Dear Diary
Me and Santana have been together for about two weeks. I broke up with Sam after Santana came back and fought for me, of course she had to dump her girlfriend to. I'm so happy right now and I really think my life is starting to slowly come back together. Santana quit collage and is living with her mum and dad she say's she's waiting until after I graduate before doing anything with her life. Part of me thinks she's being so sweet and romantic the other half of me thinks I'm being selfish I should be pushing her towards her dreams in New York. I know it's gonna make us long distance again but I love Santana and I want her to follow her dreams. Diary I think tomorrow I'm gonna have this conversation with her. I gotta go I'm meeting Santana for dinner ;) PS - LT stop smoking.
The next day Santana and Brittany are sitting in the choir room at lunch. Santana's playing with Brittany's hands, she keeps leaning down to kiss them and carefully nipping at the skin. The girl's haven't talked since they entered the room, they've communicated through touch. Brittany leans in and kisses Santana slowly but with loads of passion, the kiss last several minuets. The dancer pulls back first resting her head against Santana's.
"San, we need to talk about something", the dancer says. She can feel Santana stiffen at the words, the latina slowly pulls back so she's looking directly at the blonde.
"Britt"? She says. Brittany can tell with the way say said her name Santana is scared and already preparing herself for the worst. Brittany knowns if she hears something she doesn't want to hear her walls will go back up.
"Santana I love you with everything I am and hope to be but sweetie I will not let you waste a year of your life waiting for me to graduate. I want you to go to New York and chase your dreams". Brittany says stroking the tanned skin with her thumb.
"no, Britt I wont leave you again. I done it one and look where it got us. We broke up and you dated trouty and I dated some chick from collage. No I wont have it". Santana replies tears forming in her eyes already.
"Santana, I'm telling you something I will never be able to be happy with us fully until you're living your dream, I'm holding you back. I want you to do this for me and yourself. Do it for us babe. Show everyone that our relationship can stand anything. Show them that long distance tore us apart one and that it will never do it again. Prove all the hater wrong San, please". Brittany argued back. Although she wanted to push her girlfriend to live her dreams the conversation wasn't any less painful for her.
Santana was crying, she flung herself into Brittany and just cried. The blonde did the one thing she knew would work. She just held her and let her cry, she placed kisses on her head and mumbled soothing words into her ears, Brittany knew when Santana was ready to talk she would. Twenty minuets later Santana had stoped crying and was nested into the blonde's neck. She sat up and took the pale hands in her own.
"babe, I'm so scared that we're gonna lose us again. Britt I lost you one and it nearly killed me, I can't go though it again. Britt what happens if I go and I make it and I can't get home as often? What will happen with us? I just can't lose you again Britt, I can't I wont". Santana sobbed. Brittany was crying now to, she had no idea that Santana was thinking about all this.
"baby, look nobody said it was easy, it was never said that we would just be together and see each other at this time and that. I knew that and you did to. San our relationship has never been easy, even when we could see each other everyday. We fought by all these battles to be together and yes we got knocked down once and it took us a while to get back up but we're together we're going strong. I love you Santana and yes it's going to be tough but I'll visit you every weekend and we can talk on the phone all the time. Santana all you need to know is where ever you are I'll be right here waiting for you". Brittany said before they kissed each other. Brittany looked Santana right in the eye and mouthed this is for you before she pulled away and got up to sing.
Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain.
Brittany is looking up singing to Santana she knowns the lyrics are not the most pleasant to sing but the words really hit home for her. They're so true.
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Santana can't help but cry the lyrics of the song sum up everything she's afraid of, but she has to wonder why Brittany has chosen this song to sing.
Where ever you go
What ever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
What ever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Brittany takes Santana's hand in her own, she knows the song is not a typically happy son but she means every word. She wants Santana to chance her dream even if it means not seeing her all the time like she's so used to.
I took for granted, all the times
That I thought would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Brittany makes Santana sit on her lap, the latina cuddles into her girlfriend and cries while the dancer keeps singing. Brittany keeps her arms wrapped around Santana like if she were to let go the girl on her lap would disappear.
Oh, can't you see it baby
You got me goin' crazy
Santana lets out a little chuckle and Brittany can't help but smile.
Where ever you go
What ever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
What ever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
Brittany knows she's crying she can feel the wetness on here cheeks but she doesn't care. The only thing that matters is Santana, Santana is still nested into Brittany but she's looking up half crying half smiling at the blonde.
I wonder how we can survive this romance
But in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance
Brittany pulls Santana up and they two girls waltz around to the piano music, they're bodies as close as possible. Santana is smiling, so it Brittany. Both girls still have tears falling down their cheeks but the know it's happy tears.
Oh can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' crazy
Brittany bops Santana on the nose making the smaller girl scrunch her nose.
Where ever you go
What ever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
The music is coming to an end, the dancer stops dancing and looks her girlfriend right in the eye.
Waiting for you.
"Britt that was so beautiful", Santana says before kissing her girlfriend. "Thankyou".
"thanks San, now I mean every word of that song. We may be apart and yes it's a risk and a test on our relationship but I believe we can make it. And as always I will be right here waiting for you". Brittany says before she is being attacked by Santana. The girls happily sit and make out in the choir room.
I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter. This one is one of my favourite ideas I've had for a Brittana scene. In case you don't know the song was Right here waiting for you by Richard Marx.