coven asked with wide red eyes. Her dark curly hair falling over the back of her neck. She was sat in between Siobhan and Liam. The couple who had found and adopted her as an newborn.
"no they didn't see who had crossed the line". The blond doctor answered.
"then how do they know it was one of us…. I mean I know what the odds are… but it could have been anyone". Mary said stepping ford.
"Seems a little presumptuous if you were to ask me". Stefan said leaning in to Vladimir with a smirk. The other Romanian vampire snickered.
"because they were able to recognize the scent and it led back to here". Carlisle look another step further in to the room. "look…. I'm not trying to out anybody here. I'm just trying to get my point across that no one… is to cross that line… Under any circumstances". His golden eyes flickered to the tracker once more but on one seemed to notice.
"Well we all that it had to be Kurt Cobain over there". Tonya scoffed.
Alistair froze but snapped out of it immediately. "and how did you happen to conjure that blasted idea up".
"because its like….. were are you all day?. we never see you… then all of a sudden you've gone for a walk….?".
"I'm gonna have to agree with her here tracker". Garrett said. "going out in to the woods that have shape shifters wolf in them… a nomad vampire wouldn't do that….. especially you".
"well maybe that's because I'm not scared of shape shifters wolfs". he wished that he had just gone straight back up to the attic once he had gotten back. he didn't think that this would happen, he didn't think that he was going to be bombarded and interrogated.
"really….. your not scared of shape shifters wolfs?".
"well if your not so scared then why are you alone in that attic all day?". Peter asked holding on to his mate Charlotte.
"because I'm antisocial… there's a difference between being scared and antisocial. And I'm antisocial and i plan as day hate everybody". The blond tracker said dryly. Both Romanians snickered at his comment, In an almost approving way. he knew that just because someone hating everybody it didn't mean they were an antisocial. he just wanted to make his piont.
"everybody please". The motherly vampire step up next to her husband. "stop this pointing fingers, it doesn't matter who was over the line just as long as it doesn't happen again".
"and just because Alistair doesn't choose to come down with the rest of us doesn't mean it's him". Carlisle defensed his friend.
"yeah Romanian". Zafrina glared from across the room. Senna stood right beside her with an matching death glare. Neither women liked the Romanians very much. in fact not a lot of their world did.
"says the women who run freely through the jungle". Vladimir gave them an evil little smirk and Stefan pretended to look at his nails.
"that's it everybody go back to what you were doing before… this meeting is over". Esme ran her fingers through her lovely dark hair.
The room began to chatter again after a couple of moments which gave Alistair the chance to run back up to the attic again.
As the sun was coming up.
Alistair was laying on his cot looked up at the attic ceiling with his head hanging off of the side and his feet hanging off of the other. 'well shit…. It wont take all them idiots to figure out that it was me passing over that treaty line that just so important. I have an sneaking suspicion that Leah isn't going to be too cheerful with me after this one. but in my defense….. I wasn't aware that there was going to be an meeting. If I have any knowledge of it at all I would of just stayed with Leah and had never come back here. I would of buried myself somewhere within her house…. Or made some sort of secret… cave…. Or hidden nest under her house. So no one could ever find me….'. the tracker smirked to himself at that stupid idea. 'in an prefect world I would of just simply asked her to run off with me…. But I know that as much as she cares for me she wouldn't leave her brother and mother just on an whim. And I also know that she wouldn't just up and leave her Alfa when he needed her most..'. the tracker got up and looked out of his window that over looked the yard.
He watched as the rain drops fell form the wet levees of the green trees that surrounded the big house.
"Alistair…". Alistair didn't need to turn around to know that Carlisle had now entered the attic. "we need to talk". the doctor took a few more steps closer to his friend.
" 'bout what Carlisle?".
"Alistair though coy suits you it isn't needed in this conversation. We are both aware of what we are going to be talking about". a minute passed. "Alistair please look at me". But the tracker still didn't turn around. "well if your not going to looked at me it doesn't mean I'm not gonna talk". the doctor took a seat on the cot that the tracker had been previously been day dreaming on. "I know it was you who crossed the treaty line… and I'm not mad. I'm not gonna kick you out or hand you to the shape shifters…. but I do have to know why".
"… there's nothing to know Carlisle..".
"we are both aware that, that isn't true..".
"how… how do you know that, that isn't true?".
"because of that Garrett said about you was right. You never would of gone voluntarily gone in to those woods alone without an reason. I had taken you and the others out there to show you were the treaty line was so that none of you would accidentally go over it while hunting…. Or in your case…. Out for a walk". He said slowly.
"Carlisle..".
"Alistair…. I'm not leaving until you tell me what's going on. so you may as well just tell me… and do it right now".
"why Carlisle… why right now?".
"because if I don't go down Esme will come up".
"Esme knows too?".
"yes… and know I didn't tell her a thing. She saw how you were when Jacob brought you back from… your walk…. And knew that the two of you weren't being truthful. in fact she's given me an time limit". The doctor chuckled. "she cares too Alistair". He chuckled again. "and if I'm in this amount of minutes she's gonna be up here making you tell her, herself".
"piss it". the tracker muttered.
"like I said Alistair… I'm not gonna kick you out of my house or feed you to the wolfs… but you will be telling me why you did not do as I asked".
Alistair felt a pang of guilt. "I thought you'd be below guilty tripping me?". He didn't looked all the way around but did turn his head to the side so that the doctor could see his profile.
"then you thought wrong my friend". he kindly smiled at the Brit. "you'd better come out with it if you'll only like me knowing. Because Esme will be up any minute now".
Alistair took a deep, deep sigh, knowing that there was no way out of this one. "Leah Clearwater". He finally said.
"I'm sorry….. what. What about Leah Clearwater?". Carlisle sounded shocked.
The tracker tuned all the way around now so that he was now facing the doctor. "Leah Clearwater… that's who I'm been…". He didn't finished the end of that sentence as he looked down.
"Alistair….". Carlisle slowly stood up from his seat on the cot. "why have you been going to see tat girl?".
"because…. She's my mate".
In a state of shook the doctor sat back down. Carlisle didn't say anything for a little while. 'Leah Clearwater….. Leah….. Clearwater… Leah Clearwater…. And Alistair…. Leah Clearwater and… my friend… Alistair. Alistair…. Who hates the world as an whole. Alistair who hates all thing in existence. Alistair who hates others in general. Alistair who hates himself. Alistair and Leah Clearwater. Leah Clearwater and Alistair'. This continued on in the good doctors head. the tracker wasn't sure what he should do. after several moment he slowly made his way over to the cot and all so slowly took an seat next to the doctor.
"it was never supposed to happen…. I never thought it would ever happen for me. I never cared to care about the thought of mates before".
Carlisle's head snapped towards the Brit, coming out of his state of shock. "when did….".
"when she came up here to get the ball one of the pups kick on the roof while playing football".
"I think you mean soccer".
"no I mean football".
"so that's where you've been going… to be with her". the doctor shook his head trying to think straight again. "Alistair does anybody else…".
"her mates mates…. They walked in on us together".
"together doing…?".
the Brit turned to with an look of guilt and innocence. Hoping that his friend would get what he was trying to insinuate without saying the words. 'yeah alrigh… we've been friends for years… and that's been fine. But there not the type of friends who chat about their sex lives….. and that's what makes him a good friend'.
the doctor understood after a moment and took in an been breath. "ohh okay… I understand". He turned away for a moment then back to the tracker. "Alistair….. do you really care about her?". he asked with a very, very serious tone.
"well… why wouldn't I".
"and I'm assuming she's told you about…. everything she's been through?". The tracker looked straight ahead knowing where this was leading. "I'm not saying this because I'm not happy for you. because I very much am…. But…. Alistair…. That girl has been through so much. she's had it very. Very hard and I'd hate to see anything bad happen to her. and I know you…. I know that you can be a… well…. A flake at times. And if she is just a way to pass some time for you until you move on…. then well I'm gonna have to put my foot in the door".
Alistair hadn't expected this from the doctor. Not that he was complaining about what he was saying. He just hadn't anticipated his friend to have this much affection towards the she wolf. The doctor almost remined the tracker of being an father. Because of how protective he seemed to be.
"I hope you really do care for her Alistair….. because I won't see her hurt anymore then she has already been".
"bloody hell Carlisle…. Of course I care about her. if I didn't I wouldn't of mated with her and I definitely wouldn't of gone out in the purring rain looking for her in wolf infested woodlands. Constantly on the watch for her angrily ex". He said quiet annoyed.
"so this is real…. You gave….. feeling towards this girl and she isn't just some… just some…. Destruction to pass your time here".
"no Carlisle she isn't just some way to pass time…. we're together now… it's just her and me".
The doctor was quiet for a long time. he watched his friend with unsure eyes. Not knowing weather or not to fully believe what the tracker was telling him. it wasn't that he thought Alistair was lying to him about Leah but what he had said before was true. He had known the brit to be an flake from time to time. 'I wont him to be happy, he's been alone for some time…. too long a time. and if this… whatever this is between the two of them is serious then they'll have my fall support…. Along with Esme's as well. And I'm sure the others would be happy for them too… even if they don't know him that well. Because it's always a good day when you fins the love of your life'. His thoughts immediately shifted to Esme, the light of his life and the other half of his soul. "how do you feel about all of this?. Being with somebody…. Must be…. Very… different for you". he asked.
Alistair shrugged. "I'll let you know when I figure that out".
Carlisle was all of a sudden worried about his response. "what does that mean?".
"it mean I'm happy with her….. but would she be happy with me?. Could I really give her everything she needs?. Would I have to look over my shoulder all the time waiting of her ex to jump out of the bushes and kill me?. And kids….. what would we do about kids?".
"Alistair she can't have…".
"I know that but what if she wants to adopt one day?. who would we even do that?. and do I even won't…..".
"thing could change over time Alistair… not everything will happen at once. You may have kids and you may not. Hell one day the unexplainable may happen and you might want them and she won't".
The tracker pulled an face.
"all I'm saying is that don't rush in to anything. Your new to all this and she'd had it hard. If you want to be together then be together. No ones going to be stopping you and you'll have all my unconditional support. But just don't…. just don't… leave her if things get to real for you….. because I know you Alistair".
"I'm not going to leave her". he said like it was the most ridicules thing he'd ever heard. "I haven't planed on leaving her and I never will. I meant what I said Carlisle….. it's me and her now… and that's how I want it".
"well then..". he was happy about what he'd just heard coming from the mouth of the man who had barely come in to contact with another person in years. All because he wanted to be along. "I'm happy for you friend". there was an pause. "so… does this mean you'll be sticking around?".
He signed. "yes Carlisle.. I'll be sticking around".
"and even after the Volturi leave?".
"if they leave and we're not all dead then yes…. I will be sticking around".
"Alistair I'm glad to hear that". he patted the trackers shoulder. "are you planning on staying here with us…. because you are more than welcome to".
"I… hadn't planned on it… I was thinking about fining somewhere closer to Leah".
"on the Rez?". The doctor said looking confused.
"no not on the Rez… her pack may be fine with me and her but the other pack I doubt very much would be".
Alistair just stay here… and if your not happy then I'll help you a place okay. maybe somewhere, where you and her could be alone together without the constant looming presence of Sam".
"do you think she'd want that?".
"yes… Alistair… I really do".
At the Clearwater home the next morning.
"are you gonna see him again?". Seth asked eating an bowl of coco pops.
"I I'm gonna see him today". She said half listen to her brother as he was buttering some toast.
"Leah…. are you sure about this?. Look…. if your happy then… fine. I'll be happy for you. but…. He's an vampire".
"we've been over this Seth".
"I know but… but… it's icky".
"no more icky then Jacob imprinting on a child half breed". She say at the table with her toast and took an big bite. "which by the way… is so, so much worse".
He shrugged. "fine… I yes you have a point. But where's he gonna go afterwards?".
"after what?". Once again only half listen.
"after the fancy fleas come. Where's he gonna stay?. With the Cullen's?".
"probably… or he might just stay here with us". she shrugged at the idea of the both of them living together…. In an house with her mother and brother. As if it wasn't a big deal.
Seth choked on his breakfast. "WHAT?... Leah… what?".
"what?, what's the big deal?". She said off handedly.
"wha… what's the… what's the big…. Leah I don't even know…. how I'm meant…. What I'm supposed to say to that. what do you mean what's the bog deal?. How can that not be an big deal?. A vampire shaking up with my sister in my own house?. A vampire living in the same space as my mother. A vampire living with me….. what do you mean what's the big deal?".
"why are you so okay with the Cullen and not with him?".
"because the Cullen's aren't sleeping with my sister… then you have the whole red eyes thing going on with that dude. And lets not forget Sam…. What do you thinks going to happen once Sam's hears about this?. He already came over demanding to know about your new boyfriend… how do you thinks he's going to react when he finds out your new boyfriends a bloodsucker?. I'll give you a hint…. Not well".
"fine… you have an point. But that doesn't mean I'm not going to talk to Jacob about this…. And mom. She may be kinda blind sided by me and an leech at first but she's be fine once it's sets in. it's the boyfriend living here thing I'm worried to ask her about". she took another bite.
"and what about Sam?".
"what about Sam?".
"well…. Figure it out Leah. the moment he catches wind of this he's be over here wanting to know what the hell your thinking. He's not gonna let this go Leah".
"well he'll just have to because I'm not giving Alistair up just because all because Sam wouldn't be cool with it".
"Leah your not listen to me. Your to caught up in all this to see the danger this could lead to. he could snap…. He could snap Lee. He could hurt you if he loses it even for an moment… even for a second".
"Alistair wouldn't do that".
"….. I was talking about Sam…. But it's interesting to know where you mind went".
"oh shut up Seth I ain't too caught up in shit. We love each other so were gonna be together. And Sam can't do a thing about that and I'm gonna make sure he doesn't. in fact… I might tell him today that I'm moved on….. with an vampire, leech, flea, bloodsucker, creature of the night and whatever the fuck else you want to call him. I'm gonna make it clear that he doesn't get a say in my happiness anymore. The only person to get an say is me….. and Alistair makes me happy". She got up from the table to throw her plat down in to the sink. She had her hands on both sides of it and hung her in annoyance.
"but Lee..".
"Seth..". she turned to him looking tried. "I know….. I know the dangers of what could come out of me and him together. I know that Sam is gonna be pissed and I know that mom's gonna freak out at the news… but I'm happy….. I just wanna be happy". He ran up the stairs listening her brother call her name. Leah closed her door and slid down it and a single tear running down her cheek. "I'm gonna be fine…. Were gonna be fine". She told herself, thinking about her tracker.