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The end in the beginning ch.23
Mamoru POV
I have Jadeite secured over my shoulder as I carry his unconscious form back to my place taking the Tux route to get there to avoid raised eyebrows along the way. Once he's placed on the couch so I can still have my bed to myself I look over the youngest of my generals and hope that this works out. The worry and hope that he can help out a great deal hits me hard. We're getting closer to what we need to beat this enemy.
I can't even sit down for long before the adrenaline kicks in and I'm pacing about the room like a caged tiger as I wait for him to wake up. Rei barely even let me leave out with him as she was very leery of his presence. Even AFTER Ami did another scan after Usagi went to work. It was almost getting on Ami's nerves as I hauled him over my shoulder to leave. I even nodded to Ami to talk with Rei as her own distrustful paranoia was starting to become a possible hindering factor to the help we were aiming for.
I know Jadeite hurt her. Both here and in the past. I can't excuse it, and even though he was under the influence of evil in both timelines when the hurt happened, Rei is much less forgiving than Usagi is. Her distrust in men has been integrated since she was a child thanks to her father bailing out on her. So, I'm well aware of how deeply integrated it is. I have my own trust issues from childhood to.
For myself they've been a part of me for longer and I'm more of an antisocial person thanks to it, however, it doesn't mean that when there's an opportunity as this one is presenting itself that you allow that distrust to cloud your judgement. Yes, you put shields up in place and yes you hold your reservations and yes you even put 'insurance' on the matter. Ours was the bind on Jadeite not becoming evil again.
Without his bond to Rei being fully accepted and formed there's always going to be a chance without it to happen. Back in the past their bond hadn't been fully formed yet as they hadn't been married yet. None of my friends had been to the girls yet, nor had I to Serenity. I mean even now that I'm stronger than I was in our past lives I'm not immune to the evil princesses' powers. My confrontation with her was proof of that.
However, I am stronger and unlike my generals of the past and of now, I have a greater bond with not only my crystal but with Usagi as well. So even though were not married yet were still stronger now than even a year ago. Hell, since we grow stronger by the day together it proven to provide me with a stronger connection to my own crystal as I'm more complete now with the other half of my soul and I already know in my heart that once Usagi and I are married the bond will be unbreakable.
Right now, as strong as it is it can still be hurt, but not nearly as easily as it could have been back when Nehellenia was here, not especially when Beryl was around. I'm...no we are too strong for that now. So, Rei and Jadeite, they do have a lot of progress to make IF they can work it out. IF she can accept him and what happened. There's no guarantee of it and right now there's no use in trying to push for something to happen nor do I want to push Rei towards him. It has to be her decision to WANT to pursue or be pursued by him.
He may want to pursue her when he wakes up or this could be a life that they lead away from one another and that's just going to be something they both have to live with. I make a mental note to talk to Minako about leaving them alone cause if Rei is anything like myself it's going to take not just time to accept but time to heal and they will need to want to talk to each other, not be forced to or else Rei will be liked a caged tiger.
She'll only fight against it and try to claw her way out of the situation. No, she needs to accept it when she's ready and right now she's still in her own distrustful feelings that I don't think he'll win any brownie points anytime soon. Right now, a nuclear bomb could go off, he could save her, and she'd question his very existence for being there to save her. She'd question why and would have paranoia on his justifications.
Never mind that he just saved her she'd question it. Plus, she had Ami complete more scans on him than any previous enemy I recall beforehand. My phone buzzes as I see its Ami telling me that Rei has already gone home to have time to herself and warns me not to let Jadeite, once he wakes up, to go see her right away. I agree that Rei does need a few hours to compartmentalize what's going to be happening here.
Even I'm concerned about how Jadeite will react to everything. We didn't take away or alter his memories. He has them all. So, he has all the memories of what he's done deep inside of him, it's going to take some time for even himself to adjust mentally and emotionally. So, when Ami texts me again regarding the evil princess I read the text twice and see what she means...based on the previous attack patterns, excluding where we found Jadeite, I believe her next attack will be where the dead moon circus was at.
She's going after our old enemies stomping grounds here in Japan but she's not touching outside of it. It makes me wonder what this means and why she's doing it. I text this to Ami during this little group communicator chat as I'm hoping that someone else will potentially have some insight into what she's planning. Its then however that Jadeite opens his bleary eyes and realizes that he's definitely NOT in the ice prison he was encased in.
He takes one look to me, looks me up and down as if making sure it really is me. There's some definite disorientation as he doesn't say anything for a moment, "Hey Jadeite..." I greet as he sits up on the couch and looks around. While I wasn't expecting a hug or anything I was expecting some sort of reaction to what was going on. "Am I dead?" he asks me as I can't help but chuckle a little, "Far from it." I assure him.
"So' this is all real? I'm not dead? I'm not still trapped in that frozen hell?" he nearly demands in a panicked not quiet believing me tone of voice. "Yes, no and no." I answer him. "Beryl put you under a spell and it wasn't till recently that we were able to find you." I tell him as he works things out in his mind. "I'm real and this world that were in..." I go to the balcony to show him the buildings, "Is real." he gets up and looks out tentatively through the balcony doors as he sees the high-rise buildings.
"It's not overrun by Beryl or any other monster." Then I amend my words, "But we do have an enemy who's trying to." I explain as he looks over at me, "So you really are Endymion. My brother...my prince." I nod, "I go by Mamoru now in civilian form and Tuxedo Mask as my alternate form, but yes I am." I only feel a wave of air rush out of my lungs as he lunges for my form. Placing me in a near airtight hug as he starts to profusely apologize for everything that had happened since he remembers my time as Tux.
"I can't believe I fought against you so hard. I can't believe I fought against you period." I can see the deep regret in his face on it as he goes to sit back down. His shoulders are hunched over and how back is nearly sunken in with remorse and regret. I need to ask though, "What happened after that day?" he glanced at me as he sighed, "Beryl happened. When I found out the girl's names, when my evil..." I nod as he sighs once more.
Trying to accept what he did while evil, "When I did, she didn't care and felt that whatever I found out was an excuse to give me life. Unless I brought the girls heads in on a silver platter, I was dead. I had been seriously wounded by my fight with them, so I stood no glimmering chance of escape. The next thing I knew I was reliving everything I'd ever done wrong to every person I'd wronged in my life." his head sunk lower.
"All I could do was live it out over and over again. Tormented by their cries of help, begging me to stop and to spare them." I looked at him a little bit confused now as he turned to me, "I didn't just remember what I had done here in this life but what I had done in our past life as well. I murdered people left and right when Beryl had my mind. My mind was blank. I had no control over anything." I could see how this was taking its toll on him.
"It was like I was in a comatic state and when I was freed of that ice prison, I was grated the freedom and soul crushing guilt of remembering everything I had done. The things I did Endy...Mamoru." he corrected. I could see how the pain of his torment still was hitting him hard as tears were forming in his eyes. "It wasn't you Jadeite. That was Beryl's control over you. In both lives." I assure him as he stands up.
"Yeah, but had I just been stronger I could have fought her off harder. She took me by surprise that day." I watch his form begin to pace back and forth. The adrenaline starting to come at him as memories begin to flood back in even more. "She was in my rooms that day. I was on my way to see Rei..." that's when his face lights up in recognition of even more, "Oh KAMI! Rei!" I stand up prepared to stop him from acting out as he looks ready to do something but even unsure himself of what he wants to do.
"I fought against her Mamoru. I tried to kill her...repeatedly." the sheer disgust within himself was thick in the air as he now appeared ready to begin to hyperventilate, "I can only imagine how she must feel towards me now." I did what I could to calm him down, "Jadeite listen to me, freaking out isn't going to help matters." I tell him as he tries to breath in and out, "You don't understand Mamoru, Rei is incredibly hardheaded, a hot head, and a very spirited woman." I nod knowingly of these traits.
"I'm aware. I've been her friend for years now." I explain to him as he too could be a little hot headed at times. "I need to see her. To feel her, hold her in my arms." his desperation wasn't going to work right now cause as it was Rei would sooner beat the holy hell out of him than to accept a hug from him. "She's not exactly in the right mental or emotional place to see you just yet." I try as he says, "She's my fiancée' I have to see her."
"In the past yes but in this time-line no. In this timeline she's a high schooler who helps to save the world on a daily basis, her identity has just been exposed as a senshi thanks to the new enemy, and her last memories of you are when you were evil and trying to use her to get energy and kill her. I'm sorry but there are no good memories of you in this life and that's the life that's more vivid to her." I explain as he deflates a bit.
"I just...I miss her so much. I want to tell her how much I love her. How incredibly sorry I am and how I'll do whatever she wants me to do to earn her forgiveness." he says as I get him to calm down just a bit, "I know and you can do that just, not right now. Give her a day or so. Let her adjust to knowing your alive and not set on world-wide destructive natures." I can't help the slight sarcasm at the end.
"She's my world Mamoru...she's the air I breathe and now..." the rest of him deflates now to as whatever adrenaline was there, ebbs from him slowly as reality of what he can and can't do settles in. Though I am glad that I reigned him in. I can only image her reaction to him now, talking, walking anywhere within her vicinity. Rei's temper coupled with his current iron clad distrust of him is NOT a good combination right now.
"Now I can't even go to her, to re-assure her that I'm me again. "I can't go be with the woman that I love." he slumps down on to the couch, hate against himself for what's happened flooding through himself. I seem to recall much of that myself when I was initially brought back. The memories were as much of a blessing and a curse as I was forced and rightfully so, to remember the pain and suffering I put Usagi through.
Now Jadeite was going through it and soon enough the rest of the generals would be experiencing it on their own levels of what they dished out against their loves. After all the girls in this time knew about their past lives and remembered them but they also had lives here and now and the generals, to my knowledge hadn't. Only the past. Jadeite was merely experiencing it the most of all due to him being the first general that was sent out to attack the girls by Beryl. He was the first and foremost.
Rei had already held a distrust towards him working at the temple and knew something was off. When she found out he was evil it only solidified what she felt about him. So even though he's good right now and will be going forward thanks to the bind we put on him Rei's 'perimeter defense system' when it comes to distrust is still fully intact. However, if anyone can get her disarmed and accepting it's him.
Usagi did it to but she had to work with her as a senshi for a long while before Rei started to trust her leadership. To work with him as a general, will be different. Part of me was beginning to rethink bringing the generals back but at the same time, a stronger part of me knew it was the right call to make. "Right now, giving her time is all that you can do." I tell him wanting him to know that even though he's feeling helpless she needs this.
If she doesn't get that time in, just those couple of days she can sort out her mind a little bit more and maybe even talk to the girls on her feelings. "Cause I hate to say it but when it comes to you, she'd rather shot first and ask questions later versus opening up her arms to you." he grunts in aggravation, "I did a lot of damage, but I also know that if it weren't for that bitch Beryl, we would have been happily married. She ruined everything we had planned..." he shoots up from the couch shocking even me by the sudden jerk movement.
"I ruined it by failing to stop Beryl from controlling my mind and not being strong enough to fight her." I can see the emotional turmoil he's in, so I stand up now myself. His mood swings as he deals with them coming in full circle. He's trying so hard to sort to his emotions out and it's not working to well. Now I'm glad I have him over here. I'm not sure the girls could have worked with his state of mind right now without wanting to tie him to a chair and going into interrogation mode on him.
What Jadeite needed right now was help, not continuous accusations and while I believe Ami and Minako would try it was in the nature of a senshi to be suspicious of an enemy till they saw for themselves the true goodness of them. The sisters that turned away from the dark moon had seen the errors of their ways and had accepted Usagi's healing light. Jadeite was busted out of an ice prison and the evil ripped form his body.
The girls would want to be there for him but might become conflicted over Rei's persistence to NOT trust him. Plus, as Rei did point out once I to had been evil for a little while. The girls only fought to get me back due to my being their princesses prince. Sometimes I wonder had I NOT been with Usagi if they would have bothered or if Usagi would have bene overruled by their own suspicions of motive.
"Don't put yourself down too much, you're not the only one." I assure him as he looks me dead in the eyes, "Right the other generals. I'm shocked Malachite fell for it though. He was so strong all the time." I purse my lips not wanting to admit to it but knowing I have to so that he knows not even I was able to resist. Granted I had been really, badly injured but still I had been turned evil. Though I'm deciding NOT to count the time to much when Chibi Usa was evil and turned me evil.
Those powerful enemies were from the future and thus had more powerful attacks than we did, thus I was able to be turned evil even though it was barely for a few hours...maybe a few days at the most. "Them to but I was referring to myself." he snaps his head towards me in near stunned silence, "What?" as he wracks his brain for how that could have happened to me of all people, and it pains me to remember it as I explain.
"Not back then but after you were put in your ice box prison Beryl found out who I was other than Tuxedo Mask. It was a big fight, and I hadn't known who I was to her or how her seeing who I was would make such a difference in what she wanted. She sought after me, like hard." I sighed now as I began to pace around a little bit, my own memories coming to the surface, "Wait the bitch had a massive hard on for you even now?" Jadeite asked.
I nodded, "And how..." I rolled my eyes before giving a light shudder, "She used Metallia's powers to control me. I attacked the girls more times than I care to count. I targeted Usagi in her senshi form, I did a lot of damage myself so trust me you're not the only one who has sins to atone for. Even though Usagi has forgiven me along with the rest of the girls it took time." I tell him as he comes forwards just the slightest.
"I'm sorry I'm still on you being controlled." he arches a brow towards me, "How were YOU of all people taken over? How'd you get back to being you again? You were the strongest of us all." he comments, "I was taken over because in this time I hadn't known who I was as Tuxedo Mask till I discovered I had one of the rainbow crystals. I was blacking out whenever I rescued Usagi. I wasn't as strong as I had previously been." I admit.
"Wow so you had no idea who you were, decided to keep playing hero to Usagi as a senshi even though you didn't know who she was and when you found out the truth..." Jadeite begins, "Basically and when I found out the truth of everything, our pasts, all of it, that's when I was kidnapped and made into an evil dick." I mutter towards the end, "So again how did you get past it all?" Jadeite asks.
I can't help but smile in recollection as I think about my love. My wonderful, forgiving beautiful inside and out Usako... "Love." I tell him simply, "Usagi, or as you knew her as Serenity, she's Usagi now. Her love brought me back. It was the purest form of power that not even Metallia's own powers could beat." I couldn't help but feel water well up in my eyes, "She saved me...more than you know." I admit.
"She's why I'm still standing here now and NOT dead...again." I amend towards the end as I have technically died a couple of times now. "So even the might earth prince was susceptible." Jadeite muses realizing that we may be strong and powerful but were not immune nor indestructible. "I had to get stronger, which is what you will do yourself. We need you stronger so that you can help us bring the other generals back." he nods.
"We do need a few things especially if we're going to be essentially reviving the dead." his demeanor changes from defeated to determined, in the span of moments as he redirects his lack of ability to go to Rei towards our need to helping beat our enemy. He, like me, needs something to focus on. Something to put his mind working towards so that he doesn't have to think about what he's missing.
I know I was going through similar when I had to break it off with Usagi when that whole dream thing happened. I threw myself into my studies and work. Jadeite would need to do the same if he was going to give Rei the time she needed. "So, who is this new enemy?" he asks me as I start to go into detail. "Someone from our past that I thought was gone." I then tell him all about her that we know and what she wants not just from us but from the world as it is. It's an in-depth story but now he knows so now he can better help us out.
"Wow..." he remarks. "I barely remember her to, but I do recall her. Prissy little thing." he mutters, "Yeah..." as if that's all she was, "Well we have work to do then. The other generals aren't going to wake themselves up so we can get started on what we need to do which is a little bit more prep work for you and add my own mix in then when Usagi is here we can bring them back to their former glory. As loyal generals to our ever-loving prince." Jadeite tells me as I smile, "Thanks."
Over the course of the next couple of days Jadeite helps me get more in-tuned with my crystal using methods neither Usagi nor I knew existed. I didn't know of some of the things my golden crystal was capable of. I was actually drawing from the earth now and using it in my attacks. I had found out through Jadeite that even though I was stronger than he last remembered me in our past lives I needed to be stronger still to go through what was needed for our brothers to come back, or to be brought back.
I was feeling more confident and stronger now to. I could feel the connection getting that much stronger than before. Usagi had helped me a great deal, we had helped each other out which brought both of us closer to the end goal in mind, but this training with Jadeite was helping to take me into the 'home stretch' of strength connection so to speak. I trained with him during the evening time as I took an off day to help him get set up with a driver's license or at least an ID for identification purposes.
He decided to stay with me since he didn't have a place of his own or a job to speak of and right now, he still hadn't gone to Rei yet which was good but I did still want to be able to have Usagi over at some point, though I do know she was between work and school right now so she wouldn't be over for a night with me right now, but I did want to make that happen again at some point going forward.
Preferably sooner rather than later, I missed her body on mine as we made love and though it hadn't been that long it was still to me long. Yet I also know that I was growing stronger than ever before with my powers thanks to the aid of Jadeite, he wanted to help get the rest of the generals back to, wanted our brothers back but knew what I lacked and while Usagi help one part of the missing key the rest was with me.
I hadn't realized nor thought of the fact that I had to be the one strong enough to grant them access back to the power roots as my generals. They lost their original powers when they went dark side and needed to be brought back to them in order to be fully re-established as my brothers in arms. It was going to take more than just my waking them up and Usagi's crystal to give them bodies again.
Since they died as evildoers, they needed to be re-connected. It made me wonder if Usagi would have to do the same if the senshi were ever turned evil...or if they could be turned evil. The generals had different power sources than the senshi. Theirs all came and originated from earth, the senshi originated from their home planets and now in this life had granted access from their home planets to fight on earth for the safety of others, I'm not so sure the generals would be given the same access on a different planet.
Its why Jadeite had to help, he did a lot of research other than Zoisite in the past, when it came to matters of originating powers and access to more when needed. In this case he was diving head strong into materials regarding resurrection so that he could better help me from all angles. Plus, I knew for a fact that he was using it as a way to keep his mind off of Rei. He had gone past and given Rei more than a week now.
I had gotten stronger as did he, shedding his state of mind from being in his ice prison to accepting that this was real now. Though there were times that he did sometimes wake up in the early am hours from a nightmare that he was back there and decided to stay up despite his need to sleep just to avoid going back into the nightmare realm he'd just been in. I even tried to talk to Helios about it.
We both did, but even he said that Jadeite had personal demons that he needed to fight, and I had a feeling that he wouldn't be able to try to start fighting them till he spoke to Rei. He was really just delaying the inevitable at this point by NOT talking to her. I told him she'd had time to work things out and that when she wasn't at school, to very discretely go seek her out since the media was out there now.
Usagi POV
I decided to hang out with Rei for a bit at the temple. We needed a place, non-senshi related at this point just to feel a tad bit normal and not centered around the crap that was going on and the temple was a place of peace. Despite the reporters below. They have dissolved a bit over the last week or so but still, much like at my home there were still some there since this news bit was still so much of a 'hot topic'.
Besides, we hadn't just hung out for reading and tea in too long and that's exactly what we were doing. I had even traded some of the funny manga for the romance ones, really using it as a way to see what new moves I could pull on Mamoru to experiment with. There were a few pieces in there, but I really got a lot more when Rei tossed me a cosmo magazine that I was shocked she even had in her room.
She threw me a 'don't ask' glare as I accepted it and didn't bother to ask. I was on the second page, sitting in a comfy beanbag like chair, facing the wall as Rei faced the door to my right when I immediately sensed a drop in the temperature. Not a massive drop but it felt like the winds had picked up a small bit. Rei immediately looked on edge as I remained silent. My own radar was on, but I couldn't sense a threat.
There was no evil I could sense nearby, and while I knew Rei didn't sense it either or else, she would have altered me and jumped up by now I remained silent as I heard someone approaching the steps. Rei now stood up but was on guard. I looked towards her, but she barely paid me any mind. I looked out the window, peaking around and saw Jadeite coming up. As much as I wanted to join Rei in this 're-united' part this was between the two of them and from how she appeared near frightened of him, the slightest touch might send her off.
I instead sunk further into the seat I was in and just remained silent, listening in intently as my 'fly on the wall' moment began. I could right away sense that even he knew how she was feeling, judging by the way that he stopped short of coming near her and left plenty of space between the two of them. I felt for him in this moment, yet I felt for her to and now I was glad I didn't alert him to my presence or remind her I was here.
I'd be an odd third part here, "I don't think I've ever seen you afraid of me before." he begins, the words sober yet sad to. "Oh, you haven't. This isn't fear, its distrust." she defends, not one for wanting anyone to think she fears them. I roll my eyes at Rei and her need to deny what she feels even when those who know her best know what she's really feeling. "I deserve that." he admits before continuing with, "Listen I'm sorry, for all of it."
I can hear the genuine remorse and sorrow in his voice. "I know it wasn't me that did what I did to you, to those of you that were there at that time, but I remember it, all of it and I hate myself for it." his voice begins to catch as he continues on, "I hate that I lost so much time with you. Not just back then but now to." I peak over and see that he wants to come forward, to hug her but Rei is so guarded he instinctively knows to let her have her space.
Only someone who knows you well as he knows her would know to stay away when she was feeling as she is right now. I just wish Rei could see what I can see. "I hate that I wasn't strong enough to stop the evil in me time and time again when we fought. I wish I was stronger so I wouldn't have been manipulated as I was, but I wasn't, and I will do whatever in life I have to do to show you that I'm different and that I am YOUR Jadeite again." I barely heard it, but I did, the sound of him getting through to her.
The sound of her heart telling her he was being truthful. I nearly snorted out loud wondering if I had spent too much time with Minako to notice something like that. "I don't care if it takes me every second in this lifetime, I will show you that I'm good again. I want nothing more than for you to have the life you deserve Rei..." with that he leaves off as she walks back inside. She then looks to me as if just remembering that I was here.
"I'm guessing you heard that." she says as I can't help but wipe a stray tear away. "Yeah..." I begin as I say, "I'm not going to tell you how to work this or that I think you should definitely give him a chance, what I will say though is even you know deep down that he was being honest and genuine. My only advice to give is not to let what's happened in the past to overrule your thinking on it now."
She didn't say much to that, so I added, "Had I decided to not forgive Mamoru for anything that he's done wrong to me, cause let's face it he's messed up...several times." she rolls her eyes as we have a small laugh on it, "I'd be miserable and alone." I tell her without any humor. She looks over and sees the dead serious expression on my face. "Yeah, sure I might have found another guy that was great to me. That made me happy..." I surmise telling her what could have been had a made other choices in my life.
"The other guy could have been incredibly sweet and loving towards me like Seiya was, hell it could have been Seiya that I was with. He would have done anything to make me happy and I knew it. You know what though?" I asked her as she responded, "What?" I breathed in, "I couldn't have made him happy cause I wouldn't have been happy. I'd have been going through the motions and not really giving it my all cause in the end I never stopped loving Mamoru." I admit to her.
"Rei I fell for him when I threw my test paper. I just didn't understand it. I didn't want to understand it or him at the time and yet my heart pulled me towards him. Fate helped in the circumstances but in the end my heart and his heart led us together." I smiled upon reflection of the past events, "So yeah Seiya would have made a great boyfriend going into becoming a husband, but I would have made him miserable cause I wouldn't have been able to give him my heart as I had to Mamoru." I could see the shock on her face.
"I couldn't do that to him or to any other guy. It wasn't fair to them or to myself to live a lie just so I could 'move on' or whatever you want to call it. When I forgave Mamoru for his misdeeds, those he did for what he believed was the right reason to do at the time and for the things he had no control over, I wasn't forgiving him for him, I did it for me so I could move on and accept that he was a good loving man who truly loved me." I could see the uncertainty in her eyes as she was more than likely recalling a lot here.
"Besides if you truly saw Jadeite as a threat just now, you'd have attacked him before he even got near the steps and we both know it." she lowered her head down, "Just some food for thought." I tell her as I go back to reading, "Why are you all pushing me towards him?" she demanded in a low voice. I was admittedly confused before I realized that Minako probably said something to her.
"Who said I was pushing? I'm just speaking facts. It's up to you on what you want to do going forward." I feel the conversation has come to a close when she spitefully says, "You want to know a fact?" she stands up now towering over me as her anger begins to win out, "He tried to kill us several times over when we first became senshi and you're willing to forgive that?!" her voice rises.
I remain seated not wanting to get into a yelling match with her. One of us needed to remain calm, "I forgave the sisters under Rubeus's leadership. So did you. So did the rest of the girls and now they're our allies. So, tell me what makes them so different compared to Jadeite?" Rei looks ready to boil over and suddenly I'm wondering if remaining seated was a good idea, "Jadeite was the love of my life. They weren't. He broke my heart and my trust when he was turned evil and attacked us, don't think I'm ever getting over that."
As she goes to storm out, I get up from the seat and ask her, "Rei are you really going to let your stubbornness get in the way of your own acceptance and recovery in this?" she turns around with her own confusion in place now, "You've been holding onto what happened to us years back in your own way, once you found out he was your past love and were granted your memories of that time you've held onto the anger and never let go." she looks away, "I'm not as much of a forgiving person as you are."
She then looked to me, "I don't forgive so easily just to be done with it. You sweep it under the rug and take more hits, I don't do that. I don't forgive so easily." I purse my lips feeling a little insulted by that, "A little insulting but I'll let that go...for now." she rolls her eyes, "Rei I don't let go or forgive just to be done with it, I do it so that I can be free of the anger and live my life again. If I don't, I'm letting that anger control me and personally I have better things to do with my life and my time to give it space it breath and grow."
I watch as her mouth drops open shocked at my words and possibly realizing her own state of how things are for her as I walk out, "By the way, thanks for the cosmo, I'll definitely have some fun with Mamoru on our next date." And with that I leave the temple myself now to let Rei think about what not only Jadeite told her but myself to. She needed to hear it and now she needs to think about what she can do, what she's willing to do and what she needs to do for herself. She though needs some time to herself.
It's not till later that evening that I see Mamoru again. Coming over for family dinner as he is he sneaks in so that he doesn't have to deal with the reporters on front. They've finally decided to stop being so persistent but their still out there, waiting for their chance. As were eating mothers famous beef stew, loaded with carrots, potatoes and beef so tender you don't even need a knife we all begin to chow down.
As were in the middle my dad begins to talk, "I am coming up on the deadline for the article." Mamoru and I both look to him as he says this, "I think we can definitely work out a time frame middle of this week." I suggest as Mamoru agrees, "That works, I have a few papers due at the end of this week so it works." he says as my father suggests, "I was thinking rather than later this week, or mid-week it could be this evening...after dinner." were both a little thrown by it but we don't exactly have a good enough reason to say no so we agree.
After all the last thing I want to say to my father is 'can we do it mid-week so Mamoru and I can take time to have sex?' not going to happen, nor would that go over to well. Once dinner is over with father takes us both to his little office. As we sit down, he puts his phone out to begin recording the interview. I mouth the words 'thank you dad' as he nods with a small smile and begins the questions.
"Okay the first one is, the usual when where and why?" I begin to give him an edited version of what happened to protect Luna and Artemis. I don't need the media tipping off the government or any other research type official out their types who will undoubtedly try to hunt them down, trying to either ransom them or worse, start to experiment on them to figure out who they are, how they can talk among others.
Granted the same thing could have happened to the girls or myself but were more able to fight them off or watch our own backs, Luna and Artemis not as much. They're powerful to don't get me wrong but being in feline form can be a very big limitation. "It started when I was fourteen." I see dad wanting to say something but refrains as he stays silent as I keep going. "I met someone who told me of my destiny."
I think of Luna on that one, "I didn't believe her at first, I mean who would believe it when someone tells you, you've been chosen to save the world. Well, that was till she showed me proof, that was when the first attack at Osapa Jewelry happened." I see my father jotting down notes in his booklet as he asks, "Where?" I smile, "She followed me home to my room." this prompts him to look up from his notebook.
"I could tell she wasn't a threat dad. Or else I would have called for either you or mom." he manages a huff on this but continues to write, "The other girls who fight with you, are you all friends or…?" I smile again, "Friends and sisters in arms." I answer truthfully as he asks a few more questions such as where our powers come from, but we obviously gloss over some facts to protect our identities.
"I think that'll work for now. I'll get to writing." as dad stands up, I do to and give him a hug, "I don't like what you do but I'm working with accepting it." he says as I smile, "Thank you." he then shakes Mamoru's hand as we leave out of the office. "That went better than I thought it would." he says as we head towards my room, having only a little bit of time left before he has to leave for sleep himself and I have to get ready for it to.
As we enter my room being alone in here despite my slightly tired state, I can't help but smirk and go to him. Kissing him as he kisses me passionately back. "Usa...your parents are right below us." yet he doesn't stop kissing me, instead his hands are already beneath the yoga pants I'm wearing as they stretch to allow his hand access to between my legs. I grab for his member and rub on it as he can't help himself now but rub up against me.
Somehow, we make our way back towards the bed as he pulls my yoga pants down, my own hands yanking at his pants to come down to as he rubs up on me. I can feel him getting harder in my hand as I slowly jerk him off. He lifts me into his arms and turns around pushing me up against the wall instead of the bed. I look at him in surprise as he slips into me, my mouth open in a silent oh.
"I don't want your parents to hear the bed bouncing." I nod as my legs wrap around him; my yoga pants are pushed down around my hips but thanks to the material aren't hindering me as a pair of jeans would. He drives home slowly into me. Making sure to keep our noise level down to avoid getting caught and needing to stop. He moves inside of me with such control that even though he's all there is to grasp onto he's all I need to grasp onto.
He digs his fingers into my rear as I hold on for dear life and bite at my lip to avoid screaming for more. I can see it in his eyes that he wants to hear me scream but knows were limited here so instead he whispers into my ear, "You have no idea how hot and amazing you feel to me right now." he nibbles lightly on my ear as he says this making me feel wetter in response making him speed up just a little bit.
"No idea how much I want to feel you pulsing around me all the time..." he grinds his member deeply into me as I pull at him for more. I whisper into his ear, as I enjoy this little dirty talk, we have going on here, "And you have no idea how much I enjoy feeling your thick cock inside of me." my words are enough to make him stutter for a moment as he lets out a low growl. I felt dirty even saying it, but it also felt liberating and judging by the way that he was griding into me harder than before I'd say it was making him as horny as it made me.
"Filling me up...making me wet..." I whispered still as I tried to remember some of the phrases in the magazine I'd read earlier. His pace became a bit faster as he uttered the words, "Keep talking like that you going to make me cum faster than expected." his warning was met with a grin as egged him on, "But Mamoru...when your inside of me, I can feel you caressing all of my inner muscles over and over again..." he lets out a guttural groan makes me clench said inner muscles tighter around him in response.
"That's it." he grabs both of my ankles and in a shocking twist pins them each to the wall behind me as he has near complete control of the pace. I see his muscles bulging out as he starts to slowly but effectively pound his way into my heated core. I watch his thick length going in and out, disappearing inside of me as our pace grows faster, our sounds desperately kept at a minimum so that my parents don't figure it out.
It's tough as I can feel myself wanting to scream from the pleasure, he's inducing inside of me and I can tell that he wants to shout it out to yet there's something strangely hot about needing to stay quiet or else be found out by people below us. So, as I feel my orgasm rising to the surface, I cling to him and feel my muscles begin to contract...hard. He feels it to as he presses himself more urgently into me.
The pace grows more frantic as we do what we can to keep the sounds down, but it becomes futile in effort as my orgasm wracks my body. I begin to spasm out of control, and it takes all of Mamoru's effort as he comes to, to slam his mouth onto mine and swallow my scream as I swallow his massive grunt of pleasure as he sprays my insides with himself. We don't stop for several more minutes.
When we do, we're both left feeling relieved and happy, "I love you Usako..." he whispers as I smile, "I love you to Mamo – chan." I keep my arms wrapped around him as we enjoy the small embrace having disentangled ourselves from being literally connected and my yoga's around back up over my butt. Whatever the future has in store for us we can handle it, we all can, I just know it.