Chapter Five: And Have

"Man, this fucking sucks," Ruby said, from where she was lying on her bed, red cheeked. Emma sat on the edge, giving Ruby a glass of water which the woman took happily. She gulped it down and Emma let her before taking the empty glass from her. "I thought I would have a few more years before this, ya know," Ruby said, gesturing to her current state.

"I thought you would be more excited for this," Emma said. "You always talked about how much more tail you would get if you were presenting."

"Yea, but I was like, half joking. I didn't know heats would be this bad," Ruby explained, fanning herself even though the window was open and the heating off. Ruby had been home for the past three days, her grandma taking care of her. Emma was only allowed to visit on the last day so as not to see Ruby in a frenzied state which would surely embarrass Ruby to be seen in.

"Are you feeling better?"

Ruby blew out a strand of air. "Well, I don't feel like fucking everything and anything that moves, so yea, I guess I'm feeling better."

"Good," Emma nodded her head shortly. "I brought you your homework so let me know if there are some things on it that need explaining."

"Thanks for that," Ruby said as Emma got up to leave.

"No problem. Hope to see you in school tomorrow."

Regina was going to get her early decision letter from Colombia sometime this week and she was antsy with nerves, nerves she had learned to hide well. Did she get in? Did she not? She was impatient to know. It was one of her top schools and she really hoped they accepted her application. Why would they have reason not to? She had the perfect grades and resume.

She was preoccupied with this, so much so that she didn't notice the way Kathryn was sitting closely next to her at lunch. Odd, she thought to herself but didn't do much about it or think more on it. Her mind went back to thinking on her letter. Her friends knew she was thinking about such things and so they didn't bother her thoughts, merely talking among themselves over on topics such as clothing or gossip that was circulating the school.

It wasn't until lunch was over that Kathryn stopped Regina, drawing her aside to talk to her privately. "Hey, can I talk to you?" Kathryn asked, looking tad shy like Regina had never seen her do.

"Yes, of course. Do you need help with something?" Regina asked, ever eager to be of use to her friends.

"Um, do you have time to come over to my place?" Kathryn asked, voice timid.

Regina's brows went up. Kathryn had pulled her aside for this? "Today?" she inquired.

Kathryn shook her head, her long blonde hair tumbling over her shoulders. "No. In about a month's time. My family wants to have dinner with you."

"Oh, okay." That wasn't unusual. Since Regina's parents were away a lot of the time, she often was invited to family dinners by her friends. Why was Kathryn acting so weird about it?

"Good," Kathryn smiles and walks off, throwing over her shoulders that she'll text Regina the details later.

"What's got you down?" a kind voice asked as Emma sat on the bleachers before class started. It was cold out and foggy from early morning rain that had drizzled on the seats which Emma was sitting on, not caring if she soaked her jeans.

Emma turned to see that it was Merida approaching her, wearing her soccer uniform. Her thick red hair was up in a ponytail that looked like it would cause the rubber band to snap any moment. "Uh, nothing much."

Emma couldn't tell Merida about her crush on Regina. They weren't on that level yet. Just because they slept together twice didn't mean she could trust her like she could trust Ruby.

"Come love, I know that's not true," Merida's Scottish accent used to be tough to figure out but she's become more Americanized and it's easier to make out her words.

"Seriously, nothing big," Emma assures, but it is something big. She thought Regina was her friend and apparently she's not. Did all that effort go to waste? Maybe Emma should give up. Her type never liked her back so what was the point in even trying?

Merida sensed that Emma wasn't going to be forthcoming so she dropped the topic, instead making sure to bend over and start stretching her legs. Her ass bobbed in the air in front of Emma who almost wanted to roll her eyes. She'd had her fun with Merida but not anymore. She was in the mood to be a little brat and be rude to everyone.

"I'm gonna head in. I'm waiting on Ruby," Emma fibs lightly and hops off the bench, walking into the school which is still pretty empty at this hour, shaking her wet hair. It's curled up even more and Emma doesn't bother to try and brush her hair. It's always been unruly. Emma has nothing to do at this time so she goes to the library thinking she can maybe catch a nap or do some work in the back. She pauses when she sees whose sitting in the tables at the front. Regina.

Bent over her books, a strand of her hair hanging down in front of her eyes. What Emma wouldn't do to be able to tuck it back gently.

Emma's heart clenches and she freezes. Of course Regina would be here. She's probably finishing up some big project of hers. Or studying extra. Regina never gets anything less than an A plus. Emma turns on her heel and leaves before Regina can look up from her books.

She wanders the halls, waiting impatiently for Ruby's return to school. At long last the brunette arrives, spreading out her arms and inhaling deeply all the new scents she can detect. "Ah, the fragrance of lust. Lovely." She says dryly.

Emma can't help but laugh. She's missed Ruby. Even though it's only been a couple of days it feels like forever. "So, do you feel like a new person?" Emma asks as Ruby looks around. A couple of males hoot at her, noting her new status. Ruby bows grandly and then flips them off as they amble past her.

"Almost," Ruby confesses. "It's kinda a whole new scary world, ya know. And I'm not sure I'm ready for it."

"Well, I'll be here. Punching anyone you want," Emma slung an arm around Ruby's shoulders and they walked down the hall to get to class. As they did, Ruby took this time to examine who was what.

"Beta, beta, omega, alpha, omega, omega, beta," Ruby rattled off as she pointed at the upper class man. She spotted Regina in the crowd ahead, heading to class, and her eyes went wide. "Oh, shit," she whispered and Emma heard it, heart thudding. What had Ruby scented around Regina?

"Regina's an alpha?" Ruby questioned, slowing her gait a bit.

Emma could feel her insides freeze. "An alpha?" That was...that was not what Emma had expected! Emma liked women and their lady parts. But if Regina was an alpha, this meant she didn't have lady parts but...

"Regina's got a dick bro," Ruby told Emma whose face had gone pale.

"Are you sure...?" Emma breathed out.

"I'll double check but her scent is coming in clear and strong. Very fruity but also very smoky," Ruby said, taking in some deep whiffs as Regina disappeared down the hall, walking with her friend Cruella.

"Shit," Emma bit her bottom lip. That changed things for her. Emma may still like Regina, but could she even do anything with her if she had that addition?

"Don't worry, we'll figure things out, Emma," Ruby assured, patting Emma on the back.

Regina gets home Thursday evening to find a white envelope in her mailbox. She picks it up with trembling fingers when she sees it's from Colombia. She hurries inside, tossing her things to the side and opening the paper up with shaking hands. Her eyes scan the paper once, then twice and then thrice.

She forgets how to breath and when she remembers its in huge shuddering breaths as her back hits the wall and she slides down. Colombia rejected her.

How?

Why?

Hot tears wash down her face before she can even stop them. The letter crumples up in her hand. Wasn't she perfect? All her effort, and not good enough still?

Mother wouldn't be pleased with this.

Regina would be berated for hours on end. Would be punished for this failure.

Fuck Colombia for rejecting her!

She wadded up the paper into a ball and threw it.

Shit. This hurt. Hurt so bad. She wanted to forget this pain. Wanted to do something crazy.

All her life she had tried to be her best. On her best behavior. Have her best grades. Be nice and kind and work her way up and nothing. It all resulted in nothing.

Then she was going to cut loose, throw a big fuck you to the universe. She got up, wiping her tears away with the back of her hand. She recalled Emma telling her something about a party. Now it was just a matter of going there.

The music was loud, pounding through Emma's head as the alcohol coursed through her veins. August always had the best parties because his parents left the whole house to him. Man, rich kids had it so nice. Right now that aforementioned rich kid was swinging from a chandelier in the front room, shirtless and belting out Miley Cyrus's Wrecking Ball song with a bottle of Jack in is hand.

About half the high school was here, either drunk or on their way to being drunk. The floor was a sticky mess and Emma had lost Ruby about two rooms ago. She was alone but she didn't mind, shaking her head along to the music. She was feeling good, flirting with girls, laughing with the dudes, and even playing a game of beer pong.

She didn't know how much she had drank but it was enough that her head was spinning and the floor was tilted with each step.

"Swan, you good?" Willis, a soccer player asked her and she just smiled and tried to give him a thumbs up and failed, instead doing a finger gun. She eventually went to the kitchen and poured herself a cup of water to try to flush some of the alcohol away. She was on her second and feeling a bit better and clear headed when she saw who looked like Regina on the other side of the dinning room.

Squinting her eyes, she stumbled forward, forgetting the fact the two of them were arguing. "Regina. Regina!" she called out, and Regina turned to face her, looking really drunk.

"Swan!" she hicc-ed, red solo cup in her hand. "So happy to see you!"

"Really?"

"Yea, I really like seeing your face around here."

The two of them were shouting over the loud music.

"I can't hear you too well. Wanna go somewhere quieter?" Emma suggested.

Regina nodded her head quickly and they went up to one of the bedrooms. One that was free, and sat on the bed. "Why are you here?" Emma asked, still a bit loudly because she was drunk.

Regina shrugged. "Because."

"I thought you didn't wanna hang out with me."

"I'm not hanging out with you. I came here because I can."

"How much did you even drink?" Emma asks. Because she worries for Regina. Has Regina ever drank before?

"Like...three cups," Regina slurs and she giggles, leaning in towards Emma. They're sitting really close on the bed and Emma's breath hitches in the back of her throat. Despite how mean Regina can be to her, Emma can't hate it. She just can't. She will always have a weakness for those who treat her like shit despite all the women who Emma could choose from who would gladly be hers.

And Regina was an alpha too. Could Emma get over that fact?

Right now, she's feeling very generous on it, because her drink muddled brain can only focus on how soft Regina's lips look in the subdued lighting of this bedroom. "Let me take this from you," Emma offers gallantly and takes Regina's cup, replacing it with her cup of water. "Drink this. You're going to need to sober up."

Regina takes it and downs the whole glass. "I fucking hate this," she murmurs out and Emma's heart clenches. "Hate us talking?"

"No," Regina presses the cool glass to her flushed face. "I hate...I only hate how weak you make me feel."

"Huh?"

"You make me...not want to do my work," Regina confessed. "Which is bad. Because school is important and then they reject me anyways. But I'm not going to cry. Nope." Regina shakes her head while Emma's mind is reeling with what happened.

"You think...about me?" she asks softly. It sounded a lot like hope to her.

Regina nodded her head in confirmation.

Emma's heart was pounding in her chest. It was now or never. She licked her lips.

"Slap me if I'm being stupid," Emma said and then leaned in and kissed Regina without further hesitation. Their lips met in a soft kiss that was just a bit sloppy due to both of them being drunk. The glass thunked out of Regina's hand and landed on the carpeted floor.

The kiss was short, Emma not wanting to over stay her welcome.

Emma pulled away only for Regina to slap her. It was a strong slap, with a sting. Emma's a bit in shock. That was certainly a wake up call from the nice kiss.

"You're always stupid," Regina said before grabbing the front of Emma's flannel and pulling her back in for another kiss. This kiss is hard. Needy. Both of them melt into it, Emma backing Regina up onto the bed covers as her hands drop to Regina's hips. Everything outside the both of them has ceased to exist. They only exist in this moment. In each other's lips.

They press tight against each other as they make out. Every inch touching.

Emma can feel it. Feel Regina's alpha addition against the front of her pants. She's huge. Not that Emma has any experience with dicks, but Regina feels huge. And she's hard for Emma. Normally this would get Emma running the other way. But it was Regina and Emma found she didn't mind. In fact, she liked it. She pressed in harder, wanting to feel in control, wanting to make Regina even harder with their make out session.

She began to gyrate her hips against Regina's hard on and immediately the alpha began to react. Little needy whimpers sounded from the back of Regina's throat as they shared messy kisses. Her nails embedded themselves into Emma's shoulders, spurring the blonde omega on.

Everything was moving so fast, but Emma didn't care. There was no way she could stop. It all felt so good. Emma's heartbeat pounded in her ears as her pulse raced and her hips continued gyrating over Regina's. The alpha's whimpers began to pick up frequency as did her breaths, her hips becoming more desperate as they bucked.

Then Emma felt it, a warmth spreading across her front as Regina threw her head back against the covers, eyes squeezing shut. Emma stopped her movements, breathing heavy in arousal as she saw that a wet mark had covered the front of Regina's burgundy pants. Had...had the alpha come?

Emma could still feel it throbbing below her like in time with a heart beat and she got up, alleviating the pressure there. Her eyes shifted up to Regina's face. Regina's eyes were half lidded now and she had her mouth parted. She looked so...so good right now. So in bliss.

Emma realized her panties were drenched too. She could feel them squelching as she moved.

Fuck. She couldn't recall the last time she'd been this turned on.

And she never thought it would be over some alpha.

"I need to...I need to um, use the restroom," Regina rumbled out, her voice so husky that it literally made Emma shiver, a deep shiver that went into her gut and made wetness spread even further.

Emma gets up and allows Regina to use the restroom to no doubt, clean herself up. Emma might need that bathroom soon too. She hadn't expected them to go so far and she herself was shocked by her bodies own reactions.

Swallowing heavily, she licks her lower lip, tasting some of Regina's chapstick still on it.

She shudders once more in a wash of heat.

Regina wakes up with a massive head ache and the taste of iron in her mouth. She groans and rolls over, instantly regretting it. She's in her own bed, thankfully, and dressed in pjs, but that's about the only responsible part of her actions from yesterday. All of her decisions from last night come flooding back and she buries her head into her pillows in shame as she realizes that not only did she confess to sort of liking Emma, they kissed and then dry humped until Regina came in her pants.

Oh fuck. Talk about embarrassing.

How was she ever going to live this down?

Her stomach gurgled and she shot out of bed to race to the bathroom.

Shit, she was never drinking again.