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He who haunts the attic chapter 13 shout by Otis day and the knights.
Leah ran the rest of the way home.
The last thing she needed to was be caught by Sam or anyone from the Uley pack. 'I don't exactly feel like getting interrogated'.
"Leah!".
"Fuck". She turned around to see Sam coming towards her. 'so close'.
"Where have you been all day?. you missed the practice your pack was having". He stood in front of her and crossed his arms.
"shit". She rubbed her forehead. "I forgot about that". she had been having such a nice time with her new mate she'd forgotten completely about the practice. 'why didn't Jake come or Seth call me?'.
"were you with him?". Sam said quietly.
The she wolf paused and looked at him. "yeah….. I was". She crossed her arms. "so what?".
"you're missing your practices now. your…. Your…. Going missing for hours on end, having everyone out looking for you".
Leah could tell he was just trying to think up things to say, Trying to make up excuses. Reasons that didn't even matter.
"climbing through your window…".
"what was that?". Leah had zoned out but she had heard the last part of what he was saying.
"what?".
"That last part….. about climbing through my window?". Leah said slowly. "how…. Could you have known…. That he was in my room?".
"Paul told me". he said in a matter o fact tone.
"well tell Paul to mind his own business". She went to turn away but Sam grabbed her arm. "let go of me, Sam".
"Lee Lee please I just wanna talk".
"talk about what?". She hissed.
"Is he treating you good?".
"compared to who?". She said sweetly.
He let go of her arm and step away. "Leah… I know…I know I don't deserve..".
"yep and that's all you have to say?". She went to walk away again only to have Sam reach out to her again. but this time she was able to dodge it. "no don't". Leah said harshly as she swung around. "Sam….". she comprised herself. "you…. don't get to touch me anymore… and you don't get to ask…. About my personal life".
"I just care…".
"well I don't care about you anymore Sam. so… you're off the hook. You don't have to worry about me… or spend hours looking around your shoulder waiting for me to pop up and remind you that you imprinted on my own cousin. Waiting for me to make you and Emily and the rest of the Rez miserable. So stop torturing yourself and move on… because you are free now. your free now Sam….. your free of me". she began to move towards him. "your free of the guilt… and the pain. You're free of….".
"but what if I don't want to be free..". he suddenly said.
Leah froze. "I'm sorry…. What?".
"what if….". he exhaled. "what if…. There's still…..a….. chance for us….. one day?".
"still a chance..". she laughed. "god….. Sam….. I couldn't tell you how much I hoped you'd say that to me…. months and months ago. Hell….. I remember when I would say that to you. you're with Emily….. E…M…I…L..Y…EMILY. imprinted on Emily….. you imprinted on my cousin…. Then broke up with me on the same day. do you remember that conversation Sam?... do you?".
"Leah please just..".
She cut him off. "do you remember me asking why…. and….why…and why?... over and over again?. me screaming and begging for an explanation as to why you were breaking my heart?. After three fucking years together?...Sam".
"Leah..".
"Leah what Sam?... Leah what?. No really what?... what are you gonna say?. What are you possibly gonna say?".
"nothing". He looked down.
"Sam what did you think was gonna happen?".
"I don't know I really don't know?". he rubbed his hands over his face.
"why would you even ask if we had another chance?. We both know how much you love Emily….. don't you?".
"don't I what?".
"love Emily?".
"of course I love Emily what…. why would you ask me that she's my imprint". He nearly yelled.
Why would I ask you that?". she said in disbelief. "why would I… YOU JUST ASK ME IF WE HAD A CHANCE". Leah was fuming.
"shit I'm so confused". his hands were over his face as he shook his head. 'why had her moving on rocked me so much…. this isn't right. I'm not meant to care about her, I'm not meant to have any love left for her. I love Emily more than my life itself yet I can't seem to forget Leah. I imprinted this isn't supposed to happen. She…. My Ex isn't supposed to be on my mind. I just want this to stop…. All I want is for this to stop'. "Lee Lee I'm so…".
"don't you dare… call me Lee, Lee. You don't ever call me Lee, Lee, you don't ever call me Lee, Lee again. you don't ever get to call me that".
"you used to love it". Sam looked up angrily.
"well, I used to love you too".
"if there was a chance…".
"there's no...". Leah said through her teeth.
"but if there were….". he said forcefully. "would you….. leave him?".
"not if my life depended on it". she snapped back at once, without missing a beat.
"How well do you even know this guy?".
"better than I knew you".
"Leah we've known each other for years… how long have you known him for?. there's no way your closer to him than you were to me….. no way.
"it's different with him Sam?".
"How?... how could possible be…". Then he came to a complete stop. "wait….". the bigger wolf had a look of horror on his face. "Leah you…. you didn't…". he stepped away from her.
"fine Sam…. ya gonna make me come out and say it". she inhaled deeply. "I imprinted!". Leah wasn't sure why but telling Sam this made it feel like a Harvey weight had been ripped from her chest. "yes that's right… me Leah fucking Clearwater can be loved after all. she may not die alone yet. She finally has someone to be miserable with her. yep, the miserable harpy has dragged somebody down with her and they're staying down".
"How could you?". He couldn't stop himself. He hadn't meant to say it but he did.
Leah laughed. "How could I?... well it wasn't easy, yet nothing in my life rely on is isn't it".
"so…. he knows?... he knows everything?". Sam hissed. "werewolf's… Vampires".
The she wolf laughed even louder this time. "oh yeah he knows about vampires". She laughed in to her hands.
"Does your pack know?".
"yeah….. it's a funny story actually". She bit her lip and took a few steps towards her angry Ex. She gave him sweet smile and ran her hands through her hair slowly. "ya wanna know how they found out…. Sammmm…". She drew out his name. "they found out about us….. when they walked in on him….. balls deep inside of me".
SLAP.
The she-wolf had know clue what had happened.
One moment she was standing on her two legs, then the next she was flat on her back in the grass. 'what the hell just happened to me'. she looked around confused.
"Jesus shit fuck Leah are you alright?". Sam was on his knells leaning over her. with an expression of deep regret on his face. "ooh Leah I'm so sorry, please let me help you up".
'he hit me….. he hit me….. that son of a bitch fucking hit me. it slowly made it's to her….. the reality of what he had just done. "you hit me". she spoke quietly.
"ooh god Leah I'm so sorry. Please I didn't mean to".
"you hit me". she still spoke quietly. She had never been hit before, not even when she and Seth would play fight when they were younger. Not even when she'd get in to the odd fight at school, or on the playground. the She wolf was always fast enough to dodge them.
"Leah does it hurt?... I can…. I can get help if you help if you need me to?. ooh shit ooh god I didn't mean to do this".
"you hit me". Leah said a little louder now. 'how could he do this to me?'.
" Lee I'm gonna make it better okay just tell me what to do". as much as he hated what he had done to her a small part of him was relieved that he hadn't phased. Emily flashed in his mind. the ugly scars on her face that he had given her. all because he had lost his temper. He couldn't do that to another woman he loved. Not to somebody else he cared for. 'I couldn't live through it again. he thought sadly.
"you hit me". a little louder now.
"Leah I'm gonna make this up to you okay".
She was barely listening to him at this point.
"you hit me". a little louder now.
"Leah please say something I need you to say something to me now".
"you hit me". a little bit louder now.
"Leah I promise I was never meant to do that".
"you hit me". a little bit louder now.
"I will never do that again, it's gonna be alright okay, I'm gonna make it alright".
"you hit me!". a little bit louder now.
"I have never done that before and I never will again, I never will, I never will, I never will". Her voice cracked. "
"YOU HIT ME". she screamed and hopped up away from him. "YOU HIT ME YOU BUSTARD".
Sam stayed on his knells in the dirt because he didn't know what to do. "Leah…".
They watched each other, both with watery eyes.
"you hit me". she whispered before turning and running as fast as she could back to her home.
"Leah!". he yelled after her but made no move to follow her. knowing it wouldn't do any good.
Leah was at her home a while later.
"How dare he, how fucking dare he". Leah talked to herself as she walked in to her front gate.
After Sam had done what he had done, the she wolf didn't want to go home. She wanted to phase and run as far and as fast as she could. but didn't want to risk her pack seeing what had just happened. 'if I turn and they see that another war could break out between our two packs. And as much as I'd like to rip Sam's head off for what he's done to me…. well…. I'd be lying if I said we didn't need him and his pack for when the fancy leeches come. But god do I wish I could rip his head off. how dare he put his hands on me…. and I don't give a shit if he lost it because of all his wolf's hormones or not. What he did…. Had no fucking excuse. He can't justify his actions and nothing he says can change that. she didn't go home right away because she knew she was too emotional. 'the moment I'd walk in to that door they'd all know something had happened to me. I know Jacob would put it together fast. I wouldn't be able to stop Seth from going out and trying to find Sam. and don't get me wrong…. I'd love to see my little puppy of a brother kick the shit out of Sam in front of all his most loyal followers. But I want him to find out this way. I know once I phase they'd all know. so I'll take Jacob aside and tell him later, out of earshot of my mother and brother My mum….. I wonder how'd she react to this?. Maybe she cry and hold me?. or she'd do that mum thing and call his mum. I wonder if this will come back to Emily. I honestly have no clue how she'd take what he had just done. Leah kicked a rocked that was in her path.
She made it to her front door and turned the nob. Though Leah knew her eyes were wet anymore she still felt the need to whip them…. just to make sure.
Leah moved some of her hair in front of the now small mark on her face, inhaled, and walked in.
And the first thing the she wolf was greeted to was her Alfa, her brother, and her mother sitting on the old sofa that sat in the living room. Seth was sitting next to his mother and Jacob was across from her.
Sue seemed….. shaken.
Her mother looked up when she heard the door shut.
"a vampire honey…. You imprinted on a vampire?". Sue asked softly. There was no hint of shame or anger. Just a tad of sadness and of understanding.
"you guys". the she wolf stormed over to them. "you guys told her?... before I could tell her?... assholes". She crossed her arms and flopped down on the sofa.
"Leah listen…". Jake started but was cut off by his Beta.
"I finally move on from you know who and I don't even get to be the one to tell my own mother. Geez you two you guys could of at least given me that".
"honey… is he good to you?". Sue asked, reaching over and taking a hold of the top of his daughter's hand.
She inhaled again. "yes mum….. he's treats me fine".
"what colure are…".
"he's eyes are red mum….. he's a people drinker".
Sue let out a deep breath.
"mum you know I didn't… you know I wouldn't of…".
"I know sweet pea". The older woman ran a hand through her child's beautiful dark hair.
"Leah listens… we gotta talk to you".
"why?... what is it".
"when the two of you were up in the attic…. Well….. the other vampires were talking?".
"And?".
"the attic?". Sue said confused.
"Yeah, mum we were in the attic".
"why?... why were you both in the attic?".
"because that's where he hangs out….. no pun intended?".
"Very funny Seth?". Leah punched his shoulder. "he isn't a people person. He chooses to spend most of his time away from everyone else".
"oh…. Okay". Sue said slowly, not knowing how to respond to that.
"so… when we were up in the attic?".
"When you guys weren't around the other leeches were talking. Lee….. I've talked to the elders…".
"about what?". The she wolf straightened up. "what do the elders have anything to do with this?". It took her a moment, and when she got it stood up. "you went to the elders?... you told them about Alistair and I?". she got up from the sofa and stomped in to the kitchen with the other three following her. she throw the fridge door open and pulled out a can of coke. she cracked the lid and scold it down.
"his name is Alistair?".
"Yeah, mum he'd be really old". Said Seth.
"Hey why don't you two go to the beach or something. I heard there's a bonfire tonight". he gave Seth a look that told him to get his mother out of there. Just in case Leah lost it. 'she isn't the best at controlling her temper. But I knew that when I went to the elders.
"yeah sure Jake". Seth nodded. "come on mum".
"but…".
"we'll get you some dinner at the beach".
Sue wasn't stupid, she could read the room. "okay". she took her son's hand and let him to the front door.
Jacob continued after he heard the front door close. "Leah they had to know some time". Jacob crossed his arms.
She took the can away from her lips. "that isn't why I'm pissed at you". she continued to drink.
"then why. cos you with a vampire isn't exactly something that we'd be able to keep a secret".
"But you didn't even consult with me before going to them". Leah finished her can of coke and slammed it down in to the sink. "Alistair is my mate…. he's my responsibility. So I should have been the one to tell them..".
"Lee why would you even want to…".
"My hair's gone". She yelled.
Jacob paused. "what does that have….. ".
"My body is gone…. I have no privacy… ever. I know no future. My boyfriend was taken away from me. I lost my best friend to him". tears began to well up in her eyes. "I lost my father… I'm sick and tired of losing things. So don't you stand there and ask me why me not being able to make a decision for myself makes me so upset". She lent back on to the sick and hung her hand down.
"Leah….. I'm sorry I shouldn't have gone to them without asking you….. or at least telling you first….. it won't happen again".
"Jacob I can't take another thing getting taken away from me".
"I know, I know I'm sorry". He moved towards her and hugged her. "I'll always talk to you first okay?". he said in to her short dark hair. "no matter what".
"what did they say?". Leah's face was buried in his chest.
"what?".
She removed her head from his chest and looked up at him. "what did the elders say?.
"Ohh… not much….. only if he wanted to Alistair could come to stay on the Rez".
"WHAT?". Out of pure shock, Leah pushed Jacob away from her. "what did you just say?".
He laughed. "it took a while but because of you imprinted on him they couldn't say no".
"holy shit, holy shit, holy shit". She said in excitement. "you went to them and asked them if he could come here?... and stay with me?".
"well…. Yes and no?".
"yes and no?... yes and no?... Jacob what does yes and no mean?".
"it means that for your safety, and Seth's….. and Sue's…. Alistair will be staying with me for a while?".
"Jake, Alistair would never hurt my mum..".
"no Leah…. it isn't Alistair we're worried about". he bit his lip. "it's Sam…. he still doesn't know about..".
"yeah no shit?". She bitterly snorted, Thinking about earlier.
"Yeah I guess your right". The Alfa shrugged. "if he knew he'd be here right now wouldn't he".
"if he knew he would have done worse". She scoffed, but then froze realizing what she had just said.
"Leah".
She looked up to see Jacob slowly walking towards her.
"what did you mean by that?... he could have done worse?".
The she wolf inhaled deeply. "nothing". She looked down. 'shit'.
"Leah doesn't lie to me… what did you just mean by, he would have done worse?. Lee….. did he….. do something to you?".
"look Jake it's not the big deal?".
"how about I decide that".
"Jacob please it isn't that big of a deal, it doesn't matter".
"Leah..". he spoke slowly. "as you Alfa..".
"no wait". She rubbed her hands over her face. "I'll tell you, just…. just don't freak out okay?".
"fine".
"no".
"no what?". He was starting to lose his patience with his beta.
"you promise…. You promise you won't freak out".
"Leah..".
"no you promise me….. you promise me..".
"fine, fine Jesus Christ I'll promise you just tell me already damn it".
The she wolf braced herself for a moment then moved her hair out of the way. showing Jacob the small red mark on the side of her face. he got closer to get a better look at it. "it doesn't hurt anymore if you're wondering".
"did he…". He growled.
"Jacob". She warned.
"he did, didn't he?... he did this to you?". he angrily stepped away from her.
"Jacob…".
"don't tell me this isn't a big deal…. He hit you Leah…. Sam… hit…. You… of course that's a fucking big deal".
"shit". She looked down.
"tell me what happened right now".
"we're talking and he lost his temper and that's it".
"that's it?... that's it?... no it's not god damn it". the Alfa marched over to his jacket. "I'm gonna go out and find the son of a botch and when I do…".
"no your not".
"and why not!?".
"because you promised me!"… you promised me, Jacob".
He scrunched his hands up into fist. "I can't just do anything…".
"you can if I ask you to….. as my best friend?".
"shit". He throws his jacket down on the sofa. "then what the hell I'm I meant to do then… I can't just…. I can't just…".
"for me….. you can let it go".
"you're my beta Leah….. I can't just let him disrespect you like that".
There was an awkward stillness In the room.
"well….. if you won't let me do anything…. Right now". he emphasized the right now. letting her know that he was going to be doing something about this at some point. "then you can tell me what lead to him assaulting my Beta".
"fine". She sat down at the kitchen island and he followed. "I was working home from the Cullen's…. and he found me. said he just wanted to talk. I said no. then he ask me about Alistair".
"what do you mean he asked you about Alistair".
"Apparently he'd been told that someone saw some guy climbing throw my window, and so I told him I'd moved on. I didn't tell him Alistair's name or anything I'm not an idiot. Then he asked me….". she looked down again.
"he asked you what?".
"he asked me if there was any chance for us…. me and him…. in the future". She exhaled.
"I'm gonna kill him".
"Jacob.."
"That son of a bitch rubbed his relationship with Emily in your face for the longest time…. and now that you've imprinted he wants another chance with you". he said in disbelief.
"so I told him I imprinted and he didn't take it well". She continued.
"and that when he hit you?".
"no… first he asked me if the new guy treated with well….. then asked if he knew about us… being what we are. then asked me if the pack knew about us.. and I said yes… then he hit me". she said in a matter o fact way.
"he hit you because you told him we all knew?... Leah….. that doesn't make any…".
"Alright, alright…. he hit me when I told him that you all walked in on us in bed together.
"Leah..".
"he wouldn't leave me alone….. I was hoping that would do it". she crossed her arms and sat back "Look Jake…. can we please just…. leave this alone for now…. please. We don't have time for another pack war, we don't have too much longer before the Volturi will be here…".
"How are you gonna keep this from Alistair?".
"by not talking about it…. that's how".
"when he finds out he's gonna kill him".
"well, he's not gonna find out so let's talk about something else".
"like what?".
"like how my imprinted is gonna be staying in the same house as billy…. Have toy talked to him about that?".
"he was the first one I went to. I had him come to the elders with me".
"What did he say about all this?".
"at first he didn't want to hare it. but reminding him that my imprint was half vampire helped. He was the one who suggested Alistair stay with us".
"Really?".
"yeah". Jacob smiled. "he wants to talk to him tonight when bring him by".
"he's coming to the Rez tonight?". she said trying to not lose control of her excitement.
"yeah he is…. I think it's best if you see him tomorrow though".
"why?". she said almost offended.
The Alfa made a gesture to the side of her face.
"Jake…. this will be gone in the next hour…. It's no the big deal".
"it's just to be safe alright".
"fine". she huffed.
"When are you gonna go get him?".
"When did you want…".
"now right now". she had a big grin on her face.
Just as they both stood up the front door open. Sue and Seth come back in. "it's freezing at the beach so we came back. Seth said.
"We were just finishing you here anyway". Jacob looked at his beta. "I'll go get him now".
"take someone with you okay?". Sue said. Sue may have not hated the Cullen's but that didn't mean she wasn't still wary of these new vampires in town.
"I'll pick Quil up on the way". he kissed Leah's cheek reminding her to cover the mark back up.
"come by my place tomorrow. You can see him then". 'it's better if we keep him hidden for now. just in case Sam or someone from his packs sees him…. or even one of the imprints'. The Alfa waved goodbye and shut the door behind him.
"Well, I'm gonna go up to my room okay".
"Bye Seth". Both women said as he left.
"Leah". Sue waited for her Son's bedroom door to close. "can we have a talk". she said with a sort of smile. That kind of smile Mum gives you.
"sure… why not".
Jacob and Alistair are on the way to the black household.
"We don't have an attic by the way, so sorry about that". the Alfa had his hands in his pockets as they walked.
"how many people are gonna be there?". Alistair said. cringing at the thought of there being no attic for him to hide in. 'piss it'.
"Just me and my dad. Lee will be around tomorrow to see ya. so far only the elders, my pack, my dad, and her mum's knows about you. and it's gonna stay like that for a while until the secrets out. The last thing we need is for there to be a god damn riot on the Rez when they find out a vampire is staying on it".
"will Sam try to kill me?". the tracker stopped and turned to him.
Jacob thought back to the mark on Leah's face. "you let me deal with Sam and his pack… alright". they continued to walk until they made it to Jacob's door. "okay… so my dad's a real straight ford guy….i think it's the old age thing so don't feel intimidated okay".
"I'm hundreds of years old". The tracker said dryly.
"ohh right". Jacob shook his head. "I'll never get used to that". he opened the door and let them in.
"What happens if the other pack finds out and comes over?".
"my god you might just be the most cowardly leech I've ever met". Jacob joked.
"it's not being cowardly it's being cautious..".
"so this is him….. this is the vampire". Billy rolled in to the front room.
"Cheerio". Alistair gave the other man a tight smile and a short wave. 'I wanna be anywhere else. If tapping my shoes together and saying there's no place like home worked I'd do it. the tracker thought to himself.
"you". Billy pointed to him. "kitchen now".
"Gee do I go in the kitchen too dad?". The Alfa asked sarcastically.
"I don't care where you go Jacob….. it's him I want to talk to". he said this as he turned around in his wheelchair and rolled in to the kitchen.
Both boys followed him in. Jacob took a seat at the kitchen counter, while Billy told the vampire to sit at the table with him.
"so…. the Clearwater girl". Billy simply said.
"Hmmm". Alistair hummed not knowing how to respond to the man in the wheelchair.
"do you know that I watched that girl grow up?".
The tracker shook his head.
"yes I did…. I held her when she was a baby. I was best friends with her father for years. I took part in raising that girl….. she's good".
The vampire didn't know what to say, so he just sat and listen.
"do you know what that girl had been through in her life… because she hasn't had it easy".
"I know….".
"I don't think you do".
"ooh boy". Jacob snickered in the background.
"like I said….. I watched her and her brother grow up in to good people. I spent every Tuesday night there at their home watching football with them ever since they were kids. And do you want to know what happened on one particular night?. He asked me to look out for his family if anything ever happened to him. especially Leah…. he always worried about her. and in return". Billy looked over his shoulder at Jacob. "I asked him to look out for mine if anything ever happened to me". he looked back at the red-eyed vampire sitting at his kitchen table. "do you see where I'm going with this…".
Before Alistair could answer Billy cut in.
"where I'm going is… if you hurt her…. because for me….. it will only take the one time to hurt her. I…. will choose to not care about our laws…. And I will personal….. go to Sam myself…. ask him to find you…. and rid you…. right off of this earth. For the first time in my life…. I will turn my back on everything I've ever believed in….. for her. just to make sure she is safe. I will keep the promise I made to her father….. And I will never look back".
Still have no clue how to respond Alistair just stared at billy. While Jacob sat quietly in the back and his eyes wide. He'd never heard his father say he'd break one of their people's laws. And never ever thought it is the most Absolute law their tribe had. This was a man who always, always, always had a deep respect for his tribe's history and legends.
"you don't talk much do you boy?". Billy gripped.
"if your wondering….. it's not personal".
"tell me something…. Do you have a type?".
"a type?". Alistair squinted at him.
"yes….. a type. Do you prefer a particular….. preference… of person you like to feed on and slowly kill?. Or is blood just blood to all of you?".
"blood's just blood?".
"So why can't you drink animals?". Billy laced his fingers together in front of him as if he were at a business meeting.
"you walked right in to that one". the Alfa said smirking.
"is animal blood…. Really that different from human blood?. Or do you just not care?".
The tracker turned to Jacob. "really….. no attic?... do you at least have a basement?".
The younger boy shook his head with a tight grin.
"ooh, I see I've made you uncomfortable". Billy said with mock sympathy. "well at least I don't think I've made you as uncomfortable as all the innocent humans you've killed for your own need over the years".
"burn". Jacob chuckled.
"not all innocent". Alistair said under his breath.
"and I'm sure you're not as uncomfortable as I am sitting here with a vampire in my house. Having a chat at my kitchen table".
"guess again". he muttered.
"so how about we changed the subject?".
'thank god. The tracker thought.
"Alistair…. Is it?".
He nodded. 'oh bugger… where's he going with this?'.
"how much do you know about our people's history?". Billy smirked at him.
'at least I don't sleep….cos this is gonna be a long night'. Alistair rolled his eyes on the inside. 'I miss my attic'.