Me: Well shit hit the fan pretty fast this year, first worries about ww3 and now covid-19. I hate to sound like a broken record here but it's affecting my current lifestyle. Work is cancelled college is now being done online despite the fact I got early classes to AVOID going online. And to top it all off there's talks about a curfew in my area. Now I know that sounds like I have a lot of free time on my hands to write but to be honest not really. I'm kinda on the computer all day now and by the time I'm done with classwork I'm drained.

Rena: I miss sunlight

Me: You and I both but brighten up its IRA day so it's pretty much your birthday.

Rena: So what do I get?

Me: Isolation and being alone with the voices :D

Rena: So basically what I've been getting for the past 5 years

Me: Pretty much, Anyways This chapter was a bitch to work on due to writers block, I just hope this chapter isn't too bad for you guys and gals, it does have a little sexual tension so consider yourself warned.

Chapter: 15 Closer part 1

One week later...

Things are starting to look more promising now, I'm starting to get used to balancing work with my actual life and by that I mean every shift I get I make an excuse to get out earlier. Not like i'm paying bills or anything, I just need enough cash for myself and Renamon (though I do give a cut of my paycheck to my parents).

"Hey jackass I ordered twenty minutes ago, where's my order?!"

Though I can't say it's been pitch perfect.

"R-right here sir!" I stuttered as I brought the tray over to the customers table only to head back and mop the restroom. Seriously you'd think these people would be a tad more respectful, but no. "Just half a hour more of this and then you can go home Mike, you can do this" I tried to motivate myself.

But I digress, as for Rena and I, we slowly started getting a little closer again. Though the nightmares haven't entirely stopped, I can at least sleep much easier. But at the end of the day I still feel like a jackass for pushing her away, I can still see the guilt in her eyes occasionally. I shouldn't have freaked out then, I should just be glad that I still have my life. Besides, chances are that wasn't the only time my life was in danger while I was with Rena. I'll find some way to make it up to her, but how? Not like I can just waltz down the street with her nearby, not after what happened last time. And at this point I wouldn't be surprised if she didn't want to eat take out, even I'm starting to get sick of it.

P.O.V Rena

The faint glow of the television couldn't cheer me up, I felt like the most despicable person as of now, and what's worse is that it's not my fault!

Well mostly at least.

I know Mike had already forgiven my misdeeds in the past, even before he lost his memories, but knowing it caused him that much pain was unbearable. I'm already causing a strain to our relationship and I haven't even done anything!

I groaned into a pillow in frustration.

Is he even satisfied with our relationship? I feel like I roped him into this unwillingly and I'm just mooching off of him. He literally had to get a job because of me, and I haven't done much to help. Is he just going out with me out of pity, does he even find me attractive? "Don't say that Mike cares for you, if he didnt like you he would've called off the relationship by now" I reassured myself regarding that first question.

That second question however stuck with me.

As if to mock me a television advertisement for lingeries was on. "Can I even hold a candle against that?" I wondered as my eyes wandered back to the screen.

I looked at myself in the mirror comparing my body figure to a woman on the television. Her body was lean yet curvaceous, my hands wandered around my body trying to find any major differences outside the obvious. Our body types did not seem too far apart save for the fact we are different species. Part of that revelation made me feel satisfied, perhaps he does find me attractive but just refuses to show it. However there was one minor difference that made me feel completely inferior to her.

Her breasts were larger than mine.

Not by much but to the point it annoyed me to say the least, especially since most human males (at least from what I've seen) find large breasts attractive, even Mike.

I... may have snuck out of the house every now and then to check up on Mike. I know he's been against it but I've never stopped, and it hurts to see him red faced every time a woman with a large chest talks to him. I know he's committed to me but I really want him to look at me like that.

This sounds so stupid, but I cant help it.

Makes me wish I were a human or at the very least wish that he'd see me… sexually appealing. Any time I felt bold enough I'd give him a less than innocent hug but every time without fail he pushed me away. Sure he gets red faced but he always looks more flustered rather than attracted whenever I tried. He most likely does it either of embarrassment or respect and I get it, but I just want to feel wanted from him. Once again I pressed my face against a pillow

"Stupid, Stupid, Stupid" I muttered.

Back with Mike

I was let out earlier than expected today and I still wasn't too sure what to do for Rena. I thought of watching a film together but that usually doesn't involve talking to each other, all that was left was trying to do dinner but I'm not that experienced. We could try walking on a trail, those tend to be pretty empty, however I didn't want to take any chances. I'll have to go with dinner despite the fact all I've learned is how to serve basic fast food, I wouldn't call that well… formal to say the least but it'll have to do.

"Crap, just look up a random recipe online already." I thought as I walked up to a grocery store.

Much later...

Okay so it took like forever but I managed to settle on something to make, a couple of steaks with a salad. She hasn't really had anything that isn't well homemade aside from breakfast, I just really hope I don't screw this up. I unlocked the door expecting to be greeted by Rena but to my surprise she wasn't there.

"Guess she must be watching tv or something" I thought to myself as I put the groceries in the fridge only to head upstairs to shower, don't want to smell like fast food for tonight, I want to make this special to her.

All things considered I've been a terrible boyfriend. Those past few weeks I've only been thinking of myself. "Just don't screw it up" I told myself as I entered the restroom.

Rena P.O.V (again)

Once I heard the door unlock I tensed up, I didn't expect Mike to be home so soon. "I should go say hello" I muttered to myself but before I could even greet him he rushed over to a different room. I deflated at that, mind was still looming over my body I felt so inadequate. "should I just ask him if he finds me attractive?" I asked myself

"No, that sounds way too straight forward to work without any awkward tension."

JUST ASK HIM ALREADY!

Without even thinking I entered the room like a complete imbecile to ask Mike. Before I could even say a word I realized what room I was in causing my face to flush completely. Thankfully he was already in the shower and couldn't see me or at least I hope. However I wasn't moving and caught myself staring at Mike through a crack of the curtains admiring is form as my heart pounded.

"What am I doing?!" I wanted to scream as I exited out the room careful not to leave any evidence I was there.

What the hell is wrong with me?! I was just staring at him like some peeping tom. My chest felt like it was on fire and I felt… warm to say the least. My heart was racing and my nether region felt-

oh no...

Realization hit me like a stack of bricks.

I'm in heat.

"I have to get out of here, I don't care what Mike says I can't get near him otherwise I'm going to jump at him the moment he's out." I thought frantically as I went for a window. Once I made sure the coast was clear I darted out of said window with my eyes getting misty.

Damn it.

To be continued...

Rena *visably angry*

Me: What?

Rena: What the actual fuck?! you left it like that?

Me: I didn't want to rush out this entire chapter in a day as I was writing the second half, it felt rushed to say the least and by the way this segment is looking this little arc might be a three parter unless if i find some fat I can trim from the chapter.

Rena: So writers block

Me: Maybe?

Rena: oh well at least it didn't take you a year this time…

Me: Yeah i kind of surprised myself this time around still kind of unbelievable i've been doing this story for 5 years now let alone with over 150 followers thanks again for that folks you have no idea what that means to me and i'll be trying my best to bring out the next few chapters as soon as I can, till next time!

-The Ultimate Spiderman