Me: Hi guys and gals welcome back and school is finally over so hopefully updates will arrive faster but then again this chapter is longer than usual.
Renamon: The updates probably wont arrive faster since you got like 20 different ideas in your head just for fanfiction.
Me: Don't ruin my hopes and dreams oh yeah and one more thing don't hate on this story just because of the ending of this chapter the story isn't over yet.
Chapter 8: confession (20 follower special) updated march 2020
I hate this.
I go out with a friend only to have my other idiot friend chase her off. I didn't even let Zack catch up to me this mostly his fault in the first place and what is it with Zack thinking she likes me... Well yeah sure we sleep together and she does like hugs but that doesn't mean anything, right?
My god ever since Zack got his first girlfriend (the relationship lasted about a week or two) he suddenly thinks he is some sort of romance expert.
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This is all too frustrating.
I've been trying to catch up to Renamon over the past two hours but since she is much faster than the average human being she managed to get herself completely out of sight and the amount of people here isn't helping. So here I am running around like a complete idiot in an overcrowded mall.
"Maybe she got offended by Zack calling her my girlfriend she IS a different species after all." I thought. I tried not to dwell on the subject too much (tried being the key word) and focus on the problem at hand: finding Renamon.
"It's most likely because what I said back there I mean we did have a strong connection in the past and since she's the kind of person (or Furry) who takes things a bit too literal she probably thinks that I don't care about her" The moment I thought about that I started to feel guilty she probably thinks I threw away our friendship.
I ran through a couple of department stores but didn't find any Samus imposters. Normally you'd expect it to be easy to find a random person wearing a random cosplay helmet but no. "I wont let anyone find out about her she could get herself killed." I thought.
The more I think about it cant possibly have to do with our friendship. If what she said was true then I saved her more than once people don't save random people more than once unless if they care for them, she has to know that. I stopped running for a moment to collect my thoughts.
C'mon Mike use that head of yours why else do you think shes always flustered around you or why she insists being close to you at any given moment? She loves you dammit and you just crushed her heart!
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This is just sad I'm actually Zack's stupidity get to me she doesn't like me she cares about me sure, but she's an entirely different species than me. I understand that 'love' transcends through all boundaries but I don't know if I'd consider her to be that kind of person the thought alone of us actually being together may just make her sick rather than me.
Well I've read enough comics to kind of consider that not taboo, but this is real. Not to mention most interspecies relationships in comics have characters that look more humanoid than Rena. And then theres the fact thay I don't know much about her to begin with. Can I even see myself in a relationship at all?
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Why am I even worrying myself this much in the first place? Besides its not like anyone has taken a liking to me before I'm a comic nerd with a capital c and n girlds don't really dig that and I highly doubt Renamon finds that attractive." I thought to myself trying to mark every word Zack told me as a load of crap as I continued looking for Renamon.
Much Later...
I gave up on the search at the mall and decided to cut my losses head home it was the only place I could think of that she'd be at. I was riding the bus home collecting all of my thoughts.
"What should I do? Should I even ask if she likes me? Because if she doesn't she'll just end up getting wierded out that I asked the question first place and either A: Not be my friend anymore, B: (which is highly unlikely) forget about it, or C: (which most likely will happen) Kick my ass and then un-friend me...
Wait I got it! First I'll ask if she left because of Zack, if not then I'll ask if it was because what I said earlier while keeping it completely friendly, and if it turns out to be none of those two I'll ask if she likes me... it's practically full proof."
I got off the bus and headed to the house and ran upstairs to my room unfortunately no one was there. I was about mutter"Crap." but I was interrupted by sobbing. "Well I'm pretty sure that's a give-away." I thought to myself as I headed to the source of the crying.
Renamon P.O.V.
"I knew it... H-he doesn't love me..." I hiccuped as I gripped the grass tightly.
"Why!? Why doesn't he love me?" I cried with my voice growing quieter out in the unforgiving night. Really I'm seriously asking that? Look at me he probably thinks it'll be repulsive to love something like me. After being with him for so long I started to develop feelings for him and occasionally drop some hints on him but he never caught on. God why cant I just be a human... why cant I have him?
"Has he found someone else?" I thought to myself fearfully.
Perhaps he just sees me as a burden right now... After all, he does has to hide me from everyone so I don't get caught while he's doing his school-thing, he must be really stressed as of right now. Whu couldnt I have told him how I felt then?. I continued to cry while clenching my fists tightly trying to find some way to to calm myself.
"I shouldn't have run off like that now he's bound to find something out..."
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"Then maybe I should just tell him how I really feel, he did promise we'd be friends no matter what." I stopped crying when I heard the door open.
Back with Mike...
I walked to the back yard and found Renamon crouched into a ball with her face completely tear stained making me feel really bad for her. I sat next to her and brought her into an embrace. "R-Renamon?" I spoke with a quiet voice. She looked at me with sadness plastered over her face. immediately I knew that it wasn't because of Zack... She was heart broken but sure enough there was still that little part of me that wanted to deny it for the sake of my own well being. "Listen I'm sorry about what happened back there it was just Zack pressing my buttons I do care about you." I said. She wiped her face for any stray tears.
"Mike I already know you care about me... Its just that; How do I say this?" She responded unsure what to say next.
Well there goes the plan.
I was about 80 percent sure what she was going to say but once again that little part of me kept on denying it and tried to keep it friendly rather than romantic. That part of me was trying to hold on to what little sense of a normal life I had left. "Mike I've been having feelings for you, feelings I've never felt toward any one." She declared. I knew what she meant but I kept evading the fact. "W-what kind of feelings?" I asked like a completely oblivious idiot. I could already tell she was getting very annoyed. "Mike I-I been liking you for a while now." She confessed barely over a whisper. "Like, as a friend?" I said I was literally about to tear my hair off when I said that, seriously that was completely obvious. Her expression turned into a very angry one. "Are you really that oblivious!?" She spat while swiping her claws in anger cutting my arm while doing so.
"FUCK" I yelled while clenching my arm to stop the blood from leaking. The wound wasn't deep enough to be considered anywhere near serious but it was enough to draw out plenty of blood and hurt like hell. "O-Okay... maybe I-I deserved that... And I-I do know how you... How you feel about me... I-I'm sorry." I groaned. Renamon seemed to realize what she did when my blood began to drip to the ground. She then stared at her blood stained claws in horror. "No I-I didn't mean to..." She said in a panicked tone as she walked slowly towards me. I reacted immediately by taking a few steps back this only made her expression turn into a sorrowful one. "She needs time to calm down I don't want this situation to get any worse than it already is" I thought as I continued to step away from her. "Mike please stop." She begged with her voice becoming unstable as tears began streaming down her troubled face. But once again I kept walking backwards, this is for her own good and my own well being. "FORGIVE ME MIKE!" She shouted before lunging at me causing me to nearly sprint away but she tackled me pinning my hands and legs down.
She looked at my scared expression for a moment only to wrap her tail along my waist bring us closer. She brought our faces close together to the point I felt her warm breath hit me. The pain in my arm seemed to fade already. "Mike I'm in love with you, I-I can't live without you by my side... Please be mine." She begged desperately as she mashed her soft lips against mine. I was beyond shocked but at the same time I kind of liked it which disturbed me. Renamon then slipped her tongue into my mouth causing my eyes to widen as she explored the depths of my mouth. She moaned into the kiss sending vibrations all across my mouth. I resisted for as long as I could but something awakened in me like an instinct causing me to kiss back. Our tongues mashed together as we continued this passionate moment while single tear trailed down Renamon's cheek. But I couldn't help but feel as if this was wrong soon the feeling began to take over me as I shoved Renamon in a bit of a panicked state.
"What am I doing!?" I shouted in realization. I was about to run of but Renamon grabbed my hand preventing me from running away pulling into a loving embrace. "Mike what's wrong?" She asked in concerned tone. "I cant do this. I cant be with you." I answered practically pannicking while trying to escape her embrace. Renamon's expression reverted back into a sad one. "But why?" She sputtered. "We're entirely different species you cant just expect me or other people to see this as a casual thing. It's too weird." I answered. "What is so weird about having someone who loves you besides its not like anyone would know about us" She countered.
You know she did have a point there.
"Renamon, even if I was a hundred percent okay with this it still wouldn't work out I've only known you for three days." I stated. She frowned at this and I knew what was on her mind. "You know what I mean ever since I got 'amnesia' I cant remember much about you except how we met. Don't you think I should at least know simple things about you before being together? The thing is I don't feel anything for you that strong, not yet at least... I-I need time to think." I clarified. She looked down as so many tears streamed from her face. "Mike please..." She begged trying to change my mind. It was tempting it honestly was, I don't think I have ever met a girl with her personality. "Give her a chance she doesn't deserve this besides you do find her attractive." A part of me thought. But what if I did rush through this relationship? I could possibly break her heart. "I'm sorry but my mind is set." I replied. "I-I... I understand." She stated uneasily. I felt horrible, was I even doing the right thing?
Maybe... Maybe I can give it a shot, but it'll have to wait.
I wrapped my arms around her to confort her. I hate seeing her like this. "Listen just give me a little time to adjust I have a lot on my back right now since this coming week I have finals. And who knows maybe we can try having a relationship later." I offered as I kissed her cheek causing her to blush a bright red as she brought a hand to it. "Really Mike?" She asked. I nodded in response
"Oh yeah I almost forgot-" I paused for a moment reaching for the necklace from before and placed it in her neck. "It looks nice on you." Renamon continued to blush as we went inside it had been a long day, but Renamon seemed to act a bit distant once we got inside.
Definitely to be continued...
Me: Don't hate me. Don't hate me. Don't hate me.
Renamon: Thank you for twenty followers and if you excuse me I need to comfort him
Me: I need to get a life
-The Ultimate Spiderman