Chapter Thirty Five
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I'm sorry, I really am. There was a time when I did think that I wasn't going to finish this story or any of my others, but I'm finally back, mostly because of the reviews, follows and favourites that I'm still getting after all this time. I'm very very grateful to you all.
So here it is, the next chapter. I hope anyone who is reading this enjoys it. It has not been seen by a beta so any grammar or spelling mistakes are completely my own.
"Hey. Bathrooms free now." I said to Dean lamely, great start Bella.
"I'm good." Dean replied, his face had his mask back on, no trace of emotion breaking through. My heart gave a stutter, I knew I'd acted badly, hell Ellen had shown me that much, but had I really finally pushed Dean too far? Was that it for us? I sure as shit hoped not.
"I'm sorry D." I started, knowing that this uncomfortable silence that was between us would carry on for a while if I didn't. I made my way over to Sam's bed and perched on the side, my body facing Dean.
"You haven't got anything to be sorry about B." Dean said his face still a blank mask, hiding some emotion.
"Yeah I have." At these words I saw the hunter flinch slightly. Though I hadn't the foggiest as to why. "I shouldn't have cut out. I should have stuck around to talk things through. I guess neither of us are any good at that."
Dean gave a weak chuckle. "Yeah. I guess not." He pulled a hand through his short mousy hair before sighing again. "You know I wasn't actually kissing her right? You know I'd never do that to you B?"
"I know, but Dean it threw up a crap loud of stuff for me, and to be honest it hurt like hell." Crap I really didn't want this conversation, but Ellen was right, we did need to talk. Cause otherwise this shit was going to keep happening and in the end it would turn out bad for both of us. I didn't want that to happen, I didn't want our relationship to turn toxic. Mostly we had a good thing going and I wanted that to continue. I needed it to continue.
Dean looked uncomfortable but looked me in the eye showing me the sincerity of his words. "Yeah I can imagine sweetheart. I'd have gone off the deep end if the tables had been reversed so I cant blame you for booking."
"Like I said, it threw up a load of crap for me, I needed to work through."
Deans eyes were guarded again as he spoke; "what's that then?"
"Seeing the hope in your eyes when she said she still loved you, the wish when she said Ben was yours. You want that, don't you?"
Dean cut me off before I could finish, panic making itself known across his handsome features as he reached across and grabbed my hand with both of his massive ones. "No B! You have got to listen to me now okay? I don't want her. We had a fling years ago and then I helped her out when Ben was taken by changelings' a while back. It wasn't anything. Lisa's cool and everything. But B she's nothing compared to you. You are the one I want to be with! You are the one I love sweetheart. Only you."
My heart melted at his words, to hear the normally reserved man I loved speak so freely about his feelings for me, it made me want to cry like the girl I was. Instead I put my free hand on his face and stroked his cheek, loving the feel of his stubble scraping slightly against my flesh. I didn't know how I'd ever be able to get enough of Dean Winchester. "I love you too Dean." I said with real emotion. "But that isn't it." Dear god why couldn't I just let this go. Looking over the man who meant more to me than anything I knew why. I couldn't hold him back, in any way and if he wanted something that I couldn't give him then I had to let him go get it. Even if it meant I was losing him. Because he should have everything that he wanted. Dean deserved it out of everyone. "You wanted Ben. You wanted the family. You want a family. Two point four children, a white picket fence. All that stuff you want it."
I held my hand up as Dean started to protest. I knew him too well. "Please don't lie D, I could see it. I'm not ready for that Dean and I'm not sure if I'll ever be ready."
"B, I don't care. I don't want anything without you sweetheart. If I were to ever have kids screaming around my ankles I'd want them to be yours. If I were to ever settle down I'd want it to be with you. However right now we've got a apocalypse on our hands sweetheart and to be honest that stuff is the furthest thing from my mind."
Deans eyes took filled with love, a look I'd been luckily enough to be shown a lot since we reunited. "If you decide you never ever want kids then fine. That's fine. Its you I want sweetheart. You are enough for me."
I smiled the widest I had for a long while, I was enough for this amazing man. The feelings that flew through me filled my heart and my chest, emotion so strong I didn't know how my body was keeping then in. "I love you Dean Winchester." I declared before leaning the short distance over the beds and crashing my lips into Deans.
His hands caught me round the waist and pulled me onto his lap as he kissed me back with as much passion and want as I was kissing him.
My hands dug into his arms, my legs wrapping around his waist. I gasped as one of his hands grabbed my ass and the other tangled in my still damp hair.
My hips bucked against Deans as the fire he ignited burnt a scorching path through my body. I was desperate to feel him, to touch him, to satisfy him.
Dean pulled my shirt off in a practiced fluid motion my hands scrambling to rip off his clothes as fast as I could.
Moments later and we were both naked. Dean pulled my leg up to wrap around his thigh before pushing into me. Filling me with his length.
"Dean!" I yelled out as my man let out a gasp of his own. I scratched at his back, trying to find purchase as he thrust into me, a slow and steady rhythm that was sweet torture.
Dean kissed me slowly, his lips matching the speed of his hips. I looked into his amazing green eyes and gasped again. Everything but the feel of him, the noise of his sweet breaths, the weight of him, disappearing. All I was focused on was how the man above me was so slowly and sweetly making love to me. Our hands moved so they were conjoined above our heads. I moved my hips in sync with his. My breathing becoming heavier as I built.
Dean kissed me sweetly again, as he thrust ever so slightly faster, I pushed upwards to join him with my own hips, needing just that little bit more.
"D…!" I whispered as the fire burnt hotter, as I was edging nearer and nearer my release.
"That's it B, cum for me sweetheart." His silky voice whispering into my ear was my undoing.
My hips bucked up, my back arched and I screamed out my lovers name as I had the hardest orgasm I'd ever had around Deans length. "Dean!"
"Oh God, yes Bella!" Deans hips started a harder, faster rhythm as my climax still gripped me. I could feel his coming as well, feel the tension in his back and his legs.
"Oh fuck! Oh Dean! Dean!" I couldn't help myself from screaming as he hit the sweet spot inside of me that had my cuming again.
"Bella!" Dean gasped as he finished inside of me the same time I reached my second peak. He collapsed on top of me hot and sweaty, perfect.
"Wow." I managed to say after a minute or two my heart rate slowing again.
"Yeah." Dean agreed rolling off of me only to pull me onto his chest. His hands pushed my hair from my face before another tender kiss was bestowed upon my lips. "I love you sweetheart."
"I love you too D." I smiled back.
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After we both had another quick shower we climbed into the Impala and headed back towards the Campbell property. It was time to face my dad and Bobby, both whom I was sure were gonna be pissed at me.
Though Dean sure as heck had taken my mind off of them with his lecturing me regarding my theft of his precious car.
"I mean c'mon B I know you were mad and all but now I've got to find a new…" Dean droned on about how he was going to have to replace this, that and the other, how parts weren't cheap and that they were rare. I rolled my eyes while holding back a smirk. Glad to be back with him. Mad at myself for doubting how much Dean actually cared for me.
When we pulled up next to the other cars I started to feel a bit nervous. I wondered how Charlie was going to be. On one hand he might understand my need for getting away and blowing off some steam on the other he was my dad and he was probably pissed that I took off without telling anyone.
Dean must have sensed my nerves because he pulled me into a tight hug and kissed the top of my head before muttering "c'mon B" and leading me by the hand to the trap door in the shed.
We climbed down the ladder, Dean going first, and reached the bottom to be greeted by Bobby and Sam.
"Finally decided to grace us with your presence have you?" Bobby growled at me, his beard unsuccessfully hiding a smirk.
"Sorry Bobby, just had a few things to sort through." I smiled at the aged hunter while feeling slightly guilty.
"You good?" Sam asked me with a quick glance at his brother.
"Oh I am so good." Dean said with a leer, which earnt him a smack on the arm from me.
"We're good thanks Sammy." I smiled while trying to smother the giggle I wanted to let out at the look of disgust on Sam's face. "Where are Ellen and dad?" I asked.
"In the basement, Ellen's trying to crack the safe, apparently she's secretly part of Oceans Eleven." Sam grinned.
"I thought that was just a prop to hide the door behind?" I asked taking a seat in one of the comfy armchairs my feet slung over the arm.
"Ellen seems to think not. Any way don't get too comfortable girl. I want you looking through that shelf there." Bobby pointed to a stack of books behind me, all put on at seemingly random, it was driving my OCD mad. "And you boy, you can go through that stack there." He pointed at one the other side if the room. Guess that was Bobby's way of punishing Dean and I. Sending us to different parts of the room. "And there's no need to be jabbering to each other, ya hear?"
I chuckled as I got up and grabbed three books at random off my delegated shelf. Maybe I could tidy them up in the process of researching. "You sound like a school teacher Bobby."
"I pity the kids Bobby'd teach." Dean shot out.
"Hey I managed to teach you and your fool brother didn't I?" Bobby responded.
"Yeah and look how they turned out." I couldn't help myself.
"Hey!" Came back the witty response from the Winchesters. Bobby and I laughed as we both opened the cover of our respective books. Dean shot me a wink as he put his pile of books on the floor opposite me and got to work.
so there it is, I'd love to know what you all tthink! I have already started writing the next chapter which i'm loving doing and I think I have an idea of when and where I'm going to finish this story. I'm aiming to post a chapter a week any more and I won't live up to expectations and I'll feel bad. Until next time Tametiger x