A/N: Hey guys! I was hoping to post this a few days ago, but I haven't had as much time to work on it as I wanted. I am not crazy about this chapter, but in my opinion, the ones to follow will be a lot better. Thanks for sticking with me!
JJ ended up sleeping, if you could call it sleeping, in the guest room after her and Will's fight. She thought that if she went to their room, she would end up saying something she shouldn't. She tossed and turned most of the night. There were so many things running through her mind… she wanted to scream.
First, there was the problem with her marriage… which was nothing new. She loved Will, she really did, but she couldn't help but think that she married him out of fear. She almost lost him during that bank robbery, and that really scared her. Then Rossi threw the surprise wedding. That was a really sweet gesture, and JJ truly appreciated it, but she probably would have backed out if it wasn't for that. A big part of her really believed she was still married to Will because she didn't want to hurt the kids… but she didn't think she could go on like this anymore. It was so emotionally draining on both herself and Will… and she knew that could eventually have a bad impact on Henry and Michael.
Then her thoughts drifted to Spence. She knew they needed to talk, but she didn't know what to say. Was she supposed to tell her best friend that she was truly in love with him?
When JJ said those words to Reid, she really meant them. She knew Casey would kill Reid if she didn't tell the truth. She couldn't risk bluffing, and thinking she was going to die, she wanted Reid to know how she felt. She didn't have time to think about the impact this would cause.
Now, things were complicated between JJ and her best friend, and she didn't know how to fix it.
That was pretty much how JJ's night went. Her guilt and confliction wouldn't let her get much sleep. When she got up the next morning, she let out a sigh of relief knowing it was Saturday. She didn't have to work, and the kids didn't have school. JJ was looking forward to spending the day with them.
When JJ got downstairs, Will was pouring coffee into a travel mug, and getting ready to leave for work. He paused when he heard her come in. "Morning JJ. I've got to go, but I'll be back in time for the wedding."
"Um, okay. Be safe."
Will nodded and walked out the door.
JJ was glad the fight wasn't brought up, although she knew it would have to be at some point. Other than them being a little more distant, it could pretty much be classified as a normal morning between the two.
The blonde shook her head and started on breakfast, knowing Henry and Michael would be up soon. She wasn't the best cook, but she loved making breakfast for her boys.
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JJ spent the day with Henry and Michael, watching movies and playing soccer in the backyard. She would cherish any time she got with them, even if it was watching 'Toy Story'.
That evening, JJ started getting ready for Rossi's wedding. She was finishing her makeup when Will came upstairs.
"JJ, I'm sorry."
JJ stopped putting on her mascara and looked at Will through the mirror. "Yeah?"
"Yeah. I shouldn't have walked away from you last night, and I shouldn't have raised my voice either."
"I appreciate that. I'm sorry too." JJ turned to face her husband. "We have the same fight every time, and it always ends the same way."
Will hung his head a little. "I know. I'll do better, I promise. When we get back from the wedding, we can sit down and have an adult conversation. No yelling, no walking out." He walked over to his wife and kissed her.
JJ smiled. "Okay, deal. Now let's get ready. Kate will be here soon to watch the boys."
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JJ was nervous when they arrived at the wedding venue. She had made up her mind to talk to Reid whenever she got the chance, but she didn't want to push him. So, she would take her cues from him.
When they walked in, JJ and Will were immediately surrounded by some of the team. JJ smiled brightly, she always enjoyed when they all could get together.
Scanning the room, she saw Reid standing by the bar with Tara and Garcia. She kept glancing at him, but he never met her eyes. Every now and then, she could feel his eyes on her, but he would avert his gaze whenever she turned to look at him.
This is how it went for a good part of the night. Then Emily got up to do her speech. JJ felt her heart skip a beat when her friend used the term 'twin flames'. That was the first time that night that her eyes locked with Reid's. His gaze was so full of love, that JJ could've melted right there on the spot. Then Will squeezed her hand and she felt like crying with guilt. Looking away from Reid, she gave a brief and tense smile to her husband.
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Reid spent the majority of the day thinking about JJ. Despite his efforts, he couldn't get her out of his head.
Now he had to see her in a little while, at Rossi's wedding. Even under these circumstances, that thought brought a smile to his face. He always looked forward to seeing JJ. Except, this time, he didn't know how it was going to go. He tried to plan out what to say, or do when he saw her, but it didn't work.
Anyway, it didn't matter if he had a plan or not, because as soon as JJ walked in the door, all the breath left Reid's lungs. She looked absolutely stunning. Reid didn't approach her, because he didn't have a clue what to say, but he couldn't keep his eyes off of her. He hoped he wasn't being too obvious… he was standing in a room full of profilers.
Reid thought his heart was going to pound out of his chest when Emily was doing her speech. Her, well Penelope's, definition of 'twin flames' fit him and JJ exactly. He looked back at her, and their eyes met for what felt like an eternity. In that moment, Reid knew JJ felt it too. Then he was brought back to reality when he saw Will grab JJ's hand… and it felt like a crushing weight.