A/N: Happy New Year everyone! I know it's been forever since I've updated but there's been a ton of things happening since my last update. I've had people messaging me thinking I've quit writing and I promise you, I would never just stop updating. Things get a little hectic and I have to take advantage of the little pockets of time that I get and type a chapter. So, it's very hard to do that for multiple stories and then update regularly. I hope you guys understand where I'm coming from. But anyway, enjoy this new chapter :D

Waking up to James completely wrapped around me was a new but welcomed experience. I didn't want to disturb him so I stayed still but at the same time I wanted to see what time it was. It was still dark outside but I knew that the sun should be rising pretty soon. I reached for my phone without moving my whole body and had to pinch the very end of it with two of my fingers to get it.

Once I had it in my hand, I looked down at him to make sure I didn't wake him. I opened my phone and started going through my social media. I checked my Instagram and noticed that I hadn't posted pictures in a while and I went through my older pictures to see if there was one I could post. I was about to post one but I remembered that I had already posted it. I made a mental note to take more pictures since my followers blew up. I went to my twitter and the number of mentions I had was ridiculous, so I just went to Tumblr instead. I scrolled and reblogged a few funny things before I reached a picture. It was a picture of James on my back from when he jumped from his tour bus. I scrolled down to see that there were comments underneath the caption.

DiamonddLoverr commented, "I love his new bodyguard."

ShowMeTheDiamondD added, "My baby looks so happy."

DiamondIsForever added, "I ship them so hard!"

ShowMeTheDiamondD replied, "Grace, no, please."

VictoriesUnnoticed added, "His name is Kendall! #KAMES"

DiamondIsForever then responded, "MY NEW OTP #KAMES"

I couldn't stop the blush that slowly appeared on my face as I read them going back and forth. I continued to scroll and saw different pictures of us at different points before there was a gif-set of the whole thing. I couldn't stop smiling at it so I liked the post. When I scrolled back to the top to refresh the page, I felt a pair of lips on my stomach. I looked down to see James looking up at me.

"Hey." I mumbled and he smiled softly.

"What are you doing?"

"Tumblr." I said, showing him my phone. He covered his eyes from the bright screen and I quickly apologized before turning down the brightness. I showed him again and he sat up a bit more. He pushed along the screen and I knew he was scrolling.

"I've been wanting to make one of these."

"Yeah, it's fun to-"

"You follow fan blogs of me?" He asked and I pressed the hold button, darkening my screen.

"Nope." I said before getting out of the bed. I felt his hand grab the waistband of my underwear, pulling them down slightly. He let them go and I jumped slightly as they snapped back in place.

"You have such a cute little butt." He said, laying back in the bed. I rolled my eyes at him before going into the bathroom. When I was done using it, I returned to see him sitting on the edge of the bed going through his phone. I crawled onto the bed and moved behind him to rest my chin on his shoulder. He did a little side-ways glance towards me and I smirked before turning to see that he was on Twitter. I moved so that I was sitting behind him instead of being on my knees and he ran a hand on my thigh. It wasn't at all sexual but more of a comfortable touch between us. I kept my chin on his shoulder and watched as he scrolled. I wrapped my arms around him and eventually my eyes closed with the blur of a fan tweeting about James' hair.

"Kames." I heard James say and I couldn't stop myself from smiling. He repeated it as if he were testing how it would sound.

"I like it." I mumbled and he placed a hand over mine. His scrolling was starting to slow and I glanced over to see that he was dozing off again. I scooted back on the bed and tapped his side. He scooted back on the bed and when he felt his back hit my chest, he leaned all of his weight against me. I supported him for a moment until he leaned his head back. I fell back and he gasped a little. He turned over and laid completely on me.

"What are you doing?" I asked him as he tried to line our legs up. He looked so concentrated on the task and when he wiggled his hips, I had to stop him. I placed my hands on his hips and he sighed, turning his head so that his lips were near my neck. We stayed like this for a moment before he moved his hips again, humping against me.

"Stop." I said, gripping his hips harder. I knew what he wanted so I turned us over and laid on top of him.

"You're crushing me."

"I am not." I said, already supporting my weight.

"Wait, no. I like it." He said, wrapping his arms around me, trying to pull me down.

"You're ridiculous." I said, slowly letting my weight down on him.

"You're so warm." He whispered before I felt his cold hands on my back. I glared at him and he pecked my lips. About two hours later, we were waking up again to sunlight coming through the hotel window. It made us perfectly warm and I couldn't help but smile when I realized that James fell asleep with his hands in my pants, holding onto my butt. I leaned up out of his neck and smiled at his sleeping face.

"James, it's time to wake up." I whispered to him. He groaned in response and I shook my head at him. Instead of fighting for him to get up, I decided to make sure that everything was ready for him. I climbed off of him and replaced the covers before heading into the bathroom. I brushed my teeth and washed my face before I laid out James' toothbrush and toothpaste along with a cloth to wash his face.

I decided to just lay out some sweatpants and a t-shirt for him since I knew he probably would have to practice the choreography today. I changed into what I was wearing today which was nothing but a pair of jeans and a white t-shirt. I wondered if the venue offered up staff t-shirts or something to make me look more official. I had on my socks and before I put on my shoes I knew I had to wake James up. I grabbed his phone and slowly straddled him. I unlocked it and hovered over him before snapping a picture. The shutter sound went off and as I tried to stop it, he opened his eyes.

"Caught you creeping."

"I wasn't creeping." I said, fighting my blush. He took the phone from me and smiled at the picture before he noticed that it was his phone. He tapped the screen before he smiled. I glared at him and he tapped the screen again with his smile increasing.

"Are you taking pictures of me?" I asked him and he put his phone on hold before shaking his head at me. I knew he was lying but we didn't have time for this back and forth, so, I just got off of him.

"Come on, time to get up and get dressed." I told him and I was surprised when he didn't fight me on it. He actually got up and headed into the bathroom.

"What time do we have to be there?"

"Your mother wants you there at noon." I told him, remembering the conversation I had with last night. She also warned me about being late and all that but I began to tune her out. That's something that I'm learning to do more and more. When he came out of the bathroom, he looked down at the clothes I laid out for him before he looked over at me.

"Just put the clothes on James." I said, not looking up from my phone as I played a game. Once he was dressed, I closed out the game and sent a text to Kelly. I figured she could relay the message to James' mother since I have yet to get her number. I knew James had it so it didn't bother me that much. James was completely dressed and we were heading out into the abyss of fans out front.

"Got your lotion?" I asked him and he flipped me off as he opened the door. The number of fans outside was tremendously smaller and I figured the fans from before were attending the concert later on or something. James waved to a few of them while I continued to push them apologizing for James not taking any pictures. When we climbed into the truck, James looked at me confused before I showed him the text that Kelly had sent back which told me to do exactly as instructed, no pictures at all. James shook his head while the fans banged on the window, trying to get his attention. He waved to a few of them before we took off.

"Oh, they're running." James said as the girls and one guy sprinted for the van.

"That's really dangerous." He commented before he took out his phone. He's tweeting about it or something, I'm sure of it. By the time we pull up to the venue, James is already giddy about tonight's show. He got the confirmation from Janet Jackson apparently already on her way, which is surreal to think about. I mean, James is a big pop star but Janet Jackson of all people.

"What are you thinking about?" James asked me as the car came to a stop.

"Nothing." I said before getting out. He followed me and playfully glared at me as he stepped out, heading for the backstage door.

"Nope, you're definitely thinking. I can see the gears breaking off the cobwebs and everything."

"Oh, James, you're a comedian." I said in a flat tone that made him laugh. I tried to fight off the smile that threatened to come to my face as we walked next to each other. I was painfully aware of the camera crew that showed up when we pulled up and the guys from yesterday filming directly behind us. This must be for the behind the scenes footage or something because they didn't say a word. Normally, they would say somethin- "Uh, can you guys stop walking and let us get some footage of us in front of you?" One of them said, as if on que. James nodded and we both stopped and let them move passed us in this hallway that wasn't meant for all of this. Once they gave us the thumbs up, we continued walking in silence before James bumped me.

"Don't start. Your mother will kill me if she chases us around this arena again."

"Not if she doesn't know we're here or you joined the fun sucker club."

"Fine but if we get caught, I'm trying to catch you."

"Oh, so, you want me to take the blame."

"Hell yeah, she can't fire you." I said, looking at him as if he were crazy which only made him laugh.

"Okay, you're on." With a push against my chest, James went sprinting down the hallway. I playfully glared at him before chasing after him. The camera crew chased after us for a moment before James turned a corner too fast and collided with a trunk of the stage gear. When I say collided, I mean full on hit the damn thing. By the time I caught up to him we both were laughing so hard, we had trouble breathing.

"Jesus James." I said between struggling to breath and holding back my laughter. I helped him off of the floor as our laughter turned into slight chuckling and he turned to the cameras.

"I hope you guys didn't get that." James said and their only reply was a slight smirk. Turns out, they had gotten most of the running and you could hear the second James impacted with the trunk. I tried to stifle my laughter as he learned the last bit of dance moves but he eventually caught on and demanded to watch the footage. By the look on his face, I knew he was going to ask for it to be cut from the final footage but I hope they keep it anyway.

Once the stage was set up, James and his dancers headed out to practice the dance for the last time. The choreographer sat in one of the seats in the crowd as she watched the performance and it was weird watching James walk from spot to spot and dance all while not singing a word. When this was done, he headed backstage and I followed, of course. Kelly was waiting in his dressing room with his complete outfit and he about flipped his entire shit at the sight of it. The final design was even better than what was drawn on paper and James was losing his mind. What Lucy had created was something completely different than what James would normally wear. The jacket was almost floor length with the shoulders covered in the leather that matched Janet's skirt in the performance we watched. The arms of the jacket had slits in them staring mid forearm that revealed the bright red inside. The pants he was going to wear was made out of the same black material as the jacket and had bright red lines going all around them, appearing to look like veins.

"I'm so glad you like it. I was hoping you didn't think it was too basic."

"Basic? This is amazing Lucy!" James said before he all but threw himself at her. She smiled but you could tell it shocked the hell out of her.

"Why thank you. I was going to add skulls and all that but it would come off during the choreography."

"Skulls be damned; this outfit is amazing. I want to wear right now."

"No, but you can try it on, tell me how it feels. I even lengthened the underarm area slightly so that you have more room for movement. The material is super light so it doesn't weight you down and the pants are breathable." Lucy said as James put the jacket on. He turned to the mirror and couldn't stop smiling as he examined himself in it. It was almost too adorable to handle and Lucy almost had to pry the thing off of him.

"So, in terms of your set list, where is the song going?" I asked.

"I was thinking towards the end but then I wouldn't be able to change quickly enough."

"Change? You're practically naked on stage." I said and he scoffed at my words and so did Lucy. "James, you don't even have a shirt for the outfit she just made you." I explained and Lucy shrugged at that while James rolled his eyes.

"Whatever, I have to change into my all white outfit and those pants are irritating to put on after a night of sweating."

"Okay, so what did you go with?"

"Right after my Worldwide girl, I'll hug her and all that and run backstage. That way, my dancers can change before I do. Then, we surprise Janet." James explained to me and I nodded in agreement with his decision. It was funny to see that the camera men seemed to have caught that whole entire thing on film and James hadn't even noticed, or at least he didn't seem to have.

God, I hope they keep all of this footage.

It was almost show time and James was starting to get dressed when too many things started happening at once.

James rips his pants while stretching which has Lucy running around in a hurry.

He accidentally ran his fingers through his hair which has Kelly going back to try and salvage the look.

Lucy ends up running into one of the camera men while holding a new pair of pants she had on reserve. Thank goodness she plans for emergencies.

Mrs. Diamond is running back and forth before telling James that he has guests, which puts him even more on edge. It's the most hectic backstage I've ever seen. James finally styled, dressed, and stretched is ready to meet his guests who are more than likely famous. At that moment, his new outfit catches his eye.

"Kendall, oh my god, can you please take this to the quick change area?" James asks me and I'm nodding before I realize what I'm doing. I take the outfit off of the hook and fold it so that you only see that I'm holding something black. I am honestly so lucky that I did that because as soon as I open the door, there's the one and only Janet Jackson standing there.

"Oh, hello." She says to me and she's honestly the last person I expected to meet in James' crazy world. I stutter out some sort of greeting before I remember that I'm supposed to be helping. It took me longer than I'd ever admit to find the quick change booth for him but nevertheless, I placed the jacket and pants next to his outfit that he wears when he sings Worldwide before I notice that he doesn't have shoes. Not even seconds later, Lucy comes sprinting in with a panicked look on her face and boots in her hand.

"Oh thank god. Please tell me she didn't see it?" Lucy asks and I shook my head. She sighed heavily before she sat the boots down underneath the outfit. "This whole thing has everyone on edge. I mean, one thing after another. How the hell are you so calm?"

"Oh no, I have a more internal freak out than external." I explained and it seemed to brighten her spirits slightly. I went back to where James was and saw that he was telling Janet that he had a surprise for her. Luckily, he didn't tell her but he did hint at something about how she'll just have to trust him. Watching them go back and forth in a conversation was so surreal to me. I mean, most of what we've been doing so far has been surreal but this definitely takes the cake. If it didn't then the other celebrities that came flooding in did.

People I've been watching since I was a child were coming in. They greeted James and shook his hand and even took pictures. Of course, they brought their family members, who are fans of his. It was getting closer and closer to show time and everyone started to leave to take their seats. The only people left in the room were me, James, and Kelly, who was packing a small bag to move her products into the quick change booth. James was readjusting his outfit once again and I could really tell that he was getting increasingly nervous. I moved behind him and smiled at him in the mirror while placing my hands on his shoulders.

"James, calm down. You're going to be amazing. This is like any other concert."

"But what if I forget the words?"

"There's no way that you're going to forget the words. You've been listening to the song over and over ever since you decided to do this. You are going to blow this crowd away and Janet is going to be so happy." I told him and he smiled before turning around to hug me.

"I don't know what I would do without you." He whispered in my ear.

"Probably completely bomb this." He gasped at that and broke our hug. He checked over himself one last time before a stage manager came in and gave him the five-minute mark. Kelly zipped up her bag and gave James a quick hug before she headed to her position.

"Good luck kiss?" James asked me before I opened the door and I happily connected our lips.

"Good luck." I said as once our kiss ended. I opened the door for him and closed it behind us as he headed to the crowd of his background dancers.

Everyone got into a group huddle and James gave a quick prayer and a speech to hype everyone up before the stage manager gave them the one-minute mark. I should probably stay backstage for bodyguard purposes but I knew James would want me in the front row. I made my way to the front just before the lights dimmed and his band began to play.

The concert so far had been going extremely well. James looked so comfortable on stage and didn't miss one lyric. He played around with the cameras as they glided around the arena and still hit his marks for the dance moves. So, I was completely surprised when the second Worldwide was over, he gestured for me to come back stage. The look on his face when he saw me in his quick change booth was something I hadn't seen since that night in the club.

"What's wrong?"

"Kendall, I'm so fucking nervous. My hands won't stop shaking and it feels like my heart is about to burst." James said as he finished changing. He hadn't put on his jacket yet and Kelly was standing by, waiting to restyle his hair. I stepped up to him and held both of his hands. He was shaking and his hands were going cold.

"Hey, look at me." I said, getting his eyes to lock with mine. "You're ready for this performance, James. You are. You know the words and you know the choreography. Even if you mess up the choreography, no one will know. This is a one-time performance. This is something that you're doing for fun."

"But Janet-"

"Janet is going to be happy with it just because you're doing it. Anything messed up could be interpreted as a creative change." He nodded at my words before he took a deep breath. I grabbed his jacket and held it open for him to put his arms in as Kelly quickly styled his hair. Once the jacket was on, he adjusted his mic on his head before he turned to me. I gave him a quick kiss as I put together the only two buttons before he walked out of the quick change booth.

"Thank you, so much." Kelly said as she sighed, placing her products down. I gave her a quick nod before leaving.

"Now, you all know how much I'm inspired by my good friend Janet Jackson. She's hear tonight and I have bit of a surprise for her and for all of you guys as well." James said as he stood behind the curtain with two other dancers he was going out with.

When the music started, he turned to me and I gave him a smile and a thumbs up before gesturing for him to take a deep breath. He smiled at that before the curtains opened and the dancers headed out. I wasn't going to make it back to my seat without missing something, so, I just watched from the side of the stage.

I couldn't stop smiling as the crowd screamed as he came on stage. He was getting every move down correctly from what I could tell and he was really getting into the song which helped the performance tremendously. I wondered how Janet felt about his performance. There was no doubt in my mind that she is loving it, especially since he hasn't messed up.

I moved out of the way of the background dancers coming through again for the second verse and James hadn't missed a beat. He joined them and kept up with them and the screams went into a higher octave when he hit the high note as he danced in sync with everyone.

When they grouped around him, his backup dancer ripped open his jacket just as the guitarist came up and murdered the solo in the song. He wasn't joking when he said he would learn it because he had it down perfectly. When the final group dance ended and the song was over, the arena was filled with screams.

A stagehand came up next to me with a flashlight in order for everyone to see as they headed backstage to change out of their costumes. James came back there with a huge smile on his face before he tackled me in a hug. I kept the both of us from falling over before one of the stage hands called for him. I kissed him on the sweaty cheek before he ran over to change his clothes again. I decided to spend the rest of the concert back in my seat in the front row.

When the concert ended, everyone in the audience kept cheering until the lights came back on. A bunch of girls were talking about the special performance and how sexy James looked and I couldn't contain my smile. A few others were talking about the cameras and how lucky they were to see James in person. I was about to head backstage when I felt a small tug on my sleeve. I would've thought it was nothing but there was a smaller person looking up at me.

"Hello." I said to the little girl.

"You're James' bodyguard, aren't you?"

"How did you know that?"

"My sister told me."

"Where is your sister?" I asked her when I noticed no one seemed to be with her since everyone else were making their way to the exit.

"Uh oh." She said, looking around and I couldn't help but smile at her adorableness.

"Don't worry, we'll find her." I told her and she nodded while taking off her protective headphones. We followed the crowd to the main lobby and the massive amount of girls made it almost impossible for the little girl to see. I picked her up and placed her on my shoulder.

"Do you see her?"

"TINA!"

"Found her." Tina said, looking down at me. I chuckled as Tina's sister pushed pass other girls. I sat Tina down and the girls' older sister looked relieved as she hugged her sister.

"Oh my god. I thought I lost you. Mom would've killed me."

"Yeah she would've but its okay." Tina said, smiling.

"Thank you so much." Tina's older sister said before she actually looked at me. When she did, I recognized that look and I shushed her before she lost her mind.

"Y-You're Ja-James' body-"

"Yes, I am. Please don't freak out. I'd never make it out of here alive." I said, looking around to see if anyone heard her. A few girls glanced over at us and I sighed when they just went back to purchasing whatever souvenirs were left over. We exchanged hugs and she thanked me before I offered for us to take an incognito selfie. She seemed pretty happy about that and I had to make a break for it when someone noticed me. I made my way backstage, pass all of the security before I headed to James' dressing room. The door was open and when I walked in he was talking to Janet while the camera men filmed the two having their exchange.

"I just can't believe that you did all of this for me. It's very sweet of you to do this." Janet told James.

"You are my inspiration and I just felt this urge to do something special for you."

"What made you pick that song?"

"I just felt like it was one of your underrated songs. Plus, the theatricality of it all made it something no one would expect from me."

"Definitely was something unexpected and I'm sure your fans loved it as much as I did."

"Thank you so much."

"No, thank you for this amazing concert. I'm sure I'll be seeing it again." She said, gesturing to the cameras.

"That's the plan." James said before they said their goodbyes.

Once she was gone, the camera men asked James to do a final sign off for the end of the concert. I sat on the couch in the dressing room and waited until he was done. When he came back in, he ran over and jumped on my lap, smiling.

"You like the concert?"

"Of course." I said, wrapping my arms around him. He was about to kiss me but someone cleared their throat. We both turned to see Kelly standing there with her arms folded.

"You know, if you two are supposed to be secret, you're doing a bad job of it." She pointed out.

"Well, the internet seems to like us." I said, regretting it immediately after.

"What?!"

"Kelly, calm down, it's purely fan speculation." James said, climbing off of me. "They don't have concrete information and my mom vaguely knows about us."

"Oh, she knows. Why do you think she keeps sending me to keep a close eye on you two?" James rolled his eyes at Kelly's words and I couldn't help but shake my head. "She said, and I quote, please keep those two from destroying James' career for this fling of theirs." James looked offended by this but I had a slight feeling that she felt this way. I mean, she's already tried to pay me off, so, I'm not surprised.

"C'mon, let's just head back to the hotel. This tour isn't over just yet." I said, getting up from the couch. We both headed out to the truck that was picking us up and we could already hear the fans screaming as they waited for James. The second we climbed into the truck, I was on top of James before he could put on his seatbelt. He was caught by surprise as I started kissing on his neck.

"Kendall, oh my god. I'm all sweaty."

"I don't care." I said as I leaned back before capturing his lips. He really got into it once my tongue entered his mouth. The only problem was when that happened he started moaning with it. I didn't want to make our actions known to the driver, so I pulled off of James and covered his mouth.

"Shh, he can't know what's going on back here." I whispered in his ear. He nodded in response and I grounded my hips against his and he bit his lip in order to keep quiet. I grabbed him by the back of his neck and brought our lips together again. I suddenly pulled off of him and wound down the window.

"Say goodbye to your fans." I said as he gasped. I tried to hold in my laughter as the fans screamed things at him. I waved to them as well before James rolled up the window.

"I hate you so much."

"No, you don't." I quickly replied before he tried to kiss me again. I stopped him and pointed out the back window.

"Fans running might see us."

"I don't care." He said as his attempt to mock me before he kissed me. I chuckled as our lips connected in many little kisses before he really started going for it.

Our make out session was heavy until we reached the hotel and I was more than happy to give James what he had been asking for since we met. The only problem that we have is the fact that we both have boners and every single fan has a camera phone. James reached for the door and I tried to stop him but he already opened the door. I managed to pull it to keep it from swinging open but I was currently laying on his lap with the smallest grip on the door.

"Kendall, what are you doing?"

"Boners." I said just before the door was pulled open. I fell onto the floor and James burst out laughing before stumbling out of the car with a jacket; my jacket to be exact.

"Good luck." He yelled before he ran.

"James!" I jumped up and ran after him while trying to cover my boner. The fans screamed and tried to get to James before trying to get to me while James kept running. He ran into the elevator and I caught up to him just before the doors closed.

"You know I feel like our relationship is more of me chasing you." I said as I caught my breath.

"It's romantic. Chasing after something you'll never get." He said, showing off his abs.

"Oh really?" I said, crowding him into the corner.

"Yup."

"I could kiss you right now."

"Can you press the button for our floor first?" He said, chuckling. Once I hit the button though, he spent the entire ride avoiding me. I stopped him the second the doors opened and he started laughing even harder.

"We're not having a repeat of last time."

"Aww, come on, it's fun." He said, dropping himself to the point I had to hold him up. We stumbled a little but I still held on. He stood up and I pushed him up against the wall in the hallway, crowding up behind him. "I'm thinking of other ways we could have fun." I whispered in his ear.

"You talk a good game. Can you back it up?"

"Last time I checked, my 'talk' was enough to finish you off." He moaned at that and I kissed him on his neck. He gasped at that and moved away from me. "Not until I shower." He said as he walked down the hallway.

I followed him into the room and he was in the shower before I could convince him not to. I reached for the door knob and was surprised to find that it opened. I couldn't help but laugh as he stood there shirtless with his hand extended towards me.

"No." He said, pushing on my chest.

"James, you're ruining the mood."

"And you're trying to get a mood started after I've spent hours sweating under a hot spotlight." He said, pushing me more before he closed the door. I shook my head at him before reaching for my phone. I remembered how odd our run into the hotel might've looked so I had to think of something to put out publicly before things got crazy. So, I tweeted that I couldn't believe that I ripped my pants. It was the perfect cover.

I bet that Mrs. Diamond would be so proud of me. I couldn't help but sigh at the fact that I've systematically somehow closeted myself. The realization hadn't hit me until now because I've been so preoccupied with making sure James is okay. Just when the realization seemed to be getting me down, I heard his voice. His golden voice that is going to win him everything and anything he'll ever want. The voice that reminds me that some sacrifices are worth it. To be honest, I think sacrificing me being out for him being happy is a fair trade. Would I love for us to go walking down the street holding hands? Hell yeah but he wouldn't be able to do that even if we did come out. My constant thinking came to an end when the shower water turned off. I planned on starting my sexual deviance the second he came out the shower but he just opened the door. I got up, took off my shirt, and walked to the bathroom door to see him standing next to the shower in a towel.

"James, what are you doing?"

"I want you to get in the shower too and the last time I tried to do that, you basically jerked me off and made me take another shower."

"James, you're so killing the mood right now."

"Kendall, I don't want us to be dirty when we finally get-"

"Dirty." I interrupted.

"Yes, I am glad you finally see it-"

"No, James." I said, almost feeling bad for wiping the smile off of his face but I was getting frustrated.

"Sex is going to get dirty and it just doesn't make sense to me that you want to get clean before we get dirty again. Do you know we've fallen into a routine?" I asked him and he crossed his arms while looking at the ground.

"What's that?" He mumbled.

"After every concert and even sometimes before. I run and chase you. You stop in the elevator, I catch you before the doors close and we laugh about it all before we go into the room where you push me away after all of that teasing." I expressed to him and he sighed.

"I just…I want us to be clean."

"Is there something wrong?" I asked him when I saw how somber his expression turned.

"I…didn't know. I thought what we were doing was fun."

"Don't get me wrong it is but-"

"You want more." He said cutting me off. "I get it Kendall. Being bunched up in hotel rooms isn't the glamorous life you thought I lived and-"

"James, what are you talking about?"

"-and you're becoming bored. I knew this was going to happen. I knew it."

"Bored? Who said anything about being bored? I love spending time with you."

"Then why did you bring up the routine?"

"Because of the constant teasing. I thought that since tonight you were doing something special that we end the night special."

"Well is it too much to ask that we be clean?"

"No, but, I know how this is going to end. I'm going to get in the shower and you'll end up being sleep when I get out."

"Look, Kendall. I put on a show for thousands of people a night. I am sticky and sweaty and I feel gross. Also, me being tired is inevitable."

"I know that, James."

"So, why are you always on my back for wanting to be clean?!" He yelled at me.

"Because I want to have sex with you! Is that too much to ask?!" I could feel the conversation getting to the point of yelling but I didn't expect for him to actually take it there. So, I couldn't fight my frustration anymore and I had to yell back.

"Why are you pressuring me?!"

"What?" I asked, utterly confused. He shook his head and folded his arms even tighter. "James, how am I pressuring you?" My tone was relatively soft compared to the screaming we just did.

"Because everything with you is just sex! Sex! Sex! You think I'm teasing, well, let me introduce to you the biggest tease of them all, Kendall Knight! Do you know how much it kills me to not just throw myself at you like some cheap whore?!" The words. His words. His accusations. Him confusing me just…it made me…I don't even know.

"Then do it! Let's have sex, right now!"

"No!"

"See! This is what I'm talking about! But I'm the tease?! You're not making any god damn sense! Why won't you have sex with me?! That is the one question I need answered right now!"

"BECAUSE KENDALL!" He yelled and at this point, my blood was raging. James wasn't making any sense and then he just started coming up with these accusations, trying to flip things on me. I didn't even do anything wrong.

"Well?!" I said, louder than I expected when he just stopped himself. He just froze up and I could see the grip he had on his arms grow tighter.

"Because…" He continued but it was so faint that I didn't even hear the rest of what he was saying.

"Huh?"

"…I'm a virgin, Kendall." He said as a tear fell from his eyes. "THERE! Are you happy?!" He yelled at me, catching me off guard. I flinched at his words. I wasn't happy at all. Instead, I felt like a complete ass. I just wanted to make this day into something really special for him but things just got out of control so quickly. He let out a shaky sigh and tried to storm pass me but I grabbed him by his arms.

"No, get off me."

"James, I'm sorry. I had no idea." I said, holding him there with me. He stopped trying to pull away and just settled with looking down at the ground.

"Nobody does. I feel like I'm lying about everything. I just…I'm tired of lying. I thought I could just lie about being a virgin until I wasn't, then, everything would be fine but I…can't."

"No, that's not how it's supposed to be. I shouldn't have been pressuring you to have sex with me."

"Well, I didn't exactly say no to everything else."

"But that doesn't mean yes to go all the way. I should've asked you about all of this instead of assuming. God, and I gave you a blowjob while you were sleeping."

"My first." He said and I gaped at that.

"Oh my god, and then I freaking said all of those things that I would do and just…"

"Hey, hey, hey, those things were amazing and I'm completely looking forward to each and every bit of it. I'm just…not ready just yet. I should've told you that after the first time we fooled around instead of doing this whole shower tango."

"Then I stepped in the shower with you and just-"

"Kendall, hey, yoo-hoo, I have no problem with everything else." He told me and I shook my head before moving us in front of the slightly foggy mirror. I wiped it enough so that he could see the two of us as I looked over his shoulder and spoke.

"No, James. Your first time should be…spectacular. All of those things I said were-"

"Amazingly sexy and I want to experience all of it. I'm not some angel that you disgraced. Remember, I gave you a blowjob first. Don't beat yourself up over my secret. Like I said, I should've told you. I'm the one who has been living this lie that I try to sell."

"It's not a lie."

"No, it definitely is." He said, chuckling. "I'm expressing and singing about feelings that I'm only just now starting to feel about someone." He looked down after that and I didn't know how to feel about all of this but then I got an idea.

"Hey, I want you to do something for me, two things, actually." I said and he looked up at us in the mirror. "I want you to remember the words I said to you when I first joined you. I, Kendall Knight, will be here for as long as you want me here. That's one. Two, I promise that your first time will be-"

"Spectacular?"

"Legendary." I corrected him and he laughed at that. "But, there's something I want you to promise me."

"Of course."

"No more secrets between us. At least nothing big like this. Small stuff like secret flowers or something is fine but-"

"I understand."

"I'm sorry for pressuring you, again." I said, kissing his shoulder. My kisses moved from his shoulder to his neck but I stopped there and glanced up at him in the mirror.

"You're insufferable." He said, rolling his eyes before he walked out of the bathroom. I took my shower and thought about how this would technically be our first real fight. When I got out, he was sleep on the edge of the bed. He looked like he was waiting for me, or at least trying to. I dried off and put on a pair of my underwear before I tapped him. He glanced up at me and he looked so tired. I helped him move to the head of the bed before getting us underneath the covers. I wasn't really tired just yet but I wanted to be close to him. This must've been something that has been eating at him for so long. I still slightly feel like an ass for the way I acted.

"Kendall, I can hear you thinking." He mumbled as he turned over to cuddle up next to me.

"No you can't."

"Go to sleep." I smiled at his words and kissed his forehead before closing my eyes.

A/N: These guys are just adorable. I hope you all aren't too too upset about the plot twist I threw in here. I've hard conversations with my friends on what I should do and this option was favored among most. Don't worry guys, the time will come for them to do the deed, however, just not today. The performance that James did that was inspired by Janet Jackson called Trust A Try. I don't think I can post YouTube videos with my stories but if you search the song on YouTube, the performance comes up. It's not the best quality but you can get an idea of what everything looked like. Thanks for reading and reviews are much appreciated. :D