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The end in the beginning ch.14
Usagi POV
Once I left for my room after that confrontation with dad, I felt wearier than I had before and just wanted to sink into my bed and pretend for at least thirty seconds that I didn't just throw my family for a complete 360 loop. Nor that my father reacted exactly as I had predicted, nor that he would never look at me the same again. For years all I wanted was for him to see me as more than a teenager and now I got my wish.
I had Luna up with me as she followed me in, taking a place on the bed as I tried to take the few seconds but that wasn't to happen, "Well as far as spilling state secrets to your family goes that was a home run." I couldn't tell if she was being sarcastic or not, but I wasn't in the mood for it, so I sat up only to see my mother walking into my room. "Mom." She closed the door and nodded to Luna.
"I should have known you hung around her all the time for a reason." She notes as she walks forward and sits next to her on the bed before petting Luna. I watch as the fur ball takes it all in and enjoys the rub down and tries to say, "I'm her advisor…I do what I can…" she says in between pettings as I find it hard not to laugh a little at seeing her enjoying what cats love most, a good old rubbing.
"How are you taking this mom?" I already knew how dad was taking it, not so well. If I could find a way to undo this all I would but that's not the case and I can't. We can't undo events in time. She looks to me, "I always knew you were special I just didn't know how special till this happened." She was always to warming to me. I smiled and couldn't help but break down a bit, "You have no idea how much I've wanted to tell you."
I go to hug her as she takes me in, "I know darling…I could see it in your eyes, you've been wanting to tell us for so long but kept it secret for our safety. I understand…doesn't mean I like being kept in the dark, but I understand." I nod and let go of her, "Thanks…there were days that I wanted to get your advice on certain things but couldn't cause I couldn't explain the full story behind it." I tell her.
"Like your romance with Mamoru." I nod, "Exactly, how could I explain that things were way more in-depth between us than a few years when it was so much more than that?" she pulls me in for another hug while pulling Luna closer to, making the fur ball squeak, "Ikuko!" she yelped stunned, "Oh Luna…" she petted her some more, "Your part of this family so you get to be dragged into hugs to." I smiled as Luna looked torn between feeling loved and looking like 'what?' before getting pulled into my mom's arms.
"So, what was your role in the past? You mentioned something about the Queen's advisor? So now your Usagi's advisor?" she asked her. Luna nodded, "Yes, in fact I helped to guide the Queen through various meetings back in the past. She was very much like you a wise, spit fire of a woman who was kind, warm and loving and didn't back down from a confrontation." I could tell my mother was loving the compliments.
"In fact, I think it may be why Usagi was reborn as yours…" I saw Luna glance to me briefly as my mother looked down to her, "Oh?" she inquired, "The Queen, Serenity, would have wanted a strong, independent loving mother for her child. You are very much like herself in many respects and I think having you as Usagi's mother in the here and now is a big contributor to how she's such a wonderful strong woman." My mother looked to me, "She's good at the buttering up part…" Luna looked a taken aback by it only to have my mother continue.
"But she's not wrong that you are a beautiful strong woman." Her words have me smiling, "I get it from you." I tell her as she smiles, "Well we women are strong and resilient." We all agree as my mother asks me, "I know that this isn't something you can stop doing…but please going forward let us know where you'll really be. Or at least let me know…I'll keep an eye on your father…he can be a bit stubborn at times…just like you." She teases me as I acknowledge that, "That's where she gets it from?!" Luna asks then stops.
"Yeah, I guess that makes sense…one stubborn genetic trait to another." I go to swat Luna when she jumps up on my mother's shoulders who laughs as Luna sticks her tiny little tongue out at me, "Do you really think I WON'T come after you up there?" I ask as she gently jumps back down to the bed. I don't bother to swat her again as mother tells me, "Be good and tell Mamoru that it'll start to get cold outside so sitting on the roof waiting for you won't be a good idea in the months coming up." She leaves out leaving both of us perplexed.
"How did she…?" I question, "That's a mother's intuition at work." Luna says both impressed and equally stunned herself. That's when she pops back in garnering both of our attentions, "It's also called hearing footsteps on the roof past eight when things get quiet. Just be glad that your father is usually in his study on the other side of the house while I take to our room to reading a book." I gulp as she winks.
"Did you really think that I don't know every nook and cranny of this place? I picked out this home specifically to make sure I could keep a tally on my kids on the inside. Didn't count on you taking to the windows to go fighting monsters but nevertheless try to make sure he doesn't make to many sounds. Your father is adjusting and while I am more accommodating, he does care and love you all very much." I nod at her words.
"He just worries…I think once you give him some time he'll come around. He just needs to make adjustments himself." Luna and I both watch as she leaves off again. We hear her leaving down the hallway as Luna can't help herself, "Or that." she chuckles as I can't help but do the same before leaving out of the room to go up to the roof tops to check and see if he's up there waiting for me.
Sure enough, Mamoru is up top sitting on the roof, "Your mother is a lot cleverer than given credit for." He tells me. I smirk realizing he was listening in, "That she is…I guess that's where I get it from." I chuckle he pulls me into his arms by his side as we look towards the news vans still parked outside, "You've got her tenaciousness, her cleverness…just as you also have your father's stubbornness." I sigh on that note.
"Yes, my father…the one who is currently rejecting everything about me out of blind parental need to keep me safe when I'm one of the many protectors of this city. Oh, the irony." I mutter as he holds me close, "I understand it you know." Mamoru says as I look upward to him, "Having Chibi Usa here as we did…I got a glimpse at being a father." I could see he was deep in thought, "I loved having her here…" he smiles wistfully.
"But as much as I did, I could also see how that fear could be there to." I felt him shift a bit, as if he himself saw something in my father's words. In his actions that he himself understood. "When we had her fight along side us in battle, no matter her power, and she was like her mother, incredibly powerful at times…" I smiled at his words just a bit, "She was not yet fully there…" he looked outwards towards the night sky.
"Knowing how close she came to dying in my arms, not nearly as many as you but still, knowing how she's inherited her mother's penance of finding trouble whether she's looking for it or not, always had me on edge." I wasn't sure if the reference to me on that one was good or bad, but it was nonetheless true. I had a way of finding trouble just as Chibi Usa did the same as she managed to find it several times.
Not on purpose mind you but still, I understood his stance on it. "She was too young to be a senshi, still is as far as I see it, and yet she's been in battles and helped take down enemies that were far too evil for her to have been around…evil that had her under their control at one point…" I look downwards, "Like Hotaru was." I add as he nods, "So yeah I get to a degree how your father must feel." I snuggle further towards him as he continues.
"I'm not saying that you'll ever become like that, not in a million years do I think that you'd ever succumb to evil and join them, but your father like always was, is simply worried about something that's beyond his control." He pulls my face to look closely at him, "After all, do you really think I'd let Chibi Usa go off into battle when even I couldn't go?" I chuckle, "I think you'd die before you'd let that happen. I think the only time she was in battle when you weren't was when she was already in enemy hands and we had to save her."
I admit this to him as he nods, "Exactly…your father is feeling as powerless as I've felt at times. Now I can't very well explain to him how to let it go or get past it without telling him HOW I know to do this BUT I can give you some sound advice from one father type to another…" I nod accepting this as he's right. He can't talk to my dad about this without my dad becoming suspicious or how he'd know such things.
It would lead to questions that he's not ready to hear the answers to. He's still adjusting to what we just told him, to know of the future world…of Chibi Usa…it's too much. It's highly overwhelming for anyone let alone a parent to hear this. So as much as it MIGHT be easier to have him talk to dad bout this, for my parent's sanity sake its best to not tell them about Chibi Usa…nor about her future, where she came from or about who her parents really are. Dad might even try to slap a chastity belt on me.
"Your dad knows when he's been bested. I could see it in his eyes when we told him about being senshi and my role as Tuxedo Mask. I saw it clear as day that he wanted to try to regain some control as being one of the few adults in the room, yet he was bested and he knew it and as old as Luna is with her years as an advisor, she can't completely grasp the feeling of raising a child from infancy, to where you're at now." I nod.
"Your father has and merely wants the best for you. He, however, knows he can't stop this, he feels powerless against it and that makes him fear for you cause as a parent your supposed to be the one who protects your children…especially as your still raising them. Not the other way around." I nod knowing the truth of it, "This may not be the life we chose but it's the life that we have now, and as Minako said earlier we wouldn't change it for the world." I tell him with conviction.
"Neither would I…heed your mother and give your father some time. He will come around." He advises me. I nod as he kisses me goodnight. "Now I have a shift in the am and some studying still left to do…and so do you." I smile half-heartedly remembering my shift myself for tomorrow after school and the work that Miss. Haruna gave me to do. He slips out as I slip back into my room.
Mamoru POV
I wait outside for a little bit longer as I swing around Kenji and Ikuko's part of the house. My time as a caped crusader allowing me to slip through the back sliding door with ease. I find my way towards Kenji's study. After having talked with Usagi it occurs to me that I can actually speak with him on it. I keep this form Usagi for now though as I'm unsure if it will work as of yet. I gently knock on the door as Kenji responds, "Ikuko it's a little late."
I open the door, "Not Ikuko, but we do need to talk…Kenji…sir." He looks stunned to see me before it shifts to curiosity mixed with suspicion, "Please don't tell me on top of everything else you're asking for Usagi's hand in marriage." He looks defeated and a tad on edge, "While I do intend to marry Usagi, that's not right now." He appears a tad relieved but also a bit stunned at my blatant revelation.
"Then what? Its late." I nod, "I'll make this short then." I close the door and make my way to him his desk the only thing that separates us as I see the mounds of paperwork on his desk, "I get that you have your severe reservations about Usagi in battle. To be honest for a while I did to." He sits back in his seat, "Yet you allow her to go into battle." He snips a bit, "Kenji, you as her father should know that when Usagi sets out to do something, she will find a way to do what she feels is right." I tell him.
He sighs, "She's been like that for as long as I can remember. Stubborn girl." He mutters, "Very much like her father. Stubborn, willful. Protective." Kenji looks up to me, "Are you trying to appeal to me?" he asks, "Perhaps…or…" I walk around his desk and look out the window nearby, "Maybe I not only see things as you do in a sense but also know that Luna is right about Usagi." I turn in his direction.
"She's a far cry from the girl I first met several years ago. She's no longer a crybaby, she no longer trips while walking and chewing gum, she doesn't fail a simple math test…" I can tell I'm beginning to get to him, "She works hard, she studies harder, she's taking college bound courses, all the while she's training hard so she can defeat the next biggest enemy cause lets face it, there will always be someone else out there that wants to disrupt the peace." I tell him. "And she works her ass off to stop it every time." He sighs.
"And you think you could possibly understand the side of a father? You who has known no father nor is one himself." It was a petty move I noted as I looked to his slightly regretful eyes, "I don't mean that in a negative way but son you must admit, you can't possibly understand how I feel about this without being a father yourself." While he tries to amend his words, I take a new approach to this.
"Your right I'm not a father and mine died when I was just a child…" I then turn to look at him, "But I do remember my father in my past life. The training he put me and my friends through as soon as we were old enough to hold a stick sword." Kenji seemed to look at me in a new light now, "You remember that stuff?" he asked. I pursed my lips, "I remember all of it. I also remember how my father, as kind as he was to also be blunt, impactful, and he never let up on what he saw as weaknesses." I look back out the window.
"He was a good king, his people loved him. He even loved and respected me enough to let me find my own bride in the past instead of pushing a noble onto me. I intent to part those good traits onto any children that Usagi and I have when the time comes." I assure him as he sighs. I can tell he has words, but I'm not done yet, "Usagi wants the two of you to be on good terms, I know that in knowing her senshi secret its hard to accept it."
He glances up towards me, "You're seeing it through the eyes of a parent, much like mine used to as I trained for battle. I saw it each time I got beat down and pushed myself back onto my feet and went through it again. I saw in both my parents faces. I saw their want for me to have the best and I saw their worries for me as their only child." Kenji seemed to be getting the point I was making here…I hoped.
"I know you will worry about Usagi, no matter what. Its not going to stop. It's a parent's responsibility to keep tabs even when their kids are in their 30's, their 40's and 50's even, cause at the end of a day a parent's job is never done." I could sense Kenji's acceptance that I did get his feelings on the matter. At least in one sense he did. I saw the expression change on his face, saw his guard drop a bit and saw him as a man and not simply as a father figure, one that I myself sought the approval of.
"Something tells me you know more about this subject than you're letting on." I gulp but refrain from divulging further. He's not ready to know about Chibi Usa or what she means to all of us, not yet. "Let's just say that to a small degree from what I've seen and remembered over the years I get it." He looks to me ready to snap I can see it. So, I let him see the fear and pain that only a father can know.
The one of understanding. One that only parents develop when they have kids that have been in danger. Chibi Usa may be a future senshi to take on the silver crystal but she is still just a kid that has been through way too much already. Kenji sees this pain in me, the hope that every time we went into battle that she would be okay. "Trust me Kenji…I get it." His rage diminishes greatly as he sees my own expression.
"I'd ask how you know but I have a feeling you're unwilling to tell me this." He expresses, "Not unless you want to be overwhelmed more than you are." I admit as he holds his hand up, "When the time is right, I expect the truth on that, till then…" he breaths in deeply as he asks me, "How am I supposed to let her go out when the next battle could be the last?" his expression is filled with worry…a parents worry.
"Trust in her ability to fight as she's improved a great deal. You would not believe what she's faced off against and dealt with. More than even I know of." I tell him, "She's faced off against an evil Queen that tried to kill her, and she won. She's faced off against evil immortal beings and won. She's fought against her own evil aunt from the past life we had and not only won but SAVED her, despite everything." I couldn't help but chuckle as I recalled that one and saw Kenji look on with a bit of pride.
Like he was starting to see her as I did. Someone to be believed in. To be trusted and seen as a protector of this world. "She's fought against so much and still came back for more. She's an incredibly amazing, gifted young woman that yes, I've saved a plethora of times but one who's saved my ass to many times over. I owe her my life and so do the girls; we all owe each other everything because we aren't just friends…were not just earth's protectors…were family." I tell him as he nods just the tiniest of bits.
"She still lied to her…to this family though." He states as he clings to his reason for his anger more so now out of stubbornness than anything. He knows I'm right in all of this. "Kenji, sir…" I can practically feel the need to remain in control of this coming off of him in waves. "She's wanted to tell you from the start but the fear she had for your safety prevailed over her own want to tell you." I see his shoulders sag.
Time to drive it home, "Your safety meant more to her than if you were to be angry with her for life. As long as you were safe even if you chose never to forgive her, she'd do it again." He glanced towards me, "Cause that's the type of woman she's becoming. The one that was raised on the moon till her teen years and now on earth by you and Ikuko, the very parents she sought to protect…along with her brother…the one she grew up knowing needed to be protected to. You instilled in her so many years ago."
He doesn't argue my points but doesn't agree with me either, "Thanks to both her parents on the moon and the two of you, Usagi has utilized these teachings and what she's learned out in the battlefield to make the tough and hard decisions. She makes them from the heart and makes sure that every innocent person she sees is saved. Even if others don't believe they can be." I tell him as I recall Galaxia.
"When our last enemy was here even…" Kenji looked to me, "Her name was Galaxia…and she killed me. Usagi didn't know for the longest time yet she still fought long and hard. When she learned the truth, she still found a small fragment of hope left in Galaxia that she felt could be saved. Despite everyone telling her to kill Galaxia, she followed her heart and freed her of the chaos that manipulated her." Kenji looked floored by this.
"Usagi didn't go into this detail." He tells me, "I know, she glossed over a lot of the details as they aren't all necessary to be bared. This, however, is just the latest example of how amazing of a daughter you have. She fought against Galaxia and won by freeing her. We were all brought back to life because of your daughter's actions, she saved us…again." I couldn't help but chuckle even as Kenji remained silent.
"I told Usagi to give you time…really though…I think you made up your mind a while ago and are just wanting to adjust to what you've decided." He looks to me with a resigned expression to his face, "Your smarter than I gave you credit for." He nearly smirks himself, "I have made my decision and while I may not like how things are it's not like I have a choice in the matter…is it." It wasn't a question.
"Actually, you do…just not one that you'd prefer. Usagi will continue to be sailor moon, there's no ending that. She will continue to protect you and everyone else, cause for Usagi, its what's right and doing what's right is the only thing she knows how to do. Both sets of parents taught her that." He nods, "This is true…Ikuko and I wanted to raise her well. I just never imagined this." He seems to be in debate.
"Whatever you have decided, being angry still and cutting off communication or not, its up to you…I just recommend continuing to be her father and let her do her job. Be a part of this world now…don't let what those reporters, the negative ones hurt your relationship with her. Don't let the lie that was created to protect you get in the way of it. She's rather cut off her left arm than to lose you." I tell him as I leave out and HOPE that he won't continue to make this difficult for her, not anymore.
Usagi POV
It's been nearly two weeks since all of this started. I've been caged up in my room for all that time, reorganizing, working out. Anything to make the time go by. The paparazzi seemed to have increased once they realized that I slipped back inside and at this point I can't even go out to get the mail without having a swarm start to come after me. The mail man even stopped coming up to the door for his own safety of them as they were even trying to ask HIM about us as a family and what we were like.
What I was like. He responded with a 'no comment' response and has since stopped coming to the door to deliver our mail. Instead, he left a note on the door telling us our mail will be held at the office to come get. I felt sorry for him sure but now this was getting ridiculous. I was doing my homework and course through the online portal, trying to stay on top and grateful that Miss. Haruna was nice enough to talk to me about not just school but about how I was feeling, and it helped me out.
It just felt like I was being barricaded in. I was just glad that Motoki didn't fire me for everything going on. He just had me working from the back since working as a waitress was going to only have people coming in to as me questions that I didn't want to have to answer. Thankfully no reporters had come in yet, but Motoki didn't want that chance to be taken so once the first customer asked me about being a senshi he had me work in the back, cleaning up, helping in the kitchen, anything to help me still have a job while keeping me out of the public eye in the arcade so I wouldn't get harassed.
So, while scrapping grease off the grill and metal plate below wasn't fun, it did make me feel a sense of understanding that sometimes people have to start at the bottom to work their way up, in this case though, I know it was because Motoki was trying to find a reason to help me stay employed. I was merely thankful that he was on my side of this and saw me still as his little sister. It made being able to go to work easier as it gave me a sense of purpose even if that purpose was to clean up after everyone.
Yet I supposed this is what that so called princess wanted of me. To feel trapped and backed into a corner. Be stuck and unable to really do anything about it till we found a solution together as one because I don't think we could do this or deal with this separately. The girls could only visit me at nighttime and even then, they had to get crafty since the paparazzi were getting stronger in numbers out front.
Luna was perturbed by this and was tempted to use her magic to end it, but she wasn't strong enough nor had the right powers to do so at the end of the day. So far, we had two senshi meetings on how to deal with this new enemy and so far, no new leads had shown up as of yet so we were hoping that this new meeting would provide some answers for us. I had to sneak out through the window then go via rooftop to escape which was ridiculous.
I had to escape from my own home to evade those piranhas out front that wanted to talk to me about what was going on. So far, the girls didn't have anything in the way of news though. Ever since I had been exposed things got quiet and it didn't bode well for the girls. Not for me either as it seemed that now that she was getting her way this new enemy could be gathering resources and using them against us.
Tonight, is the third senshi meeting being held and this time the outers are finally joining us in this. I slip out at midnight exactly and race over to the temple. I needed a good run anyways as I felt to cooped up and confined. My own room was beginning to feel a tad bit like a damned tomb. With my stuffed animals it was the brightest tomb out there. As I arrive there, I can't help but hug the girls.
Haruka arches a brow at me as she remarks, "Someone feeling a touch of cabin fever?" I sigh, "You have no idea." Before she can say anything more Ami arrives, "I've been running through my computer for more data but so far she's not leaving behind any energy signatures right now." I nod, "Which either means she's left this planet or…" Minako begins as she joins us all, "She's found a way to cloak her energy signature so she can remain unseen by any of us." We look to her as her theory both makes sense and worries us.
"Is that possible?" I ask Ami, "If she's strong enough then it's possible. All power sources have an energy signature but if they know how to they can hide even that from us." Haruka huffed, "And this bitch is from our past timeline. So, if there's something ancient that she's using then we need to find what she's using to aid in her 'cloaking'." She looked to us all, "Makes sense." I looked to Ami.
"Would she need something to anchor her here?" Ami shakes her head, "No, but she would need something to help her hide from us. Truthfully, we need to know more about her to know how she's working her own powers." I nod wondering where we could find it. "I knew this would happen." Haruka looks to me and its enough to let me know how she feels about my actions that lead us here.
She may respect me as her future Queen, but from one senshi to another, she's upset that I made the choices that I made. "While Haruka did have a point that the actions of one affect us all…" Ami broke into our small starring contest, "We're also doing this cause you've done so much for all of us. We're going to fix this." Haruka nods knowing the accuracy of her words. "Thank you but you've all done a lot for me to. Were friends and we fight evil together." Ami, Minako and Haruka all nod as we see the rest join us.
It really did end up feeling fruitless to meet up about this energy when we know so little about how she got this power still. All we know is how her father preferred power and felt his daughter would be a way of getting and obtaining it. She may have served as his 'puppet' in a sense, but she was quiet willing to do whatever she felt was necessary to get it. Just like now, she still felt like we were the ones responsible for how things went down. That we were the ones that were in the wrong, back then and now.
I still felt like she could be reasoned with but right now unless we could find out more about her it was going to be hard. We had our work cut out for us on this one. So, as we all parted ways, promises of figuring things out were made as we all headed home. Really however, it just felt like it was a wasted two hours. Not that I could sleep well anyways. I was restless knowing she was out there somewhere.
So, as I slipped back inside my room, I notice I'm not the only one there. For a moment I fear she found where I live at and is aiming to come after me, come after my family in my own home. I'm about to snap at whomever is in here when my father hits the light in my room. He's leaning back against the door unsurprised by my arrival. Though he's none too happy to see me right now either, "Your out awfully late."
His words have me sighing as I put my phone and purse down on the bed beside me, "I needed a break from being cooped up, so the senshi and I met up to try and resolve things. We would try to meet up more during the day but it's getting difficult to do so." I look out the window at the remaining reporters outside, half of them had gone home for the night but half of them did remain hoping to catch me or my family at some point for an interview or just to catch a stray word from us.
My family had been diligent to keep them away, but it still meant that my family were being damn near harassed on a daily basis with just trying to do a few menial things like shopping for food when they had to leave the house. Mother even had to put a scarf around her face to keep them form spotting her just for leaving out to get groceries. She wanted to try to use that food home delivery system, but that plan failed when they wouldn't let the delivery person through to give us our food.
Mom had to sneak out to the store to go get it. "Trust me I'd rather be in bed myself but for now…" I answered him, "We're working on a plan to get rid of this new enemy and hopefully, we can work on a way to make this whole 'world knows who I am thing' go away for good." Though I had a very strong feeling that that wasn't going to happen…ever. It took a seismic burst of power for my wish the very first time around to work.
That wish only last a few months before Luna was forced to essentially undo it but giving me back my memories. While I am stronger than then as we all are, I can't do a big pulse of power like that and hope that I still have enough life within me left to make everyone forget who I am or what was seen or heard on the news. Plus, from how my own dad was looking at me things were never going to be normal or the same as before ever again and I didn't know right now how to fix that…or if it was worth it to try to fix.
"Yet things haven't changed, and it's been weeks…" he remarked, his voice enough to tell me how he was feeling on the matter. "My daughter is sneaking out in the middle of the night." I looked away as he already knew WHY I had to sneak out. There was no point in defending myself at this rate. Plus, I was getting legitimately tired. "Why were you up?" I asked him instead as he sighed, "I couldn't sleep. Imagine that." I could see it in his face, the stress of this was getting to him.
"I'm sorry your losing sleep over this I really am. Were working to take care of things. This enemy is just…she's different than anyone we've faced before." He looks to me as if asking how, "She's cunning and proving to be more reckless than other enemies before her. She's working to expose me and is so far succeeding. She doesn't even seem to care that she is causing exposure for herself with her monsters." I tell him.
"This is all the more reason for you to STOP being a senshi." His fatherly duty coming out in full swing as I wipe a stray tear from my eyes. "Even if I could stop dad, I couldn't go on day by day and watch as innocent people get so drained of energy they get killed. It's an urge within me to protect those who can't protect themselves." I could see the wear of this all on him as he nods, his face suddenly looking more sullen and older than before.
I can feel the guilt rising in me, yet I know that despite how my family is affected that I can't turn my back on those that can't fight for themselves. "Put yourself into my shoes dad. What would you do if you were me?" I ask, trying to shift things around and get his viewpoint from my perspective. He looks away from me. "Don't turn this around on me Usagi." His voice gets lower as if he's trying to contain his own anger.
"I just want my Usagi to be my little baby girl again." I can see the tears begin to form in his eyes. "Okay maybe not a baby girl where you're very young but still just my little girl. The one who used to jump into rain puddles. The one who used to greet me at the door with a kiss when you were younger. The one who had pie on her face as a child." I can't help but smile recalling all of those memories.
"Not some monster fighter." The smile quickly faded, "It was hard enough to accept you as a growing young teenager with a job. That was one thing to accept, though mostly due to it helping you to be more mature and responsible. You needed that and it provided structure for your future." That it did do as I feel I'm stronger minded now than before and I do feel a greater sense of professionalism from it.
"So yeah, I encouraged it as long as your grades didn't slip." I looked towards him, my need to talk to him strong to so I let him continue to talk even though I had a feeling his words would be hurtful towards me in the end. "Then your relationship with Mamoru became stronger, you were actually in a serious relationship and that was very difficult for me." I couldn't help but ask, "Why was that so difficult?"
He sniffled his nose, "Because its hard as a parent to let go and accept that your child, your eldest at that is growing up and becoming an adult themselves, but now…" he really was looking at me like he didn't know me anymore and it hurt. It really hurt me to see him stare straight at me and see me as not the child that he raised but as the woman I was becoming and be unable to hold my own eyes in his.
I knew this was a lot to handle, I knew it was but there was no other option. None that would have granted them all life. This so-called princess was tearing my family or at least my bonds with them apart. Shingo didn't even want to talk to me anymore. At least not right now. I tried a few times to converse with him but he either left the room or banned me from entering his room, so it became difficult to talk to my own brother even.
"You say your reborn from this Queen Serenity but are you even our daughter or are you her daughter?" I couldn't help but let the tears of pain fall down my cheeks. Not big on snot bags but just tears of pain as it felt like my own father was turning his back on me. "Of course, I'm your daughter dad." I state with utter conviction. I needed him to see that being reborn didn't make me any less his child…or any less Queen Serenity's child.
I was both. Equally. "Mom gave birth to me; you were there to see me pop out." I sniffled myself now. "Mother told me the story of how you damn near passed out at least a dozen times and that you were even afraid to hold me due to how small and precious you felt I was. It never failed to make me laugh as a young child." I smile hoping that a distant memory will help him connect me back to knowing that I am his child.
"I'm just reborn from Serenity in the past. I'm one in the same. There's no major difference. I'm Usagi, the child you raised AND I'm princess Serenity." He looked towards me skeptically as I knew I'd have to work to convince him of who I was. I had a similar dilemma year's back when I found out the truth myself, but I know WHO I am. "Trust me I know this is an adjustment to make, I had to make it to years back."
"You and mom raised me, you cared for me when I was sick, when I needed advice, when I needed discipline. When I needed to learn right from wrong you were both there." I tell him, hoping that this will aid us both to getting a stronger bond again. I didn't want my family to be divided because of me. "I'm still the same girl that tried to sneak down for a midnight snack and got caught by you both." He acknowledged that at least.
"I'm still the same little girl who loves mama's pie and could portably finish off a whole one by myself fi given the chance." That earned a small chuckle from him. It was something, "I am your daughter dad." He breathes in deeply, and I know I have to say the rest, "Just as I'm also her daughter to…" I see the sadness in his eyes but it's the truth and I can't not tell him how it is at least for this.
"But I AM yours. I NEVER STOPPED being your daughter." I go to walk forward towards him, needing to feel my father closer. I needed to feel his arms around me just as he used to when I was a child. Just to know that he still accepted me as his child, his daughter. Even knowing what he knows now to accept me for ALL of ME, even me being a senshi who still has a damned curfew that I break constantly to protect others.
Instead, he opens the door up and turns to leave me as I stop. The gesture alone is hurtful as I lean towards my bed. His final parting words for the coming new morning or very late night, depending on how you look at it, "I will always love you Usagi, yes you are my daughter and yes I do remember all of that, but it doesn't erase what we know now about you. This is just a lot to take in right now. Have a good rest of your night." He gives me a sad smile as I nod. Once he leaves, I can't help but collapse onto my bed and cry my eyes out.