**Chapter 7 - I Don't Care**
Bella POV
I stood there motionless staring at the large grey wolf.
"Leah?" I asked stepping towards her.
The wolf looked towards me and raked its eyes over me, but when its eyes met mine everything froze.
Me and Leah walking along the beach laughing, holding hands, splashing each other with water, standing at an altar, both in dresses, sitting on a porch watching our kids playing in the yard…
I was brought out of my thoughts when I heard a
"No way."
"Impossible."
"Sam?"
I look up at my wolf who was whimpering quietly in front of me, I stepped towards her.
"Leah? Sweetheart, I need you to calm down okay? Please?"
I reached for her and ran my fingers through her fur I scratched behind her ear and she made a purring sound.
"Oh, is the big bad wolf purring like a cat?" I teased the large wolf.
I felt the wolf shimmer and then there stood a very naked Leah. I took off my jacket and handed it to her, our hands brush against each other and I felt an electric shock which made Leah and I both gasp.
Being so close to Leah felt right, I stood on my toes and wrapped my arms around her neck and hugged her tightly, I felt her wrap her arms around me,
holding me close.
"Leah, step away from Bella"
I felt Leah tense as she started shaking.
"No" she said to Sam without even looking at him, hold me tighter.
I looked up and saw Sam square his shoulders, standing to his full height
"Leah, back off. NOW!" Sam ordered
Leah pulled herself away from me and took several steps back. I stood frozen as I watched Leah walk towards Sam with her head down.
"It's time for you to leave Bella" Sam said to me.
He nodded his head to the forest and everyone disappeared leaving me standing there alone. My breath hitched as that familiar word found its way back into my head and into my heart.
Alone.
Pain.
I looked up and saw Sam still standing there
"You are to tell no one of what you've seen today, leave now and don't come back."
With that he turned and ran into the same woods my Leah disappeared in moments ago.
I don't know how I ended up in my truck, or how I ended up home, but I found myself in the same place as before except its different, this hurt so much more. Nothing could have readied me for this emptiness, this heart wrenching pain I felt in my chest. I dug into my pocket and pulled out my razor, laid it on my bed and stared at it.
Did I need to do this?
Did I need to feel more pain than what i'm feeling already?
I felt myself get scared, its been so long, I forgot what it felt like.
I decided I didn't need to, not yet. I put the razor on my nightstand and clicked off the light and fell into a fitful sleep.
I woke up the next morning determined to not let this ache in my chest get the best of me, I wasn't gonna let myself be dragged back down to that dark place.
I did my morning routine and jumped in my truck and drove to the local store and bought black hair dye. I had to go back to school soon, but I wasn't gonna be the girl they all remember, i'm different.
Hours later I was sporting my new black hair with pink tips, skinnys with rips in them, an off the shoulder shirt and combat boots, when a thought suddenly hit me, didn't the Cullen's have money for me to go to college? After that thought crossed my mind I heard a ringtone, I followed the sound to my closet and found an iPhone and there was a text and an envelope.
Bella,
I opened up your own back account, in case you needed anything, i'm sorry for the way I left, I hope one day you can forgive me.
Love always,
Alice
I stood frozen in place. I opened the envelope and found a black credit card, a cell phone changer and letters from everyone, everyone except Edward.
I couldn't believe this was happening, was this their goodbye?
Was this them trying to clear their guilty conscience?
I walked out of my room and downstairs, I stared at my truck and realized that wasn't me anymore, i'm not that same girl. I stared at my new credit card and back at my truck and decided I needed a new car. I jumped into my rust bucket and drove to the local dealer, before I could get one foot out the door the car salesman was already next to me. He is short and has brown curly hair.
"Um hello?" I said awkwardly.
The man straighten to his full height, and stuck out his hand
"Hello I'm Thomas"
I stepped out of my truck, closed the door and shook his hand
"Bella" I replied back.
"What can I do for you today?" he asked eagerly
I stood there for a moment, I drove here without the slightest idea of what i want. All i do know is, i want to make a statement.
"I want to replace this piece of junk" i said as i kicked the tire of my truck
Thomas looked at my truck and chuckled
"That is the crappiest truck I've ever seen"
I couldn't help but laugh with him, it was true, the truck was junk and I was more than glad to get rid of it.
"If you would follow me, I think I can find something more…your taste" he said giving me a once over.
I followed the man to a black Mazda 6 with dark tinted windows.
I looked at the car, but it wasn't clicking for me, I shook my head and Thomas walked to a different car it was a dark blue Ford Mustang, this one was a lot nicer than the last but something still wasn't clicking.
I looked around and it caught my eye, in the way back there it was, a pink on black Suzuki GSX-600.
Thomas followed my eyes and smiled.
"If you would follow me"
He started walking toward the bike and I couldn't help but marvel on how amazing it looked. He stopped in front of the bike.
"Did this catch your fancy?" he said with a smile
I nodded my head and Thomas clapped.
"Excellent now lets talk about how much you're willing to pay"
I thought about it for a moment, I had a black credit card, with god knows how much on it. So I answered how i normally would.
"The lowest price possible"
An hour later with my bike loaded up into the bed of my truck I drove to the Black's. I knocked on the door and Billy answered.
"Bella? Um Jacob isn't in"
I laughed at him.
"Who said I was looking for Jacob? I just came to return the truck"
Billy seemed surprised but asked
"What's wrong with it?"
I shook my head.
"Nothing, I'm just returning it I don't need nor want it anymore" i answered
I handed him the keys and the registration/lease, and walked to the truck, pulled the tailgate down and wheeled my bike carefully off.
"Bella? How did you get that?" I heard Billy asked surprised
I smiled at him
"A gift from the Cullens" i said and gave him a mischivious
I climbed on my bike, started it and rode off. When I got home I downloaded music on my new phone, put on the headphones and started blasting music
Your magic white rabbit
Has left it's writing on the wall
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole
You can't fix your broken promise
Our ties have come undone
I will not be used to be battered and abused
It's the reason why I choose to cut my losses
Your lies fool no one
Your magic white rabbit
Your white room straight jacket
Your magic white rabbit
Has left it's writing on the wall
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole
We're falling and we're losing control
Your pulling us and dragging us down this dead end road
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole
You can't offer your poison to me
In your kingdom of filth
White Rabbit
Straight jacket
Your magic white rabbit
Has left it's writing on the wall
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole
We're falling and we're losing control
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole
I won't be pushed aside
I will be heard
I will get what I want
What I deserve
I won't be pushed aside
I will be heard
I will get what I want
What I deserve
We're falling and we're losing control
Your pulling us and dragging us down this dead end road
Your magic white rabbit
Has left it's writing on the wall
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole
We're falling and we're losing control
Your pulling us and dragging us down this dead end road
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole
Your magic white rabbit
Has left it's writing on the wall
We follow like Alice
And just keep diving down the hole
Diving down the hole!
When the song ended I felt free, care free to be exact, I had my whole life ahead of me and I wasn't going to waste it missing people. I was gonna move on and be my own person. With that thought I dozed off into a dreamless sleep.
A/N - So I've been thinking, I started this from the new moon timeline, I was wondering how you would feel if I wrote a whole series? Like start from the twilight timeline and so on...
Review and tell me what you think!
-NWP