Unfortunate weather hit a few days later. They were making good progress by spending more time walking, but they had to keep camp up for a while when it started raining. Still, though, it didn't always feel like a grim march—the optimists kept everyone happy, and Lucina was starting to open up again.
Sleeping inside a tent while it was raining felt odd. Eisso couldn't describe it. He put on a coat to shield himself from most of the rain and wandered around the camp.
Eisso went towards the tent where they normally ate. It was larger than they needed, really—with less than twenty people in total, all of the tents were big. It did, however, provide plenty of space for them to be able to make the tent multi-use; it also housed supplies that shouldn't be outside in weather like this, and a lot of the extra weapons.
He was going to head back to his tent when someone else came in. He instantly recognized Kenzie.
"Can't sleep either?" He asked.
"No," she replied. "I heard someone walking around camp and followed them. But at least it was just you." She walked over to him and sat down on the ground. There was a little bit of silence. "You're doing a pretty good job leading everyone, considering your lack of experience. I'm proud."
"There hasn't been much opportunities to me to lead anyone," Eisso said. "I could still be horrible—we just won't know until I screw up."
"Hey, if I'm not allowed to downgrade myself, you aren't allowed to downgrade yourself," Kenzie replied firmly. "I know you're not the best at this, but give yourself some credit. You, Morgan, and Lucina make a pretty good trio. I can't always be there when you need it like I used to, but you know these guys better than I do."
"According to everyone else," Eisso said, "That just makes mistakes hurt more. You can't be distant or they don't trust you; you can't be really close because then, when they get hurt or die, it feels more personal and it can cause you to make the same mistakes. I can't even use magic against almost everything without feeling guilty; how am I supposed to even consider hurting someone else?" Now he was ranting without realizing he had these problems.
"No one said we have to kill anyone," Kenzie pointed out. "Robin recommended not to take anyone's lives. Diplomacy is an option."
"Since when has diplomacy ever worked in the history of Ylisse?" Eisso asked, half rhetorically and half literally.
Nevertheless, Kenzie didn't respond for a little bit. "Still, though. There's other ways to get rid of an enemy that doesn't result from violence."
"Tell me when you figure out what those are," Eisso said quietly. "I would love to hear it."
"…were you just being sarcastic?" Kenzie asked.
"Yes. What of it? I've been sarcastic before," Eisso replied.
"I haven't heard you make a genuinely sarcastic comment in years," Kenzie protested. "And you being sarcastic normally isn't a good sign. Do you…need to talk about it?"
"No," Eisso said. That was a lie, if his previous mini-rant was any indication. "I'm fine, I just…" He couldn't find a way to finish his sentence. "I guess I just need to try to sleep."
Kenzie took a few moments to respond. "Of course," she said. "Good night. I'll…see you in the morning."
Eisso nodded. "Good night," he said. He started walking back to his tent. The rain wasn't coming down as hard now. Maybe they could make some progress tomorrow.
In his tent, trying to fall asleep was still hard. Now his mind stayed firmly placed on childhood memories. He never had friends before Morgan and Lucina…just Kenzie and a hell of a lot of bullies. He could easily remember some of the times that Kenzie got hurt shielding him from a bad blow. Eisso knew she had a scar on her shoulder for the same reason. The bullying stopped when their mother died; Eisso always considered it as a coincidence, because Kenzie used to get extremely scary when she was upset (and still did). The two of them stopped going to school altogether when their father died; Ocielle refused to do anything about it and Robin was—apparently—never told about it.
Ignoring the painful memories and trying to focus on the happier ones, Eisso managed to fall asleep.
