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I hate this town, it's so washed up
And all my friends don't give a fuck
They'll tell me that it's just bad luck
When will I find where I fit in?
-All Signs Point To Lauderdale-
A Day To Remember
She could honestly say she was excited and that hadn't happened in months. For once in what seemed like forever, Kenna's persona radiated happiness instead of melancholy. Tonight was Halloween and she was going to spend some much needed time with her friends, and plus she would get to dress up. Why wouldn't she be ecstatic? About a week or two ago, M'gann had sought out the blonde. Kenna had been ambushed in the kitchen, her attempts to fade into obscurity foiled. Kenna had been down for months, no where close to the person she normally was. But a spark lite within her and she had genuinely smiled at the martian. A Halloween dance sounded like so much fun. She would get to let loose and hang out with her friends. As a child, Halloween had always been one of her favorite holidays. It was the one day a year when she didn't have to be herself. Kenna could be anyone she wanted to that night; a zombie, ninja, hell even a princess if she wanted. It was a chance to be some she has always wanted to be and now the day had finally come. Kenna had bought a costume about an hour after M'gann had brought up the dance.
Now she sat on the ground, leaning against the large sleeping wolf. Wolf was sprawled out across the floor, soft snores falling from his nose. Her finger gently stroked the soft fur that resided on the animal's hind leg that was curled around her body.
"AAAWWWOOOOOO!" Kenna whipped her head around to look up at Wally, glaring in annoyance when her curled locks smacked her in the face. When she caught a glimpse of his costume, Kenna couldn't help but giggle. Wally looked absolutely ridiculous in his werewolf costume. The wig and beard fit perfectly together but that didn't mean he looked any less retarded. She closed her eyes and placed a hand over her lips to contain her laughter. What she hadn't noticed was the fact that her friends were glancing at her and smiling. It had been so long since they had seen a glimpse of her infectious laugh.
"Oh come on, what kind of wolf are you?!" Wally groaned when Wolf made no indication that he was going to acknowledge the speedster's pathetic attempt to howl. Wolf only curled himself closer to the blonde.
"Wally stop torturing him!" Connor chastised as he glared at the ginger.
"Yeah Wally leave the sleepy puppy alone." Kenna cooed with another giggle. She leaned over and gave the canine's ears an affectionate rub. Wolf mewled and nuzzled his head into her hand.
"Hold still please." M'gann lightly scolded. Kenna followed the martians movements as she wrapped the gauze around her fidgeting boyfriend. It was a comical attempt at a mummy that made him look more like a burn victim.
"Megan, stop torturing him." Wally teased, walking closer to the green skinned girl. He looked between the two before resting his elbow on M'gann shoulder.
"Awkward for him anyway, being the third wheel on our date." M'gann pinched her brow in slight annoyance. Wally really was a piece of work when he wanted to be.
"Wally, I invited the entire team to the dance, Zatanna, too." The girl reminded the speedster. Kenna could see Connor glaring holes into the back of Wally's head but of course he was to oblivious to be aware.
"Good, keeps us on the down-low." If Wally wasn't careful he may be bludgeoned to a bloody pulp. Kenna could understand the stoic boy's aggravation, no guy like seeing someone else flirt with the girl they were in love with. But that didn't mean he truly had to be jealousy and especially over someone like Wally. M'gann only eye for him and him only.
"So you going as my favorite Martian?" Wally asked, raising an eyebrow in a suggestive manner. M'gann only smirked, taking a couple steps away from the group so she could display her costume.
"Not exactly." The purple sweater and matching skirt morphed into a tattered white gown starting from her ankles to her shoulders. The dress looked old and worn, displaying the obvious bride aspect. Kenna had seen the costume earlier in the day but had yet to see the make up. Her green skin had changed to a pasty whitish grey color with many scars and "ripped" skin. The martian knew how to pull off a zombie bride quite well. Kenna smiled at the girl, bringing her hands up to clap in appreciation.
"Whoa! Babe, eat my brains anytime." Wally spoke in awh. Kenna stopped clapping and gently placed her hands in her lap, eyes concentrating on her recently painted nails. As she stared at the glossy blood red color, her smile began to falter. The initial excitement was draining and she found herself falling into a sombre mood. Of course M'gann had invited the entire team which meant Zatanna would be present as well. Kenna slightly shook her head in disappointment, of course Zatanna would be invited, she had become very close with the other member. A feeling nagged at the back of her head as her thought ran through her mind. Was it really so bad to wish that once, just once she could have some time to her friends without Zatanna present? Did it really make her that much of a horrible person to wish that? Kenna was well aware she would have to deal with her Zatanna problem but for once was it so bad to have a day where she was selfish? Where she got her friends, her family to herself? She knew she had been selfless, not sharing her problems with other so not to bother them but she had come to the realization of her actions. Sometimes the person who tries to keep everyone happy is the most lonely person.
"Recognized: Artemis. B-Zero-Seven. Zatanna Zatara. A-Zero-Three." Speak of the devil. Kenna glanced up to watch the females emerge from the zeta tubes. Artemis was dressed as a vampire while Zatanna pulled off a cute witch outfit. Kenna had been closest to the tubes which made her be able to hear their entire conversation.
"Oh, hey, Zatanna. You look great." Artemis complimented, training her grey orbs on the black haired girl. Kenna followed Artemis' eyes, she was right Zatanna looked amazing; as usual.
"Oh, thanks. You, too." Zatanna replied politely, giving the archer a cheerful smile. Both girls came to a stop about a foot or two behind Kenna Wolf, eyes glancing around at the team. Kenna glanced where they were looking and caught glimpse of the happy couple making googly eyes at one another.
"So how long have Connor and Megan been a couple?" Zatanna asked, a playful smirk upon her lips. The teen placed her hands on her hips and turned to look at Artemis. Kenna could feel her face scrunch up in a grimace. Artemis and Wally were the only ones on the team who hadn't know that the two aliens were in a loving relationship. It was obvious that Artemis was not going to take the news lightly. At first she laughed in denial but as she looked closely at the two, things fell into place. They way they looked at each other, the way the spoke, the way they touched each other. The two teens were obviously in love. Artemis turned her body abruptly and marched away without a word. Kenna's eyes followed the black haired girl as she frantically tried to catch up tot the retreating blonde.
"Uh, I-I'm sorry. It just seemed so obvious. I-I-I didn't realize wait, the dance." Zatanna reasoned, her word causing the blonde to stop in her steps. Artemis crossed her arms over her chest and glared at the ground in hurt. Kenna knew that feeling all too well.
"Not in the mood. Of course, sitting at home with my mom doesn't sound any more appealing."
"Well, there is another option." Kenna raised an eyebrow at the magicians words. Latin words fell from the black haired girls lips, the incantations changing them from their Halloween costumes to their superhero outfits. Dropping her hands, Zatanna placed her hands on her hips.
"Girl's night out." And just like that Kenna's night blew up in her face. She really had been looking forward to hanging out with Artemis and now that was out of the question. Artemis had ditched her once again to go hang out with Zatanna. Both girls disappeared on their way to the docking bay. She couldn't help but let out a disappointed sigh. Was it really worth going to this dance? It's not she would get to spend time with anyone anyway. Robin and Kaldur were in a meeting with Batman, so she knew the chances of them coming were slim at best. Plus going with Wally, Conner and M'gann would be pointless. Connor and M'gann would be tied to each other and Wally would be shamelessly flirting with M'gann. They wouldn't even notice if she was there or not; all she would amount to would be a fourth wheel. Blinking back the tears that were threatening to spill down her cheeks, Kenna gave Wolf one last pat before pushing herself to her feet. Her sock clad feet padded across the ground and she almost exited the area with out but getting noticed but that didn't happen. Connor had caught the increased sound of her heart and sought out the blonde. When he caught the glimpse of her fleeing for, he give his girlfriend a small nudge. The martian's smile dropped and she frowned at the girl in confusion.
"Kenna, aren't you coming to the dance?" Kenna stopped in her tracks and took a deep breath before looking over her shoulder.
"I'm not feeling so good. I'm going to lay down and see if that helps. I'll come join you guy's if I feel better." She gave them a fake smile which she knew they could see through. She was transparent at that moment. They did not push it, knowing that when she was ready to say it she would. All three teens gave each other knowing glances before looking back at the blonde.
"Okay… well we hope you feel better Kenna." M'gann said uneasily, giving the girl a worried smile.
"Thanks guy's, have fun and don't do anything to stupid." She replied, glancing at the floor before turning back around and making her way towards her room. As she got to her door, the tears she had been holding back dribbled down her cheek as the metal door sealed behind her.
Robin was ready to go home and get his Halloween on. He had originally planned on going to the dance with the others but Batman had called an urgent meeting to discuss the mole situation. Now he was making his way out of the cave so he could still enjoy his Halloween night. Robin's footsteps echoed in his ear as she enter the living room area. He had expected everyone to be done but came to a stop when he heard the faint sound of the t.v. Maybe someone left the television on by mistake, but that wasn't the case. His masked eyes fell upon the lone body that resided in the room. He raised an eyebrow in confusion and moved around the couch to get a better look at her. Kenna was perched on the couch with her knees pulled to her chest and back against the arm. He had truly expected to to be gone like the others. She had been so excited over the past two weeks, in fact it was the happiest he had seen her in a while, so then why didn't she go to the dance? Did something happen?
"Where is everyone?" He tentatively asked, not wanting to scare her. She didn't even flinch, as if she had always been aware of his presence. Her eyes stayed trained on the television and she made no recognition that she had heard him. She was watching one of those halloween themed cake off shows on the food network.
"Artemis and Zatanna ditched to go have a girl night out because Artemis found out that Connor and M'gann are dating. They walked out about and hour and a half ago. Wally, M'gann and Connor then went to the dance. They left maybe ten minutes after the girls." She spoke, eye's trained on the television. There was no fluctuation in her tone; nothing but emotionless. Robin furrowed his brow in concern, scanning her for any indications as to why she hadn't gone with them. First he noticed the posture of her body; slumped shoulders, loose arms, almost like she had given up. Her face held the normal bored look but her eyes told a different story. Although her curls covered part of her face, he could still make out the emotion in her lavender orbs. She was not crying at the moment but he could see the evidence that implied she had been shed tears quite recently. There was the faint stains of tears on her flushed face along with the glassy bloodshot eyes. At that moment Robin grimaced, his heart hurting. On the outside she appeared to be holding herself together but he knew his blonde well enough to know she was broken on the inside. He had to help her, but how? If he were to ask she would just lie, say everything was gumdrops and unicorns. No, he had to find another way to help her.
"Well, i'm gonna head home. Later blondie." He nonchalantly spoke, giving her a casual salute. He turned his back to her and made his way towards the zeta tubes.
"Yeah… later." Came her paused monotone reply. He paused in his step and shook his head. He really need to figure out what was going on his him.
When she was sure he was gone, a shaky breath broke from her lips. She closed her eyes, feeling the familiar weight crush her heart. God she had become such a fucking crybaby. No wonder she was losing all of her friends. Using her sleeve covered thumb, Kenna wiped the tears from under her lashes. Here she sat, pathetically wallowing in her self pity. She was a complete and utter mess, each day digging her hole deeper and deeper. Sooner rather than later, she would not be able to claw her self out. A startling sound made the blonde jump. Her tear filled eyes fell on the object that was causing the noise. Her phone continued to ring, causing the girl to lean forward and grab it. She sniffled, glancing at the wallpaper she had for the lock screen. Her eyes traced the happy face of her school friends. Dinah and Oliver had purchased her a phone and the day she had brought it to school, Lydia had hijacked it from her. The redhead had forced Kenna, who was not a very photogenic person to be apart of the group photo. She sat in the middle with Dick and Lydia's arms around her shoulders and Allison and Tyler standing behind them. All of them were giving the camera goofy smiles as they leaned closer to the blonde. Once the picture had been taken, Lydia had set it as her wallpaper. She did not vocalize her thoughts but the notion had warmed her heart. That same day, Kenna had a similar idea. When she had gotten home, Kenna had talked the entire team, excluding Zatanna, into taking a group picture. Surprisingly everyone had agreed, even Connor but Kenna had suspected it had to do with M'gann. None the less, She had gotten a picture of her family which was currently her main wallpaper. A bittersweet smile crossed her lips at the memory, the familiar ache in her chest.
Blinking rapidly she snapped back into reality. The excessive ringing caused her to swipe her thumb across the touch screen. She raised an eyebrow at the name that was scrawled across the screen. 'Dickie Poo'; his idea not hers was calling. What did Dick want? Her eye then settle on the picture Id. It had been from their trip to the Gotham City mall. Dick had pulled the blonde into a photo booth. Had had gotten two set of picture. Find them hilarious, Kenna had taken a picture of the one where they had their faces meshed next to each other with their tongue out. Dick had wanted her to set it as her wallpaper but she had settled for it as his picture Id.
"Hello?" She answered, placing the phone to her ear. Her eyes fell down to her sock; mismatching of course. Her fingers moved along them, picking off the small lent balls that had attached them to during their time in the washer.
"Hey Kenna, whatcha doin?" His overly happy voice rang through the speaker.
"Sacrificing virgins." She deadpanned. Dick let out a snort and chuckled at the blondes words.
"You do realize that you're a virgin as well right?"
"I don't see your point." Dick sighed and Kenna couldn't keep the small grin from her face.
"Kenna can you please make an attempt to make sense?" He inquired but only got a snort in return.
"You're one to talk and besides, that seems like a lot of work." She replied, stretching her legs out along the couch.
"Can you please answer me truthfully. What are you actually doing?" He asked, his voice sounding tired and strained. Kenna bit her lip in contemplation.
"Hating my existence." She retorted, eyes training back on the television.
"Well we can't have that now can we? You're coming to hang out with me whether you like it or not. I can't have my favorite blonde down in the dumps. Come on Ken, what do you say?" His hopeful tone made her stomach twist. She took a minute to contemplate his suggestion. Should she go? Would it be worth it? Her eyes scanned the empty cave; the place she had once found as her sanctuary was now slowly suffocate her.
"Is your gay lover going?" It took a couple of seconds before Dick responded.
"He is my best friend not gay lover."
"You say best friend, I say gay lover." A soft giggle escaped her lips when she heard Dick groan on the other side. She could imagine what he was doing at that moment, his brow furrowed in frustration as he pinched the bridge of his nose.
"Seriously Dick, even Allison is worried she is going to lose her loving puppy dog to your handsome and charming personality." She smiled when he chuckled, his laugh full and warm.
"Did you just call me handsome and charming?" Kenna rolled her eyes at his smug tone.
"Tyler coming or not Grayson?" She groaned, running her fingers through her brains.
"No Tyler's not coming. He is currently spending the evening with the love of his fourteen years of life." Kenna snorted once more, pushing herself to her feet. Leaning down to pick up the remote, the blonde hit the power button before tossing it back onto the couch.
"And besides I figure it could be just us. You know bonding time. So, what do you say?"
"Yeah spazz i'm in." She could practically hear the glee in his voice as he spoke.
"Suit up than girly. I am expecting to get so much candy that we can throw it up in the air and dance under it."
"You ass, that's mine!" She squealed, trying to grasp the snickers bar that Dick had stolen out of her bag. The black haired boy smiled at her in enjoyment as he held his hand just out of reach. His laugh was infectious and Kenna found herself laughing in return.
"Fine, take it I don't even care." She pouted, turning away to glance back towards the city. Her pout died down when as she took in the cityscape. It was such a beautiful night, warm and pleasant and she wouldn't be able to forget the great view. Glancing at her companion out of the corner of her eye, Kenna shook her head in amusement. She watched him tear open the wrapping that concealed the chocolaty goodness before he began to munch on it.
"You know you still look absolutely ridiculous in that costume." She teased, eye tracing the fabric he was clad in. Dick had comically chosen look a mobster. He wore a black and white pin striped suit with a black button down and a pure white tie. She had to admit he looked very suave and snazzy but it was still a comical costume for the boy. He had take off the coat and black fedora, only left in his dress pants, shirt, tie and white suspenders.
"I think I make this look good." He spoke, popping his collar in a cocky fashion. Kenna leaned forward, her hands grasping tightly to the railing she was perched on as she laughed.
"My god Dick, do you honestly think you are really that big of a deal?" Her words only got a shrug in return.
"Hey I may look ridiculous but you offset me with your cuteness." Kenna raised an eyebrow as she turned to glance at her friend.
"Cuteness?" She inquired. Dick nodded his head, unwrapping another candy bar before popping it into his mouth.
"Yeah cuteness. I'm mean no one would expect you to go as little red riding hood Ken, but you look very cute in it." Kenna felt her cheeks heat up and she playfully shoved the boy away from her.
"S-shut up!" She groaned, turning her attention back to the city. A comfortable silence fell between the two, the only sound was the city life.
"I haven't had this much fun in a long time. Thanks Dick, you were there when I really need you most." She softly spoke, glancing down at the red bows that were attached to her thigh high white socks. Her fingers played with the hem of her red, white and black skirt.
"Glad I could help." Came his reply but there was something at the end of sentence, something that indicated he wanted to say more but didn't know how she would take it.
"McKenna, I know you don't really want to talk about it but I need to know what had been going on with you the past couple of months." And just like that, her delighted person darken.
"Dick can we please not talk about it. I was having fun for the first time along time. Can we please not ruin that?" She asked, her voice quivering as she avoided eye contact. It was true, she had been genuinely happy in the first time in along time. The two teens had gone trick or treating, they had even scared some little kids. They had joked and laughed, finding their way back to Wayne manor where they resided now, perched on the railing on the balcony outside of his room. They had come out here to look at the city. Now things just seemed dull and broken.
"Come on Kenna, I'm tired of watching you suffer especially when you think no one is paying attention. We are worried about you, I am worried about you, we are worried about you. And frankly i'm over Lydia's nagging. Please Kenna, I'm here for you and I want to help." He pleaded, leaning over to grab her hand. His fingers tangled with hers and he pulled her closer to him. Kenna glanced up at him, unshed tears ready to leak from her eyes. Should she tell him? Let him into her heart and soul, have him know her darkest fear? Would he judge her? Sighing, Kenna looked down at their fingers. She memorized the way they looked intertwined, the way they felt. He squeezed her hand in reassurance, almost as if he knew what she had been thinking.
"I feel like i'm being abandoned." Her words caught the blue eyed boy off guard. What? Why would she be feeling something like that, it just didn't make any sense. His eyes furrowed in worry when a lone tear streaked down her cheek.
"What do you mean? Tyler, Allison, Lydia and I talk and hang out with you everyday?" She still had not looked up from their hands, not finding it in herself to meet his gaze.
"It's not you guys, it's my other friends. Those people are my family but recently I feel as if things would have no problem going on if I wasn't in their lives. They meet this new girl, Zatanna and ever since she has shown up they have completely disregarded both my presence and my feeling." As she spilled her feelings Dick's heart began to ache. She had been keeping this feeling for months now? Kenna moved her eyes up to look at the city, spilling her guts to the public.
Now that Megan and Connor are dating, they tend to ignore everyone. I mean I'm happy for them and I love them both but I miss the little things we used to do. I miss talking to them, helping them you name it. Plus M'gann and Zatanna are "best friends" now and I feel that if I try to add to the conversation then I would be intruding and making an ass out of my self. Artemis has definitely replaced me with her. I can't actually remember the last time she came to talk to me that wasn't in a school setting. They are Bff's till the end." She gave a bitter laugh at the end, glaring down at her solid black high tops.
"Wally spends all his time flirting with Megan or bickering with Artemis. Kal has been around in a while because he has been doing tutoring. And to top it all of I don't even exist to Robin." Kenna felt the boy flinch and she turned her head to look at him before turning them back towards the city. She could feel the gush of her tears as she spoke.
"He is so infatuated with her that the should just go fuck each other already. He completely ignores me when she's there and it's even worse when she's not there. All he talks about is how cool and smart she is." She sneered, it soon turning into a heartbroken expression.
"He's supposed to be my best friend and now he makes me feel like i'm not even worth his time…" She choked out, the tears falling harder as she sniffed. Dick looked at her shocked, not knowing what to say or how to feel. She had been keeping this for months had let it continuously and deliberately crush her. With a tug of their joined, Dick pulled her flush against his head and had her lean her head on his shoulder. Kenna complied, her left hand coming up to rest upon his elbow.
"W-why haven't you told them how you fee?" Kenna only sighed, eyes still casted down.
"I say that I don't want to talk about it… but actually I do. But i'm afraid of their reaction. I'm afraid that they'll never see me as and equal again. I'm terrified to see the pity in their eyes when they realized how fuck up I truly am. I'm going to lose them from my life and then realize that no matter how much I time I spent them or how much I appreciate them and told them so, it will never seem like it was enough." Dick felt as if he was hit in the gut. How could she possibly think this was true, that everyone in her life was going to abandon her. It truly was her deepest darkest fear.
"McKenna, you don't have to do this alone. We can help you, but you have to tell us when you feel like this. Suffering by yourself is going to destroy you." He spoke, directing her attention to himself. He stared into her lavender orbs, getting lost in the black hole of emotion. Kenna bit her lip, shaking her head.
"You're wrong Dick. I am alone, I like to be be left alone. But when people don't notice I'm absent, it hurts. And I know it's my own fault for becoming invisible, for isolating myself. But just once I want someone to notice. Tor truly notice and care. Sometimes when I say that "i'm okay", I want someone to look me in the eyes, hug me tight and say "I know you're not." Is that really too much to ask?" Her word broke something inside of him, and Dick hugged the girl as close as humanly possible. He knew, he finally knew the root of her depression. She had been desperately crying, begging for someone to notice. So here he sat, cradling his blonde as she stained his shirt with her salty tears. He sat there until her tears ceased and promised her that she was not alone; that someone was there to guide her through the dark and back into the light.
Author's Note: Hey guy's! It's the ungodly hour once again and I'm posting this new chapter. I really hope you enjoyed it as much as I did. I have been waiting for this chapter since I first started this story. I never thought I would have made to this point or had this many people like it. Truly, you guys are the reason I haven't given up on this story, well besides the fact that I love Kenna to pieces. This chapter was definitely better than last weeks. I felt like adding some fluff an humor into it because I have been hitting you hard with the depressing shit for a while. I am going to tell you that the next chapter you guys may hate me for the ending, especially for how it will play out for the duration of season one. It will really fuck with Dick and Kenna's relationship and I don't know how you guy's will feel about it. Now that I think about it, season one is coming to a close quite quickly. There are maybe five more chapters left before I start season two and I am so excited. I really hope you enjoyed this chapter and I want you all to know that I love you very much. So review, favorite, and follow like always. Until next week when I make you guys want to cry and punch your screen. Love you! :)
