Woohoo I love the progression we're making. I just want to make the hugest shout out to all my readers. You guys are amazing and I love that you guys are so patient and keep reading. It makes this so worth it. Anyway on to one of my favorite chapters ever- hope you all like it too. Not only was this one of the very first few dreams I had to start this series but I just really like this chapter. Enjoy!

What Now:

The next day went by slowly to Kendall. She did the songs she wanted, however once she was done she still had this feeling inside. She looked through her ipod hoping to find something to do.

"What now…" I asked myself. 'I have been going through all my emotions, some surprising me, so now what….' "What is there left…what now…" I spoke aloud, closing my eyes, still having my thumb mindlessly scroll through songs. I accidently pressed on one and heard how it started. I opened my eyes and looked at my ipod. "Perfect." I scrolled it back so it would start all over and placed it on my doc. I closed my eyes. 'Just let the emotions go…' I clicked the remote and wanted to sing.

I've been ignoring this big lump in my throat

I shouldn't be crying, tears were for the weaker

Some days I'm stronger

Now what so I say, but something missing

Whatever it is feels like It's laughing at me

Through the glass of a two sided mirror

I walked closer to the mirror.

Whatever it is, it's just laughing at me

And I just want to scream…

I placed my hand on the mirror

What…Now? I just can't figure it out.

What…Now?

I turned around.

I guess I'll just wait it out

Wait it out

What…Now?

Ooh, What…Now?

I placed my hand on my chest, looking to the side.

I found the one, he changed my life

Or was it me that changed

And he happened to come at the right time

I'm supposed to be in love, but I'm numb again

I got off the mirror now facing it.

Whatever it is, it feels likes it's laughing at me

Through the glass of a two sided mirror

Whatever it is, it's just sitting there laughing at me

And I just want to scream

I got on my knees, bending back.

What…now? I just can't figure it out

What…Now? I guess I'll just wait it out

Wait it out

I got back up, looking at the mirror.

What…Now? Please tell me

What….Now

I placed my hands on the mirror, lowering my head.

There's no one to call

Cause I'm just playing games with them all

I looked up.

The more I swear I'm happy

The more that I'm feeling alone

I started to get up, having my back on the mirror now.

Cause I spend every hour just going through motions

I can't even get the emotions to come out

I turned around, banging my palm against the mirror.

Dry as bone but I just want to shout!

What….now? I just can't figure it out

I turned back around.

What….Now? I guess I'll just have to wait it out

Wait it out

What…Now?

I walked forward and placed my hands on my head, then went to my knees.

Somebody tell me!

What…Now?

I bent backwards.

I don't know where to go

I don't know what to feel

I don't know how to cry

I don't know oh oh why

I turned over facing the mirror back on my knees.

I don't know where to go

I don't know what to feel

I don't know how to cry

I don't know oh oh why

I got up, walking towards the mirror.

I don't know where to go

I don't know what to feel

I don't know how to cry

I don't know oh oh why

I had my back on the mirror again.

So what….Now?

I let out a deep breath sinking to the floor.

"What now…." I leaned my head back. I sat there for who knows how long, but I was tired. Tired of all of it. I opened my eyes and clenched my fists. "I know what I need to do…" I got up and grabbed my ipod. I took one final glance at the mirror. She had a smile on her face. I let out a breath. "It's time…" I ran out the door to my home. I snuck in as usual. I took off my hood. I heard the front door open and close, and what sounded like someone going into the kitchen. 'Linnie…' I walked over to the kitchen seeing her put away some groceries and placing some ingredients on the counter to sook something. She glanced over and saw me.

"Kendall…hey sweetie…are…are you hungry? I'm just about to make dinner." She asked.

"Linnie what day is it today?" I was so off, I didn't even know what today was. During this whole time I wasn't good at keeping track of the days.

"Uh, well today was Wednesday and tomorrow will be Thursday. And um…it's November…in fact I think it's the end of the month." She informed softly. I glanced away. 'Have I been not here that long….' I shook the thought from my head. "It's funny how fast time goes huh?" she lightly laughed trying to lighten the mood. I glanced back at her,

"Yeah… Linnie…." I took a deep breath. "I want to go to school tomorrow." I told her. Her eyes widened.

"Are…are…are you sure?" She was a little breathless from shock, excitement and joy I think. "Are you…are you ready to go back?" She was having hope again. I had a small smile.

"Yes…it's time… I need to get back to myself and it might not be completely the same, but I need to be there… at school…and…" I glanced away. "Hopefully with my friends…again." I spoke quietly, but loud enough for her to hear.

"Oh Kendall!" She came up and hugged me, tears coming down her cheeks. "I'm so happy you're doing this…and I'll help you as best I can and I'm positive your friends will be there for you too." I hugged her back. 'This feeling…I've missed it so much.' "Now…" She wiped her tears. "Let's make you something to eat, anything you want. And then as I'm cooking you can go rest or get cleaned up and….oh I'm just so happy." She started to laugh. I chuckled.

"Well what you were getting started to make seems fine to me." I smiled glancing at the food items she already had out. "I think that will be good Linnie." She nodded.

"Okay then. I'll cook and you just relax okay." She reassured.

"Actually I'm going to go take a shower, something tells me I need a serious hair wash that's been long overdue." She nodded as I started to head upstairs. From there I went to my bathroom, turning on the water to warm it up. I started to strip and noticed my body for the first time in a long time. On my right arm were cuts along with on my fist, but they were starting to close up. In fact many of my wounds all over my body seemed to have healed quite a bit, even most of my bruises were yellow. My smaller cuts were closed and my other marks that you can say at one time were welts, were gone. I was probably going to have a few scars from my bigger wounds, but you wouldn't really notice them. It was weird to see though. It was like I was actually starting to look…normal again, even though I was far from it. I was gradually getting there, and I was going to make sure of that. I'll get better, it was just going to take time. I finally noticed the mirror begin to fog and got into the shower. It felt amazing. I washed my body a few times and my hair a few more. I wanted to make sure I was not only completely clean, but also smelt so, and felt better in my own way I guess. Once I was done with the shower I wrapped a towel around my hair to towel dry. I think the soup did wonders for me as well seeing as my body was finally clean and clear of dirt and blood. I went into my bedroom and looked in the mirror and could finally see I did look normal and okay, except for some dark circles under my eyes. Hopefully rest would fix that though. I grabbed my pj's and put them on along with my robe before heading downstairs. I could smell Linnie's delicious cooking. It never occurred to me how long I didn't eat until I sat down with her to eat. I think I had three or four servings of her delicious food. They weren't big portions, but enough that I was certainly full afterwards. I wanted to help after dinner, but she insisted that I get some rest and that she'd even make breakfast tomorrow before school. I nodded, seeing as arguing would be pointless and personally I was really tired. I didn't sleep much either this whole time, I just now realized. I gave her a hug and kiss goodnight, before going up to my room to get a full night's sleep, on an actual bed. With a blanket and pillow, which I haven't had in so long. It felt great to plop on the mattress and rest my head on the comfy, soft cool pillows. I set my alarm and the second I closed my eyes, I went straight to sleep.

To be continued…

L: KENDALL! Omgosh! You're back, I promised I wouldn't cry but I just can't….

S: Save your tears for future chapters, jeez….

MJoy: I love what you did, plus nice song choice- very fitting…

S: Thank-you… I love this chapter so much plus it is one of the kick starters for the series, so had to be in here, I'm happy about how it turned out, there are few others I'm looking forward too- that I hope the readers might like more cause there more… fun

MJ: Can't wait for those next chs then

L: Same…gah, the tears won't stop…

MJ: You're a blubbering idiot…

S: Tell me about it… anyway hoped my readers enjoyed, please R & R

MJ: Song choice- Rihanna- What now best song ever thus far in my opinion…

L: I agree….

MJ &S: STOP CRYING!

L: I can't help it…

S: Jeez… see you guys in future updates!

MJ: Also- in case they didn't already notice- it's the end of Kend's phase and music- thought I just say it…officially.

S: Thanks MJoy, further music will be updated in later chapters- way later

MJ: Yep.

All: Bye.

L: It's so beautiful! *cries more*

S: LEREDA!

MJ: oh brother…