the end in the beginning

by max333

Its been a month since Galaxia left, Usagi, the girls, Mamoru and their friends are all in a new phase of their lives just as a new enemy emerges, bent on destroying them. Will the strength of the senshi together be enough? With old friends and new friends coming in to help everyone must fight to protect everything they hold dear.

3. an old photo leads to an intimate moment

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The end in the beginning ch.3

Usagi POV

As I leave out of school, I'm reminded to go to Mamoru's afterwards so I can fill him in on what the girls and I found out. He didn't respond to me yesterday till way later on with a message that he'd been in classes all day and stuck in a library basement yesterday with absolutely no signal since it was underground. His phone was nearly dead, on barely two percent, when he left. That was just from the battery getting drained looking for signal continuously…and that was AFTER two restarts.

Once he read my text he texted me back once I got in last night and asked me to come over today so we could talk about what was discovered as this obviously wasn't a phone conversation or a texting conversation to be had. I used my key to get into his place and found it to be feeling dreary. I could feel his dimmed-out mood from over here. I pulled my flats off and slipped on my house-slippers as I ventured in.

Walking in I saw him sitting on his couch, appearing unfocused despite the obvious attempt he had to read the thick text book sitting in his lap, only to take a sip of what I could only guess judging by the bottle on the coffee table was bourbon. Mamoru wasn't one for hard liquors, so I knew my news, as little as it was had to have upset him a bit. Instead of calling out to him I went up and put my hand on his shoulder.

He didn't even seem startled by my presence, a testament to how close our bond had come by now. We could feel each other's presence with such ease that we didn't even bother, obviously, to announce ourselves. We just knew when the other was there. I was grateful for this step in our relationship, it made me feel like we were closer and therefore allowed him and showed him that we not only were closer but that we were stronger.

He then put his left hand on mine and held it for a moment as he moved to push the book off and pulled my hand towards him. I walked forward the few extra steps and let him put me into his lap with ease. The book now lay forgotten on the floor as he held me tightly in his grasp. We held onto each other like that for what seemed like forever. My arms wrapped around him as his were around me. Neither of us spoke a word as we sat in silence.

Eventually though as all things must happen, the silence was broken. "What did you find out?" the question was asked through a tired and tight voice as if he didn't want to know but needed to know what happened. I told him everything and I mean everything that the senshi and I had discussed. He listened with bated breath as I filled him in on all of it, "Remind me to thank Ami to for that." Regarding removing him off the 'deceased list'.

"I will." Only then did he let me up and that was only so he could get me a cup of tea, chamomile. It certain did feel soothing right now as I sat back on his couch, curled up into his side as he took a small sip of the liquor before pushing it away from him and getting a cup of tea for himself now. I think he knew in the end that his answers didn't lie in a bottle, at least tea was more soothing and didn't impair your judgement.

Then as if just recalling it I pulled the photo out of my school shirt and gave it to him, "I thought you may want it back." I offered as I handed it to him. He took it only to cover his mouth and tear up. I instantly felt bad fearing that I brought up a bad memory for him, "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to make you upset." I tell him as I go to comfort him. He pushes me to put the cup down as he pulls me into his embrace once more.

"I'm not upset with you Usako, I'm glad you have it I just…I was holding that before she struck the plane." I held him tighter as he spoke before he finally loosened up enough to talk, "I felt outmatched by her. I hated it. I hated not being able to fight against a worthy opponent for more than a few minutes…if that." he admitted. His anger was palpable. He after all hadn't lasted long in the fight with her.

However, he had to see the why of it instead of taking it to heart. He had to know that he was outmatched for a reason and nothing could have changed what happened that fateful day. Well one thing would have changed, him not being on it would have been a change, but the fighting and everything else would have been the same. Only difference would have been he'd have been alive and by my side.

Question is would I have lost him by my side as I had before a few occasions when he died in my arms, though obviously he was able to be brought back to me, or would he have lasted till the end as the Starlight's did? It made a difference to me but in the scheme of things that was a selfish thought for me to have. I took his face into my hands as I pulled him over to look at me, "Listen to me Mamo – chan…" he finally met my eyes.

"What happened was you went up against a battle-hardened warrior that had been to many planets long before she got here." I began so he could get that there was nothing more he could have done. "She had had advanced training to which we don't know how far back it goes." He seemed to acknowledge that, "I supposed there's a point in there." he admits, "She was incredibly strong, not just physically strong but power wise strong." Then the thought of the girls being hit hits me.

"Strong enough to kill the inners in a single blow." I tell him, my voice low as I pause myself now. He held me tighter, "You should NOT have had to deal with that." He tells me, "Nor should you have had to deal with her on your own. Not when you were 10,000 miles up." I sniffle as he arches his brow, "Well actually we weren't at 10,000…" he looks to my 'does the exact mileage up really matter right now?' face and shuts up.

"She was strong enough to push me to my limits and rival me in a way that I never had been before." I took his hand and placed it over my heart, "What got me through it was the hope that if I got her to see the light, to let it in that I could maybe….just MAYBE get you all back. You're my heart Mamo – chan." I couldn't help my own tears now, "So yeah she beat you…" I said to him, retaining my composure.

"She beat a lot of us. Think about this though. You went up against her, this powerful soldier of destruction." I made sure my voice was firm, so he knew the seriousness and how strongly I felt about it. I fully believed in what he could do but I also knew he was much like the rest of us, had his limitations of what he could handle to. He needed to learn accept that as we had to as well and not think that he should have won the battle.

At least not still. Once anyone gets then chance to grasp onto how outmatched they are after a battle you regroup and see what the weak points were that you had and then strengthen them as were currently doing now. As we usually did after an enemy came after us. This time though it felt like Mamoru was taking this a little bit more personally and while I did admit we were all still feeling pretty raw from the events that happened we were all together and all still alive and able to be stronger for it.

I tried to strive forward though and show him that while yes that battle wasn't won, it was a learning experience to be had. It was for all of us, "You went up against her one on one, not knowing who she was, or how powerful she was, on a plane in the middle of the friggin' sky." Pointing out to him what odds he had against him that fateful day. I know we had talked about things a bit of what happened but never to this depth.

It was still hard for him to even talk about. Hard for us both to talk about if I were to be honest with myself. We just jumped into life again and didn't really address things as we should have and for that I regretted it. "You had no backup and over 200 people on a plane to think about the lives of. You did what you could with what you had. None of us at the time had any type of training as she did." he nodded.

"None of us have been to any other planets other than our birthright planets. She's been to who knows how many in her time seeing and learning their methods and ways of training. We don't even know how long she's been a senshi before us, or how old she is. She could have hit her maturity age before we even met her and was at full power whereas were still growing into our powers." I tell him as I begin to theorize myself now that I think about it.

"Which also potentially means that she might have awakened as a senshi much earlier than any of us. Years prior even." I notice he seems less upset than before, "Okay valid points." He admits as he rubs the slight five o'clock shadow forming on his face as he intakes all of this in. A form of accepting what he didn't have control over which were the variables of who the enemy was and how much more powerful she was than the previous enemies we've faced before that while were powerful didn't do the damage that she had.

I leaned my head towards his as touched our foreheads together as I caressed the stubble on his cheek. He turns his head slightly to kiss the inside of my palm. A soothing intimate action that so small yet so meaningful. I'm glad he kept the stubble. It's something I've told him recently that I find attractive on him. His voice is low since were so close as he says, "So basically nothing about that day would have changed." I see that he's trying to rationalize this internally for his own peace of mind.

"There's no way to truly tell for certain if I would have won that day or not since we know so little about who she is or where she came from." I tread lightly here, "I don't think it would have been a matter of winning Mamo – chan…" I say as I conclude with, "I think you might have survived but the moment she hit ANYONE with those bracelets, the power within them would have taken your star seed." It's a cold hard fact to face.

"She took out Rei, Minako, Ami and Makoto in single hits. All powerful senshi, yet one hit each by her bracelets as you were. Haruka, Michiru, Setsuna, Hotaru, all of them strong warriors, all in a single strike with the bracelets." I wanted him to know that he might have lasted longer in battle, but eventually that with just one hit with those things and he would still have been killed as he was on the plane that day. He sighed, "Right…I guess I felt like I should have been better than what I was."

"Don't get me wrong, I don't believe our fights with her would have last as long as they did had we actually been better prepared for someone of her caliber." I say as he parts our foreheads to see what I mean, "We had had many enemies before her but none that got under our skin as she did." I saw the realization begin to dawn on him, "She knew how powerful she was and probably had an idea on how powerful we were." Not a true idea but one, nonetheless.

"However, her arrogance is what was her Achilles heel ultimately. She felt she was so damn good at what she could do that she didn't think about the bond we all shared that came back and bite her in the ass at the end of the day. Remember what we found out afterwards. She grew up on a desolate alone planet and knew next to nothing about bonds of love and friendship." He realized this as I continued on.

"Her childhood and turning into a senshi turned her into a formidable warrior BUT her lack of connection and human growth prevented her from seeing what we had that she didn't. Even with those that were under her rule didn't love her as we love and care for another. For us it was a team effort till the end, and you were a big part of that team. She treated her fallen senshi as expendable." I tell him.

"I mean her way of getting to us was to bring us down. Remember she did send Nehelania back to us as a distraction and to activate Hotaru's star crystal so she could steal it." memories of that event resurfaced. "She told me about your death right before we went into battle with her and right after I had lost the girls. The outer senshi were still in a command room. Rei was right in front of me. It completely threw me off balance."

I still hated that it had happened, I felt off balanced, I felt my emotions running a mile a minute, I felt guilt that there could have been another way to handle it that I didn't foresee, I felt sorrow and sadness that this was perhaps the ONE time that they might NOT come back, I felt anger at Galaxia for doing this when she was another senshi to and wanted justice for what she did, but I also wanted to save her to as I knew it in my soul that she was savable.

"She was a formidable foe, but we still took her down and we still won, and even saved her." I tell him as he puts his hands over mine and says, "We may have been there in spirit form my love, we may have been in your heart and your mind. We may have been what motivated you in the end other than saving her, but in the end it was your belief in what could happen and your gut instinct to know that the way to save us was to save her that won."

He then kissed me deeply, "Your love…" he kissed me again, "Your devotion…" another kiss, "Your commitment and passion…" another kiss, "You're moral beliefs and your gut instincts…" another more passionate kiss this time, "And your heart…" he touched my heart over my shirt and pressed down just enough to feel the increasing beat of it. "Your big, beautiful heart is what saved us." Before I can try to say another more, he kisses me into forgetting anything else to talk to him about as he pulls me into his lap.

At least he's caught up now because right now I can't think of anything else to say as I drown in his kisses. He pushed the items off the coffee table and sets me down on it. The smooth surface is chilly but to my heated skin it's actually a nice comparison. I lay down on it as he kneels over me, pushes my legs apart and pushes my skirt up over my legs till its exposing my panties. I can feel his breath on my legs as he teases me with his fingers dancing near my sweet spot, "So intoxicating…" he breaths out.

I can't help but moan at the thought of him there as I further widen up my legs only to have him push them together so he can reach up to my waist and pull my panties down. I lift my rear so he can have access to take them off the rest of the way. Before I know it, my mind is drowning in pleasing sensations as he begins to lick me and suck on my quivering heat. The first time he did this I was embarrassed but happily pleased.

Now that I've gotten past a certain level of shyness, I don't get that way, not so much anyways. I just never knew he could find me so…delicious. The way he eats at me, licks at me, and pumps his fingers into me makes me feel like the most desired woman in the world. Like there is no other that he could ever want. Any doubts that ever plagued me about us before from enemies that poked fun at my less than large breasts to classmates who would look at us and ask, 'why her?' with their eyes fell away.

Especially when his head was between my legs and his tongue was gorging on me. He created this vibrating motion in my throat that made me whimper for more as I reached down and pulled him up. He was driving me crazy doing that. I met his lips as I tasted myself on him as he pressed his length against me, "You drive me crazy with desire Usako…" he tells me as he trails a fiery path down my neck.

My shirt gets pushed up and off, out of the way of his persistent fingers before he unhooks and tosses my bra to the side as well. His hands grasp onto my breasts as he massages them, teasing my nipples as I moan for more. His waist is now between my legs as I pull him in wanting all of him, "Please." I call out to him. When he envelops a breast into my mouth then the other seconds later, I arch my back wanting to feel him.

It's mere moments later when he shoves off his own shirt and unbuckles himself as he rips open a condom packet and puts it on himself. He slips in with minimal effort, though his package itself is huge and takes a moment to adjust to. Sometimes I nearly forget how large he is. Came to find out one of the other reasons why he rarely dated before me was because women got skittish around his size.

Afraid it would hurt them, so he rarely dated after the few sexual encounters he had. I on the other hand relished the feeling of him in me and took all of him in. so when he sunk himself all the way inside, we both stopped and enjoyed the moment. Took in the feeling of my walls caressing his length as he held himself above me. His corded muscular arms flexing around me as I caressed and gripped onto them.

There was just something about holding onto him that made me feel not only secure and safe but also aroused to. He just had that effect on me. He pushed himself in and out a few times, slowly as he normally started out. Wanting to enjoy the pace before he went mad in me. Truthfully though I loved it when he lost it over me. There was such a flaming desire in his eyes, he made me feel like I was the only one who could arouse him to a fevered pitch like this. That I was the only one who would or could make him lose control as I did.

Especially as I wrapped my legs around his waist and pulled him down as he pushed in making him go even deeper into my crevice. He reached down and grabbed onto my rear, pulling me in for a hard thrust while maintaining a slow rhythm. I flung my head back when I felt him hitting that spot inside of me that made me feel more wetness coming out. A loud moan erupted from my lips as I clenched down around his length.

I heard and practically felt his own growl at the action to as he pushed in harder than before. I guess he got that I wanted to feel more of him. "You drive me crazy with desire to…" I coyly tell him as I clench purposely hard around him and watch as he grunts and twists his form over me, "Usa!" he yelps in pleasure filled agony. I can feel his cock inside of me, begging for release though from me or to cum at his command I wasn't sure.

I eventually had to release him though and saw the look of relief enter his face. For a moment I thought maybe I had put too much pressure on him and hurt him even. Before I could get to concerned though I saw the look of unadulterated need, passion and want hit him hard as his eyes even darkened up. "Mamo…" I nearly asked yet also said 'please?!' at the same time. His eyes pierced mine as he said, "You're not leaving here anytime soon."

It was a promise of pleasurable dark things to come. The ones that we did to each other that I never even told the girls about. The ones that were meant for us and us alone. "Good, cause I wasn't planning on leaving anytime soon." I retort in the sexiest voice I can manage which right now isn't hard at all. He held my hands up over my head and pushed one of my legs up over his shoulder as he pushes himself in.

The pace quickens before I can formulate a thought fragment and he continues down this path of heat and passion. The rhythm is fast and furious, almost punishing in a glorious rhythm that makes us both call out for more as the depth he reaches is enough to hit that special secret spot so frequently I can feel my orgasm building up already. I didn't even know what I was repeating as I just chanted whatever I could to get him to never stop.

I'm fairly certain I just called him a god or something at one point as I grip onto him and feel my orgasm beginning. I can feel it racing through me like electricity. Once it hits me full on my body locks up. Like it froze around him. He manages to smash his lower hand into mine a few more times, deep grinding strokes that make me glad that no other woman could handle him cause my kami is he incredible.

Just as he ready to cum himself I feel the orgasm surge up and take over, coating him from me and trapping his now fully sunken in cock into my quivering heat. He's pressed so intimately to me that we could have passed as a one-piece sculpted art form. We were locked together as his orgasm slammed into him. I felt the liquid heat that spoke of his right when he shouted out loud enough to drown out my own scream of pleasure.

We held onto each other with purpose as we slowly came down off of that high and finally after several long minutes allowed ourselves to pull apart. I was definitely a bit winded as he kneeled back, took a breath and picked me up. He carried me bridal style into his bedroom and laid me on the bed as he slipped in behind me. He seemed content to wanting to cuddle up against me as he wrapped his arms around me from behind and as we lay there content and naked, I couldn't help but be lured into slumber.

Mamoru POV

I watched her lay down on the bed, sleeping curled up in my arms as I caressed her soft form. It soothed her and myself as I looked from her to the ceiling then out at the night sky. Her pert breasts gleamed in the light that was around as I watched her breathing in and out. The steady in and out let me know she was passed out from our hours of love making. She'd been out for a few hours now and while I'd gotten at least two hours of sleep in I woke up shortly afterwards unable to put off thinking about what we discussed any longer.

So, I'd been up for at least an hour just laying here and enjoying the feeling of her next to me as I tried to process all of what she'd told me and what I was feeling having been on the plane before it struck the ground. I touched her soft supple skin, a mental and physical reminder that I was actually here and with her. That I wasn't still dead and merely hoping and pleading to be back in her arms one last time.

Imploring with whomever could hear me to let me hold her one last time. Sometimes I would simply touch her, caress and hold her tightly, in public view or not I didn't care, to make sure that I wasn't dreaming, that I wasn't still dead. That I was truly and really back here with her and those that we loved like family. Sometimes I'd remember that we'd had enemies that could put us in that state before.

I was no stranger to it as unfortunate as that was. Granted neither was Usagi or the others at some point or another but still, it didn't stop me from feeling as I did. That I wasn't living a dream world controlled by someone with a twisted sense of wanting to see me suffer for something I did to them. Either by defying them by still living or by not giving up hope of having my love back in my arms.

Not that being here was suffering, far from it. I was grateful for each day I got to be back with her. I reveled in the time that I got to be with her and enjoy our moments together, enjoy life with her. It was the only time I felt true joy and that belonging that I used to only get from having my friend and brother Motoki around, or being in college now. I knew in my heart that she was where I belonged.

I knew she felt the same towards me. I could feel it through our link that was growing stronger and more powerful the closer we got. I could only imagine how it would be in the future when we took our places in power, whenever that was. We were in no hurry for that though, not even close. Thankfully it was still very far off from now and what I wanted to focus on was what was tangibly in front of us.

Like what we were dealing with now, this potential new threat made me feel like this peace we were experiencing would be gone soon and a new fight would begin. Thinking about that I took quick stock and scan of the room to make sure that the shadows that were beginning to play with me were just that, shadows in the night. I admonished myself for letting my imagination begin to run wild.

Sometimes I feared that wherever I had been dead, some on the inside who had been there longer and who had learned how to use their energy called it a cauldron, that perhaps the guardian of those star seeds, our souls, got bored at times and wanted to play a cruel trick on us or even on just me, by making us or myself think that we were back with our loved ones back on earth or wherever they came from.

Make us think that so that we would become happy and complacent and wouldn't know that we were really just being toyed with for their amusement. That we we're been feed on for our energy and we were really trapped in there. Why would this have crossed my mind you ask, cause sometimes powerful people got bored and wanted to be entertained and were unable to go and wreck-havoc elsewhere so they played with us or myself instead.

Or another theory that I had was that I was suffering for my failures in life and was being tortured for that. Hell I remember at first thinking that Galaxia had trapped me in her personal hell where she wanted me to suffer by letting me see the rest of what she was doing, seeing what I could have saved and what I was unable to stop from happening while being trapped. When I found I could feel no physical pain, only my own emotional and mental anguish I realized then that I was in the cauldron.

I was suffering from my own paranoia and delusions while in this place of peace. Galaxia while yes, she held our star seeds and took many of them, she didn't want to hurt them as they were essentially pure energy. She wanted to keep them safe. We powered her to continue her fighting against my love…her enemies. Still I suffered, nonetheless. For the first week after I was back, I was constantly mentally battling myself.

Wondering if this was reality. Wondering if Usagi had actually saved us all or if she too had been claimed and the senshi of destruction was playing with us both in this by using her powers to torture us both mentally and emotionally. Its why in the beginning I had to be physically connected with Usagi so much. Yes I love her and yes I wanted to be connected with her anyways it was just more persistent in the beginning due to how I felt about where I had been and what I felt like I brought back with me.

However, all I had to do was touch her to know that this was real. That I was deluding myself with this as a reality. It was reality. Usagi had won and we all came back thanks to her. I owed her my life ten times over and I was never going to let her go again. There was no force on earth that could take me from her. I was already hard pressed to NOT insist that she stay with me already. I knew she had to live at home with her family still. She was 16 now yes but she was also living with a protective father.

I HIGHLY doubted he would accept my wanting her to live with me. He barely tolerated me in the beginning and was just now FINALLY accepting that I wasn't going anywhere anytime soon. Hell, I had been over to many Sunday dinners already and even talked to Shingo sometimes and talked with her father on occasion to. Her mother was a wonderful woman whom I could tell Usagi respected a lot and had good reason to.

That was also another reason why I knew this was reality. It was a tedious balancing act with her family and me. I never would have given that scenario a plausibility to happen so soon. Not when the first time I met them her father chased me literally off the front lawn. So, baby steps were progressing well enough. I was glad the illusions or delusions were for the most part gone, yet there were sometimes when something I'd hear would trigger a memory of what happened and what led me to be dead in the first place.

Its why I know Usagi didn't know it but her mention to me earlier of the plane triggered me. I had yes been in a poorly signaled area, but I got the text as I went into it. I just didn't respond right away as I needed time to accept what she was asking and realize that while I probably should have gone I couldn't. Not yet. So instead I buried myself in my schoolwork and stayed in a near reception free area till it was time to go.

Then when she came over it hit me again when Usagi mentioned the other passengers that I had been trying to protect. Yes, I had tried to protect them, and yet I obviously failed miserably in my efforts. However, it wasn't just because of Galaxia and how much battle hardened she was, or how much more trained she was. No, it was because I failed as the prince of earth to call my love, the senshi of earth for back up.

I clenched my eyes shut as I thought about this before letting them open again. My STUPID pride got in the way as I felt I could handle it, handle the threat alone. I had done so much on my own beforehand. Had spied on the dark moon in the dark crystal when Chibi Usa was with them and did so successfully. I had even done my fair share of bad guy grunt work when I was under the influence of Metallia.

I felt that I could do it and ended up fucking everything up. I hadn't bothered to call her or the girls when I could have. So, despite Usagi's words that were true yes, I knew it in my gut that those passengers' lives, those that didn't make it, they were on me. I know Usagi was trying to be there for me but in the end, I knew the truth of it. Which is why I didn't stop her or tell her she was wrong but in a sense she was.

After all, for the most part that's what happened. Galaxia and I fought. One on one, I lost, end of story. It wasn't the end though, not for me it wasn't. I think part of me, a small angry, pissed off at the fact that I failed part of me was still on that plane, was still in the cauldron praying for another chance…still needing to right the wrong that I knew was my fault. It was why I knew I should have gone with her to the crash site.

I should have left my pride behind, left with my books, transformed and gone with her. I should have faced the plane that I lost my battle on, showed it and myself that I could face it and accept my faults and let it go, but I couldn't accept that fact. I was too chicken shit to do it and frankly I didn't have the courage to stand up to it and face off against whatever was there mentally for me to deal with.

When she told me about the fact that we might have a new enemy, I knew it could be a chance for me to right a wrong. I could be a better more skilled warrior than I was right now. We could better our fighting skills together and I could finally one day face the wreckage, even if it was just the spot where it fell. It would at least be something. There was one other thing that I failed to tell her though.

I didn't tell her cause I didn't want her to know that I went after Galaxia not because I didn't know anything about her as an enemy which yes is true but that wasn't why, but because I was too stubborn and willful of myself, to cocky perhaps to send out a message to the girls, to her, for help. I had already residual feelings of inferiority when Galaxia sent Nehellenia back to screw with us and that she took me as her bitch…temporary as it was.

I was upset with myself for not telling Usagi that I was feeling off then. Pushing her away instead of saying 'hey I feel somethings wrong'. Nope, I had to face it myself…again. My stupid need to handle so much on my own had actually been causing us problems. It was the reason for many mistakes made between us that I tended to forget so often that as my girlfriend, as my future wife I should go to her with issues.

Its why you have a partner for life, to talk to about this and face it together. To gain that trust, that support and mental and emotional help from. I needed it yet I didn't take it. So Nehellenia took me from her. I don't even remember much about where I was, only that I was trapped somewhere and was a lifeless body of bubbling crap on the outside. I was as bad as a vegetable and could barely be reached.

What got me upset though wasn't just that, it was also the one question I had about it, why was it always ME that was turned? It was either me or Chibi Usa who is an extension of us both, that normally got turned. None of the girls ever truly did. Usagi for her part found her way back when Nehellenia tried to trap her in a mirror world but Makoto's helped her find her way back by reminding her of me in her own way.

Like seriously is there something in my bloodline that allows for the Terrian's royalty to be easily swayed or am I not connected enough with the golden crystal to avoid it?! I mean my own parents were swayed when Beryl tried to take over the kingdoms to get to the silver crystal for Metallia. I barely managed to escape from earth at that point to get to Serenity. She was all I had left after my own guardians were turned against me.

Though as I think about it, I realized now that things might have gone differently had Beryl or Metallia known about the golden crystal being as powerful of a crystal as it is. It had been such a well-protected secret that half the royal family on earth didn't know of its existence till my parents deemed them trustworthy enough to be told of it. It made sense though and I knew exactly why to.

The people of earth for as advanced and wonderfully kind and generous as some could by, others could be downright evil and not to say that the moon's people couldn't be but since the moon's people already had been touched and blessed by the silver crystals power there wasn't a crushing need to use it for wealth or vanity as there was on earth. The silver crystal was pretty well known for its extreme powers and what it could do.

Its ability to grant those longer life spans and the fact that it granted Lunarian's that gift was something that my people sought. Others however only saw either power for themselves as Metallia did when she used Beryl or saw the ability to give such gifts as a blasphemy and called it a godlike power than no human should have. Didn't help that Lunarian's weren't considered completely human.

It was also probably why Chibi Usa was already very powerful in her own right. Two parents who were infinitely powerful themselves, in a future where they've come to power and rule over earth and the moon as a power couple. She would eventually take over the silver crystal as its natural bearer as Usagi once had as she would also have access to the golden crystal as she did when Nehellenia tried to kill her.

I couldn't help but pinch the bridge of my nose slightly at my thoughts. At the end of the day I sincerely hoped it was just a poor connection, something I could work on to improve so that I could be better, stronger, faster and wouldn't be taken out so easily in one blow. At least make my death when that happens something worthwhile. Like we've clearly been battling for days if not weeks or months.

Granted I'd prefer to go out with Usagi by my side, preferably in bed as we grow older together and, in each other's arms, but if it's on the battlefield same thing, only not in a bed. Just bloodied from fighting and ready to be together in the next life that's ours. However, that was neither here nor there right now. I did have to admit one thing though. Usagi was right, one hit from that bitches' bracelets and I was out.

I know Usagi didn't refer to her as a bitch and would probably refrain since Galaxia is a senshi, and is sorry for her actions against the rest of us for what she did, BUT…as the girls and I know this as we've been hit ourselves, Galaxia was a utter bitch for what she did, influenced by chaos on not, she made a choice to do what she did and it wasn't going to stop me from feeling as I did towards her.

Just like Beryl choose to let her obsession for me control her and her need for power let Metallia take over and take what she wanted. Galaxia let herself be influenced by chaos and let chaos in when she should have left it alone, but her arrogance wouldn't let her. I shut my eyes briefly, just like my own arrogance wouldn't let me call the girls for help. I knew I was thinking like an ass at the moment, but it couldn't be helped.

I was pissed not only at Galaxia for what she did but at myself for letting my pride get the better of me as I took on an unknown enemy without any backup. Despite my previous enemy encounter's which were and had been numerous and many over the years one would think that no matter how seasoned a warrior you are, that no matter how trained and skilled you were, that despite the many times you had beaten an enemy back, that you'd be smart enough to call for backup when there's a new enemy in the area.

Especially when the odds clearly AREN'T in your favor. Usagi was right, I was in the sky, away from earth at that point, I couldn't call upon my other powers since I was too far from earth. It also didn't help that I wasn't very well connected to the earth as I remember I had previously been in my past life. I distinctly remember being so connected in my past life that I was able to call upon a red rose for Serenity on the moon.

They weren't exactly prevalent up on the moon and she had never seen them before so to impress her I formed one on the moon so she could see it. My previous earth mother always did tell me I had her touch when it came to planting and that of nature. She was a wise woman and knew that Serenity was good for me...hell she knew what was good for me before I knew it and before even my father knew it.

I think it's why he also loved her so much, and why he valued her input on many of the things that went down during their reign. I sighed and tried to not think about the parents I once had, the ones that I lost to that witch. Original point here was that since I didn't bother to train as much as I should have been and we all knew it I just let my need to study take precedence and really I should have made both priorities in my life.

Yet I didn't. I let my connection to earth slack and as a result I could barely gain a whisp of anything while on the plane. I knew I was hard on myself for it but not as much as I could have been to be honest, plus lastly, I acted hastily regarding Galaxia. I let her attitude and general nature antagonize me into fighting against her when it actually played right into her hands to what she wanted.

I watched how she moved for only a few seconds and reacted. I should have tried to engage her in more verbal tactics, but I didn't. Instead I took the first action, which wasn't too smart to do, and my guard was down. I knew better than to try to take her on, especially where I was at, but both my pride and my need to protect the others on the plane came out and I couldn't be bothered with messaging the girls.

Hell, the other girls had sense enough to do it. Rei did it when the death busters first came around. She knew that despite being a seasoned senshi that had taken on her fair share of monsters that help was needed. As a matter of fact, she did it while running for her life and didn't even get to transform. Yet she was able to get a message out to the nearest girl for help knowing there was a new unknown enemy in the area.

Usagi did it many times herself, especially if there was a lot of innocent people around that could be hurt if the proper action wasn't taken. I can think of several instances where she saved so many lives by making sure she had the proper back up and it wasn't because she couldn't handle the monsters there but because in the end she was terrified that for even one split second if she lost focus on an innocent that the life would be lost.

She would still kill the monster, but she'd rather die herself than to lose an innocent life. She had done that already many times I had nearly lost count. So yeah, she called in for backup every chance she got. All the girls did at one point or another. Granted it would vary as to WHEN the backup would get there to help but still, it would have been called in to aid in the rescue of innocent lives at stake.

I was the prideful ass that tried to do it all on my own and failed at it. Miserably so. I still remember those moments. Feeling my soul leave my body. I knew I was gone the moment I was struck by the dual hits. There was no hope in me that I would make it out of that fight alive that day. I could have chosen to fall back to the earth, leave the plane, yet I knew without a doubt once she hit me that I would have disappeared leaving only my star seed behind long before I came close to hitting the ground.

She had me where she wanted me…vulnerable. She was after one thing and one thing only and she made sure I was at a weak point and alone when she did it. The timing was too perfect for her and I didn't even think about it. I sighed, the pressure of my thoughts weighing me down again as I forced myself to not drown in them by turning just the slightest bit to look down at my beloved Usagi.

She was so beautiful. So peaceful looking. So serene...it's no wonder her past mother named her Serenity. It wasn't just because it was a family name. I mean it was, but it wasn't just because of that. Looking at her peaceful face, her bright golden hair that held glimpses of silver in it, something that the layers of golden blonde hide for now, seeing her long lashes, watching her chest rise and fall as the sheet showed just a hint of breast to my gaze.

I could feel myself become hungry again for her. Her hair was all over my bed to, spread out like a corona around her, like angle wings almost. I was laying on some of them to, feeling the follicles between my fingers as I petted the fine feel of them. It amazed me sometimes how such a sweet, compassionate, passionate, heartwarming, genuine, generous, smart and witty woman could have the stubbornness to match a mule and win, and have enough heart to save even her enemies and still go toe to toe with me.

What I wondered more about it however was how I was going to survive and live without her in America. That's when I briefly recalled something, I hadn't shared with Usagi. That I had been tempted to ask her father if she could come with me to America to finish off high school and live with me as I went into medical school. I had the serious notion however that he was going to say no so I didn't even ask him and now I'm wondering how that would have played out on the plane that fateful day now.

With Usagi with me we would have definitely had an extended fight but how would it have gone really? Would we have won not knowing hardly anything about Galaxia, and with just the two of us at that? Would Usagi have used her crystal to beat her back into a retreat and have been able to save everyone on the plane that day? Or would she have caught Usagi off guard as she did with me and killed her as she did with me?

The very thought of her killing Usagi now as I even let it cross my mind terrified me of how one simple act could have changed potentially everything for us. Or how it could have saved everyone that day. I could have lost Usagi in seconds OR she could have saved everyone and stopped Galaxia long before she did. That was however only IF her parents had said yes to letting her come with me.

IF I had asked them permission to let her come with me. Even if I had just wanted her there to visit for that first week to help acclimate me while she enjoyed America and what it had to offer her. She would still have been on that flight with me regardless. I clutched her slightly tighter in my grip feeling overwhelmed by my thoughts and feelings right now. On one hand yes had she been there I had the fullest confidence as I thought this through that Usagi would have been strong enough to ward Galaxia off.

Deep down I knew it. She would have saved everyone on the flight. Yet on the other hand, the one that was making me want to cry right now was that what if...what if Galaxia caught HER off guard as she did with me. It's not like Usagi hasn't taken her fair share of hits before in the past, she's a real trooper to take them and keep on going. Yet Galaxia's hits were with one targeted goal in mind.

Thinking on that only seemed to make me gladder that she DIDN'T come with me and that I was glad yet feeling guilty that I ever felt this way. Had she been there yeah Galaxia would have probably been beaten back yet at the same time there was a chance she would have hit Usagi and I would have lost her. So yeah I would have to say that all guilt aside I'm glad that Usagi wasn't already there only for the simple factor of that chance that IF Galaxia would have won that day against her I'd have lost her for good.

I couldn't lose her again. I had lost her far too often already, once was enough, twice was too much so I couldn't do anymore. I relaxed just a bit and even though I felt guilt at my thoughts I didn't feel it for long as I knew that the needs of many outweighed the needs of the few. Usagi has saved many more people now that Galaxia is gone compared to the what if of being on that plane that day.

I relaxed in my hold of her but didn't release her. Instead I looked down and allowed myself a moment more to admire her. Felt the effect she had on me even in her sleep, unawares of the thoughts going on in my head. I've thought it once and I'll think it again, her past mother named her well. She must have felt how it was a perfect fit for her in her bones when she gave birth to her cause I felt it in my bones when I got to be with her.

She pulled me out of so much despair that I didn't even know I held in me. I knew that while she loved me and would always love me, more than what I knew I deserved she had no idea the level of love I held for her. What I'd do to protect her or our family. She was my family and now that Chibi Usa was back home in her timeline, while the girls were here and while I cared for them as family to Usagi would ALWAYS be my first priority.

She was my truest, my only love. I watched as she opened her eye lids and shone her big sleepy blue eyes at me. As the room was still relatively dark with no fixtures turned on her pupils were nearly completely dilated. A smile adorns on her face as she asked me, "How long have you been up?" I smiled down at her, "Not long…just enjoyed the sight before me." She smiled wider, "You're so sweet to me…sometimes I wonder how I got so lucky to have you…in two lifetimes no less." I smiled myself as I cupped her face.

I would tell her later on about how I felt about things. I would tell her we needed to both at some point go to where the plane was so I could face it as she already had. I'd explain to her WHY I needed to when the time was right, but for right now, with her in my arms I was going to enjoy every moment I have with her. "Funny, I was wondering the same thing about you…" I kissed her deeply as I leaned over and pushed her gently into the bed. She pulled me in as we succumb to our passions once more.