Sorry for the long wait guys and gals but that's what a couple of trips to the ER will do to you I'm not gonna do the Rena and author bit til the end of the chapter. I've been rather stressed recently (regarding finding a decent health care provider and bills) and I know its becoming a rather old excuse at this point but I guess its a part of growing up. Since a majority of said stress is kind of gone I finally start writing again not the to mention the fact that I've had a rather long time to at least outline this chapter
With all that said the response I got from chapter 13 was... well loud to say the least regarding Mikes morality and how hes now afraid of Renamon and to that I say: hes a kid in a life threatening situation it was kind of the point.
Anyways I hope you all enjoy this new chapter
Chapter 14: Repercussions (three weeks after we left off)
Welcome to rock bottom Mike.
I haven't really talked to Rena as of these few weeks call it harsh if you want but I couldn't get that memory out of my head. It never really occurred to me how dangerous my adventures with Rena could have been. It also never occurred to me that Rena could be capable of killing another sentient creature. I couldn't get that gorey image out of my head. Don't get me wrong I'm glad she saved my life but knowing that a life had to be taken to ensure my safety doesn't exactly make me feel any better about it either. I still couldn't tell if the kill was done out of self defense or if she really could have spare that guy. Lately I haven't been able sleep well, I keep having nightmares over what happened I can still feel the pain and it feels so real.
I shook my head violently.
Its been a rather long week today marked the end of my first week at my new job and to say the least it sucked ass, well minus the free food part. Majority of the people I dealt with this week were a bunch of self entitled pricks. And pardon my language today but it was really ridiculous the amount of people I had asking for their order to be free just because it took like a minute longer than I said it would take.
So why am I even doing this?
Simple, money is pretty scarce at the moment and unfortunately my parents cant exactly afford feeding another mouth. Besides they have enough on their plate already they sacrifice so much just so I can have a better life. It's my responsibility to care for Renamon on my own even if it means working at a lousy job.
I looked over to the bag I held as I walked my way home, at least the job has a couple of perks such as free food I hope she likes burgers. Despite the fact I'm still kind acting distant I still keep holding on to what I told her. We still sleep together and occasionally watch television together but I'm not really "there" all I do is make very little small talk and I can tell she's noticing it as well. My head keeps flashing unpleasant images whenever I'm around her and I hate it! I'm supposed to be her friend, yet I cant even be near her without wanting to run away, Its so nauseating when I'm close.
I kept walking home I guess another perk of the job is the fact I don't have to travel too far to get home though judging by my current predicament I wouldn't call that a perk at the moment. While I was approaching my house a sense of dread filled my senses as I unlocked the door and walked in. Normally this is where Rena would run up to me and hug me tightly but instead I found her siting on the staircase with one hand over her kneecap. A heavy shadow cast over her as I met her eyes which gave me an upset look,"Okay something is definitely up" Was the first thought that flew into my head.
"We need to talk" Rena suddenly spoke with a stern tone.
"Alright..." I responded only for the two of us to walk into the living room.
"So, what did you want to talk about" I asked despite knowing full well what she wanted to talk about.
"You know damn well what! Why have you been avoiding me?!" She exploded with irritation in her voice. I didn't respond just to avert my gaze to the floor in shame, I didn't want to tell her why, I don't know why I felt so I afraid about telling her the truth. Seeing my hesitation Rena's expression softened only for her to take a couple steps closer. "Mike your're my friend you can tell me anything... just please tell me why" Renamon pleaded. I lifted my head higher only to take a deep breath.
"I had another memory, though I cant say it was pleasant one unfortunately." I finally responded. Her expression shifted from one of support to a disquiet expression, yet she also gave me a look that urged me to continue.
"I was seriously wounded I remembered the pain the adrenaline rush, and I saw you kill one of your kind, some sort of bug looking Digimon. Well that's not quite right I saw the body but I know you killed whoever it was." I finished.
Before she could speak anything I cut her off.
"Let me finish, please... I know you did it to protect me and the kill was probably done out of self defense (or at least I hope it was). Point is it hasn't really been sitting with me too well. Every time I'm near you my body is screaming for me to stay away from you I feel like I want to vomit." I vented.
It was at this point tears started to steam down her eyes as well as my own. "I hate it because I know that you are a good person Rena, I love being around you. I haven't been able to sleep to well either, because every time I dream keep fucking dreaming of it the pain the physical and emotional! God! I'm so sorry I really am, I want to care for you as much you care about but I just-" I was Interrupted by a pair of fuzzy arms wrapping around me I felt her head pressed against my chest as she began sobbing. "No, I'm sorry!" She cried out.
"You have nothing to be sorry for Rena it's just me, I'm sorry but I cant shake this fear off of me right now. Please don't cry..." I replied wiping away her tears as we both slouched to the floor holding onto each other. "I-I understand if you want to call off the relationship Mike..." She sputtered to me.
...
"No, Rena I made a promise I do want to see where this takes us... t-though I do have a question." I asked slightly afraid of the answer I would get from her. She looked at me waiting for my question.
"D-did you ever kill anyone else after that?" I hesitantly questioned only for Rena to stay quiet for a short moment.
"N-no but I came close multiple times in our earlier days, you always stopped me from bringing any conflict we were in to a bloody end. I wanted to live up to your expectations but when our kind fight our instincts take over." She answered. A sigh a relief came from me as I felt a heavy weight lifted from my shoulders. So we just stood there embracing each other and enjoying the warmth we shared until my stomach gurgled.
A nervous chuckle escaped my mouth as I offered dinner.
Hours Later...
We were in bed I tried protesting sleeping together but I could tell I hurt her just by saying that so I stayed. I had woken up, I wasnt sure why but it definitely wasn't because I had a nightmare. For once had a rather pleasant dream, I just hope it stays like that. I held Rena close to me, talking to her really took away most of the stress I had there. But pang of guilt still remained, I'll find a way to make it up to her though, whatever it takes.
To be continued
Me: I'm not gonna lie this chapter was probably the hardest one to write mostly because of writers block but once I had the basic ideas I wanted to tackle down it was one of the fastest chapters I wrote. I started writing this chapter literally two days ago.
Rena: That's just a giant slap in the face you know *crosses arms only to look at me angrily*
Me: like I said had a rough year went to the ER twice this year cut me a break. Its been so long I couldn't even write a 100 follower special. Thanks for the support by the way
Rena: well at least your back in business right? Gonna stay here a while? It's been pretty lonely this year *pats my back*
Me: yeah... about that *scratches back of head nervously*
Rena: Oh god dammit you started a new story didn't you...
Me: yeah it is an agretsuko fanfic it should be a shorter one though, Anyways thanks for all the support guys and gals you all rock I really hope I can keep updating story and give it the ending it deserves anyways I see you guys next time chao!
-The Ultimate Spiderman