DISCLAIMER: I DONT OWN ANYTHING TO DO WITH THIS STORY; CHARACTERS OR OTHERWISE -THIS IS A RE-IMAGINATION OF AN EXISTING WORLD - EVERYTHING BELONGS TO A MRS STEPHENIE MEYER

***This is my very first fan fiction story and also my very first attempt at creative writing. I am in every sense an amateur and all comments, guidance, and constructive criticism are welcome***

"Hey! Sorry I'm late I overslept cause I had restless sleep, then this morning I zoned out in the shower, I think I stubbed my toe on the stairs. Man! It hurts, it's always that same damn step you know? Well, no.. you wouldn't actually. Anyways how was your night, anything exciting happen? The weather is supposed to be nice today, are you going hunting? If you have to I don't mind studying on my own, I'm not that worried about our test." I didn't want to stop talking but I had nothing more to blab on about, I wasn't usually this talkative but I wasn't sure I was ready to hear what he had to say.

"Bella" Edward laughed " Aren't you going to ask where I went last night?" Edward added, slightly confused by my endless babbling.

"Oh yeah…I missed you!" I lied trying to back peddle. I had forgotten he slept there last night, it seemed so long ago, then I remembered my initial dream and that mystery women and a familiar fire lit in the pit of my stomach.

"It was nothing, you just seemed chilled so I thought I would take my frosty body elsewhere, I am sorry to hear you had rough sleep. I knew I should have come back to check on you. Is everything okay?

"Yeah!" I responded a little too enthusiastically relieved that Edward resisted his instincts. "Just a weird dream about…Phoenix but its nothing I feel better now."

"Good" Edward looked at me and put his hand on mine and gently squeezed it. "You can tell me about it if you want"

"Maybe later " I responded and smiled with a forced smile.

"Is everything okay Bella? You seem oddly…chipper for 8:10 in the morning"

"Oh really? I guess so, maybe I just have a lot to say this morning. You didn't answer me, are you going hunting?"

"It sounds more like you have a lot you don't want to say. What's going on? Do I need to be worried?"

I laughed nervously. He wasn't helping his cause, his suspiciousness was reminding me of how badly I wanted to see Jacob again, and how difficult that may be to manage. I guess I better try the honest route. " Well… I guess there is something I'd like to ask…no, rather tell."

"Go on" Edward replied

"I'm going down to La Push this week," I said confidently.

"Bella, why do we have to keep having this same discussion? It's not safe and it's not an option" Edward retorted matter of factly.

"Not safe? Edward, you are not my supervisor and it's really important to me"

"More important than your well being?"

"More important than your pride! Jacob has been my friend since I was a kid, he did a lot for me while you were gone and he deserves a thank you…in person…on mine and his terms, not your terms"

"I'm sorry Bella, I've almost lost you once and I won't have it again. You're reckless when you're around him. Motorcycles, cliff jumping. He's a bad influence and besides, he's not answering your calls and your last encounter was hostile. He doesn't want to see you, Bella, it's time to let him move on."

"I guess you make a good point" I responded sweetly "I guess I just miss him. It would probably be torture for him anyways" Edward smiled triumphantly. Little did he know he had failed his first test. I knew he wasn't being honest about Jacob's feelings towards me. If he wasn't going, to be honest, and respect my feelings, then I may just have to give him a taste of his own medicine. I would have to see Jake in secret.

My first class was with Edward. It was English, I sat beside him. The first 15 minutes of class were spent reading a short story. I didn't look at it once I spent the whole time staring at Edward. He diligently read it through I knew he had probably read it before. As I watched him I noticed his steady breathing, he shifted his weight in the small desk, He reached up and scratched his shoulder and as I watched him I noticed all these things were an act.

He wasn't breathing out of necessity, he wasn't itchy, he wasn't stiff all these things were part of his attempts to look as human as possible. I never really noticed before but now I couldn't help but notice. As I watched him I thought about how he could read every mind in that room. It was a hard concept to grasp. Was he paying attention to anyone in particular? I always thought that Edward knew so little about the others in the school because he didn't eat with them or talk with them and generally kept to himself…with the exception of me. But he knew everyone in that room better than I did, probably better than their own best friends did. He knew every question before it was asked he knew every answer before it was given, he was in his secret world that no one could be apart of. In all my conversations with Edward, I couldn't remember if Edward had ever put this gift to use. I mean he always talked of it as being such a burden but everything has its silver lining. He would make a wonderful teacher since he would know where the student was having difficulties. Did he ever help Carlisle with diagnosis? He would know of any symptoms the patient wasn't sharing. What about counseling? As far as I knew Edward had grudgingly done the high school college thing over and over again but why? He had so much potential. Sure physically he was seventeen but he could pass for older, he acted so mature people would have no choice except to believe him. Edward made it no secret he thought he was a monster and that being a vampire was horrendous. But he had these beautiful gifts, yet why did he see them as such burdens. I was not naïve to the obvious downsides; a craving for human blood, a secret so sacred your life was the price for revealing it, but Edward had learned so much control and become so good at hiding their secret it was like second nature. The bell broke my intense concentration.

Our next class was apart I was a little relieved that I didn't have to keep up the charade that everything was totally fine when it was not. Maybe I was just panicking. Edward had asked something huge from me and it had freaked me out. I wasn't ready to get married not in the least, but I guess I could understand why he asked. Becoming a vampire would be just as much of a life long commitment if not more. Jacob's words rang through my head.

"I'm gone...there's no compromise gone… forever... I won't live my whole life with a broken heart."

It felt like my heart was torn in half. I couldn't do that I don't think I can face an eternity without my sun. These last couple of weeks were hard enough. I loved Jacob too much to just let him go. I tried to think of a life without him, knowing he was still around somewhere mending his broken heart, finding that girl in the kitchen. I wanted it to be me I wanted to mend his broken heart. Before last night I just figured that Jacob and I would sort out our differences and he and Edward would learn to get along but he was right, I couldn't ask him to live like that.

It must be so hard for him to see me with someone like that. When I thought of my hatred towards the girl in my dream I imagined that must be how Jacob was feeling whenever he saw us together; whenever he saw Edward climb into my window. My mind shifted to another thought. Did Edward ever see Jake out there? He must of! Jake was sleeping in the same area in the woods that Edward ran through every night to get to my place. If he had not seen him he would have at least smelt or heard him. Edward would know the sort of pain he was in and he never said anything about it. Was he that proud? He couldn't inform me that my best friend was devastated, he knew how much Jacob meant to me he said it himself. How could I ask him about it without telling him the whole story? I needed to see Jacob, he would have answers. I needed to talk to him, last night's exchange wasn't enough but how could I get to him. I couldn't go after school since I worked, maybe he'd be there again tonight, maybe she'd wait for me outside. I'd call him and tell him to meet me tonight. Would Edward be with me tonight? I shouldn't have told him about my dreams he'll want to stay with me now he was worried. I looked up at the clock another 15 minutes in class and I haven't even started working on the assignment that was handed out. I rushed to get through it, I didn't want homework on top of studying. When the bell rang I shoved my books in my locker and began walking to the cafeteria. I got a tray and grabbed some food and went to sit in my usual place.

"Hey Bella"

"Hey Mike"

"Where is Edward?"

" Oh, uhhh" that was strange I had been so lost in trying to come up with a plan that I hadn't noticed he didn't meet me at my locker. "I don't know actually, talking with a teacher maybe?"

"Weird you guys are usually attached at the hip, literally like attached at the Hi ..cough ow!." Angela had elbowed Mike in the side

"The weather looks like its clearing up outside maybe he and the Cullens left school early" Angela chimed in.

I looked outside, the sun was trying to make an appearance as the last of the clouds were clearing the sky.

"Oh! Yeah probably yeah you're right." I lied I had no idea where he was and I didn't think he would leave without telling me, then again the weather had changed quite suddenly and maybe this was the opportunity I had been looking for.

"Hey, Bella did you hear we went down to La Push this weekend?" Jessica asked. I knew this unusually friendly banter must have a motive.

"Oh yeah how was that?" I answered not wanting an answer. I did know because I had been invited but Edward had answered no for both of us.

"It was great, we ran into your friend Jake, he said he hadn't seen you in a while he sounded a bit bitter. Did you guys get in a fight or something? Or is he just jealous of Cullen?" She laughed gesturing over to his still empty seat with her thumb and taking a bite out of her sandwich. Please, someone, save me from this conversation I thought. I didn't want to share any of this information with the people around me least of all Jessica. I'm not ready for this. What If I started crying or something right here in the cafeteria?

"Yeah Probably" Mike added when he noticed I hadn't quite come up with an answer "I saw you guys together you were pretty close I could see how he could be a little miffed at Edward."

"I don't know why he would be jealous I mean sure it's well… Edward but I've got to hand it to him. Jake's looking pretty good himself lately, I almost fell over when he told me his age." Jessica added watching mine and Mike's expressions carefully.

I resisted my sudden urge to leap across the table and start a catfight right here in the middle of the cafeteria. Why were they talking about me like I wasn't even here? It made me sick to think of Jessica and Jacob talking, Jessica flirting obviously and Jacob loving every second of it. Then I noticed them all staring at me blankly expecting a response on this ridiculous discussion.

"Oh umm …yeah I guess we just drifted apart, still friends though" I sounded more confident than I was.

"Well in that case" Jessica laughed wiggling her eyebrows suggestively towards Lauren who returned the look. The catfight was becoming real possibility I wanted to just get up and walk away but I figured that would only make things worse and satisfy Jessica even more. Angela shot them both a severe look then glanced back at me.

"I'm sorry to hear that Bella," Angela said pretending that Jessica hadn't said anything. "I guess I was wrong about the Cullens." She added, "There's Alice!" Angela concluded. I spun around relieved at her excellent timing. Then I saw her face, and the relief disappeared. She grabbed me by my arm "Bella?" she said in a very obviously artificially sweet voice " can we go somewhere and talk for a minute?"

"Sure no problem" I grabbed my stuff, making no intention of coming back to this dreadful conversation. Certain it would continue as soon as I left.

"What is it?" I asked

"Oh nothing serious" she responded very conscious of our audience. She waved politely at their curious faces.

We walked out of the cafeteria and she steered me into an abandoned classroom.

"What's going on Bella?"

"What do you mean what's going on?" I responded nervously and suddenly more curious of Edwards whereabouts

"I can't see your future anymore Bella, That's what's going on!"