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Contemplating 2
'Where Am I?!' That was the first thought that came to "her" mind as she came to be an existence in this place.
The place was a classroom, a deserted one. The orange-saffron colored the whole room in a background, signifying the time when the only star illuminating the Earth during the day would leave the horizon, preparing for the time when a lowly, lightless, yet mysterious object of the night sky to borrow its power to take shaped in many different forms along with a lot of beautiful stars as if to help the pitiable object –without light of its own- shined the more brightly with the tiny share of their lights.
Such beautiful things always hidden in our lives plain-sided, it's unfortunately most probably wouldn't be able to see it.
The same with "her".
Not with her mind as it was, not with the sorrow she felt, not with so many emotions inside of her mind right now…
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"u-ugh…"
Feeling a bit of headache, she used a right hand to hold down her temples.
"w…hy…"
*drip*
*drip*
*drip*
Why would her tears… fa… lling… like this? Asking that to no one, she bit her lips.
'u-ugh…'
Why would she… feel so… bitter inside… like this? She asked again, knowing full well the answer to that question.
"I-I Failed… I Failed! I FAILED!"
Shouts of frustration escaped from her mouth.
Tears of bitter sadness escaped from her eyes.
Tightly clenched fists of anger showed in her body language.
Wondering to herself, just when was the last time had such a thing happened to her?
When was it that she had lost control over her emotions like this?
'It's so useless, it's all so useless!'
It would be quite a while for these dripping sounds to stop.
After all…Her memories have come back.
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What would everyone do if you were put into an unfamiliar place?
The place was one that you couldn't even make a little sense out of it. You died, and then you were put in this place. What was the first thing you would do?
Screaming
Shouting
Crying
Laughing
Eating
Sleeping
..Oh, so this is what dream is like?
…thinking like this?
…Oh, my, it's heaven! So many high-school girls! I'm about to go forty, I'm about to be a wizard! It's lucky that I'm here! WAIT FOR ME HIGH-SCHOOL GIRLS!
….
…
…
…Or like that?
…Well, enough about the joke.
Committing suicide
A countless of time –because of the nature of this place- that is what most do for "a countless of time".
Though, some cowardly, or maybe clever (?), just settle for it with screaming or crying, sort of like that.
Even "her" was the same.
However, was committing suicide the next thing she would do, considered how much her sorrow were?
Or was she the coward type after all? Would she just settle for it with crying all day?
Or…
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"I see! Thank you so much for talking with me! I learnt a whole bunch!"
"No, no, don't say that, aren't we friend?"
A girl student talked to "her" in a friendly tone, smiling from ear to ear at the new girl.
"She" smiled back at the girl…
"I think it's a war time! I have an important mission to accomplish! Which is to say: To drop the top secret bomb in a certain battlefield called "the girl's toilet". Well then, see ya'!"
…Suddenly saying that out loud and running out of the classroom with laughers echoed at her back from the classroom.
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'Well then, what should I do next?'
After she was out of the students' sight, she changed to walking at a slow pace while pondering something.
…No need to go to the toilet after all.
She chose to use this approach from the countless approaching tactics she had.
Why?
Because it was her favorite one
Why?
Because it was the easiest way to be friends anyone in a short time
…though she had to admit, even back then, she didn't use it over the top like this
It was much more subtle back then…
'Using this mood maker approach to be friends is fine. Even though it is only a superficial friendship, it is no big deal. After all… that was what I have been doing before coming to this place…'
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Information gathering
That was what she had settled to do. She knew nothing about the place: What exactly was it? How to escape from it? Would her 'wish' ever come true?
Committing suicide had never crossed her mind… not anymore; long before she came to this bizarre place, back when she was 'there'.
Even crying in the classroom back then was unlike of her. She would not cry. She would not be weak. She would not ever surrender herself to such a thing as 'fate'. It is ridiculous to accept such a thing; fate is the thing that people created, not God, not Buddha, not any saint, it's us. It's the thing that SHE created. How she came to be, how she suffered, it's all HERS; faults and what not. This suffering is HER fault; she wouldn't be so hypocritical as to see it as the God's fault and such.
Although when all was said and done, she knew it but she couldn't let it go… Not yet.
"Damn! What the hell am I thinking about?!" she said that out loud in a familiar, yet unfamiliar place: an empty classroom.
Using the hand to hold down her temples and shaking her head, she tried to calm herself down once again.
Now was not the time to think about the philosophy thingy of her anyway.
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It had been 10 days since then. Quite surprising that she was not caught yet: by 'that man'.
Yes, that man, the authority figure of this school, probably the person who could best answer her doubts.
…Well, actually, it was not really that surprising that he couldn't catch her yet. She 'made it' so that would be the case after all.
That's why fate is something that we crea-
Oop! Almost back to that philosophy thingy again!
Anyway, for the progress so far, she had known a lot more things about this place.
…Apparently, this place was a purgatory of sort. Definition from one of the dictionary she read, said, "A place or state of suffering inhabited by the souls of sinners who are expiating their sins before going to heaven."
Not that she would believe it, after all she didn't believe in 'heaven'. Since this was the place before one went to heaven, then, she didn't believe it. 'Cause for her, heaven didn't exist.
…Not the one that most people were thinking about anyway.
But if someone asked her, "Do you think a place exactly like heaven exist?" Then the answer was, "Yeah!"
Confused? She wasn't confused at all. Though she was in no mood to explain to nobody, to thin air, what exactly did it mean?
…Maybe later? Or never?
…Whatever. If the time came, then she would explain it.
If "…." can't wait for it, then maybe you should try to find the answer yourselves?
'Oh! Did I go off topic again?!'
Thinking to herself with a smirk, amusing in her own complex thought.
Back to the main topic, it seemed like 'souls' came to this place; unfulfilled, regretted souls to be more accurate.
And that man had a duty to fulfill those regrets and help them moved on.
To where?
Who know? ^^
And those students she talked with were sort of like Artificial intelligences. They were there to fulfill the void in this place, creating environments that help 'souls' moved on much easier.
…Actually, after she knew this, she would like to try talking with those 'souls'. But she decided against it since that might give her away to that man before she wanted to.
…Although she did get information about them as much as possible from… various things
What were the various things, oh you asked?
Well, there were too many…
But essentially, they were very simple things such as complex reading on body languages, using an AI to get info indirectly, put them (both AI and souls) through the particular situations she had prepared beforehand unknowingly, or as easy as eavesdropping on their conversations with the AI and that man.
Simple, eh?
And from these various things, with only 10 days, she learnt almost everything she needed to know from this place shorted of asking that man directly about things she still had her doubts about.
And last but not least, one thing she found the most annoying in this entire place was… she was here.
A place where unfulfilled souls, resided… she was here.
A place where those idiots cried like a baby endlessly… she was here.
A place where literally suicidal fools were here… she was here.
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…
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PISSING ME OFF!
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Note: Do you think this girl is starting to get too annoying? Give me your opinions.
'Now then, to decide what to do next'
She started to ponder her next move after calming down almost instantly from the 'shocked'.
'I have done almost everything I could to gather as much info as possible without alerting that man. Is now the good time to confront him?'
Well, to say that she would go and confront him without knowing anything would be an insult to her ability.
She had made some theories about that man's origin, using the info she got from the AIs. And she was more or less 70% sure (which was still quite low in her standard) about a particular theory.
'I guess it's the time, nothing I could do more by myself anyway,' she decided.
'The question would be how should I go about it? Hmm… that plan is just fine, I guess.'
She stretched out her hands lazily, with a relaxed expression on her face.
'Well then, I hope you are proved to be an interesting person, Otonashi Yuzuru-san.'
P.S. Have a mixed feeling about this. Reviews please! Salute!
Personally, I believe this character is very important in my plan of development of the series. She is almost as important as both Yuzuru and Kanade for this work. So this is the important step of the story. I really want you guys to give me opinions about her. So I could edit it in time, because, if not, there is no turning back anymore.
I will stop this story for a while waiting for opinions.
But don't worry, we will see each other again soon ^^
At least, that is what I think.
See ya!